Tonks was lying on the sofa in the parlor of Grimmauld Place flipping through the latest issue of The Quibbler reading for anything new that she may not have heard yet. The Daily Prophet was being controlled by the Ministry and was nothing but lies about Harry and Dumbledore. She couldn't stomach reading it any longer. Once she had met Harry Potter she felt overly protective of him. Granted it was her job, but it was different after meeting him.

There was nothing new in The Quibbler and no one in The Order had learned anything new in days. They were all starting to get a little restless. All they knew was that Harry was safe at Hogwarts and all they needed to do was stay appraised of what was happening at the school. Tonks threw The Quibbler across the room with a groan of frustration just as the door to the parlor opened and a tall man with light brown hair stepped through and chuckled at her.

Tonks quickly looked towards the door and rolled her eyes. He wasn't exactly who she wanted to see at the moment. Tonks was a very young Auror. She was fairly fresh out of the academy and hadn't been in the Ministry's employment long before Kingsley Shacklebolt had asked to see her privately outside of The Ministry. She was very confused as to why they had to meet in secret since Kingsley had told her it was Ministry business. After he had asked her if she wanted to join The Order she slowly starting to meet many old Order members. One being her cousin Sirius Black, a man that she hadn't seen much of growing up. Their parents weren't on speaking terms. After Tonks' mother, Andromeda, married a muggle born Walburga, Sirius' mother, had banished her from The House of Black. Walburga was one of the witches that believed pure-blood witches and wizards were above those who were half-blooded or muggle born.

One of The Order members she had been spending a fair amount of time with was Remus Lupin. Remus was one of Sirius' best friends from his days at Hogwarts. He was part of the original Order during Voldemort's first rise to power. He was an exceptionally intelligent wizard. And such a kind man. He also happened to be a werewolf. Though this was never an issue for Tonks. She always enjoyed his company. He was great to talk to and it always got her mind off of what was happening in their world. He could always make her smile when things were just hurting too much.

But at this moment she didn't want to see him. She was dealing with some very new feelings towards him and was trying to subdue them. Now wasn't the time to fall in love with someone. Especially someone who was always looking down on himself and making it seem as though he didn't value his own life. He always felt like everyone else deserved to live over him and that drove Tonks mad. There was so much more to him that his condition and she just wished he would realize that. In her time of utter frustration she didn't want to see anyone least of all someone she was trying her hardest to not fall in love with.

"What did that Quibbler do to you," Remus asked as he continued to walk in and sat down in the chair across from the sofa. He looked battered. The full moon was a mere two days away and he was beginning to feel it. Severus Snape had still been providing him with his Wolfsbane potion to help him through the transformation, but the days leading up to it still drained him. He was always a little paler and had significantly less energy than he normally did.

"Nothing," she groaned pulling her knees to her chest. "There's just no news."

"No news is good news, I guess," he responded making Tonks crack a small smile. "We'll know something soon. You know Mad-Eye can't go more than a week without digging up something."

Tonks knew he was right. Mad-Eye was the best Auror the Ministry had seen in decades. Though she knew he was right, she always had a bad feeling in the pit of her stomach. It could have also been due to the fact that Remus was sitting before her and she had to stop herself from saying any of her own truth. She wanted him to know how she was feeling about him, but she knew that he wouldn't be very responsive if she told him the truth.

Remus had noticed that Tonks was being more distant recently. She was blushing harder when she tripped over something, which was often. She was trying to keep herself upright more often so she didn't look foolish. The truth was he had been paying closer attention to her recently. Not because he felt he needed to keep an eye on the young clumsy Auror, but because he wanted to. He enjoyed being around her and so often she made him forget for a moment what he was. She was such relief to him. So full of life and normally lit up the room with her clumsy demeanor. Or her ever changing facial features. He loved watching her hair change colors unknowingly to her when her emotions changed. She normally sported a bright pink color in her hair, but it often changed to red when she was angry. And when she was feeling particularly upset the color would fade to a light brown quite similar to his. He loved seeing what she truly looked like, but he loved her bright pink hair more. It showed more of who she was. It was her personality in one color. And it was beautiful.

He hardly ever took his eyes off of her during Order meetings. There was something about the young woman that he felt drawn to. She was so full of life despite the impending war going on. She always had a smile for everyone in the Order.

"How are you feeling," she finally asked him. "You're looking rather drained."

Remus looked her into her, currently, deep violet eyes. "Two days before the full moon. I can get quite drab. Other than that I'm feeling rather well."

Tonks wasn't convinced of his claims. He was never feeling 'rather well' and she could see right through him. But he had a smile on his face that seemed genuine. She loved looking at his smile. It was such a rare thing to see on his face. He was always looking rather serious. She only caught him smiling when they were alone together. Which she guessed was alright with her. It meant that he felt something for her as well.

