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Kylo awoke to the sound of rain and an empty bed. It was dark outside and he was surprised he had slept so long.

He supposed the fresh air and quiet were letting his body relax more, despite the unsettling addition of his brother's company. He decided to send his mother a bunch of lillies to say thank you, she hated their scent.

Still, after the first fraught evening, it hadn't turned out to be too terrible.

He found Ben and Rey at the table with mugs of tea and an almost empty packet of cookies between them, he snagged it before Ben could scarff the rest.

He was slightly alarmed when Rey looked up at him, just before she smiled at him, there was a look of loss on her face, and her smile didn't reach her eyes.

"Would you like a cup of tea?" she asked as she stood, "The kettle boiled a few minutes ago."

Kylo frowned but nodded, "Yes, please." She nodded dutifully and left and he turned his frown on his brother.

"Good nap?" Ben asked as he cleaned up his design.

Kylo nodded distractedly, "Yes, but… Did you upset Rey somehow?"

Ben looked up at him, his eyes went to the kitchen door before he answer softly, "Not that I'm aware of, she went to make tea a little while ago and came back like that."

Kylo could see Ben was concerned, he was used to his brother making friends quickly and easily, but this seemed like something more. He sat down at the table, on the other side of Rey's empty chair and fiddled with a third pumpkin that had yet to be carved, cookies now forgotten.

Rey was a perceptive girl, had she some inkling of what he planned? That this was their last hurrah? But if that were so, why then, did she look so sad? He knew his feelings were one sided; she liked him, it would have been difficult to maintain their arrangement this long if she didn't to some extent. He knew she enjoyed the sex, her body responded in a way that would have been hard to fake, and she genuinely seemed to like the places he took her, so obviously there would be a little disappointment if she had worked it out, but sadness? That almost implied…

No, he wouldn't torture himself by thinking that way. Perhaps she had received a phone call or text that had upset her, maybe she was just tired.

"The third one is for you, you know," Ben said as he bent over his own pumpkin once more, Kylo could hear the smile in his voice.

Kylo snorted softly, then blushed a little as he realised Rey had entered carrying his tea. He took it gratefully, "I'll make dinner this evening," he offered, in a vain attempt to lift her mood.

But she gave him that smile again, her sad hazel eyes giving her the lie. Unsure what to do, he took himself off the the kitchen to open a bottle of wine and decided what he could make that she would like.

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That irresistible smile had gone, it had been replaced by an expression that was almost a facsimile, until you got to her eyes. Her spark was absent, and Ben had absolutely no idea why. Kylo had been no help, disappearing into the kitchen to 'cook', though Ben was fairly sure it was because he couldn't cope with dealing with emotions. His brother was such an idiot.

Rey was now curled up on the sofa, staring into the fire as if it held answers to long held questions.

He didn't want to crowd her, so he'd stayed at the table, clearing away the discarded pieces of pumpkin and wiping down the tools with a cloth he'd found.

There was the sound of her phone vibrating and he picked it up to take it to her, when he saw the notification that had lit up the screen. It was from a website called SugarDaddyMeet… Almost all the pieces of the puzzle fell into place.

He felt sad for his brother, that this was the only way he could have a relationship, he felt protective over Rey, that she did this, who ensured she remained safe? And it must make her having a real relationship impossible - he couldn't imagine a man who would be happy sharing her.

He walked woodenly over to where she sat and handed her her phone, hoping she wouldn't realise he'd seen the notification. But she took one look at his face and her eyes widened with alarm - he had always been an open book.

"Please don't tell Kylo you know," she begged quietly, one hand anxiously gripping his sleeve as she leaned towards him, "Please don't."

Her distress made him feel awful, he sat down next to her and put his arm around her, she was tense, her body almost vibrating with it. "It's okay, sweetheart. I won't tell him. Don't worry yourself," she nodded jerkily then bit down a sob, he could feel her fighting it. "What got to you earlier? Why so downhearted?"

