{Wonderless}

AU Jasper: Bitter, Alcoholic, Bi-Polar

AU: Steven: Age-up (It whatever you want)

Lyrics: "Wonderless" by Pierce The Veil

It was safe to say that the news that the sights of her murderous conquest was Pink Diamond didn't sit too well the Orange Goliath. Alcohol nor was the constant, breathing reminder of her error, as well as her deception, didn't create the best environment for her unstable mind. It wasn't that she blamed the hybrid for all that happened. In fact, she admires him for his strength and merciful ideals. Unfortunately, she couldn't stand being around him. Sometimes, she didn't see Steven as, well, Steven. She saw something so elegant, so magnificent, so… unique. She envied him. He was Rose Quartz's (rather Pink Diamond's) greatest creation. He was constantly showered with love, from both gems and Diamonds alike. As he grew older, so did the power that grow inside him. He was easily the strongest fighter she ever laid eyes on, despite his passive nature. He was her opposite and, yet. She still loved him as, if not more than, she loved Pink Diamond. But while he was cheery, she was suffering. She was already scarred from her experience during her corruption, and she only got worst the more Steven continued to be around her. Steven, being Steven, made multiple offers to help her, and fix whatever was bothering her. Jasper's drinking problem over the past 4 years bothered Steven. However, Jasper barely acknowledged his presence, and would continue to drown her sorrows with the bottles of Rosé, silently cursing him.

'If you want to truly fix my problem, then the first thing you can do is drop dead.'

What was the use of being made perfect, if you weren't good enough in your creator's eyes?

{I don't care

If your beautiful lips

Exist out there

Because I'm wonderless

Why the best can't make it in Hollywood

No more}

After another day of isolated drinking, in the dead of night, Jasper towered over the bed of Steven Universe. She hated how peacefully he slept. Didn't he know she was here to kill him? Surely, he knew that he hour of reckoning had arrived. In a drunken fit, Jasper ultimately decided that she would personally get rid of her problem, permanently. She didn't know how she would do it, but she knew she wanted him gone. Without him, she would no longer be in pain. She wouldn't have to live with the constant reminder that there was someone who won the eye of her grace.

'Pink Diamond…'

{Because maybe I'm a fake

Maybe you're to blame

Maybe I'm a star

Stumbling drunk light

My mistakes I've made won't leave me alone

Oh no}

Her dizzy head became a splitting ache as she began to become conflicted. As she gripped her head frustration, thoughts and memories of her lord invaded her mind. She recounted her love for Pink Diamond, her beauty, even her unfortunate "death." The pain Jasper had succumbed to that day was worst than any wounds she ever suffered. Never had the pinnacle of Gem innovation known true pain until that day.

'Never again!' She affirmed. She picked the Star Child out of the bed and carried him off to the front door.

'I'll never be that weak again.'

Steven had awoken to the sounds of crying. His eyes were bathed in a sea of white and orange, and he was sure that he could the sounds of crashing tides in the distance. The scent of wine stained his nose. He felt that he would become intoxicant if he stayed like this. But when he tried to pry himself from her grip, she held he tighter.

"[bitterly] Steven…" She wept. "Please, it hurts."

"What hurts Jasper?" He asked, somberly.

"My existence, Steven. My life's been a joke. I was abandoned by my own creator. And after her supposed death, dedicate my whole life to avenging her by coming after you rogue defects. And in the end." She takes a shaky breath. "It was all for not. Pink Diamond preferred the humans of this alien world over gems of her colonies and HomeWorld." Jasper then gripped the boy by his armpits, and she held him out, as if she needed to inspect him from a distance. Steven was now caught in the broken gaze of her distraught face. "She picked you over me, Steven. And because of that, I almost killed you this evening."

{And if you don't find me on the front page

Find a way to say that you saw me

And if you don't find me in a movie

Find a way to say that you knew me

You and I got lost along the way

But this will end some day some way

And if you don't find me at all

Then I won't care

Oh yeah}

Steven didn't have a response for this. From what he could gather, he was a part of the problem she has been fighting for countless years, if not the living embodiment of it all. He understood that she was desperate for help if she was begging to him. But what could he say, that probably hasn't already been said? He debated whether he should at least hug her, but quickly dismissed the idea, since this was the first full conversation (or at least close to one) he had with the warrior in years, and he didn't want to push his luck. So, he said what he honestly felt.

"Why didn't you?" He asked.

She paused for a moment.

"I would have lost the last connection I have left to her. While I proclaim hatred for you, my heart still burns for you. Rather, it burns for what you represent. What you could be."

"What do you want me to be, Jasper? If it will end your pain, and all this turmoil, I'm willing to do anything for you. Just say the word."

Finally, Steven was making progress with Jasper, and he wasn't let his friend relapse back into darkness. She pinned him to the dirt, ripped at his shirt, leaving nothing torn pieces of cloth flow out in the ocean on the wind. Steven laid silently on the ground, shocked by the sudden life what was in Jasper. She straddled him against the rocks and sand. Steven took this chance to get his barrens on his surrounds. It appeared that his was at a cave's edge. The pale moonlight shone over them, cause Jasper's eyes, as well as her gem, to slightly sparkle. He became transfixed on her features, he nearly missed her talking.

"Love. I want to start over with you, Steven. I don't want to carry this pain any more. I want someone to admire me. To be there with me." Slowly, she caressed his gemstone, causing a vibrate blush to appear on the young adult. Her eyes admire, hungerly at the jewel. "I want you to love me as I loved her. I will never leave you, nor would ever turn my back on you. I will hold onto you tightly for the rest of my days. I want to be your side 'til my last moments." She finished with kiss to the gem she swears to serve, until she was no longer useful.

{If I could find a place for the holiday

Maybe I would call

You're a payphone away

From the mess that I've become

I'm destroying what I love}

'When did she learn to speak with such, emotion?' A tear fell down his cheek as he cupped her face and placed a chaise kiss on her forehead.

And with that, all of Jasper's pain stopped. No more headache, nor dizziness. Everything felt brand new. Jasper looked up at Steven, and for a moment, she could have sworn she saw a glowing form of Pink Diamond shining behind them, as Rose Quartz walked away in tow. But, again, this all could have been a drunken daydream. Well, even though it's was late.

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