Losing Control

Warning: First off I want to say that it was hard for me to write this and I do not accept this behavior in any way shape or form. I thought of different ways I could have written this but this is the only way to correctly portray what I wanted to. This chapter has some graphic elements in them. I don't go in to detail but if you have a past that is sensitive to this subject, please feel free to skip this chapter. Please leave a review and if you have any suggestions for future chapters feel free to tell me. Thanks for understanding and reading. P.S. I know my grammar sucks. I am sorry about that, I am just to cheap to buy a grammar check thing.

Katara took Aang's words to heart. He was right after all. If she wanted to move forward in life she had to let go of the past, and one of the best ways to do so is to confront the main reason for all the pain.

She knew him very well. Even after all these years he still had the same routine and hung out with the same people. They meet in high school. A year after Katara's mom died they started dating. Just like every relationship the beginning was perfect, he was perfect. He was the star player on the football team, was super popular, and an all around bad boy that every girl secretly loved, and that was the case for Katara.

She didn't know really why she had an attraction to him, maybe it was a simple case of a girl falling for guy or maybe it was something more. He knew that Katara liked him and he used that to his advantage.

Boys can be jerks to get what they want, and in this case he wanted Katara. He played it off for awhile that he was this picture perfect boyfriend and it worked. Katara had no idea the real game that he was playing.

He and Katara where dating for almost a year. It was the end of there senior summer and as a class it was their last hu-rah before going off to college. The whole class pitched in to rent a cabin by the lake where there would be no teachers and especially no parents. It took some convincing but Katara got permission to go. Katara applied for a nursing school out of state. She got in but wasn't sure if she was going to go since her boyfriend got into a college closer to home. So she wanted this night to be special and memorable, but what she didn't expect was that if it was a good kinda memorable.

It was like your average teenage party, alcohol, cigarettes and a couple of drinking games. Katara and her boyfriend were the talk of the school, the power couple. But unannounced to Katara, he was finally going to make his move he has been so patiently waiting for.

Katara wanted to let loose and have fun for once in her life. Usually she is the goody to-shoes rule follower, but this was the end of the year so why the hell not. Katara by no means was an experienced drinker. By the second beer she was already started to get drunk and by the first shot on top of that she was long gone. A couple of hours in to the party and he took notice of the state that Katara was in and knew it was time to do what he had been so patiently waiting for.

Katara was down stairs talking to some of her "friends". He brought her a glass of water and took her up stairs saying she need to sit down.

"What are we doing up her?" Katara said in a drunken voice. "Oh this bed is soft."

"I brought us up here so we could have some alone time." he said as he closed the door.

"Umm, I don't know if that is a good idea." Katara sat up and watched him as he slowly crept his way towards her. He sat down down next to her and placed his hand on her upper thigh.

"Why not? You know you want to." he said as he started to kiss the bottom of her neck.

Katara instantly threw his hand off and leaned back as for him to stop kissing her. "Yeah maybe, byt not like this. I want it to be special, not while I am drunk."

With this, she got up and headed for the door. Only to be stopped by a hand that grabbed her wrist. Katara turned around to see him standing right in front of her grabbing her wrist so to nit let her escape. "Let go!" she yelled as she tried to pry his fingers off. He was to strong and with the state that she is currently in she was helpless.

With his other hand, he grabbed her arm and threw her back on the bed. Katara hit the bed with her back on the bed. She felt her hands get pinned up over her head. She tried to wiggle free but with her hands trapped and his weight on top of her hips she was not going anywhere. "I have waited to long for this and put up with you for too long to not get what I initially came for. I will have you Katara." His words hit Katara like a bag of bricks. He never loved her like she did him. He just used her to get what he wanted.

Katara needed to get out. She tried to muster up any strength and soberness she had left. She even tried screaming and kicking hoping that someone could hear her over the loud music. But it was to no avail.

This only mad him more mad. With his free hand he covered her mouth. Also in the heat of the moment he failed to realize that he also covered up her nose as well, so he was slowly suffocating her. "Shut it!" he yelled as his grip got tighter around her mouth and nose.

All she could do and think was listen to the sound of her breathing and how it get harder and harder to do so. Then how her eyes got really heavy, and she couldn't keep them open anymore.

The next thing she knew she was back in her room. The sun shining through the window and the birds singing like they always do every morning, but it wasn't like every morning and she couldn't quit put a finger on it.

She got out of bed and mad her way down stairs to the kitchen for some food. She knew she wouldn't feel good cause of the alcohol but what she didn't expect was the fact that she was sore. Her lower half was stiff and she couldn't help but walk like a penguin.

As she made her way towards the kitchen, she could hear talking which made her curious at who could be over at this early in the morning. She rounded the corner to see her dad sitting at the table with two cops and Toph? Katara hasn't spoken to Toph in almost a year. Why is she here?

Katara gave a fake cough which made all the heads in the room turn. "Will someone please explain what is going on?" Instantly her father ran over to her and rapped his arms around his daughter.

"Are you ok. What happened." Katara's father said which made her even more confused as to what happened.

One of the cops stood up and made his way over to the father and daughter. "Excuse me miss, but I have a couple of questions to ask."

Katara's dad let go and they made their way back to the kitchen table. She sat beside Toph, which she was still wondering why she was here, and waited for the questions that the police had for her. "Am I in trouble?" Katara asked as to try and get the slightest clue as to what is going on.