She shook her head, a small bitter laugh escaped her, "Nothing, I'm fine."

Ben snorted, "Sure you are, you're about as fine as a kid who just dropped his ice cream. Spill, Kylo won't hear." She sagged against him, as if her strings had been cut, and he tried to ignore how good she felt against him as she steadied her breathing.

"I just… I think Kylo is going to end our arrangement soon. I don't like the uncertainty, and it's a good arrangement, his… terms suit me and I'm just a little worried about the future," she sat up a little, straightening her spine, "But I'll be fine," she gave him a brittle smile that made his heart ache, "There's no shortage of men out there, last time it only took me a month to find Kylo, it'll be fine."

Ben frowned, "And the coffee shop job isn't enough money?"

Rey blushed and looked away from him, as if she were ashamed, "It is, when life is kind, but it seldom is. I originally signed up because my car had broken down, I was using most of my wages on rent, and didn't have enough for food and heating too… I don't have any qualifications that would lead to a better job and the few flatmates I've had, didn't last very long, for various reasons."

"You're a smart girl though, have you ever thought of night college or something?"

She gave him a small unhappy smile, "Yes, but I either haven't had the time or the money… I have saved some since I met Kylo… I guess I'll look at that when I get home."

Ben nodded, absently stroking her shoulder that was still under his arm, "And what was it that made you think Kylo is going to end things?"

She shrugged, "Just lots of little things," she shook her head, "It doesn't matter. We had a good run, these things seldom last."

So she had absolutely no idea that Kylo had feelings for her, and she didn't seem nearly as detached as she was trying to appear. Should he tell her about Kylo's feelings? Should he tell Kylo about this?

He watched as she unlocked her phone and minimised the notification. If someone told him that his little brother was a chuffing Sugar Daddy, he would have laughed his socks off, but right now, it didn't feel the least bit funny. Until he'd met Rey, it had never occurred to him that it could be dangerous, or that the girls doing it were anything other than grasping, lazy golddiggers. And Rey didn't have a family to help her out, give her emotional support, let alone financial assistance.

"Maybe, we could swap emails or numbers? It would be nice to keep in touch, though when I'm on tour there isn't always the opportunity. Still, I'd like to know how you're doing?" The uncertain look she gave him made hurry to qualify his request, "Just to chat, nothing dodgy, I promise… I just think... I'll worry about you."

For an awful moment, he thought she would really cry, she took a hiccuping breath in, held it, then let it out slowly, and finally, gave him a real smile, "Okay," she nodded, "I'd like that, thank you."

Her thanks made him wonder if she had any real friends in her life, or if she really were, all alone in the world. The thought made him infinitely sad.

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She had almost broken, the idea horrified her. She hadn't been this weak for a long time, she had thought she'd grown out of it. She was wrong.

But Ben's offer was comforting, even if it was dangerous. She needed to get a grip, she couldn't fall for him, or for Kylo, or anyone. People left, people left her. When you were ice, you couldn't get burned, when you felt nothing you couldn't be hurt. It was this place, the quiet was getting to her, filling up her head with echoing silence, making her so aware of her loneliness. Once she was back home, surrounded by the hurly burly of the city, this would all fade to grey. Life would go on. Perhaps she'd look into getting a house cat, or a rabbit, a companion whose only departure would be death.

The atmosphere over dinner was a little strained, though she smiled and chatted fairly normally, Kylo appeared to be brooding again and Ben kept giving her soft looks she wasn't sure how to interpret.

Kylo had produced a beautiful venison stew, it was thick and rich, laced porcini mushrooms and red wine. He served it with a potato and celeriac mash and crunchy green beans. The meal was warm and delicious and a perfect counterpoint to the rain and wind outside.

She loved how dark it was here, how there were no lights outside, just darkness and fleeting shimmers of moonlight as clouds scudded across its face, driven by the wind. It was possible to believe that they were the only ones in the world, marooned in the empty black night, with just the fire holding it back from swallowing them whole.

