A My Hero Academia female Izuku because I really love the female Izuku fanfics of MHA! I decided to have some depression and pain put into this fanfic because I like that stuff for some reason. But don't be scared for I will try to have some happy and sweet moments added as well. Also there will be some minor changes to the character traits of each character, which might be accidental or on purpose because I'm not Kohei Horikoshi. Now without further delay, I present to you my first ever fanfic "Who I Am."
chapter 1: who am I?
who am I? I'm Izumi Midoriya, but no one knows that but me. How you ask? Well, it all started when I was just a little girl, I looked up to an amazing hero named All Might. A hero who could save hundreds of innocent and defeat thousands of villains, I practically worshipped him and so did everyone else, after all, he was the number 1 hero. I always dreamed of getting a quirk that was amazing and flashy so I could someday be a hero just like he was. One day my mom told me that she had made me a doctors appointment so we could see what my quirk was rather than waiting for it to show up on its own. After they took my X-ray with a blood sample and then left me and my mom in the doctor's office to wait for the results. I was so excited to know what my quirk was... completely oblivious to the possibility of disappointment.
"Sorry for the wait."
"oh, it was no-"
"what's my quirk!? What's my quirk!?"
"Izumi, calm down!"
"oh it's fine ma'am, this little angel has the right to be excited because she has a very special quirk."
"Really!?" I was so excited to find out what my quirk was that I thought of hundreds of possible quirks like super strength, flight, laser eyes, skin harden, object levitation, or maybe screech. Whatever it was I just knew it was good enough to make me a hero... of course hope never got me anything good though.
"your tests have shown that you have a rare and amazing quirk that give you the power of... eternal beauty!" I cheered for a second but then got confused since I had no idea how a quirk like that could help me be a hero.
"Is this true doctor?"
"sure is Ms. Midoriya your daughter has truly a unique quirk, she can grow up to be a very successful model!" my mom was filled with joy and went over to Izumi and hugged her out of joy but then stopped when she saw Izumi's confused face.
"a model? But what about a hero?"
"a hero? you wouldn't want to be a hero with a quirk like that, it would be best to leave that to people with more combat ready quirks, besides why be a hero when you can be a princess." Afterward we went back home and I was watching another video of All Might saving people from a disaster, my mom was passing by my room and saw me watching the video in the dark.
"Izumi? Are you alright? Why is you room so dark?"
"momma?"
"yes dear?"
"can I be a hero? just like All Might?" I turned my chair to face her, I was smiling but was also about to cry however if my mom was to say in that moment that I could be a hero then I would have cheered rather than cried. Unfortunately my mom just nervously said that it would be better to think more realistic and walked off, not knowing I started crying. That was the last day I had ever smiled again; the next school year started but I wasn't really ready to go out, my mom would have been furious with me but she could clearly see I was sad about something so she just went to my school and collected my homework for the day. It took a few hours but I eventually found the will to do my homework, however I did feel horrible getting out of bed so I went to the bathroom to wash my face. I never understood how washing ones face could make them feel better but it worked out well for my mom so as a kid I figured that it would help me too. However as I got on my stool and looked to the mirror I saw someone I didn't recognize, it took me a few seconds to find out that it was me. Turns out my quirk only makes me pretty if I'm happy but I get ugly when I'm not; my curly green hair tuned spiky and death black, my skin turned pale, and my eyes turned from bright greed and full of life to dark green and tired. I was no longer the little girl I once was, now I was an ugly brat that didn't care about anything anymore.
