Author's note :

Hey , everyone!

I wrote the first two chapters of this fanfic before chapter 36 so it takes a different turn (kind of) from the manga.

Anyway, here it is! I hope you enjoy:)

"When we do wear them for real , it'd be great if we had matching outfits. "

Hearing those words from Yuzu made Mei's heart leap. The blonde didn't say it directly but she knew what it meant. Her whole being felt warm , she felt happy , so happy that she wanted to cry. She wanted to tell the blonde that she too would want that. They can have the ceremony after they graduate college, they could go to a country that would allow same sex marriage. They could build a family and they would grow old together. Mei smiled at the thought.

But reality hit her like a truck, she knew that building a future with Yuzu is impossible. She has a responsibility. Tears start to pool in her eyes, her usually emotionless face was now filled with tears. Although she always act indifferent towards Yuzu , Mei loves the blonde , she loves her more than anything in the world.

Mei's heart broke , she knew that being with the blonde until the end is impossible. But what hurt her more is the possibility that she would hurt the blonde. Yuzu is the sunlight of her world, she wants nothing more than to make her happy. She loves seeing the blonde smile and thinking that she would be the reason as to why that smile would disappear tore her heart into pieces.

Suddenly, she heard footsteps. She tried to stop the tears from coming but it was futile.

" Mei?" Hearing the blonde's voice made Mei cry harder.

"Mei , oh gosh, are you okay?" Yuzu didn't know what to do , it was the first time that she saw Mei cry like that and a part of her thought that she was the one who caused it. Tears start to pool the blonde's eyes, seeing the raven-haired girl cry pained the blonde.

" Mei , pl-please , stop crying.. Is it my fault?" The blonde asked, her voice full of remorse.

" I'm sorry for forcing you into this. I-I'm so sorry , Mei" Yuzu cried as she held the fabric of her gown between her hands.

Mei looked up at the blonde , she held her face and wiped her tears. She wanted to slap herself for making the blonde cry.

'She's crying for my sake again.' the younger thought as she pressed her forehead on the blonde's shoulder. With her trembling arms , she tightly held the older girl.

Mei wasn't used to feeling open and vulnerable, she has always kept her emotions in check but right now it was as if the feelings she tucked away in her heart were spilling.

" Please forgive me, Yuzu... Please.. stay by my side.. I cannot lose you.." Mei whispered.

" M-Mei?" The blonde was shocked by Mei's words.

" Why are you apologizing?" Yuzu asked as she caressed the younger girl's hair. The raven-haired girl looked up at the blonde's eyes.

" Yuzu , I need you to tell me that you will always stay by my side. Please , I-I need to hear you say it." Mei's eyes were pleading. She knew that she was making a selfish request, but she also knew that she wouldn't know how to continue living without the blonde's warmth.

"What are you talking about, Mei? Of cou-"

"Say it, please." Mei interrupted before the older girl finished.

"No matter what happens I'll always be with you, Mei." Yuzu said as she kissed the younger girl's forehead. She felt confused, she didn't know why Mei was acting like that. She wants to ask the girl what happened, but she didn't want to push her.

Yuzu felt Mei's hands against her cheeks. She looked down and saw the younger girl close the distance between them. She felt Mei's lips against her own.

The kiss was tender and slow. Mei put all of her feelings towards to blonde in that kiss. She kissed her as if she was saying "... I love you"

Yuzu gasped upon hearing Mei's words. It was the first time she heard those words from the younger girl. She felt so happy upon hearing those words , she wanted to jump out of joy. She felt a wide smile spread on her face "Mei , I .." she suddenly stopped and her smile immediately disappeared when she saw Mei's face. It was full of hurt and anguish. Yuzu felt disgusted on herself for feeling happy.

" Yuzu, I love you." Mei repeated. Never once leaving the blonde's eyes. Yuzu felt her heart clench when the younger girl repeated the words. The raven-haired girl didn't love her, if she did, why are her eyes filled with hurt and anguish, the blonde thought.

"I love you so much." The words felt easier to say as she repeated them, but the intensity of her sorrow also became worse. She loves the blonde, but she was about to hurt her. She must marry somebody else, and once the blonde knows this it will tear her.

" Yu-" before Mei could finish Yuzu interrupted her

" Mei.. You don't have to tell me you love me if you don't want to , okay?"

"I can see in your eyes that you're hurting. You don't have to say those words for my sake if it hurts you that much. I'm sorry for pressuring you ,Mei. I really am." Yuzu's eyes were filled with tears once again.

" I love you , Mei. I'm not expecting for anything back. You just being here is already enough." Yuzu said as she pressed her lips against the forehead of the younger girl while tears fell from her eyes.

Mei's heart broke even further. She made the blonde cry once again. But she also felt confused. She doesn't understand what the blonde was talking about. She doesn't get why the blonde won't believe her when she said those words. She loves Yuzu and that is the truth.

" I should tell them that we wouldn't be continuing with the photoshoot" Yuzu told Mei as she wiped her tears. The older girl stood up and started walking.

"Yuzu…" Mei called but the blonde kept walking.

"YUZU!" the girl shouted. The blonde finally stopped walking.

"W-Why.. why would you say that my words are untrue ? I'm telling y-you the truth. I.. Yuzu.. I'm in love with you. " Mei cried, her emotions overflowing.

" I-is it because you deem me as somebody who is i-incapable of love?" Mei accused. She covered her eyes but her tears won't stop falling.

Yuzu felt a pang on her chest upon hearing of Mei's words. Before she realized it she was already running towards the younger girl. When she reached her she immediately pulled her into a tight hug.

"I understand. Please let me go." Mei said as she pushed the older girl away. But Yuzu tightened the hug.

" Mei , I would never think that, okay?" Yuzu whispered.

" You have the most beautiful heart I know."

" Then , why? Why won't you believe my words?" Mei weakly said against the older girl's chest. Her voice sounded hurt.

"Ssshhh.. Mei.. I believe you okay?" Yuzu said as she looked into Mei's eyes. Yuzu felt guilty for hurting the girl and for not believing her. She felt so stupid and useless.

"I'm sorry if I said I didn't, I just feel... insecure." Yuzu admitted.

"I believe you, Mei." Yuzu said as she caressed the younger girl's cheek. " And I love you, too. I love you so much the words can't express it" Yuzu said with her trademark smile. Mei's heart throbbed. She smiled back as she closed the distance between them. She claimed the older girl's lips. She threw away all problems that they soon will face in the back of her head and focused on the kiss.

At that moment, Mei felt as if everything was right. She was with the person she loved the most and they are happy. That's all that matters.