Red: No, I do not own any part of Dragonball Z *sniff* but this story is mine! Dragonball Z and all the characters belong to Funimation™. Only Gojita is mine!

Warning

This is yaoi based. No, you won't see any of your favourite characters bouncing on top of each other like rabbits on heat, but it's more of the bondage thing. Heart to heart…NOT skin to skin (although, the only skin and skin contact is when they're fighting…just putting that up for all those *technical* bakas.)!

A Permanent Fusion A Different Gojita

Goku lay back, sweat trickling down the side of his forehead. The suns rays streaked through the thick canopy of the forest, shining on both father and daughter. Goku took a few more deep breathes, calming himself from the before endured pain. He looked down to the small creature in his arms. At that moment in time, she wasn't exactly the prettiest in the whole world, but Goku knew that after a good wash, she'd definitely be the most beautiful in the entire universe! He smiled as a tear of joy and fatherly pride trickled down the side of his cheek. After he had recuperated from the ordeal, he stood up and took her to the river to clean. The river water was quite cold, and she wailed a little bit. But once Goku pulled her close to him, she calmed and let him clean her of the blood and amnion. But after the wash, she began to scream uncontrollably. Goku panicked, not knowing what to do until he remembered what Chichi did when she gave birth to Gohan.

"Oh, you must be hungry." He cooed at the child who had now started whimpering. "Okay…let's go get you something to eat."

He knew that babies had no teeth to eat solid foods, so he instead went into the nearby town. After visiting a clinic and getting all the things he required, they let him back out with his daughter. Back in the forest, in Goku's Capsule house, Goku prepared all the things.

"Okay, there's the bottle, milk and baby diapers." He said aloud as she lay on the sofa. Wondering if she had fallen asleep, he walked over and looked over her. Onyx eyes met liquid ink, and she began to giggle. Goku smiled.

"Perfect…" he said softly. She reached up with her hands, reaching for the face that was hovering inches away from hers. Goku lowered his head and allowed her to feel his face with her small and soft hands. She reached up even higher and tugged at his hair. "Hey! Ouch!" he yelped at the hard tug. She let go and giggled some more. Goku drew back and smiled at her. "Little devil!"

Goku fixed her a bottle and fed her. As clumsy as his friends thought he was, truth was that Goku wasn't always clumsy. When it came to people depending on him, he'd do everything right. She looked up at him as he tried to feed her.

"Come on, its food!" But she wouldn't take it. She frowned at him. "Come on…uh…umm…gosh, I didn't give you a name, did I?" She screamed in reply. "I'll take that as a yes!" he yelped as he put his hands to his ears. Goku looked down at her and thought only for a second. "Okay…your name is…Gojita." Gojita blurbed and spat a bit before smiling up happily at Goku. "Okay, now drink up…" she frowned at him again. "Gojita." She took the bottle and began to suck.

That night, Goku lay back in his bed with chibi Gojita lying next to him. She was so small and petit that she fit perfectly in Goku's arms. He smiled as he watched her sleep, all the while thinking of how pretty she was and how pretty she was going to be. But then he remembered his family back home. How was he going to tell them who she was? How was he going to tell them what really happened? How was he going to tell him…? Goku bit back the tears and all those sad emotions that were threatening to overtake him. How could he? How could he leave the one he loved? But he knew that he wouldn't want anything to do with him anymore, as Goku left him.

"But it was for a good reason…" he mumbled aloud. What was he going to do? He knew he couldn't stay out here for the rest of his life? They'd find him and they'd find out! What if he could take her home with him? "No, that's too complicated." He muttered aloud again. They'd get suspicious and the truth will be dragged out. "Oooh…what am I gonna do?" he whined as hot tears sprung to his eyes. He had to go home, he had to go back to his family and friends, back to where his life was! But, he didn't want to leave Gojita! He wanted to be there when she took her first step, said her first word…he wanted to be her tousan!

"Maybe…maybe I can hold out for a month." He sniffed, wiping away the tears. "I mean, I overheard Vegeta saying that us Saiyans who reach Super Saiyan live forever. And," he sniffed again, comforting himself. "Gojita is a full blooded Saiyan, and he also said that full blooded Saiyan babies develop at a much faster rate than ningens." He sniffed again. "Maybe…maybe she'll have said her first word before then, and taken her first step…" Goku's speech was drowned when Gojita began to whimper. Goku quickly shut up and cleared his mind of leaving his precious. Gojita calmed down again and slept silently. Goku knew that all full-blooded Saiyans have a psychic link and eternal bond with their offspring, so Gojita would react to all that. He sighed as he let her snuggle up closer to him, wrapping her tail around his thick wrist and burying her face in his hair.

If he hadn't felt so tired from all that crying, her gentle breathing in his hair might've made him start again.

~One month later~

Goku looked nervously around the Capsule house before looking down at Gojita who was crawling on the floor, wrestling with the teddy bear he had given her. She growled and hit it with her fists as though it was an enemy. Goku could not help but smile.

"You are just like Vegeta said you would be!" he chuckled as he picked her up. She immediately turned her attention to the burly Saiyan who was holding her. She muttered a few nonsense words before blowing spit bubbles. Goku smiled at her as he thought of what he knew he had to do. Gojita could sense his awkwardness and did what she always did when he was feeling like that. She reached out and pulled herself closer to him, wrapping her tail around his waist. Goku felt his nervousness and sadness subside as he hugged her in return. But he knew hugs weren't going to do it this time. He put her down on the kitchen counter and stood back, resisting the urge to hold her close again.

