TW/CW:
Child abuse is mentioned. I don't go into great detail but it is touched on.

It's not the baby this time. It's one of the other children.

Now that that's out of the way. As you may have noticed I didn't post yesterday. I was taking a me day... scratch that. I got distracted by a great series on here. I don't usually like text/chatroom (whatever) fics, but this just made me laugh. I was probably annoying my neighbors with my laughter. It's a Hamilton/In The Heights/Do No Harm crossover series. I have like no idea what Do No Harm is about, but I still could get the overall impression from reading this. I never recommend shit because I feel like my recommendations will always suck, but here's the link because it's awesome!

It's on AO3 so I can't link it, but the series is called "how did we get here?" by rainbowblue13

Now to the current reason I crave death... My vision is noticeably worse right now. It always gets bad over the year, but it's like really bad right now. Also, my right eyelid is twitching so much! Like why?!


"I'm sorry," Kahina interrupted the silence, "but we have to continue."

Everyone quietly nodded and Hamilton went to sit back in his seat. Eliza decided to switch seats with her son so she could be next to this version of her husband. Angelica didn't approve but understood that her sister felt like she needed to be next to him. Eliza was too good for her own good.

Kahina smiled softly as she resumed the musical.

[Burr:]

Theodosia writes me a letter every day

"C'est mignon," Lafayette commented, turning towards Aaron.

"Uh," Aaron didn't understand what the Frenchman. He glanced at Alexander for help.

Alexander rolled his eyes, "he said 'that is sweet.'"

"Ah. Yes, it is," he told Lafayette, before thanking Alexander for the help.

"Aaron," Jefferson spoke up before the musical started playing again, "you should really learn French."

Hamilton coughed loudly to make his chuckle. Once he stopped, he faced the Virginian, "you can only speak some, don't brag about things you can barely do."

Before Washington could scold Hamilton, the musical unfroze.

I'm keeping her bed warm while her husband is away

"That's naughty Mr. 'Prodigy from Princeton College," Mulligan couldn't help himself, however, it went ignored. Except by Alex who started giggling.

He's on the British side in Georgia

He's trying to keep the colonies in line

But he can keep all of Georgia

Theodosia, she's mine

Hamilton glanced over at Burr, not even hesitating to grab hold of his hand. Burr looked down briefly before giving Hamilton a small, sad smile.

Love doesn't discriminate

Between the sinners

And the saints

It takes and it takes and it takes

"You're right about that," Hamilton commented. "No matter what happens, you can't control who takes hold of your heart."

Nobody knew how to respond to that, except Alexander, who, once again, asked how he ends up getting to be so insightful.

And we keep loving anyway

We laugh and we cry

And we break

And we make our mistakes

And if there's a reason I'm by her side

When so many have tried

Then I'm willing to wait for it

I'm willing to wait for it

"That's a good thing," Peggy said. "Patience is something we all need."

"Alexander," Laurens smirked, "did you hear that? You need patience."

Said soldier just grumbled into the other man's arms, still in a slight embrace.

[Burr:]

My grandfather was a fire and brimstone preacher

([Men:] Preacher, preacher, preacher)

But there are things that the

Homilies and hymns won't teach ya

([Men:] Teach ya, teach ya, teach ya)

My mother was a genius

([Women:] Genius)

My father commanded respect

([Men:] Respect, respect)

When they died they left no instructions

Just a legacy to protect

Washington glance over at the two Burrs, "when did your parents pass?"

Aaron answered automatically, not hesitating once, "my father passed when I was a year old. My mother soon followed the next year."

"Who raised you, son?"

Aaron swallowed hard, Burr answered, "my uncle, Timothy Edwards raised Sally and me. He wasn't always the greatest person to be around. Granted, I wasn't always the easiest child to have around."

Kahina sighed, "we're now going to discuss that too once the song is over with."

Both Burrs wanted to just hit their head against a wall. Hamilton noticed Burr and tightened his grip on his hand. Lafayette and Madison noticed Aaron and they each grabbed a hand, keeping him grounded.

[Burr/Ensemble:]

Death doesn't discriminate

Between the sinners and the saints

It takes and it takes and it takes

Alex started to shake a little. Washington and Mulligan took notice and shared a concerned look.

And we keep living anyway

We rise and we fall

And we break

And we make our mistakes

And if there's a reason I'm still alive

When everyone who loves me has died

I'm willing to wait for it (wait for it)

I'm willing to wait for it

"I don't want to wait," Alex muttered so softly nobody heard.

Wait for it

[Ensemble:]

Wait for it

Wait for it

Wait for it

[Burr:]

I am the one thing in life I can control

[Ensemble:]

Wait for it

Wait for it

Wait for it

Wait for it

[Burr:]

I am inimitable

I am an original

[Ensemble:]

Wait for it

Wait for it

Wait for it

Wait for it

[Burr:]

I'm not falling behind or running late

[Ensemble:]

Wait for it

Wait for it

Wait for it

Wait for it

[Burr:]

I'm not standing still

I am lying in wait

"Isn't that the same thing?" Philip asked, raising an eyebrow, and looking at his father.

"No," he told his son, "not exactly. Standing still means you're not going to do anything. Lying in wait, however, means you are waiting for the perfect opportunity to strike."

"Just," Burr took a deep breath, "don't wait too long."

[Ensemble:]

Wait

Wait

Wait

[Burr:]

Hamilton faces an endless uphill climb

Aaron looked over at Alexander, annoyed slightly, "oh look, my song is interrupted by you."

