HI Folks! I know we are all caught up in Darvey, but I could not help thinking of Scottie and how would she have closure with Harvey. The first part is an old song from The Fifth Dimension 1970 circa. I thought it fit her relationship with Harvey and how she loved him. This is a two part shot. So let me know what you think. As always R&R Love - Carebearmaxi

If I Could Reach You

A Dana Scott Fic

Oh no, don't go
It's hours till dawn
And there's no one who'd rather be with you
I know you know other girls like me
I let you take my love
Knowing you don't love me

But if I could reach you some way

If I knew the magic it would take

To love you good enough on the outside

And make you feel it on the inside

Maybe I could make you stay

If I could reach you

The dark is getting light

And you're dressed to go

And never said a word about tomorrow

But if I could reach you some way

If I knew the magic it would take

To love you good enough on the outside

And make you feel it on the inside

Maybe I could make you stay.

The alarm went off. Scottie hit the damn thing and it fell off her nightstand. She did not know why she insisted maintaining an old fashioned alarm when most people used their cell phones. She lay back on her pillows and stared at her pale white ceiling. Wedding day. His Wedding Day. Why did I accept the invitation? I could have just sent a gift and be done with it. No, I accepted the invitation and I convinced Adam Reinkin from my firm to be my plus one.

Scottie looked at the time, and it was only 8:00 am. Before the wedding tonight, she had to go to work, have lunch with a client, make sure that Adam is ready to go and then show up at the church by 8:00 pm just to have to sit in a pew and witness the marriage of the love of her life to the love of his life.

While she showered away the megrims of the night, she had not slept well in anticipation of this wedding she thought she never see. She realized a long time ago that Donna Paulsen was the true love of Harvey's life, but Scottie had wanted to ignore those feelings and still feel if they had just spent enough time together he would see that she could love him and that, perhaps, he could do the same for her.

She remembered the physicality of their relationship and how many times she had mistakenly thought that sex would make him change his mind and want her permanently. From the beginning Dana Scott had fallen hard for Harvey Specter. If I could reach him...

Harvard Law School

"Hey, Scottie, do you want to come to my father's club tonight and hear him play," Harvey Specter whisperingly asked the pretty, petite, dark haired woman who sat in front of him in Ethics Class.

"Shh...Prof Gerard is talking. No, I have to study tonight. We have exams tomorrow," Scottie answered the dark blonde haired, brown eyed, good looking sweet talking guy with whom she had been fooling around.

"Aw, come on, Scottie. I told him about you," Harvey kept hammering at her. He sat behind her and kept tapping her on the shoulder to get her attention.

Scottie rolled her eyes because she knew that she was just pretending to play hard to get. She knew she would be there. Harvey was irresistable and to top it all off she would meet his father. Gordon Specter, sax player extraordinaire. Gordon was also the first family that Harvey would introduce her to. She knew what came next: drinks with Harvey as their conversation would turn more and more filled with sexual innuendo until they wound up in bed in her little apartment that she shared with two other young women.

They were capable of other things as well. Harvey had a sharp mind when he chose to apply it to other things when not trying to bed every female who gave him a twinkle. Scottie had decided that tonight was not going to happen! Besides they were using each other. He's only sleeping with me because I've been keeping his grades up and I've been sleeping with him...because he's hot and he knows it. What a pair.

Scottie came out of the shower and put on her light blue dress that she had chosen for the office. She had a matching jacket, so it would be appropriate for court. She would not be there too long because this was only a civil suit for her client. As Scottie then rode to the office with her usual driver, Elaine, her cell rang. It was Adam. Probably wants to make sure he's in the proper outfit. I really don't know how he ever came to live on his own. His mother must have been picking out his suits until he was 30.

"Hi Dana. It's Adam," he said in his lilting slight cockney accent. "I'm just wondering if I have picked out the correct suit for this evening's festivities. You know me. I'm not exactly high fashion material."

Dana laughed before she spoke. "I'm sure whatever suit you place on your frame will be appropriate. We're still to meet at the hotel bar at 7:00, right? I don't think I could even stay seated in a pew on this day without liquid reinforcement." Dana said with a small tragic resigned laugh at the end and then her mind began to drift back in time...

"I'm engaged, Harvey."

"So, what do you want me to say?"

"Oh I don't know. Change my mind?"

As usual Harvey was mildly miffed that I lied by omission before we slept together and did not tell him I was engaged to Steven. I came back mistakenly thinking I had left something important behind me. I thought, maybe, he had grown up and wanted a real relationship with me. I mistakenly thought that absence would make the heart grow fonder. Mine did, not Harvey's.

When we parted before my plane took off, Harvey gave me a consolation hug.

When I came back to London and met Steven at Heathrow, I knew I couldn't do it. I couldn't marry this man when my heart was still filled with another man I left in New York City.