It was a little like a metaphor for her life, only it was just her in the cabin, her fire burning low. She wondered if she'd last the night, if the sun would rise again and find her, or if, come morning it would shine down on nothing, because nothing was there.

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When Kylo had gone through to ask Rey and Ben to clear the table, he had found them sitting closely on the sofa. They appeared to be swapping numbers.

For a second, his fists had clenched in fury, but the wave passed and all he was left with, was emptiness. He was going to end it, wasn't he? And Ben made Rey smile and laugh so easily, who was he to deny them? He had no claim to her, this had always been a transaction, nothing more.

A little sliver of hurt wormed its way into his heart, that his brother had been able to get her to respond to him and he hadn't. He pushed it down, he had never sought her affection, he had no right to expect it.

His memories would have to sustain him. It would be easier once he was home and could throw himself back into work. There were always plenty of girls on the Sugar Daddy website he used, he'd find another companion with no problem. As Ben would say, he just had to 'embrace the suck'.

After their meal, Ben and Rey lit tea lights and placed them in their pumpkins, he couldn't stop his lips curving as she smiled down at hers, then took a photo of it and Ben's, before clearing away the dinner things.

Kylo joined his brother on the sofa, enjoying the warmth and his second glass of wine, he was aware of Ben giving him sideways glances. "If you've got something to say, Ben, spit it out or just sit still."

Ben sighed and folded his arms, "Are you going to break up with Rey?"

Kylo blinked in surprise and turned to face Ben more fully, "What makes you think that?"

Ben shifted his weight a little, "You tell me and I'll explain if it's relevant," he insisted stubbornly.

Kylo glared at him, clenching his jaw but had to break eye contact when Ben's became too challenging, his brother saw too much. He sighed, rubbed his face, "Yes."

Ben glared at him, "You're a fucking idiot, Kylo. Are you blind as well as stupid?"

"I believe you said you'd explain if I confirmed you your theory, not insult me," he hissed back.

Ben rolled his eyes at him, "Rey worked it out."

Kylo bit back a curse, this weekend away was turning out to be a complete clusterfuck. He had no rejoinder, nothing but bitterness.

"She was really upset," Ben told him, his tone a little softer, a very little. "Why the hell are you ending it? I know you like her, Kylo. You should tell her."

Kylo angrily shook his head, "It's just time to move on. Of course I like her, this wouldn't have lasted this long if I didn't, but that is it. You're seeing things that aren't there… besides, she likes you."

Ben scoffed, "Don't be ridiculous, Kylo, she barely knows me."

"Sometimes all it takes is a few seconds, or so I've been told. You make her laugh and smile more than I ever could-" he stopped talking as he saw the kitchen door open, willing his face blank as Rey entered with the bottle of wine and her glass.

They watched a film, Kylo barely noticed what it was, all too aware of Rey curled up against him and of what his brother had told him. His thoughts were a maelstrom of emotions and the feel of her body pressed against his, the smell of her hair only added to his confusion.

He was almost relieved when she left for bed, he wasn't anywhere near tired, what with his afternoon nap and the turmoil inside him he had no chance of going to sleep now.

He and Ben were silent for a while, before Ben said, "No one is so broken, that they can't be fixed, Kylo. That includes you. You've existed alone and in the shadows too long, it's time you stepped into the light and embraced life, because you never know when your end will come, I've seen too many people die with regrets, I don't want the same for you, brother."

Ben's words were like tiny knives, cutting him up inside, "I can't, Ben, I… I just can't, okay?"

"Currently, Snoke is winning. He went to prison over twenty years ago, died fifteen years ago. You need to heal and move on, don't let what he did ruin you or control you."

Kylo bit his lip, tasted blood, he had been stone for so long, he didn't think it was possible to be anything else.

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Ben stayed up a long time with Kylo, hoping he would open up, but not wanting to push him to breaking point. They sat mostly in silence, staring at the fire as the night drew on.

