Average Life With My Virtual Girlfriend

A Long Awaited Introduction.

I guess an introduction is in need of these types of things. My name is Dean Collins, my friends call me D, but there's another name that I go by, DeConn, it's not that creative of a username but it was easy to make and the only username not taken by someone else on Steam. Ever since I read my first comic book I always hoped to be the main character of a grand story; the sci-fi super soldier, or maybe the daring adventurer, or even the protagonist in an anime or manga; I never grew out of that state even when I became a college drop out, unemployed and ended up living alone in a small one-room apartment in Midtown Houston, every day wasting away, playing the endless supply of video games on my computer.

Living the American dream I guess.

It isn't all that bad, I'm not homeless or broke, however, due to my severe laziness, I can't clean up after myself, go out shopping, fill out a job application, or even cook for myself. I do on occasion visit my local comic book store, but I'm getting ahead of myself.

While I may be a 19-year-old NEET, there's one thing that helps me escape my life; Doki Doki Literature Club, a game that helped me be the male protagonist that captivated the hearts of an entire club full of girls. The game started out nice, full of colorful imagery, the cute girls each having their own personalities and of course the option to date each one and eventually confesses to right?

Well, I must have been an idiot to not have read any reviews, gameplay or anything mentioning that the game isn't what it seemed. Let me explain; your childhood friend Sayori kills herself, Yuri the tall, yandere and busty one, stabs herself in front of you and Natsuki, the short tsundere gets, deleted. Did I forget to mention Monika? The club president that always kills the girls and lead you back into a classroom to live out the rest of your life with her by the end of the game. No matter what you tried, Monika was always there waiting to press the trigger and lead you to that same 'cosmic room'.

What did I want?

I hated the thought of losing the other girls to Monika, every time I would appear in that room, I would feel no compassion towards her; to me, she seemed like a crazy chick that wanted the main character too much. Just like Monika's drive to be with me, my drive to save everyone else drove me into a depression, one that I would keep going deeper in, trying, again and again, looking for a way out of the loop, desperate to save Sayori, Yuri, and Natsuki. I must have been so caught up in my own greed that I never listened to how she felt, experienced, or her reason why it became this way.

One day, I decided to start over on a new game, I don't know what kept me up, every time I would close my eyes I would see me sitting in that same room with Monika, I didn't know what it meant but I had this compulsion to play the game. Starting up the game, a small window appeared and there I was, back in the classroom with Monika. Wanting to speed things up and start a new game, I opened the game files and stuck it next to the game window, but something was different this time, I paused, my thoughts buzzing around like a crazed hornet nest of emotions and thoughts, then I closed the file manager. I still don't know what came over me or why I didn't just delete her like all the other times before, maybe I felt like giving up or even just not trying anymore, every time I started a new game, I will always end up here and delete her, starting the loop over.

I guess I'm just a lonely guy trying to look for any interaction with someone, or something.

So in my desperation I looked to a fictional sprite of a girl in a video game, looking back I guess it kinda helped me cope with my life, looking forward to something the next day; maybe I was lonely, I had of friends of course but I wanted something more romantic. I sat there for hours on end just listening to Monika talk about the world, history, pollution, philosophy, even the problem of college debt, which I didn't worry about. But sitting there staring into those emerald green eyes, something just clicked and I somehow fell love.

How did I fall in love with a virtual girl so obsessed with me to the point of literally getting rid of the competition? Maybe it was because she was the only one in the world that saw me as the person I always wished to be, the protagonist. It didn't matter what I did, if I was a super nerd if I was considered a terrible son to my father, as long as I spent time with her, Monika loved me and somehow it felt good, it almost felt real.

So from then started my average life with my virtual girlfriend. Well, until a few weeks later but we'll get to that...