Alexander could help but to laugh at that, "isn't this show about me?"

[Ensemble:]

Climb

Climb

Climb

[Burr:]

He has something to prove

He has nothing to lose

"Didn't he just get married?" Madison asked. "Meaning, he does have something to lose."

"I didn't write this," Burr pointed out.

[Ensemble:]

Lose

Lose

Lose

Lose

[Burr:]

Hamilton's pace is relentless

He wastes no time

[Ensemble:]

Time

Time

Time

[Burr:]

What is it like in his shoes?

All three Hamiltons answered simultaneously.

Hamilton answered with, "tiring."

Alexander answered, "hectic."

Alex just said, "sad."

Kahina didn't let the others process this for long before continuing on.

Hamilton doesn't hesitate

He exhibits no restraint

"I have restraint," Alexander protested.

"My dear, Alexander," Laurens stared into his eyes, "you don't have a drop of restraint."

"Mon ami," Lafayette sighed, "you literally admitted not long ago to having stolen canons. Then Herc had to tell us you walked into the line of fire. No care for yourself. Pas de retenue!"

Then Angelica had the bright idea to speak up, turning to Hamilton, "and what about her."

Eliza took a deep breath, ignoring the questioning glances and the pained look on Hamilton's face, "Angie, let's not talk about that right now."

Kahina stepped in, "okay! That will come up and I don't want the others to know yet. So, zip it!" She then noticed the confused looks, "it means don't talk about it."

Without further ado, the screen started moving again.

He takes and he takes and he takes

And he keeps winning anyway

He changes the game

He plays and he raises the stakes

And if there's a reason

He seems to thrive when so few survive, then Goddamnit

[Burr and Company:]

I'm willing to wait for it (wait for it, wait for...)

I'm willing to wait for it...

Life doesn't discriminate

Between the sinners and the saints

It takes and it takes and it takes

And we keep living anyway

We rise and we fall and we break

And we make our mistakes

And if there's a reason I'm still alive

When so many have died

Then I'm willin' to

[Burr:]

Wait for it...

[Women:]

Wait for it...

[Men:]

Wait for it...

[Burr:]

Wait for it...

[Women:]

Wait for it...

[Men:]

Wait for it...

[Women:]

Wait for it...

[Men:]

Wait for it...

[Women:]

Wait for it...

[Men:]

Wait for it...

[Women:]

Wait for it...

[Men:]

Wait...

The group was in silence for a few moments before Kahina stood up, "raise your hand if you know about the past of Aaron Burr?"

Only Alexander and Hamilton raised their hands. Kahina just smiled at them.

"You don't actually know his past, I'm afraid. Yes, he may have told you tidbits, but never the whole story. However, I feel like you should know where he is coming from." She turned towards Aaron first, "do you want me to tell them, or yourself?" Aaron just stared at his lap. Kahina sighed and posed the same question to Burr.

Burr sighed, "I'd rather not talk about, but I know you are most likely going to share this either way, so just go ahead."

Kahina gave them both a sad smile. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath before proceeding, "Aaron Burr was born on February 6, 1756. His parents died at a young age, as you know. After staying with a man named William Shippen for a little while, both Burr siblings moved in with their uncle Timothy Edwards.

"Life there wasn't great. His uncle was one who believed children should be taught a lesson with physical force. Burr tried to run away several times. At thirteen, Burr was admitted to the College of New Jersey as a sophomore. The rest is history, literally."

After a moment of silence, Alex spoke up, "so, if his life was harder than mine, why isn't this musical about him?"

Everyone turned to stare at the twelve-year-old. Alexander and Hamilton were shocked at their younger self. Even Kahina stammered, she may be all knowing, but the chance he would have said that was so low she dismissed the idea.

Kahina took another deep breath, strolling up to Alex, "Alex, we're not comparing life stories. And anyway, honey, do you not see where you are in life currently?"

"What do you mean?"

"You are literally in the middle of a hurricane. You get yelled and spit at daily," then she quickly added, "and don't say that's normal!"

"But it's not like I'm getting hurt like Mr. Burr."

"No, but you are getting hurt in other ways."

"I still don't get why this is about me and not him."

"You may not see it, but you are important."

Kahina then stood up, looked at the group staring at the two of them, "stop staring! Go comfort the Burrs! I've got it here. He's just a kid."

"I'm not a kid!"

"I don't need comforting," Burr said as Hamilton smiled softly at his old friend before swinging an arm around his shoulders.

"Yes, you do," he told the older man.

Aaron just backed away from the Revolutionary Set that were trying to get close to him, "please, I don't want this."

Although Alexander wanted to just hug this man, he backed off and told the others to do so as well.


Not my best work. I was just so lost during this chapter. Like I love this song too much to over analyze it.

Okay, so I'm debating on if I should have a tumblr dedicated to this story so ya'll can send me ideas because I have only have vague ideas with some major ideas swimming in my head.

Okay, so this fun fact I wish I knew because goddamnit! It should have been taught in my school because I just learned this fact.

Fun Fact: Aaron Burr's grandfather, Jonathan Edwards (pastor, theologian, and missionary), was born in East Windsor, CT (which is now modern-day South Windsor). His work is still read today by many Reformed Evangelicals.

This very interesting to me because I was raised in East Windsor! I have since moved, so don't try to find me, besides I hated the town. Lot of bad stuff. But still! It's interesting to know that someone so important came from my hometown. I know it's not the best fact, but you can't see the look on my face anytime I learn my hometown used to have some good.