-Rated R for- Drama, Language, Slash, Sexual Content-

-Spoilers- All five books.-

-Summery- This is a Harry/Draco fic that happens in the sixth year. Draco finds out that sometimes feelings are mixed up. -

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Hidden Desires

Chapter 1

Forgiving Is Hard

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Harry sat on the train to Hogwarts watching the trees flash by in little green blurs. He had been staring out of the window for ages as Hermione and Ron chatted happily. "We're getting closer to our last year!" said Ron excitedly, "Imagine it! One more year and after that we can be whatever we want! Hey Harry, got any ideas of what you're going to do?"

Harry turned to him with a thoughtful look on his face replying slowly, "I don't know. Maybe get into Quidditch. What do you think?"

Hermione piped in, "Oh Harry, that would be wonderful! You would do so well."

Harry grinned feeling a bit proud of himself recalling all the matches the Gryffindors won in the past years. Quidditch was definitely something he still enjoyed doing after all these years. Just then Cho Chang knocked at the sliding door smiling. After the fifth year and the things they went through, Cho and Harry got back together now in the sixth year.

Harry smiled and got up opening the sliding door and stepped outside. "Care for a walk?" asked Cho flirtatiously.

"Down the hall?" asked Harry laughing a bit.

"Where else?" said Cho sarcastically. At that they began to walk until they reached the end of the hall and stepped into a dark corner that a few cleaning supplies occupied. Harry leaned over kissing Cho very passionately and slowly.

Before they could go any further a drawling voice said, "Well, well, Potter. Snogging with your little girlfriend?" It was Draco Malfoy.

Furiously Harry responded, "Nose out, Draco!" He noticed how flushed Draco looked. He was very pink and looked as if he had just seen somebody die. There was no hint of amusement. It was hard for Harry to stare into those cold silver eyes and figure out what was going on inside.

Cho ran off embarrassed. She always did things like this. She returned into her compartment and hid.

"What do you want?" said Harry even more furious. Every note of his voice quivered with hatred.

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What did he want? Draco thought about this for a minute. He wasn't exactly sure what he wanted. All he knew was that for some reason the sight of Harry and Cho made him extremely angry. To see them act so happy and so damn in love. It made his insides turn and churn. Before he could respond to Harry, Harry spoke again, "Why do you always do this? Why can't you ever just leave me alone? You can never just let me be! Why don't you ever fuck off! You're just like a plague!"

Draco responded curtly, "But of course, and why is that, Potter? Hmm, let me think. Could it have something to do with how much I hate you? You're bad blood, Potter. You're a dog."

When Harry heard the word dog, he launched himself on Draco. He grabbed Draco by the collar and threw him up against the wall, "I will tell you something, Malfoy, don't you ever say anything that has to do with Sirius. I swear, I will hex you so bad that nobody will recognize you and you won't even know who you are. It'll be like you're dead. But really, it's not like you have anyone except you mother, since your father is still in Azkaban, and hey, I thought you said a while ago that he was going to break out? When's is this going to happen?" with these words Harry looked very pleased with himself, giving Draco a small smile.

Draco couldn't stand it and he quickly said, "I'm so sorry."

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Sorry? What? Harry couldn't believe his ears. Draco never said sorry for anything. What was he playing at? There was some cruel sinister joke behind this. "Sorry?" Harry repeated.

"Damn it, Potter! Are you deaf! I said it, now get off of me!" replied Draco fiercely.

Harry loosened his grip on Draco considerably and stared at him in disbelief. "What are you playing at, Malfoy?"

"I'm not playing at anything! Are you dull in the head? I said I was sorry," said Draco but his voice was soft and almost a chilling whisper.

Harry could feel Draco's breath against his face. He stepped back from the other boy suspiciously. Draco wasn't sorry, he would never be sorry about anything, but it wasn't like him to act as though he was. "You're not sorry for anything," said Harry shaking.

"Why do you care so much if I am, Potter?" said Draco with a bit of his usual smile coming back. "Why does it matter?"

Harry sneered saying, "It doesn't."

"Fine then, Potter. Everything is normal then," said Draco stepping closer to Harry.

Harry stepped backward stumbling a bit. He wasn't sure why he hadn't walked away by now but something was very strange about Draco.

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Draco was very pleased to see that Harry seemed frightened although he wasn't sure why Harry was. He wasn't exactly sure why he was stepping so close to Harry now. He slowly leaned forward and pressed his lips against Harry's before either of them knew what was happening. He centered his hand on the back of Harry's head as he pressed his own lips against the other boy's soft lips. A bit of Harry's saliva got into his mouth as he swallowed it eagerly. It was a frantic desperate kiss. Suddenly it was broken by Harry who shoved Draco away angrily.

"Oh my fucking God, Draco! What was THAT all about?" yelled Harry, "What was that?"

Draco looked stunned and embarrassed. Several students peeked into the corridor from their compartments with looks of curiosity on their faces.

Draco stared at them eagerly and said with mounting anger, "Go back inside your compartments! There is nothing to see here!" A few of them disappeared but others stayed with looks of interest.

He dragged Harry into an nearby empty compartment and shut the door. Harry stared at him in disbelief. "Draco you answer me! Why the hell did you just.. kiss me?"

"I didn't kiss you.." said Draco with a look of confusion.

"Yes you did! Your mouth was on mine, I call that kissing!"

Draco shook his head. How could this happen to him? Why in the world did he kiss Harry Potter? Before he could stop himself he said, "You didn't like it?"

Harry's mouth dropped in shock and practically shouted, "Of course I didn't! I have a girlfriend, Malfoy! What game are you playing here?"

Draco looked very disappointed.

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Harry was trying to figure out the look on Draco's face. He stared hard into those cold gray eyes feeling very different about Draco. What had happened? Why had Draco decided he wanted to kiss Harry? This had to be some cruel joke yet somehow Harry saw how desperate Draco looked. It was almost pathetic.

Draco finally said, "We'll talk about this later, okay?"

Harry said in a firm voice, "You're right, we will. You'll explain what the hell you think you're doing."

At this Harry brushed past the other boy and disappeared down the corridor.

Draco had definitely lost it. If anyone found out that he, Draco Malfoy, had kissed Harry Potter, he was done with. Everything he was against just shattered in front of his very own eyes. It was as if someone slammed him hard in the stomach with a brick. He sat down feeling so sick that he slid down onto the floor and began to throw up.

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When Harry returned to his compartment he slammed the door shut so hard that the glass broke behind him. "Damn it!"

Hermione promptly took out her wand and said, "Reparo," repairing the broken glass. Then she turned to Harry. "What's wrong?"

Harry turned and looked at her not sure what to say. He couldn't tell her or Ron that Draco Malfoy kissed him. That was definitely not something that he wanted to be known. He didn't know why it bothered him so much, it's not like he kissed Draco back. He didn't, did he? The thought sickened him more. No, it was final, nobody needed to know anything about this. This was something between him and his nemesis who had some trick up his sleeve.

"Nothing," lied Harry as he sat down.

Ron who was unsure what to say looked at Hermione questioningly. Hermione slowly said, "Well maybe we should change into our robes. Expect that we'll be at Hogwarts soon enough."

"Fine," said Harry coldly and he got up and rummaged around for his robes.

End of Chapter 1

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