My mom was clearly struggling with the drastic changes I went through, she tried her best to make me feel better, but I never changed. I ended up missing an entire year of school and my mom wasn't having it anymore and politely demand that I go back to school. I was getting bored being home all day anyways so I decided to listen to her but rather than getting a girls uniform I decided to pretend to be a boy by wearing a boys uniform and keeping my hair short. of course my mom was uncomfortable with my decision but I told her that wearing a boys uniform made me feel better about my self. The real reason was because of my hatred for my quirk so this was an act of revenge toward it; I'm not sure if she knew I was lying but either way she let it go. On my way to school, I passed by the park and saw a kid getting beat up by three others. Oh yeah, that was the day I meet Bakugo: the asshole that makes my life a suck more than it already does. I was just going to keep walking and let the poor kid have it but then for some reason I suddenly remembered something All Might had said. A TRUE HERO WILL ALWAYS RISK THEMSELVES TO SAVE OTHERS! HAHAHA! I then put my backpack down and went over to defend the boy from bakugou's fury.
"wanna say that again you little punk!"
"Aw come on man! You know it's true! You just need to face facts!"
"Shut Up! Or I'll burn your face off!"
*in male voice* leave him alone." I decided that if I'm going to dress like a boy I might as well talk like one as well so yeah, anyways Bakugou then let the boy go and back off while I walked over and stood between them. I don't know why but Bakugou was looking at me like I was something straight out of his nightmares, I mean, I know I wasn't at all good looking but I'm not a monster.
"w- who the hell are you?" Damn, I didn't at all think about a new name and I couldn't use Izumi, I had no idea what to call myself so I just went with a simple one close to my original.
"I'm Izuku." For some reason that really got him angry.
"you think you can tell me what to do Izuku?"
"I just know what your doing isn't right." Bakugo was starting at me with lots of anger but he then calmed down and smiled sinisterly toward me.
"so how are you gonna stop me huh? do you have the quirk to make it happen?" Bakugo's hands made an explosion and a bald fat kid behind him released dragon like wings from his back while another kid behind him who was skinny with long black hair raised his hand and his finders stretched out. I was about to say what quirk I had without thinking but I managed to stop myself however what I said instead wasn't exactly better.
"I'm quirkless." Bakugo was confused by this but then started laughing while taunting me.
"hahaha! Did you guys hear that?! This useless loser thinks they can take me! Let me tell you some thing Deku! You either have a quirk or your a nobody!" He called me Deku, in other words useless, I already knew I was useless but hearing it from someone else really got my blood boiling so I ran up and punched him in the face the very second he stopped talking.
"just because I don't have a quirk doesn't make me useless!" Bakugo was grunting in pain while the two body's behind him were shaking in fear, at first I thought they were scared of me but they were actually afraid of Bakugou going on a rampage. He didn't though, instead he did then next worst thing he could do to any one, he ran up to me so fast that I couldn't keep up and quickly placed his hand on my right eye.
"yes you are. DEKU!" That was how I got the huge scar on the right side of my face and that was also the first official day of my new shity life. My mom freaked out when I came home with a large bandage over the right side of my face, and freaked out even more when it was time to take it off and reveal the scar. From that day forward everyday up to today was the same go to school, do schoolwork, study heroes, get bullied by someone, get punched by Bakugo, go to nurses office or anywhere I can get bandages, go home, hide burns and bruses from mom, got to room and pretended to sleep or do homework, sneak out at night and go to the park and train. I don't know why but for some reason All Might and his words kept popping up in my head and as long as they did I just kept studying heros and secretly training to be one. It never gave me hope though so I continued to be ugly which eventually turned into a norm for me, but no matter what I just kept trying to be a hero. I figured that since All Might words were what kept me going then maybe if I were to ever meet him or any other hero in real life then maybe be he could tell me whether or not I could truly be a hero.
well that about raps it up for now or I guess forever, I'm 14 now and I still dress and sound like a boy, I keep on training, and fighting through the pain and tears every day, but in all honesty I'm getting tired and am starting to wish it would all end. I haven't entirely made up my mind yet but I did make sure to get some rope on my way to school and will probably make a noose when I get home. So if I decided to just end it, then who ever manages to find this diary will know what happened to me and why I did what I did. Oh, and as a last will I would like my mom to have everything I own... and to know that I'm sorry for being a failure of a daughter. Anyways I'm just going to live out today and see how things go, who knows maybe something will drop in my life and save me... yeah right. Like that would ever happen.