It broke his heart, that Kylo hadn't recovered from their childhood abuser, and it made him angry that Snoke had died before he could get his hands on him. By all accounts, he had been killed by his cellmates, nonces' never did well inside.

When they finally went to bed, nothing had been resolved and he felt like he had failed Kylo, Rey too, as Kylo still wouldn't admit his feelings for her… and then of course he was disgusted with himself, for falling for his brother's girl.

All that anger and regret conspired to drag him down into nightmares; he really should have seen that coming.

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A combination of sadness, wine and and an an excess of fresh air meant Rey retired early for bed.

Ben's kindness had made her feel a little better, for the rest of it, she knew that it too would pass, she finally admitted to herself that she had fallen, but she would rise again, all it would take was some time.

She was a little worried about Kylo turning in early with her, if they had sex now, she wasn't sure she would be able to keep it together. Luckily he didn't and she knew if he woke up up for it, she'd be half asleep and only be aware of the sensations rather than her emotions.

Something woke her, it was still dark and the weather was still beating against the windows, as if it wanted to get inside.

Kylo was asleep, curled up with his back to her and several feet away. She sighed softly and turned over, but just as she closed her eyes, she heard it again, a small noise of distress.

It wasn't coming from Kylo, and she noticed their bedroom door was open. As she deliberated, the noise came again, it was soft but full of fear and Rey didn't give it a second thought as she slipped quietly out of bed and padded out to the landing.

She hesitated at Ben's bedroom door, a little afraid, but a sob sounded and then she was pushing open the door and making her way carefully to the large bed.

Ben was thrashing, terror on his face as he sobbed painfully. He was a seasoned marine, she was unsure how safe it was to wake a martial man from a nightmare. But his anguish was too raw to ignore.

She sat on the bed, and tried shaking him while speaking his name, his only response was a horrified gasp and more thrashing. She tired gripping his arms and speaking his name louder but he was so strong she just got shaken around.

"Ben!" Rey jerked up to see Kylo standing by the bed, looking down on his brother, an awful understanding in his eyes. He bent down and shook Ben violently, "Ben!"

Ben's eyes flew open and he choked on his breath, shuddering, "Kylo?" his voice was small and lost.

"He's dead, little brother. Dead and gone and he can't hurt us anymore," Kylo's voice was rough with emotion. Rey felt her skin prickle with horror at his words, not knowing what they referred to. She felt tears burn her eyes.

Perhaps she made a small noise, because both brothers turned to look at her. Then to her surprise, Ben was reaching for her, pulling her to him as he moved further across the bed and he tiredly said, "Get in Kylo, I don't think any of us want to be alone tonight."

Kylo hesitated and Rey looked up at him with wide eyes, having absolutely no idea what she should be doing right now. Ben clearly shouldn't sleep alone, at least one of them should stay. She opened her mouth to suggest she would be fine on her own but that Kylo should stay, when Kylo let out an defeated sigh and climbed into bed next to her. She was between them, walled in by the man she loved and the man she was falling for.

She should have felt trapped or panicked, but she didn't, somehow she felt her eyes drifting closed, with Ben's arm around her, one of Kylo's hands slipped into hers, just as sleep took her.

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Kylo was the first to wake. At first he was just confused, there was Rey sleeping next to him, and next to her was Ben.

Then he remembered what had transpired during the night, why they had ended up as they did. He hadn't know Ben still had nightmares, though perhaps that one had come about because of their talk last night.

Both Rey and Ben looked so peaceful now, oddly, he felt no jealousy, just an strange sort of contentment. Rey murmured in her sleep and shifted and he watched regretfully as Ben surfaced.

Ben stretched a little and opened his eyes, as his gaze fell on Rey he looked shocked and as Kylo raised an eyebrow at him, his expression became as bewildered as Kylo had felt himself upon waking.

"You had a nightmare, then bullied both of us into staying," he supplied, unsure how much Ben would remember.

