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Chapter I

Hikaru - Melancholy



Hikaru ran upstairs. As usual and much to her grieve, she was late for her monthly encounter with Umi and Fuu at Tokyo Tower. Five years were already gone since the last time they went to Cefiro, and they had never been able to go back. Hikaru truly feared they would never achieve it, since only in case of imminent danger, the Magic Knights would be summoned back to Cefiro. Meanwhile, some of them might have lost their hopes, but not her. Almost breathless, she reached the top of the stairs and looked around. As usual, in spite that she was late, she spotted only Fuu.

- Fuu! - she exclaimed waving her hand and running towards her. The other girl turned around. She had changed a bit, she has grown up and she no longer used that green uniform. None of them used uniform anymore, since they were already in College. Hikaru studied Veterinary, Fuu studied Systems Engineering and Umi... well, Umi hadn't just made her mind up, right in those days she was giving propaganda to her career as a top model. Some things never change, and to prove it, Fuu received her friend with her invariable, soft smile.

- Hello, Hikaru! - they hugged each other - You can't change, do you? Always running all over the place.

The redheaded twirled a couple times to show how happy she felt about seeing Fuu. However, within her heart, the girl always experienced an unavoidable anguish when she did see those with whom she had shared so many and such unusual adventures in the magic world. She couldn't help but remember some things and some people she should better forget for good.

- And as usual, so careless. - the blonde remarked. Obviously referring to the black pants and the red blouse the always natural Hikaru was wearing - When will you learn how to behave like a girl?

- All right, don't scold me. I feel comfortable this way. Besides, I'm not as pretty as you or Umi...

Moving her head, Fuu contemplated her thoroughly. She added to the mentioned gear a couple of the most common tennis shoes and the unavoidable long braid. Definitively, some things would never change. She was no longer as small as before, but still Hikaru continued being the shortest amongst them three, and still conserved the same air of fourteen year-old ingenuousness.

In turn, the redheaded really admired her friend. Fuu was very elegant, with no excessive refinements, and although their clothes were very similar, everything in the blonde denoted femaleness and fineness. Besides, her hair was a little longer now, which, in the opinion of most of her acquaintances, made her beauties increase.

- Don't look at me like that, Fuu. - Hikaru had already driven away, at full speed, the sad thoughts that had flutter around her moments ago - Umi is a top model and you... well, you have the whole behavior of a princess. - she laughed and pointed out herself with a finger - on the other hand I, hehe, I'm nothing more than an insignificant Veterinary student... and to tell you the truth, I don't want to be more.

- That's not what my " spies " have told me.

The two girls turned around to see the person who had just spoken. They were distracted on their own conversation and they had not realized of Umi's arrival. She hugged them with no ceremony at all, and then she observed them thoroughly.

- You look so pretty, Fuu, I love your clothes. So elegant and green still suits you perfectly. - she said approving her friend with her high sense of fashion. Nevertheless, her expression changed pretty soon when her eyes fell on her other friend.

- No, please, no more scolding. - Hikaru begged comically.

- But you deserve it! - Umi exclaimed a bit sulked - Who dressed you? You look like a boy.

The redheaded sighed in resignation. Just to look at Umi should be more than enough to make her feel guilty. The dress on her was beautiful, made of a vaporous fabric that should have cost her a wad of money. That was just one of the reasons why she was the main cause for all the men had stopped paying attention to the panorama, to their companions and even to their cellular phones, just to see her walk by. Medium heel shoes and all the imaginable fancy accessories completed a dazzling aspect. After all, Umi Ryuuzaki, the already famous top model, had a public image to take care of.

- Ok. - the redhead gave in to her two friends complaints - I should dress up a little more, blah, blah...

Umi looked at her with growing anger, while Fuu laughed softly. It was always the same thing, and at the end it was always necessary to switch subjects.

- Well, what were you telling us when you arrived? - the blonde asked, receiving a grateful look from Hikaru, who ignored that this turn in the conversation was not the most favorable.

At Fuu's question, Umi's angered expression became malicious.

- Ah! My spies... hehehehe, they have told me that even being so careless with her looks and so slippery with guys, our friend does have her own admirers. So tell me Hikaru, what happened between you and Masako?

Hikaru gazed over Umi with terrified eyes. How did she find out about him?

- Surprised? - Umi laughed triumphantly - I know it all!