Then the disastrous merger happened and all the misunderstandings and secrets when I came back to a senior partner position at Pearson Hardman. However, it had become Pearson Specter in the interim and Harvey now had secrets that prevented him from being completely open with me. He wanted it to work, or so I thought. It was not all just business. He did release some of his feelings then and we made a pseudo commitment. He did tell me he wanted more than just to work with me.

"Scottie that's not all I want," Harvey said having captured my arm gently before I walked away and turned me to look in those soft dark brown eyes.

"I want you in my life," Harvey said in a low tone.

I melted! What was I supposed to do! He was not quite ready yet for us. Plus our trust issues were off the charts. Work was another problem. It just would not work.

By this point, I knew I was in love with him. Big mistake it seems.

At least the present bride knew where I stood and she did root for Harvey and me.

"Dana? Dana? Adam's here, Dana. Where did you go?"

"Oh, I'm sorry, Adam. You know," Scottie responded to her friend.

"You're thinking of your past with Harvey. Understandable. Don't worry, though, Scottie. You'll be fine. I've been in the same boat as you."

"Yes, I know. Thank you for going with me tonight."

"You're welcome. See you later," Adam hung up.

Adam was a nice looking man with that fair English complexion. When it was cold his cheeks became rosy and he had a nice thick head full of red hair. Dana rolled her eyes. Red hair...of course...Donna Paulsen...the bride.

It seemed most events she remembered in her dealings with Harvey Specter always contained a hint of Donna's influence.

Coming back to my office after a trip, Donna came into see me. I invited her in for a drink .

"You're ok with me being here?" I asked.

"You're being here is my ok you being here," Donna answered.

"By the way, I want to thank you for these," I said holding up the tumblers with my initials engraved on them.

We took a drink of the Scotch that Harvey had bought me as a present and we both made faces.

"Would you believe he spent $12,000 on this shit?" Donna asked.

We both that it was a grand gesture but not quite right.

Then we laughed about the pillow on my couch which was an old photograph of a man with large blue eyes.

"I think it's staring at my tits," Donna joked and I nearly joked on that horrible old Scotch that Harvey had so "lovingly" picked out for me.

As Scottie stood there with her client in the court, her mind drifted in and out of memories of Harvey, Donna, and herself. Scottie happened to look over at the court reporter. She happened to be a redhead. Scottie rolled her eyes as her mind drifted to the first time she met Donna.

"I'm here to see Harvey Specter," Scottie said as she stood before Donna at her cubicle outside of Harvey's office.

"You're Dana Scott," Donna said sitting outside Harvey's office in her cubicle. Harvey was still an associate but the one only with a secretary. "Harvey has told me you were coming. Follow me."

Then Donna, all 5'9" of her, proceeds me to a door where inscribed says Harvey Specter Associate. I was an associate as well but I was soon leaving for London to take my job with Darby International with a promise of a junior partnership.

The minute I walked into that office and watched his eyes follow her back to her cubicle, I should have realized then there was an attachment for the ages. No, I just walked up to your desk and sat on it like I owned it. To which, if I remember, you told me to remove myself. You didn't have any covert corners like you did in your senior partner office. So I had to wait until we went to the hotel before you kissed me and we fooled around in bed.

After I stopped shrieking with ecstasy, I asked you a few importuning questions.

"Wow! That was amazing!" I panted as you rolled off me. I remember I still held your arm not wanting your warmth to leave me. You never were a cuddler with me? Are you now?

"Now don't take this the wrong way, but are you banging your secretary?"

"That's none of your business. No, I don't bang my secretary," Harvey said as he gave Scottie a half squint look in the dim light.

"Why not? She's gorgeous. Just your type," I laughed and I knew you were telling me the truth because you do have your tells when you're lying.

"Because she doesn't fool around with men she works with," Harvey said.

Then I felt you must have been with her at least once because she, from day one I met her, protected you with her eyes. It was almost as if she did have a claim on you. How naive I thought that I could knock that right out of her. More precisely, knock her out of you.

"Ms. Scott," Judge Galveson banged. "Do you have a case?"

Scottie swallowed hard.

"Yes, your honor, my client Julie Babbard is claiming damages upwards of $200,000 for copyright infringement.

The judge dragged on until the award settlement was made about 45 minutes later. There had been a couple who were standing before the court for divorce who had sat just too close to one another while the proceedings were happening. The judge had them both thrown out and would take their case in chambers.

Scottie congratulated her client and talked to the opposition and had them sign the settlement papers.

Scottie separated from her client at the door and took her car back to her office for the few hours of the work day she needed until she would head home to get all dressed up for an event she was dreading.