Understanding dawned on Ben's face and he grimaced as if there was a bad taste in his mouth, "Sorry about that," he muttered, his ears turning red. To his surprise, Kylo found himself grinning at Ben.

Rey murmured in her sleep and made a small soft sound as she shifted. Kylo knew that sound well and his body responded immediately. It was an indicator that Rey was about to wake up, very horny and probably already wet. Well this was awkward.

She shifted again and curved her back against Ben, making another soft noise, Ben's eyes went round and he bit his lip as he stifled a groan.

"You should probably wake her," Ben's whisper was strained.

Kylo nodded and moved closer to her, which was also closer to Ben. This should be weird, why wasn't it weird?

He stroked her cheek as he called her name softly, she made a happy noise and wriggled, then froze as her eyes shot open, either she remembered where she was or realised that the hand stroking her cheek did not belong to the body she was probably right now grinding against.

"Oh!" her cheeks flushed and she hastily moved away from Ben. Kylo didn't miss the intense regret that flashed across his brothers face.

Rey swallowed, "Sorry," she mumbled, ducking her head.

Kylo wasn't sure what exactly she was apologising for, but an idea came to him and he decided to just run with it. "Did I tell you to stop, kitten?"

Ben frowned at him in confusion.

Rey's lips parted and he watched as her pupils blew, soaking up her irises, "No, sir?"

Kylo nodded, "Carry on then."

He kept his eyes steady as she paused for a beat, before she bit her lip and nodded. She moved back against a startled Ben, arching hesitantly against him.

Kylo moved closer to them both, slipping one hand under the duvet to tweak a nipple through her thin nightdress. They were already hardened and she hissed at the contact, "Good girl, kitten."

"Wait, what-?" Ben didn't finished his question because Kylo had slipped his fingers inside Rey's soaked panties and found her clit, it was her moaning that cut him off, instead of finishing his sentence, he swore.

"Just enjoy it, Ben, don't question it," he advised, "Touch her, she wants you to, don't you kitten?"

Rey froze for a second, then nodded, eyes still locked on his face. He arched an eyebrow and she nodded again, "Yes, please."

Ben swallowed and lifted one of his hands to palm her breast, Kylo slid his finger up and down her wet slit, occasionally flicking her clit, "When this one is in bed, you will call her kitten, what would you like her to call you."

Ben groaned, "I really don't care what she calls me," he leaned down to run his tongue along the side of her neck, before kissing it.

Kylo shook his head, "Kitten, you will refer to him as captain, okay?"

Rey nodded, "Yes sir, yes captain."

Ben groaned again and Kylo wondered when the last time he had sex was, offering his brother his cock ring may be taking things a bit far though.

He plunged a finger inside Rey, curving it so he reached her g-spot, soon she was bucking against Ben, moaning as her eyes slid shut.

Kylo licked his lips, and looked at Ben, "Do you want to taste her?"

"Fuck, this is crazy, but fuck, yes," Ben started to move down the bed and Kylo pushed Rey onto her back, then thrust the duvet away from them, off the bed.

Ben settled between Rey's legs, looking slight nervous, his boxers tented and straining, he hesitated then took a deep breath and slid Rey's panties down her legs before chucking them over his shoulder. Kylo pulled her nightdress up her body till her breasts were exposed as well.

Ben looked like a starving man at a feast, Rey whimpered with need and he placed his mouth upon her, she jerked and moaned as he started licking and sucking.

Kylo took one of her breasts in his mouth as his fingers pinched the other, his own erection was painful and urgent inside his the silk shorts he hard thrown on last night before he came to Ben's room.

He'd never tag-teamed before, he'd never liked the idea of sharing, but somehow this was okay and it opened up a whole new realm of possibilities… he detached himself from Rey's breasts and pulled his shorts off, "Mouth open, kitten."

Her eyes opened and she almost looked excited as he thrust into her eager mouth. Another expletive came from the direction of Ben and Rey moaned as she sucked his cock.