- What is it, Hikaru? - Fuu asked with interest. - Who is Masako?

The interpellated one made an annoyed expression and was almost at the verge of sticking out her tongue to Umi, which of course she didn't do because, in spite of being somehow neglected in dressing, she was a very well educated young lady. But she did have to fight the urge!

- It was nothing. - she said in the end, reluctantly.

- Nothing? - Umi scandalized - I'll tell you Fuu, Masako Futumada is one of the coveted men in high society, his family is vastly rich and he just happens to study in Hikaru's College. And do you wanna know some more? The boy asked her out.

- What? - Fuu was surprised, opening her eyes as big as they were - A date?

The redhead's annoyance was increasing any moment that passed. How the hell did Umi do to find out about just anything? She do seemed to have spies everywhere.

- Well, yes. - the top model finished, now somehow more calmed - The boy invited her, and I honestly tell you, he's not worthless at all. He's even good-looking. And I bet you don't know what did our friend answer him.

- She refused to go out with him - Fuu answered without hesitating.

- Did you know it?

- No, I didn't - the blonde said while wondering how could Umi behave sometimes as or more innocently than Hikaru herself. - but if she had told him yes, we had something else to talk about now. And you wouldn't be so noisy... ok, you might have been even MORE noisy.

- Oh - Umi giggled - you are right. Now tell me what can we do with this FOOL, more than SILLY friend of us.

Fuu looked at Hikaru. She was now leaning back to a metallic beam and her eyes were closed, in pensive attitude.

- Why did you do that, Hikaru? - Fuu asked conciliatory.

- I was not interested in going out with him.

While responding in such quite concise way, the young ex fire knight had turned away towards the city again, holding in one of her hands the only jewelry piece she had on, a golden locket with a mirror on it's center that lolled on a thin necklace. Hikaru had acquired such a habit long ago and it was already part of her personality. Truly, such locket was her most valuable possession on earth.

Fuu walked towards her and put a hand on her shoulder.

- You can't keep like that.

- Like how? - the redheaded inquired, turning to face her friends - Rejecting guys who ask me out? I don't want to go out with any of them.

- I've heard you never do go out. - Umi arbitrated, now with a soft and calmed voice.

- So what's the big deal?

- You need to have some fun. - now it was Fuu the one speaking. - From college to your house back and forth is not such a good plan. And I know for your siblings that you also kill yourself working at the dojo.

- I know, you are right, all of you, I'll try to have some fun once in a while, ok? - Hikaru concluded, more so that they would leave her alone than with true conviction - Now just tell me how'd you been doing since the last time we saw each other. How is your model career going, Umi?

This time, the topic switch did provide the expected effect. In a few seconds, Umi was devoted to describe even the most minimum details and events on her top model career during the previous month. Let's just say she was like a half-hour speaking non-stopping on the same thing and the same thing.

-... he drove me home and so it finished yesterday's night! - the blue haired girl concluded almost breathless - I cannot complain, my life goes better and better every day that passes!

- And... did something else happen? - Fuu asked mischievously.

Hikaru made the most innocent face in the world, probably neither she imagined what the blonde was insinuating... or perhaps she did.

- NOTHING HAPPENED! - Umi exclaimed with irritated face - What should have happened?

- Don't be so angry. - Fuu continued as calmly as ever - You have so many admirers it would not be strange at all if you had a serious relationship with any of them.

- Well I don't. And... what about you?

Fuu continued to smile, this time with a little more effort than usually.

- I always go out together with my sister Kuu, but it might be a bit annoying sometimes though, because she has a boyfriend and I feel like three is a crowd, you know. Other than that, the College...

- Oh, no, no way, young lady - Umi said, cutting the coming conference she feared from her blonde friend - no school speeches, please. Just tell me, is there anybody you like? Maybe some of Kuu's friends? Or maybe some of those big glasses who studies with you?

Now it was Fuu the one who made an annoyed expression. Hikaru couldn't help but smile. Deep within they all felt the same way, each one dealt with it in her own way though.

- I don't know what happens to me with guys, - Fuu said, a bit restrained - I always end up comparing them with...

All of a sudden, she couldn't finish the sentence. Barely on time she had realized what she was about to say, knowing it was not convenient to mention the person that had just popped into her mind, like so many other times. However, her two friends understood her perfectly, and although Umi would have tried by all means possible to ignore it, Hikaru was not able to do so.

