A/N: I had this up awhile ago. I took down to do some revision and finish before I put back up since I ended up being blocked for awhile. Now I am getting back into writing and trying to finish stuff on my computer I had stopped.

Summary: Sirius Black was in love. His relationship was going great or so he thought. Something unexpected happens to him. How will everything turn out. SB/JP, SB/SS

Warnings: Slash (male/male relationship), MPREG. This starts in the marauders era and continues into later life with a time skip in between. Some people who died in the original story line are alive and well. there is also no Volemort or war going on. If you don't like any of these warning please do not read. Please do not FLAME. If you don't like than just read a different story thank you.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything in the Harry Potter universe, but oh how I wish I did.

Chapter 1:

Sirius Black came from a very nasty family, whose belief's were far from his own. They hated everything to do with Muggles, and they hated gay's even worse. Two things Sirius himself didn't mind. He had plenty of Muggle friends and he himself was gay. He had been dating his best friend James Potter for a couple of years now, in secret of course. That was how James wanted it to be. The only people that knew were his friends Remus Lupin and Peter Pettigrew.

So Sirius had to live with seeing girls flirting with James all the time and trying to be with him. He didn't really mind that all to much because at the end of the day James was still his. He knew James has had a long lasting crush on Lily Evans also, but he never really thought he had to worry all that much about her either because again at the end of the day James was still his.

Right now he stood in his dorm room alone, staring into a mirror. He turned one way and then another with his shirt off trying to figure out what was wrong. He had been feeling slightly different for a couple weeks now and he wasn't sure why. His stomach, which used to be flat with very defined muscles, was now slightly flabby and starting to round out. He thought eating less would help but every time he would try he just would be more hungry than he ever had before, finding himself down in the kitchens late at night filling himself up.

"Sirius are you still in there. Let me in the door is locked." He heard yelled on the other side of the door. He sighed and put his shirt back on, resigned to trying to figure out his problem later. Right now he just wanted his boyfriend.

"Hey James." He smiled as he unlocked and opened the door seeing his boyfriend standing waiting for him.

"Hey. Why was the door locked?" James asked looking around behind him.

"I have no idea. Maybe someone locked it on their way out." Sirius stated as he leaned in for a kiss, only to have James turn around right before. Sirius cocked his head in confusion but shook it off for the moment.

"You ready for breakfast?" James asked as he started to walk away.

"As ready as I will ever be. Let's see what we can do today to good ol' Snivellus" Sirius laughed wanting to have a good day.

The two boys made their way down to the Great Hall all ready to eat when they were stopped by Lily, who apparently wanted to speak to James alone for some reason. Sirius smiled the best he could and walked away, turning around every few seconds. When he made it the the doors of the Great Hall he turned around one last time but didn't see James or Lily any where. His heart dropped. This was the first time Lily wanted to talk to James alone, willingly, and he didn't like it one bit.

He sat down next to Remus and saw the other boy look at him with concern. He nodded to his friends and placed food onto his plate. He didn't feel like eating anymore. His stomach was upset and he didn't even think he could sit here any longer.

"I don't feel well. I'm going to see the nurse." He pushed his plate away from him and left before Remus had a chance to talk to him.

Slowly he made his way to the hospital wing but not before running into one of the bathrooms and throwing up. This has been happening all to often as well and he didn't like it one bit. After washing his mouth out and taking another look in the mirror he left.

"Mr. Black what is it today?" Madam Pomfrey asked showing him to one of the beds.

"I haven't been feeling well lately. Been getting sick at the worst times and always dizzy." He stated.

"Well let me run some diagnostics on you and I will let you know what is wrong." Sirius sat on the bed for what seemed like forever as she ran her wand along the length of him, shaking her head and eyes going wide.

He sat in that room as she explained what was wrong, only making it worse with every word that came out of her mouth. He didn't know what the hell he was going to do. Had no idea. All he could think about was James. He needed to talk to his boyfriend and he needed to do it right now.

"May I leave?" He asked as politely as he could. She nodded yes but told him he needed to come back every week to see her, he hated that idea more than anything.

His mind was in a haze when he finally made it back to his common room, everyone else was in classes and he knew he should have went himself but he couldn't face everyone right now. He needed to find some concealing charms for the weeks to come or everyone would know. As he was sitting on his bed, books open in front of him, skimming the pages, the door opened. He slightly smiled when he saw James there, but that turned into a frown when he saw the other boy turn and lock the door. The expression on his face told him he was not going to enjoy this.

"Sirius we need to talk." James said sitting down across from him. Sirius quickly shut all the books and threw them under his bed, not wanting James to see what he was reading. He saw James face fall for a moment and then their eyes locked. Sirius could see James was upset about something, but he didn't understand what it could be.

"What did you want to talk about James?" He asked reaching over to grab Jame's hand only to have it out of his reach a moment later. "What is going on with you lately James?" Sirius asked worry etched onto his face.

"Lily and I have been talking a lot recently. She has said I have matured a lot in the last year and wanted to get to know me better away from everyone else. She pulled me aside this morning and finally wants to be with me Sirius. Do you understand what this means?" James asked excitement written all over his face, the sadness gone completely.

Sirius felt like his world was crashing down around him. His hand instinctively went to his stomach when his thoughts started to get away from him. He knew what this meant, but James really had no idea.

"Yes." He finally replied not looking at James, just down at his hand.

"I can have a family with her, children. I have wanted her for so long. Sirius I know we have been seeing each other for awhile, but it was fun right? I mean we both knew we would have to move on and find a woman to marry, have kids, carry on our names. Sirius?" James finally looked at him after his happy rambling and saw tears streaking down his friends face.

"Get out James. Leave me alone for awhile please." Sirius whispered.

"Sirius I'm so sorry but you know how long I have wanted this." James placed a hand on Sirius shoulder just to have it harshly brushed off.

"Go be with her. Leave me the hell alone James." Sirius pulled his wand out and pointed it at James, making the other boy back off the bed and slowly towards the door.

"Sirius please don't do this. We can still be friends. We have been best friends forever." James pleaded.

"You have no idea what you are doing to me do you? You think this was just a fling for me, a good time. I love you James Potter. Get the hell out." Sirius screamed. James tried walking towards him again but Sirius cast a spell at him that threw him back into the door. James quickly fled leaving Sirius crying alone on the bed.