Gojita looked up at him and cocked her head to one, as though she was asking what was wrong.

"Gojita…" he began. She giggled and rolled over to her side. Goku wanted to laugh and pick her up, and hold her. But he had to do this. "I'm going to be leaving you." Gojita sat up again and looked at him, the smile in her eyes and on her lips disappearing, replaced with a confused look. "I have to go back to my family." She started to look very sad. Then, as she took register of what he just said, she began to wail. She screamed and screamed and screamed! Goku had to fight the urge to run up to her, scoop her in his arms and tell her he'd never leave her. But that was just a lie.

"I'm sorry." He whispered. Gojita continued with her screaming, getting worse and worse by the minute! But after a while, she stopped screaming. But when Goku looked again, she had a very familiar look on her face. It was the same pissed off look Vegeta wore when Goku upset him. The same look he had gotten when he broke up with him…

Goku flinched at the thought and saw that her tail was also thrashing around dangerously. Tears were balancing on the tip of her eyelids, threatening to fall off if he meant what he said. He knew she had never cried before in her life, she only screamed to 'talk' to him. But she was on the verge of tears! He hated doing this, and he'd have to tell her.

"Gojita…I'm sorry." He said, trying not to break his gaze with her glassy eyes and look down to the floor. "But…I just can't do this to you." She began to whimper. "I can't keep you. I want to…but my family won't let me. I'm really, really sorry…"

Gojita said nothing. Her lower lip trembled and then…the first ever tear fell from her eyes. It fell passed her cheek, passed her chin, and the kitchen counter. Then, when it hit the floor, more began to follow. Gojita cried.

Goku wanted to beat himself for what he had just done. The last thing he wanted to do was make his daughter cry! He looked at the sad sight in front of him. He watched each giant tear drop from her eyes and fall to the floor. Then, his eyes started to tear to. But he held them back…he promised he wouldn't cry! But how could one not when they had a tight bond with their child?

"I…I'll take you to your father…he'll take care of you…" that was all he managed to say, as he could feel the tears coming, and he had to force them back again.

~That Night~

Using his Instant Transmission, he appeared in the same room he and his koi performed to create his child. After hours and hours of crying, she fell into a deep and remorseful slumber, but that was only because she had no more tears left to cry. He placed her on the same bed he and his koi were on. She lay silently, breathing deeply. He silently wondered if a year from now, she'd remember him at all?

"Don't worry, Gojita," he whispered. "I'll come visit you again one day…I promise! In the mean time…don't give your tousan too much trouble." He stood up and tried to act nonchalant about it all. "He'll take good care of you. Now, let me take one good last look at you." She lay under white blankets, a blue and orange gi under her. Her face may have looked like her tousan's, but her spiky fringe and bangs belonged to Goku. He also suspected she was going to have her tousan's petit figure when she grew up.

"Beautiful…now, don't be too bad. And listen to your tousan, he knows what's best. And do your best in school…that's if you ever go to school. And train really hard; because I know that's what he's definitely gonna make you do! And…don't forget me, because…" he choked slightly. "Because…I'll never forget you!"

With those last words, he teleported out from the room.

~Back at the Son Residence~

"Goku! You're back!" yelled Chichi. She ran up and hugged her husband.

"Dad!" chirped Goten.

"Hey, dad!" added Gohan. Goku smiled. He was really happy to be back with his family!

"Where have you been?" she asked. Goku chuckled and grinned at his family.

"Well, I just thought I needed some training time to myself! I mean, to do extreme training!" he grinned at them. "I would've told you guys sooner…but I just felt that I had to do it right there and then!" Chichi didn't even think of yelling at her husband, she was just so happy that he was back. It was almost like one of her children were missing, and the house didn't feel complete. Gohan and Goten were just happy to have their tousan back. All the while, while Goku was smiling happily at them, he was wondering if was really such a good actor.

"Well, come on in!" they all pulled him in.

"I'll get a huge dinner ready!" Chichi squealed. Goku could feel his stomach knot, but he couldn't say no.

"O-okay Chi!" he said as brightly as he could. "I'm just gonna take a long shower!" he walked back to his room, got his extra clothes and went into the bathroom. After he locked the door, he stood in the middle of the bathroom, clothes clutched under one arm and lost in thought.

What was with him? Why did he act so happy after he had just dumped his own daughter? He flinched at that cruel thought. Truth was, he was really happy to be back with his two sons, but he was only putting an act on for them.

Inside, he really felt like crap. He thought back to when Gojita screamed in utter frustration, then cried. His heart suddenly became very heavy, and he thought back to the last time he saw her.

"Don't give your tousan too much trouble! He'll take care of you! Now, let me take one last look at you…" His head felt light, and he felt kind of sick.

"Beautiful…now, don't be too bad! And listen to your tousan, he knows what's best. And do your best in school…that's if you ever go to school. And train rally hard; because I know that's what he's definitely gonna make you do…." His legs felt weak.

"I'll come visit you again one day…I promise!" His heart began to feel like it was a lead organ, beating against his soft chest. His whole body felt so numb.

"And…don't forget me because…because…I'll never forget you!"

Goku dropped to his knees, and sat up with a blank look in his eyes. Then, when he knew he couldn't hold it in any longer…he cried.

AN: I know it's sad…but that's just the beginning. Please R&R!