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There are quiet moments of reflection — when she needs them. Narcissa can secret herself into one of the few porcelain tubs without her husband noticing of her absence, unpinning her long, silvery-white hair.

She glides into the steamy, milk-scented waters, leaning backward. Lucius's opened, gleaming straight razor dangling between her fingers is far more steel than polished silver. That is what she must be: poised, immaculate and without any emotional flaws. Her makeup begins to slowly dribble, creating twin rivers of darkness under Narcissa's eyes, and her mouth a soft, liquid-creamy pink.

A girl — Harry Potter's mother — caught Narcissa with one of the boy's razors, during skipping supper, while they were very young. Lily heaved it from Narcissa's pale hand and threw it away, clattering to the wall, screaming indignantly.

Selfish! Thoughtless!

Lily could not understand, not with all of her beauty and courage and vibrant, rebellious nature. It's part of why Narcissa had been drawn to her. A Mudblood — tasting like sweet, red licorice and honeycakes, and Narcissa would greedily inhale her, arms around her partner, keening under Lily's mouth attached to her neck and suckling rough, bruising kisses.

She had been seduced so carelessly, desperately by this other girl.

Autumn's frost decorates the darkened windowsill above Narcissa's head. She reaches with her empty hand bare of goblin-gold or jewelry through the milky, rosebud-littered bath, down to a bony thigh and then against herself.

It feels like an ascension of pleasure, where Narcissa's muscles tense and relax, as she breathes harder. She feels lighter. Featherweight. Lily's youthful, freckled countenance appears in Narcissa's mind, as if she was never gone. Narcissa touches herself, imagining her school-girl crush and lover. She longs to feel Lily on her cheeks, gently wiping away her sorrows.

She haunts her. Always.

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Harry Potter isn't mine. MORE ANGST. This time this fic is for Dark Femslash Week "Day 3: Very Bad Endings" and Kinktober "masturbation, seduction" and the other list "ghosts/haunting" wheeeeeeeeeeeee well if you ended up reading this please tell me a word or two! Did you like? Not like? Thank you very much!