Izumi then closed her diary and pulled out her hero research book Vol. 13, she was looking through her latest notes while ignoring the rest of the class. The teacher was discussing the way how quirks allow people to become heros and was praising everyone for showing off their quirks.
"Ha! Show off all you want! The only one that's ever going to be a hero *points to self* is me!"
"now Bakugo, everyone has a chance to be a hero."
"everybody except Deku!" a student, who had a quirk that allowed his neck to grow, faced Izumi and smiled mockingly at her.
"a quirkless loser like him could never be a hero!" Everyone in the classroom was now mocking and laughing at Izumi, even the teacher was laughing but tried to hide it. Izumi was getting angry so she punched the noodle neck in the face and his body fell to the ground with his neck still stretched out.
"everyone shut the hell up! I already know I barely stand a chance! I don't need the opinion of you losers to remember that!"
"barely?!" Bakugou then appeared right beside her and punched her desk, releasing a small explosion as to get her attention. She was instantly scared and started to coware and raised her arms in front of her for protection while shaking out of fear. Bakugo smiled he could always break Deku's will so easily, sometimes just by looking at her was a enough to get her trembling in fear.
"what the hell do you mean barely?"
"I- I j- just think t- that I-"
"listen up Deku! Out of everyone in this room! Your the real loser! Sure all these extras have lame Quirks, but unlike you! They can actually be called unique! Now tell me Deku! What makes you unique?"
"N- Nothin-"
"Nothing!" Bakugo then slamed his fist on Izumi's desk and released a huge explosion.
"Your Nothing! With NO chance of ever being a hero! And that's never going to change, Deku!" Bakugou then went back to his desk feeling proud of himself, the day was about over so the teacher dismissed all the students. Bakugou was about to go but then saw a weird note book that was on Izumi's desk, when he grabbed it see what it was he became extremely angry.
"Deku, What the hell is this!"
"Ah! T- That's just, uh, notes and other t- things on my favorite h- heros." Bakugou then flipped through the pages and seemed to get a little angrier by each page.
"quirk types, fight styles, and... possible weakness?! You trying to find out how to defeat people with quirks?!" Izumi then dropped out of her desk and onto the floor while backing away from Bakugou.
"W- What?! N- No! I- I would n- never do t- that! I- I don't even s- stand a c- chance against p- people with q- quirks! Y- You know t- that!"
"first, stop talking like a toddler! second, do you really think I can't tell when your lying!" Izumi now had her back to the wall while trembling in fear.
"I'm not lying! I swear I'm not! I would never lie to you Bakugo!"
"that better be true Deku. Or else I'll take the other side of your stupid face!" Bakugo then went over to the window and looked again at Izumi's notebook.
"it's just a notebook you use to fanboy over heros you'll never be right?"
"Y- Yes! That's it! Nothing else!" Bakugo then smiled and burned the book with one of his explosions and threw it out the window, Izumi ran to get it but by the time she reached the window the book had already fallen out of reach. Before Izumi had the chance to pull her head out Bakugo grabbed the back of her head and forcefully made her face the ground.
"if you really want to be a hero the you should just kill your self and pray to get a quirk in your next life."
Bakugo then let Izumi go and went to go catch up with his friends while Izumi just fell to her knees and started crying. It took her some time but she eventually found the will to get up and get her book back, after she got her book back she decided to go straight home; about half way she passed through a tunnel.
"maybe Bakugo is right, I did consider ending my life today."
"is that so." Izumi's heart sank at the sound of that voice, she turned around to see a green sludge villain forming its body while looking at her. Izumi was now shaking with fear but then calmed down and faced the villain with an emotionless face.
"yeah it's true, who's asking?"
"hehehe, don't really got a name or a body... and yet here you are, a young and available suit for me to wear." Izumi figured that this villain wasn't going to let her run not that she actually wanted to, besides she was going to hang her self anyways so what was the point in trying to run.
"*sigh* will it hurt?"
"hm?"
"stealing my body, will it hurt?"
