A/N: Im BAAACKK! hey guys! I'm back,I'm sorry for my sudden dissapereance but I had a lot of things going on and I needed a break to get some fresh set of ideas and stories!

Bella sighed as she looked at the diamond ring. It was bigger than her thumb. Edward.

She then looked at the bracelet that had the carved wolf on it. Jacob

And in the middle were three college applications.

Dartmouth, Alaska, Seattle.

She had no idea what she wanted.

Edward, Jacob, college, the wedding. Oh lord the wedding. It was literally a week away and here she was contemplating if she even wanted to go through with it.

Bella groaned. She was only nineteen. Weren't most nineteen-year-olds partying and drinking and doing what they wanted. Yet here she was stressing about a wedding she didn't even want. Better yet she didn't even help plan the damn thing. That was all Alice and Esme. What was she going to do?

The opening and slamming of the front door brought Bella out of her troubled thoughts. It was her father, his face was red and purple and he seemed to be mumbling to himself.

"..um Charlie?…uh dad?" she called

Her father turned towards her

"Do you really have to marry him bells? I mean do you really have to marry anyone right now! as soon as you came here, he had you in his clutches!. Every waking moment you've spent with that family. now I admit a lot of it was my fault. I should have been here more. But do you really want to do this? Your so young, you've just graduated and you have your whole life to live…..we barely got any time together ourselves…"

Her father trailed off. That had to be the most words he's ever said to her.

"what ...brought this on dad?" she asked

Her father sat in the chair across from her and took inventory of the things in front of her.

He instant grabbed her engagement ring and frowned.

"...Dr. Cullen." He spat. "told me that your mother and I didn't need to worry about anything for the wedding and that everything was paid for. Now I know to some that might seem like an odd thing to be upset about. But it's the fact that it's my daughter's wedding. Your parents deserve to help contribute. And it's just that …he implied that his family had it taken care of. and that you as his daughter in law would be taken care of. Now that right there is why I'm truly pissed. You're my daughter Bella. my daughter. My only freakin kid and im losing you…"

Bella's heart clenched. Her relationship with her father had been strained for a while and she knew it was all her fault. She didn't spend time with him. she was in and out. It's funny because all this time she had been adoring Edward's family, wanting to be a part of it when she had her own little family right in front of her eyes.

She had Charlie, she had Renee, she had Phil, she had Billy...she thought she had Jacob. All of these people in her life and yet she was ungrateful. They hadn't been enough for her. why? They didn't have the money?…the looks?…the glamour?…how selfish was she to let the superficial things, get in the way of the people that truly cared and knew her.

The duo sat in silence before her father spoke again.

"…Why are you staring at these objects?" Charlie asked as he played with the engagement ring.

"…I don't want to marry Edward."

Charlie looked at her in shock

"a-are you serious?"

"yes. But I don't want to be with Jacob either…whenever he comes back…Dad the real reason why Jacob ran away is because of me... I don't love him the way he loves me and… Edward sent an invitation to him behind my back…and that caused Jake to leave... I have been so selfish…I've hurt so many people…." Bella said as tears poured.

This was so odd. She had never displayed these kinds of emotions before especially not in front of her father.

And of course, Charlie being himself, didn't know how to respond. So he simply stood and patted her on the back.

After she calmed down Bella spoke again.

"Dad... I don't think I can go to college either. One I waited too long to apply and two. I'd rather do online school. And I cant work at newtons…I don't want to spend another year there. I need…change…but a good change."

Her father didn't say anything. he was looking at something behind her.

"…how about we do a marathon…?"

"a marathon?... like running…Charlie….um, Dad….I'm not a runner." She told him. had he really mentioned this?

"...well, it will be something we can do together. The Seattle Marathon is at the end of the summer and that gives us time to train…and... uh if you're looking for a new job, the department's looking for a new secretary. Oh! And the forks library is looking for a new assistant…. But if you want to work at the station, I could talk to Phyllis up there if you want me too…" he said awkwardly

"…working at the station? With you?" Bella said surprised. "would I even be qualified for that?"

Her father grinned and said "..you got your diploma, don't you? And you're my daughter…I can throw that card out there. Besides, I think it would give you a good image. People will be able to see you for who you are. Outside the Cullen's. now about that marathon...we are going to do it. together and that's final."

Bella nodded.

"you're really not going to marry Edward? It's not just cold feet...because I really want to support you in not marrying him. but If this is just some…one to two-day thought." Charlie let the question trial off.

Bella took a deep breath. He was right. This couldn't be just some two-day thought. She had to be serious about this and she couldn't fall back on Edward's enthrallment.

"...Dad...I'm going, to be honest with you. The Cullen's mainly Edward…don't like me going to la push and a few times…Edward, would…dismantle my truck. I'm telling you this because- "

"HE WHAT!" Charlie yelled

"dad don't! just don't! I need you to take me to lapush…please. I have to talk to Billy. please" she pleaded

Charlie was red in the face but managed to speak. "...fine I'll take you…but I'll have you know we are not done talking about this and Billy and I are not on the best of terms right now but we will try."

Bella nodded.

"alright well…let's go."