He could see she was getting close, her attention to the cock in her mouth wasn't aware as it should have been, but he couldn't blame her. As her moans and whimpers got louder, he felt himself get harder as he thrust quicker and quicker. As she came, he pushed himself as far in as he could do and help himself there as her body shook.

She didn't stop twitching and he looked down to see Ben still eating her out, one of his hands on himself. He turned back to Rey and pulled out of her mouth, kissed her then whispered in her ear, "Do you remember how if feels with my cock in your arse and a vibrator in your pussy, kitten? How full you feel?" she nodded, eyes wide. "Would you like to try that with two cocks? Will you be a good girl for us?" He was rewarded by a shuddering moan and a nod, then a gasped, "Yes sir, please sir."

He grinned, "Ben? Come up for air, will you?"

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Ben let out a disappointed noise but after one last suck on her clit, he looked up from Rey's soaked pussy to find Kylo ginning. Grinning! When was the last time he had seen that phenomenon?

"On your back," Kylo ordered him and because he was being let solely by his dick, Ben obeyed.

"Shuffle down a bit" came the instructions, "Stop, that's it, now, on you hop kitten."

Ben's whole body flushed with anticipation, the voice of reason in the back of his head long since silenced by Rey's divine taste.

He watched in awe as she pulled her slip off completely, revealing herself in all her soft, tanned glory. Sweet merciful fuck, but she was perfect.

Kylo lifted her to straddle Ben and he could feel how wet her pussy was against his cock, how hot. Kylo had palmed her slit and was stroking himself with her excess come as she positioned herself and lined herself up with his cock in hand. For a moment she looked up at him and he bit his lip and nodded, pleaded, more likely.

Rey sank down, biting her own lip as her eyes closed, she moaned, her voice joined his hissing breath. She was tight and wet and so fucking perfect, if he died right now, he would die happy.

He hit home and they sat panting for a moment, before Kylo pushed her forwards onto his chest. He could feel her hard little nipples against his skin, her pussy clenching around him.

Then he felt something else and realised just what Kylo was doing. Rey whimpered but took it, biting her lip as she dug her nails into his shoulders. Ben ran his hands soothingly up and down hers sides, murmuring nonsensical encouragement and endearments.

When Kylo bottomed out, they all paused, suddenly aware how connected they all were in this moment. Then Kylo started to move, gently and Ben copied him, thrusting in as Kylo pulled out, working in tandem.

They picked up speed as Rey's body adjusted, now welcoming the intrusion and they chased their pleasure. Ben leaned upwards to capture her mouth as Kylo angled his body now so he could bite her neck.

Rey's lips were soft, even now a little shy, her tongue was hot and silky against his and he felt his dick throb inside her, her pussy tightened in response and judging by Kylo's groan, she had tightened around him too. It wouldn't be long now, he was amazed he'd last this long… "Can I come inside you?" he panted, hoping so much she would say yes.

Kylo detached from her neck, "Up to you, kitten, would you like us to fill you up with come?"

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Rey came, sobbing, shuddering, falling limp upon Ben's chest. "I think we can take that as a yes," Kylo's voice said above her, his voice was almost a growl. She had never felt so full, never felt so safe as she did now.

Kylo withdrew from her body and two large pairs of hands maneuvered her. Kylo was now lying on the bed and she had her back to him as he thrust inside her arse again. Her breath hissed through her teeth at the sinfully good pleasure/pain, then Ben entered her pussy again and they started moving, both urgent now, both needing their own release.

"Rub your clit, kitten, we want you to come when we do, like a good girl," Rey's whole body prickled with goose bumps and she found her clit, pinching it as they pounded into her.

She could feel them swelling, feel them getting harder inside her, they fit so well, so snug, she was made for them, for them both. The thought and the friction and the fullness carried her away again and this time they came with her. Ben gasped and shuddered as he filled her pussy, and Kylo growled, gripping her hips as he emptied himself inside her arse.

