Chapter 1

Terror

Darkness

Pain

Blood.

Misaki woke up panting, with an elevated heartrate, taking huge gulps of air as if something prevented him from breathing.

Something indeed had. A cold, dark memory from when he was child, a mere age of 9, where he first experienced the truth and reality behind this world. He was sweating profusely, confused, felt as if he was stuck in that horrible cage of suffering from which there was no escape.

He relaxed as soon as he felt the warmth of his beloved, his boyfriend, Usami Akihiko. There he lay beside Misaki, sleeping blissfully, unaware of what Misaki felt. Gazing upon his oh-so-beautiful face, Misaki felt his heart rate return to normal. He lied back down and moved closer to Akihiko who felt his presence and put an arm around him making Misaki feel safe and protected and away from harm.

It had been a few months since Misaki and Akihiko started dating. They did everything together- ate together, slept together and made out with each other. Akihiko's profession allowed him to stay at home, something for which Misaki was incredibly grateful for.

"Usagi-san, dinner!"

"Yeah I'm coming down!", yelled Akihiko.

They were seated on the dining table eating in pleasant silence making no efforts in engaging in small talk. Soon after they were watching TV, Misaki all snuggled up in Akihiko's lap with Akihiko's strong arms around Misaki, eating strawberry ice-cream. Akihiko slowly turned Misaki's face towards his and pulled him a little higher. Eyes, similar to that of purple amethyst, were locked into eyes that rivalled the green of an emerald. Akihiko placed his lips onto Misaki's soft lips and gently nibbled on them. As if asking for permission, Akihiko probed his hot, slippery tongue into the young brunette's mouth and the younger man allowing him to do so. Akihiko's tongue explored every nook and cranny of the boy's mouth eliciting the sweetest of moans from him and his hands started wandering below his neck. His hand stopped at Misaki's lower back, slowly pushing into his pants.

Misaki's eyes opened suddenly, feeling slight discomfort but promised himself it was nothing and tried letting Akihiko what he will with his body. He scrunched up his eyes real tight but gave up in the end.

"NO!" The green eyed brunette screamed, pushing Akihiko away from him and stood up making his way to the kitchen.

"Misaki? What happened? Did I do something to displease you?" Akihiko asked genuinely worried at Misaki's sudden outburst of anger. This had happened a couple of times now. Every time he asked, Misaki would brush it off saying its nothing.

"Not-"

"Don't tell me its nothing! You've been acting this way ever since we started dating. What's the matter? Why won't you let me help you? Why wont you let me into your heart, share your problems with me? Am I that untrustworthy?!" Akihiko screamed.

"No, its not that Usagi-san. I… I just-"Misaki trailed off.

"You just what?"

Misaki looked up surprised, gave Akihiko an apologetic look and ran upstairs to his bedroom and flopped himself onto the bed.

Akihiko sat back down on the sofa and sighed heavily. He thought that maybe Misaki was scared. Scared of being in a gay relationship, being in a relationship with his brother's best friend but above all, scared of accepting his sexuality.

"He probably needs more time." Reasoned Akihiko. He got up, switched of the TV and went back to his room feeling a little guilty of screaming at Misaki but told himself not to apologize, at least not until morning.

Akihiko heard a loud scream come from Misaki's bedroom, loud enough to awaken the tired author.

He ran towards Misaki's room and saw the boy crying, throwing his arms and legs all around the place and realized at once that the boy was having a nightmare. He inched closer to Misaki and heard him mutter something in his sleep.

"Please don't…. I'm sorry."

Akihiko took the trembling boy and held him in his arms comforting him, providing him warmth.

"Shh…It's okay Misaki, I'm here. There's nothing that can hurt you. Shh…"

The boy slowly calmed down and relaxed, his body going limp in Akihiko's hand. He took a deep breath and lied down with Misaki in his bed holding him close to his chest and slowly fell asleep.

TBC.