- Ferio. - she was very serious when she concluded what her friend had left untold.

- What? - the other two girls screeched at unison.

- You heard me perfectly well.

The future engineer turned her green eyes to the floor. No matter how much she regretted it, the redhead was right. She might not be able to go back to Cefiro, but she couldn't forget though. On the other hand, the top model faced Hikaru, this time on a very bad mood and seemingly with bad intentions.

- You know very well you should talk neither about "that" place, nor about anything related to it!

- I know, - Hikaru agreed holding Umi's blue glance - but my heart refuses to forget.

And with this, assuming the whole conversation was over, she turned away to the city, spreading noisy under their feet in that brilliant Sunday morning. Her hand moved mechanically, grasping one more time the locket hanging of her neck.

Umi went to her, not wanting to let her get away just like that, since talking was not over, but Fuu intervened.

- Hikaru is right. There's just no possible way we could leave this behind.

- Will you back her up too, Fuu? We have suffered so much trying to return... to "that place", and now you gals want to go through all of it again?

- I'm sorry, but I cannot forget. - the girl complained adjusting her glasses - I have tried, but I just can't. Tell me that you have been able to do so, and perhaps you'll give me hope of achieving it some day.

Umi had not forgotten, but apparently she did have lost all of her hopes on returning. However, she was not going to give in so soon to her friends, and even less would she admit she would have given anything to see again that world that was already part of her, altogether with each and every one of its inhabitants.

- Just tell me you don't miss Guru Clef... - Fuu finished with a sigh

The single mention of his name made Umi to hesitate. Just to hide her embarrassment she rushed into an unconscious discussion with Fuu, about the uselessness of keeping memories from the past, the urge to go on with their normal lives, and other things they had already gotten tired of discussing over and over again. Especially after each failed attempt to go back to Cefiro.

Hikaru listened to their hot argument, but she didn't turn around. It was always the same old thing. Always questioning and wondering the reasons why they could not return if they all seemed to wish for it with the same intensity. She surely realized they were not in Cefiro, where maybe their only will power would have been enough to fulfill their desires. She also understood the best thing would be they didn't have to return, since the Magic Knights were only invoked when there was a real threat to that world. But even reasoning that way she still felt incomplete, it seemed to her like she could not go on with her life that way, and even her siblings had realized that it was a long time since she laughed with her old enthusiasm. She generally hid it though, but she felt lonely, and her biggest happiness was to meet up with her friends. It was still a joy to see them, even though they had made a pact not to speak of their adventures or anything else related with what they had left behind, since the fact that they were unable to return was starting to become really painful. Anyway, they reminded her one of her harder and enriching experiences, one of the best seasons of her life and, how could she deny it, they reminded her of the person she loved the most.

For, yes, Hikaru had been hesitant in the past, her heart divided between two very different men, whom attracted her hopelessly. Pieces of one of her last conversations in Cefiro came to her mind...



ººººº Flashback ººººº



- Hikaru. - he said, always his serious self.

She turned to look at him. She felt a bit uncomfortable, perhaps guessing the situation was about to become... more embarrassing.

- In your country, what do people say when they want to confess their love to someone?

- I believe it would be something like... "Would you marry me?"

His eyes reflected confusion for an instant.

- "Marry"?

- To promise you will be with the person you love for the rest of your life!

- Do you want to marry someone?

Hikaru didn't hesitated.

- You... and Eagle!

Once again, he was astonished and confused.

- Then do you usually marry two people at the same time?

The girl denied happily and looked up at him with a broad smile.

- It's just that I love both of you...



ººººº End of the Flashback ººººº



She was so naive then! Little idea she had about how been lovesick felt! However, that day was already far away, and with time and the cruel despair of not being able to return, Hikaru finally understood she loved only one of them, the one who made her think all the boys she knew were insignificant and headless. The one who, would now formulate the same question again, he would receive a very different answer. Could life follow its natural flow after having met him, knowing that perhaps she would never be able to see him again? She could not help but grasp again the locket resting on her heart, her only memory of him. While she watched the sky whose beautiful color she didn't see, her vision blurred from unshed tears and a name came to her lips, escaping in a sad sigh:

- Lantis...

To be continued...

Next chapter: Necessity