Summary: What I never told you.

"Hey, Alec, it's been awhile, hasn't it? I'm sorry I couldn't make itearlie rbut with all the things happening now that Valentine is gone Clary and I just haven't had much time.

"Shit, that's an excuse, I just, I don't know what to say, never did really. How many times did you bail us out of whatever my loud mouth got us into? From what I remember it was a lot.

"Izzy has been by, I see, she left some pretty flowers behind. Smell funny though." Jace sighed quietly, "I don't know what I'm doing, Alec, I'm trying but I was never meant to be the Head of the Institute and Izzy doesn't want it. She and Lydia much prefer tearing down and rebuilding the Clave, I don't think they are planning on keeping the name.

"Mom went out with Luke the other day and came back giggling. If I hadn't seen it, buddy... she's been happy, happier than I ever saw her with Robert.

"Max killed his first Demon with Magnus the other day. Magnus has been a huge help, not just him but Warlocks in general, with the rebuilding and a woman named Catarina Loss has been wonderful with fixing Demon wounds."

Jace put his head in his hands and sniffled.

"Shit, Alec, I mis you and I'm so freaking scared I'm gonna mess everything up even with everybody helping me. They say I'm doing great but I don't know. You'd tell me if I was doing something wrong and I need you. I never told you that before. I need you so much. More than you ever needed me. It always played the other way but I know that you'd have been fine without me, me not so much. I never told you how many times you saved my life by just... showing up outside my door on nights I couldn't sleep or by asking for a spar out of the blue... I never told you how much you meant to me, Alec, please, you need to wake up, please." Jace begged as he held Alec's limp hand in his and stared at the man laying still in the Hospital bed.

So, As I finished this I realized that it came off a little more Alec/Jace Romantic than I intended and I'm not entirely sure how I feel about that as I don't actively ship them. So, I'm gonna tag it as Jace/Alec but um, that's not what it started as or was meant to be... then again Alec was supposed to be dead so that's something else.

No plans for a sequel but well, you never know, heck, I never know either until I'm sat down and the words start flowing so, that's all for now.