ONE COLD WINTER:
The struggle for love
Chapter:1




"I love you so but can't you see
that our love can never be
I am unpure and not worthy of you
My body belongs to him it is true
He owns my fear but that is all
but because of this our love will fall
for my fear is powerful and then so is he
and that is why we can never be"

Sakaura's P.O.V.


Winter was coming, she could tell. The days were getting shorter and colder. It should have made her happy, it was her favorite season, but for some reason this year was different. The usual cheerfulness and excitement for the upcoming snows and fun that came with it was not there. Sakaura sighed as she trugged her way to school, bundled down in thick, warm clothing. She would never be happy for winter again, she thought, not as long as that one bad memory could be attached to it. She shook her head, she did not want to think of that bad time ever again.
Getting to school late as usual she made her way to her seat. As she neared it she saw Syaoran sitting there in his usual seat behind her and felt again the mixed feelings of happiness and shamefulness. She was about to say good morning when some one came up to Syaoran. That some one made her stop in her tracks and shiver in fear. It was him, she had been hoping to avoid him but she guessed that was just wishful thinking. Sakaura hesitated, she knew she had to get to her seat but she didn't want to go near him. Right then she heard Syaoran's voice call out her name and she looked up and right into his eyes. One look in those amber whiskey eyes and she suddenly felt safe and warm. She would be okay as long as he was there, she was sure of it. Taking a deep breath she made her way towards the two boys, one her savior and love the other the most terrifying nightmare of her life.


HISdadada P.O.V.

She was walking towards them, his little angel. She looked so pure and innocent as she smiled coming towards them, only he knew how unpure she really was. Suddenly his perfect features became a scowl. Her glorious smile which he had first assumed was for him he just then realized was for his companion. So, his angel had a soft spot for the school's star soccer star Syaoran Li. His anger became stoked even more as he saw Syaoran smile back and greet her bashfully and blushing. He then saw her blush back and then take her seat. There were feelings between the two, how strong they were he did not know all he knew was that he did not like it. Ever since the [time] they had spent together last winter his angel had not seen or shown any interest in any other boy, now this boy, Syaoran, seemed to have peaked her interest. He smiled then, a cold smile that could chill blood. Let her have her fun, let her think she can count on this boy, he would soon show her otherwise. He looked at the back of her head. My little angel, my Sakaura........

"I feel so much in my heart
I hope you feel the same way to
I've been wanting to tell you so badly from the start
but I'm afraid I'll be rejected by you"


Syaoran's P.O.V.

Syaoran sighed as he watched Sakaura from behind as he had been doing for the last six years. He was worried about her. Ever since last winter she seemed more distant and always had a scared look in her eyes as if she was afraid someone was going to jump out at anytime and attack her. At first he had assumed that the stress of being cardmistriss was getting to her, but he quickly dismissed it from his mind. Sakaura had been cardmistriss for almost seven years now why would she suddenly break down, she loved cardcaptoring. No that wasn't the reason and wondering what the reason could be was driving him insane.
Then just now a clue came upon him. He had been sitting in his seat talking to a teammate from soccer when he spotted Sakaura walking toward him. His breath had become caught in his throat. "She is so beautiful" he thought as he watched her gracefully walk down the aisle. "And I love her so much that is why it's killing me to not know what is bothering her." Right then he saw her smiling face freeze and look ready to crumble and her eyes became wide and frightened. He followed the path of her frightened gaze and realized they were locked on the teammate he had been talking to. He tensed as he saw Sakaura try to pull herself together. Whatever was bothering her had something to do with the his teammate. But what? Syaoran looked at the back of Sakaura's head once more. He would have to figure out this mystery soon, he could feel an evil lurking in the shadows as if waiting for the right time to strike and Syaoran knew beyond a shadow of a doubt he would die before he let this evil destroy Sakaura.


Hope I haven't frustrated you by not telling you who the mysterious bad guy is. Don't worry I'll tell you in the next chapter which I think will be the last one. Trying to keep it as short as possible.