Her mind drifted in and out of memories with Harvey. She had told him once that she had wanted to see both their names on the door, however, being sneaky about it was not the way to do it. He forgave her for that and then other things got in the way until her feud with Louis became the latest roadblock to her and Harvey's relationship outside the firm.

Sitting on his countertop in his apartment, she begged for him to tell her what the secret was he was carrying and could not be straight with her as to this chit that Louis had called in.

"Am I talking to my boyfriend or a name partner?" Scottie asked.

Harvey swallowed before speaking. "Name partner."

"Then I guess there goes being honest with each other."

The most giant secret that Harvey had kept was told to me before I had decided to leave him and the firm for good.

"Mike Ross doesn't have a law degree and I hired him anyway," Harvey said bringing me a consolation drink.

I had tears in my eyes because I was so in love with this man and probably always would be but there was just too much between us to ever make it work.

"Why are you telling this to me now?" I asked. He knew I was leaving and unless he was going to declare he was totally besotted with me nothing was going to make me stay.

"Because I want to stop lying to the people I love," Harvey had admitted. It was not the avowal of love I was looking for, and it was just not enough.

Holding my drink in my hand, I told him again.

"I still can't stay."

"I know," Harvey had said with tears standing in his eyes.

Before leaving came up again, there were times when Harvey and I would be talking and Donna would walk up to us and wait for an opening.

"Not now, Donna," I said hoping that she would just go back and sit quietly and wait for our "conversation" to end before interjecting.

"Harvey, Jessica wants to see you right away," Donna had interjected.

Harvey immediately walked away.

"I guess it's not now, Scottie," I said as they conversed before he walked down the hall to Jessica's office.

Scottie arrived home finally at around 4:00 pm. She immediately took another shower because she just felt like she needed some warmth after the cold day outside. It was December after all. Harvey and Donna had been engaged for approximately six months. She remembered when Harvey called her out of courtesy and a verbal invitation to add to the written one she would be receiving shortly.

At first, all Scottie could remember was the first time she had tackled the mighty Donna Paulsen and challenged her own feelings for Harvey.

"Donna, are you in love with him?"

Donna who was sorting copies because we were in the file room where the copier is located looked up at me and I could tell I caught her off guard. She looked up at the ceiling and vented.

"I am getting sick of people friggin' asking me that"

Then without batting an eyelash she looked at me and said, "But no, I am not in love with him."

She walked away from me just a little too fast and that's when she said to me.

"You're in love with him."

"I can't make him notice without me suing him."

I don't remember what happened next. Donna Paulsen, a consummate actress, was in love with him despite what she had told me. I don't know why I never saw it. I guess because she gave her blessing for Harvey and me. Little good that did.

Scottie emerged from the hot shower with skin all warm and red. She plugged in her blow dryer and blew dry her hair to maximum length and width. Her thick black hair could be unruly at the best of times, so she thought she would really dress it up tonight. She placed two butterfly clips in her hair on one side and then twisted it in a side bun placing it in a sequined net holding the bun in place. It sparkled as she moved her head.

As she applied her makeup, she looked at the time and it was now 5:00. She was meeting Adam downstairs at 7:00 and would walk to the club down the street for a quick pre-wedding celebration.

Scottie reached up to her wardrobe and took the print dress off the hanger and stepped into it. The black print dress was a Victoria Beckham style dress with long sleeves ending in buttoned cuffs and openings at the upper arms with a peek-a-boo slit in the neckline. The skirt was full and with her black pumps would look beautiful. She chose simple golden hoops for earrings and a black clutch.

Scottie stopped in front of the full length mirror and remembered Harvey's call to her only a couple of months ago verbaling telling her what Scottie had known would eventually happen once Harvey finally realized what everyone had seen for years.

"Scottie, I just wanted to let you know that Donna and I are getting married. I wanted to tell you personally before you were blindsided by the invitation in the mail."

"Congratulations, Harvey! I'm so happy for you and Donna. I can see how much she has always loved you. You are both very lucky."

"Thanks, Scottie," Harvey had said softly. "Please come if you can."

"I'll try. Thank you for inviting me. I really did not think I would be invited if you two decided to take the plunge."

"Why not?"

"Oh, maybe, because I always felt Donna was my rival. I know now that there had been no one but her for you. It's easy to see when she looks at you or you look at her."

Harvey was silent at that moment and I know I must have floored him with my observations.

"How could you?"

"A woman knows, Harvey," was all I said.

"Well, regardless, please come if you can. Donna and I would both like you there."

"We'll see. Thank you," I said as I swiftly hit the red button on my phone. I then cried because I thought I was finally putting closure on my relationship with Harvey Specter.

A/N: I took some scenes from the show. I may not have gotten them verbatim but I did my best. You will know the others that I created out of what I thought could have happened. Thank you. A lot of love for these characters including Scottie goes out to Aaron Korsh and the other writers who gave us such a wonderful show.