She was practically boneless now and lay sprawled on her back against Kylo's chest, unwilling to break this moment of bliss, to think of anything other than how this felt.

It was over too soon; Ben pulled out of her, then lifted her up to help Kylo do the same. She was cradled against Ben's chest as he held her, she could feel his racing heartbeat against her cheek.

"I think a bath may be a good idea," Ben suggested in a hopeful voice.

A unexpectedly warm chuckle came from Kylo's direction, "It is. I'll go and run it."

There was the sound of soft footsteps, then Ben was sitting down, with her still in his arms, "Rey?" he queried, sounding a little nervous, "Are you okay? Was that okay?"

Rey shivered and nestled closer to him, aware of the come covering her legs and pussy and buttocks cooling unpleasantly, "I am… that was… I don't know… it was everything that I needed… what about you? Did you... Do you mind?" she was worried he would feel used.

"Do I mind? Are you kidding me? That was.. I don't know, incredible doesn't do it justice… it was everything I needed, too."

She nodded against his chest, "Ben? Did you see Kylo grin?"

"Yes," he answered quietly, voice full of emotion, "I hadn't realised you saw."

Rey shook her head, "I didn't, but, I could hear it, I could feel it," she tapped her chest, "In here."

"You love him."

It was a statement, but she answered anyway, it was time to be brave, time to start taking risks, time to start living, "I do. I love him, and I hate that I do and I'm terrified, but what is worse, is that I am falling for you too, Ben."

His chest froze and she looked up, concerned, afraid; his eyes were wide as they looked down at her in disbelief, he swallowed, "You are?" his voice was a mere thread, it sounded a little like it had when they had woken him up from his nightmare.

Rey wriggled in his arms so she could reach his lips, she kissed him as tenderly as she knew how before pulling away, "Yes."

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Kylo poured the same bath oil as yesterday into the warm water as it ran. His skin was still tingling, but his mind was calm, he didn't know what had just occurred. Obviously they'd had sex, but beyond that, on a deeper level, he didn't know what any of it meant. Sharing Rey hadn't felt wrong, it had felt so right, intrinsic, this was the belonging he had sought, all these years he hadn't known it, but in this moment he was sure. He felt a bone deep certainty. He could die happy now, fulfilled.

He turned off the water and went to get Rey and Ben. Ben still had her in his arms and he looked up when he heard Kylo, then stood.

Kylo noticed Ben's eyes were glassy with unshed tears, but didn't comment on it.

Rey whimpered a little as Ben lowered her into the water, into Kylo's waiting arms, before Ben climbed in himself.

"Shhhh," Kylo crooned to her, "The sting will go away quickly, I promise." She nodded and sat up a little, giving him a small smile, the spark back in her eyes and Kylo couldn't help but to mirror it.

It was now or never, while he felt brave enough, while his brother was with him it was easier to speak his heart, "Rey, you don't have to answer now, but I have a question for you," he paused and Rey bit her lip, nodding slightly, and he forged on, "I'd like to end our arrangement," her mouth turned down and she took a sharp breath in, "And try a real relationship, with you. If you want to, that is."
Her lips curled upwards a little, "Okay. Yes, my answer is yes… although, I may not be very good at it."

Kylo smiled and tucked some of her hair behind her ear, "I doubt I will be either, we can learn together," he caught Ben grinning at him and he returned it, "I'd also like to include Ben, when he's around," and he watched in satisfaction as Ben's jaw dropped.

Rey's breath caught on a sob as she jerkily nodded her head in agreement. So he had been right, it wasn't only him that felt complete when it was the three of them. He pulled Rey against him and grabbed Ben's arm, pulling him so he was pressed against Rey's back.

Ben's eyes spilled over and he buried his face in Rey's neck, one of his hands gripped Kylo's, there were no need for words now.

They may have all fallen, but they'd fallen together, and that was all that really mattered.

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