"hehehe, only if you struggle." The villain then licked his teeth like a fat guy ready to chow down on an all you can eat buffet, the thought made Izumi sick but still she closed her eyes and opened her arms, welcoming death.
"NOT SO FAST MONSTER." Both Izumi and the villain turned to see All Might standing there and smiling at them both.
"WORRY NOT YOUNG MAN! THIS VILLAIN RAIN OF TERROR ENDEDS NOW!" All Might then raised his fist and readied himself to throw a punch at the villain.
"TEXAS SMASH!" All Might then threw his punch and the gust of wind that came form it was strong enough to vaporize the slug monsters body and blow Izumi out of the tunnel. Izumi's body felt sore from the blow but she managed to find the strength to get back up on her own. She was trembling a little but then a large hand was placed on her shoulders to help keep her up, when she looked up she was shocked to see All Might stand right in front of her.
"ARE YOU ALRIGHT YOUNG MAN?"
"*in female voice* All Might!" All Might then back off a little from the surprise of Izumi's voice and her sudden change of look that Izumi didn't noticed yet. She did however noticed she let her female voice slip and tried to cough it off and make herself sound like a boy again.
"*in male voice* sorry my voice cracked, I'm just so excited to see my hero!" Izumi was about to smile but then stopped herself as she knew better than to get her hopes up.
"are you alright? Your whole look just changed drastically." Even though he was concerned and confused he still hand a smile on his face. Izumi was confused by his question and reached in her bag for her mirror. When she looked into her mirror she didn't recognize herself at all, her hair was green and curly, her eyes were bright green and full of life, and her skin was no longer pale; she felt her skin and it didn't feel dry and rough like it always did instead it felt soft and hydrated like proper healthy skin she was about to smile but shut herself off again.
"HAHAHA! WHAT AN INTERESTING QUIRK YOU HAVE! BEING ABLE TO CHANGE YOUR LOOK AT WILL! SOMEONE LIKE YOU COULD BE A GREAT UNDERCOVER HERO!"
"wait! really?!" All Might then coughed and seemed a little shaken but then waved Izumi goodbye and was ready to jump into the air. Izumi wanted to know if what he said was true so she quickly ran to him and grabbed onto his leg before he jumped.
"now to get this villain to the- HEY, YOUNG MAN WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?!" Izumi was holding tightly onto All Might's leg while keeping her eyes closed from the wind hitting her face.
"I- I NEED TO ASK YOU A QUESTION!"
"CAN'T THIS WAIT? YOU REALLY MUST LET GO OF ME!"
"ARE YOU CRAZY?! AT THIS HEIGHT I'LL DIE!"
"YOUNG MAN, THAT IS... AN EXCELLENT POINT- *coughs blood* shit."
"WHAT?!"
"I'M GOING TO LAND ON THE TOP OF THAT BUILDING, HOLD ON TIGHTLY!" When they landed All Might stood tall while Izumi was shaking and trying to keep still while standing.
"well now that your safe, I'LL BE ON MY WAY!"
"wait, stop!"
"I'M SORRY YOUNG MAN BUT I MUST GO!"
"but I need to ask! *takes a deep breath* Can I be a hero? Even with a useless quirk?" All Might stoped and turned his head back to Izumi.
"Useless?"
"yes my Quirk doesn't really do anything other than make me look pre- uh, pretty good or ugly... that's all I can do with my quirk, nothing else... that's why I have to ask, can I still be a hero? Even with a useless quirk?" All Might was silent for some time but then turned his who body to Izumi and stood tall with his smile.
"what is your name young man?"
"Izum- Izuku Midoriya!" Izumi heart was racing and a smile was threatening to form over her face.
"young man, I think you-" can be a hero! Izumi thought to herself, He's going to say it! I just know he will! Izumi was getting her hopes up but right now she didn't care because she felt like that for once she could have something to look forward to, something to bring purpose and hope back into her life. However she was proven wrong extremely fast when All Might had shriveled into a short man made of skin and bones.