"No but we have a couple of questions about last night." The same officer said as he flipped his little notepad open. "What do you remember about last night?"

Katara had a million questions running through her head, but she decided to answer the question and maybe some of hers will be answered in the process. "Um… I was at a party, and I was with my boyfriend." There was like a slight tension in the room which made her feel uneasy.

"Do you remember anything in particular. Like where you and your boyfriend ever alone." The cop asked. Everyone was staring at her now and she felt like everyone knew something but her.

"Yeah, I was getting tired so he took me upstairs and got me a glass of water. Last thing I remember was going to sleep then waking up here." Katara told them all she knew, but still something was missing. She looked around the table. She saw her dad looking down at his hands which here clenched really tight, to the cops talking to themselves.

"She doesn't remember." Katara over heard one of the cops saying.

"What don't I remember?" Katara said as she looked around the table trying to get an answer.

Katara's dad grabbed her should. She turned around to see him all but crying. Last time she saw this face her mother died. "Sweetie, I really don't know how to say this but…"

"Jet rapped you." Toph blurted out. Katara snapped her head to look at Toph. The whole table in fact looked at her. "What? She needs to know. I saw you and him go up stairs. I never trusted him and I over heard him talking to one of his friends that he was going to get some tonight." Katara just stared at her with a blank expression. Toph wasn't done yet. "I heard some screaming coming from upstairs and when I opened the door, well…"

Katara didn't believe it. He wouldn't do that, she thought. "NO! That never happened. I would of remembered."

"Katara think. When I walked in I pushed him off. You where out cold. I had to wake you up and even then you were barely conscious. He also might have a broken nose."

She was right, it all came back to Katara. The forceful touch and the words he spoke. I will have you Katara, kept going repeating itself over and over again in her head. Katara was in full tears know. She frantically looked around the table to find everyone staring at her. They all where watching and she hated when all eyes are on her. She go up still crying and ran back up stairs, just wanting to be alone.

She felt sick and headed for the bathroom. The thought of what happened disgusted her and on top of that the alcohol didn't help either. She lost count at how many times she threw up. Once she was done nothing was left to throw up, Katara sat on the floor of the bathroom balled up with her knees to her chest crying till there was nothing left. What felt like forever, she sat there. Then finally a knock came.

"Go away." Katara said plainly. The door opened still and Toph came through. "What are you doing here?"

"I know we haven't spoken in awhile ever since you started dating him…" Toph started saying but was cut off.

"So what, you came her to say I told you so. Well congratulations you were right." Katara said taking her frustration out on Toph.

"That is not why I am here." Toph said a little louder then she wanted, but seeing the state that her friend was in, Toph calmed down. "I am here to say sorry, and I am here if you need me." Toph knelt down besides Katara and place a hand on her shoulder. Toph wasn't good at the whole comforting thing but she was going to try.

Suddenly Katara flung her arms around Toph and started to cry anything she had left. "Thank you." Katara said as she was grateful to have somebody.

10 months later:

"Thank you dad, I'm going to miss you." Katrara said as was finishing up packing all her things in her car. Her family was there to wish her well as she was about to leave for college. Katara took a year off from school due to an unexpected pregnancy. For 9 months she was cooped up in the house not wanting to bring attention to herself.

The talk around the town finally died down after the trail, which if we were honest he got off free if you ask her. Only 5 years really. But she didn't care she was about to travel 6 hours in the opposite direction of him and start a life for herself.

"Ok, sweetie. I'll miss you too. Watch out for her Toph." Hakoda said as he hugged his girl for the last time.

"Will do." Toph was ready to go. Over the 10 months her and Katara have gotten close cause of the incident. Toph got accepted in to the same college for personal training. She like helping people workout or she liked to call it free hazing.

"I'm going to miss you little sis. Be careful out there, and just know that you can always call and I'll be there as soon as possible." Sokka was the last person that she had to say good bye to. Over the years they grew closer with the death of their mother. Sokka would do anything for his lil sis and her in return.

"Just take care of her while I am gone please." Katara started crying as she saw her daughter in Sokka's arm. Katara bent down and kissed it on the forehead. Giving her daughter away was the hardest thing she has ever done in life so far. Even though it was her bother, having to live with the secret was killing her, but it was for the best. She was in no condition to raise a child. She had no job and no way to help raise the child in the life that it deserved.

So when ever she was born Sokka and Suki took legal guardianship of the child. Maybe one day when Katara had a steady job and got her life together, then maybe she can give her child the life she deserves.

When Katara finally found him, Jet was out side one of the bars with his old group of buddies. It was late in the night and Katara had been driving around looking for him after her talk with Aang.

Katara parked a ways back so to not be seen by him but have a good enough vantage to watch him. It was like he didn't have a care in the world. That not even 100 ft. away was a persons life he completely ruined.

With all those emotions coming back so to did the memories. They came flooding back all in quick flashes. The feeling of his hands trapping hers to the bed. The feeling of wanting to breath but can't. The feeling of helplessness as she wanted to get free but can't. Then before she knew it tears were running down her face. What was she thinking? She couldn't face him, not know. She had t get out of there. Katara got out of there as quick as possible and head to the only place where the only person she felt safe round was.

"Hey Jet you ok?" one of Jet's friends asked.

"Yeah, I thought I saw someone I havent seen in a while." Jet watched a car leave the parking lot, and he could of sworn he thought that was Katara in the car.