The two sat in the parlor for several minutes not saying anything to each other. Remus took a book off the shelf to occupy his mind, but caught himself looking up after every three words to look at the pink haired woman sitting across from him. She was so beautiful. She was so young. So much before her. And he wasn't. He had lived such a life. A long life for his age. Transforming every month since the age of four made him feel years older than he was. She deserved someone who didn't turn into a monster every month. Someone who could hold a job and make some money to support a family. She deserved someone much better than he.

Tonks had walked over to collect The Quibbler she had thrown just before Remus entered the room. She could have used a summoning spell to retrieve it, but she needed to get up from the couch and away from Remus' gaze. His eyes were burning a hole into her. Though, much like Remus, she couldn't focus on the words typed on the page. What she wanted to focus on was sitting across from her in an arm chair reading a book, unconvincingly.

They heard the clock chime indicating it was six o'clock in the evening and Tonks felt her stomach rumble informing her it was time for dinner.

"Are you hungry," she asked setting down her magazine.

Remus looked up from his book and to her. "Are you making supper?"

Tonks rolled her eyes and walked from the room towards the basement kitchen. Remus chuckled and quickly followed her. By the time he had gotten to the kitchen Tonks already had supper ingredients flying around the room mixing themselves together as she watched on from the table. He saw the mess of flour on the floor and concluded that she must have bumped into the counter knocking it off.

Remus cast a quick repairing spell and cleaned the mess the young Auror had made without her notice. Within thirty minutes there was food on the table. Meat pies that Molly had taught her to make. Though Molly had had much more practice making them and they were always perfect. Tonks', however; were a little under cooked. Which she didn't seem to notice, but Remus' was still a little doughy.

"Does it taste okay," she finally asked when she noticed he hadn't eaten the entire thing.

"Wonderful," he responded without taking a pause. It made her smile. Her perfect smile.

Remus wanted to spend more time with her outside of the Order and outside the walls of number 12 Grimmauld Place. Away from all the people that were there, but he knew he couldn't. Not only would it be inappropriate, but it wouldn't be fair to her.

"Maybe tomorrow," Tonks started, "we can go to Diagon Alley for dinner?"

Was she asking him out on a date? He wasn't sure. There was nothing in the tone of her voice and indicated that she wanted to go out on a date with him, but yet he felt it was her asking him.

He wanted to accept her invitation and go with her, but would it be right? He didn't know. He had never really been in this kind of situation before. He was never the ladies' man that Sirius was and James and Lily were just meant to be together. He'd never fallen in love before. He'd never felt he was truly worthy of love. But here stood this beautiful woman that he'd fallen in love with quite quickly. There was just something about her that made it easy for him. Easy to feel at ease with her. It could have been that she knew of his condition and had never shown the slightest worry in its regards. Even the days before and after the full moon she never treated him differently. Even Sirius had always been more timid around him during these times.

But Tonks. Tonks never shied away from it. She spoke of his condition without a care. It made him feel better about it. Like he was an actual person again. That there was nothing wrong with him. It was nice to feel normal again; if even for the few moments they shared together.

"Tomorrow may not be the best," he said trying his hardest to sound as casual as she had. "One day before the moon. I can get a bit irritable."

"You're always a bit irritable, Remus," Tonks shot back. "I was just asking dinner. You don't need to feel obligated to make up an excuse to say 'no.'"

Remus could see the hurt on her face. It had been a date. Now that he'd blown it.

They sat eating again for several minutes before either spoke. Tonks quickly took care of the dishes with a wave of her wand. Swiping Remus' plate from him before he had finished his meal.

Remus found her upset demeanor rather endearing. He let out a chuckle, unwillingly and she quickly turned to face him. Scowl on her face. She was not amused by him at this moment.

"I was merely offering a bit of a distraction from the full moon coming up," Tonks said quickly. "Just offering a bit of a distraction that's all."

Remus thought for a moment then reached out to catch her arm. This stopped her immediately and she turned towards him. They both stopped breathing briefly. Remus had a strong urge to pull her into him and kiss her, but refrained.

Tonks was still upset with him and tried to wiggle free from his grip, but failed. She gave up rather easily. She enjoyed his touch.

"I could use with a bit of distraction," he said standing and meeting her gaze. Never taking his hand away from her wrist.

A/N: Thank you for reading. This fic is just going to be little things that I wish I would have gotten to read while reading Harry Potter three or four or ten times. I recently re-read the entire series and fell in love with these two. I scream about my love for Remus Lupin at least three times an hour. I hope you guys aren't expecting for this to be updated a lot. I'm in acting school right now and that takes up 99% of my time, but I will try to keep it updated as much as I possibly can. I love these two and have lots of different little stories. I will probably change canon and let them live because I am still bitter about their deaths. So welcome to feels central.

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