Reliving The Past

AU Plot bunny that wouldn't live my mind… light spoilers for season 6 based on the trailer and wondercon interviews, What if Clarke woke up and she was in Mount Weather again?

Chapter 1- Clarke

Clarke opened her eyes, everything was white, clean, and sterile. Light fixtures were covering the entire ceiling. There was a electricity here, a lot of it. She sat up, there was an eerie sense of déjà vu. She tried to stand up, but she had no socks on, and the floor was cold, freezing to the touch. She noticed the IV in her arm, but she did not immediately ripped it out. She knew that if she turned her head, she would see a priceless painting on the wall. So she turned her head, and there was the Van Gough. How is this possible? How is she back here?

She very carefully takes out the IV, much more carefully than she did in the last century, It was a century ago right? Clarke asked herself. She finally stood up and went to window by her door, bracing herself to what she would see. She knew that this would hurt most than anything she had experienced so far. Her dear friend that sacrificed everything so that she and her friends could make it to a new world, would be staring back at her. Clarke hesitated, but it was as if she was on auto pilot, and we went to the door. There was her friend, Monty. This Monty looked younger, less scarred, less battle worn. This wasn't her friend. Clarke read the sign she knew would be there, "Mount Weather".

She stepped back and took a longer look at the painting, went back to look at the window. There was Maya, cleaning up Monty's room. This paralyzed Clarke like nothing else. They were all dead, she was responsible for their deaths. Yet there was Maya, cleaning up Monty's room. How was any of this possible? Clarke just sat on the bed, trembling with fear at the implication of whatever was going on. She tried to think clearly, what was the last thing she remembered? Sanctum, yes, she was on Sanctum. She was on a world that was a few galaxies away from their own, it had taken them 75 years to travel there, in cryo sleep. They landed, that she remembered that, but everything after that was so fuzzy. There was a man named Russell, and there were eclipses, and they induced psychosis. The psychosis induced violence, not hallucinations.

Clarke's musings however suddenly stopped as the door opened. "Hi Clarke, please don't be afraid, my name is Maya, and I am here to finish your intake." Maya.

Clarke just looked petrified at the girl, unable to move or respond. This is not what happened 133 years ago. Of this she was certain, Clarke looked at her arm, there was no scar there, no scar where she had been stitched up. Of course there would be no scar now, she didn't violently break open the door, and terrorize Maya into taking her into level 5.

"If you would follow me, I can take you to more comfortable clothing, and will explain everything to you." Maya said. So Clarke stood, and followed Maya out of the room. Maya took her to the elevator, and they both got on. Clarke caught herself in a reflection on the Mirror in the elevator. Her hair was longer than it had been, and just like Monty, she looked younger, less battle worn."

"I was expecting that you would be asking a lot of questions" said Maya, as the door dinged. She remembered that the dorms were to the right, they took a left. They went into a room where the portable dresser was. "You can pick whatever you want, whatever makes you feel comfortable. Someone else will be by to take you to the next place" Maya said and she left the room.

Is this what would have happened if she had been more peaceful the first time around? This was a hallucination. So she broke the heel of a shoe, and placed her hand flat on the dresser, and hit herself as hard as she could. "aghh" Clarke cried out. It hurt like hell, and now she was bleeding. So this wasn't a dream. If Maya and Monty were alive, then all of Mount Weather would be alive too. Finn was alive, Lexa… no they all died, Earth was dead, and she ahd played a big hand in that.

She stopped right there. None of it had happened yet. She hadn't killed Finn, Lexa had not betrayed her, ALIE had not taken over, Pramfyre had not destroyed the world. She was not a nightblood. Madi, Madi was out there, with her parents alive, and she would be four years old right now.

The door opened, and a couple of guars came in, with Dr. Tsing and Dante Wallace. "Hello Clarke, how's your hand, can I see, you hit yourself pretty hard" DR. Tsing said. Clarke stayed silent. 133 years ago she stayed silent in defiance. Now, she stayed silence in fear, terror because she could not go through this all over again. She was on Sanctum, and this was something she could not explain. So she said nothing.

"Not much of a talker right?" Dr. Tsing asked. "A skill picked up from the savages, no doubt" said Dante.

Dr. Tsing forcefully picked up Clarke's hand. It was this that woke Clarke from her stupor. She knew now that she had to play it as close as she did the first time, to ensure that she would escape. So she let Dr. Tsign bandage her hand.

Clarke followed her script as Dante first allowed her to change, and then toured the facility with her. Clarke kept her responses as if she didn't know what was happening, asking questions about how they survived on the ground. Which technically wasn't far from the truth, she really didn't know how she was reliving all of this over again.. She kept a steely exterior. But every mount weather person she saw was a tiny stab in her psyche. She was mentally preparing herself for what she would see when she got to the dorms.

The doors opened, and there was Jasper and Monty, Both with big goofy smiles on their faces, happy at seeing their friend. This was what broke her heart above anything else. Both of them ran over to her, and hugged her. She was pretty sure Jasper hated her at the end, and Monty could only tolerate. She still didn't know why she was picked to be woken up first. She asked the questions she knew that they would be able to answer. Clarke played along as they served them a meal for the first time.

Clarke then sought out Miller, with the excuse of being happy to see him, she whispered "Bloodraina".

"What?" asked Miller, with no recognition in his eye. "ALIE, Sanctum, does it mean anything to you?" asked Clarke.

"Are you ok?" asked Miller. "I'm fine" asked Clarke. And she quickly moved away from Miller before anyone else could get more suspicious. So she went about her day like she had the first time. She didn't know why, but she intensively knew that she needed to follow what happened before as much as possible. Miller's unfamiliarity with those events cemented what she had been dreading. She was on her own.

Jasper and Monty fought about cake, and then Jasper went to go see Maya, and she interrupted them. She almost apologized when she membered that she didn't take her hostage, so she made small talk, and carefully swiped Maya's key card. She did it more carefully this time. So hopefully she would go unnoticed longer.

This time she went straight to medical, and went straight to the back entrance to where the cages were stored. She picked up a medical tray from the center, and opened the door to the cages. Her plan was to break out Anya, as she had the first time, even if it was a day earlier. The entire room went crazy when they saw her, but Clarke was prepared for that. What she was not prepared for was for what she heard. "Clarke?" said a woman through the first cage overlooking where they would hang the grounders for their blood.

Clarke could not believe it, Echo was there, and more importantly, she recognized her. "Echo? You know me?" asked Clarke, now with more questions. Miller was still alive, but he did not recognize those events, yet here was Echo, knowing exactly who she was.

"How the hell are we in Mount Weather again? Of course I know you" said Echo.

"No time, we have to leave now" said Clarke. Instead of breaking Anya out, she broke out Echo. This was happening a whole day earlier than it did last time, but she didn't care. She had a plan.