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Previously:
"I'll never leave you." She whispered as she let go of him. He smiled sadly at her as she touched on of the cuts on his face. "What happened?" He looked away. "Jess...."
"Rory..." His voice sounded like he on the verge of tears. "I have a problem..."
Now on to the show!
"Have you ever thought something, then actually acted upon it, no matter how selfish and wrong it is?" He stared into the open field, the rain sliding down his face off of his eyelashes down to his chin. "Have you ever thought that we're all just....floating around accidental-like on a breeze, no purpose or reason, just....there and have not a care in the world? But then...there are those select few that take the beating for everyone. They end up completely alone just so everyone else can have a care-free life. Most say that they are the MOST selfish, when in reality, they are the most selfless. I'm one of those people, Rory." She stood there for a moment, taking it all in. He realized that he was going to have to spell it out for her.
"Jess...I'm not entirely sure if I understand..."
"I didn't want that life anymore..so...these past couple of years, I've...umm...tried to take me own life...several times." Rory's eyes enlarged to the size of oranges as she began to back away from him. "Rory..." He held his hand out to her to make her stop.
"Jess, why would you do that?"
"I didn't have anyone in the world, Rory. You have to understand!" He pleaded. She stopped backing away and stared at him.
"Since you've been here...have you...ya know?" He looked away, giving her, her answer. "Jess, you know I was here for you." He nodded sadly. She was almost angry for him not telling her earlier, but how could she be mad at him? Looking at him standing there, he looked like a lost puppy that was completely soaked. "Let's go back to the diner." She put an arm around him and they continued walking. When they finally reached the diner, their clothes were entirely soaked through, even Rory's jean jacket. Jess sat quietly on one of the stools at the counter, thanking God for the diner being closed. He picked up a piece of paper that was on the counter and read it aloud as Rory searched around for blankets.
Jess-
I don't really know what to say to you, but all I can think of is..I'm sorry. Your uncle is a good, stong man and he will make it through this. I went over to the inn to help Lorelai out, but the rain is starting to kick up so I may not be able to get home. Sorry.
Luke
"So Luke's helping my mom out?" Rory asked as she brought in two large, heavy blankets. Jess nodded quietly, taking the blanket from her.
"I have clothes..ya know, if you need or want to change."
"Actually that would be good." He lead her up the stairs and into the apartment. He began rummaging around in his droors for something would at least remotely fit her. Finally finding something, he handed the items of clothing to her and showed her where the bathroom was. He took this time to find himself some clothes. He changed as quickly as possible and awaited for Rory to come out. "Thank you so much, Jess. I feel so much better." She smiled as she came out of the bathroom. She found her way to the washer and dryer and placed her and Jess' clothes in. He cleaned up some of his cuts in the sink and put bandages on them. He was laying on his bed, reading, when Rory finally figured out how to work the darn things. "Hey, Jess, we need to talk." She said, comming over to his bed.
"I figured you would want to eventually." He set his book down beside him and adjusted himself to a sitting position. "I haven't really told anybody. Luke only knows because he found me a couple times like...attempting to..." He made a handmotion. "And so I just...I didn't really know how to bring it up to you, because I knew you'd think I was some kind of suicidal freak and...and I didn't want that."
"Jess, I wouldn't...don't think of you as a 'suicidal freak', ok? It scares me that you thought about something like that...well, actually have tried...and I mean, if you had actually been able to go through with it without anybody finding you...I would have never met you, Jess. And..that would have been...so terrible."
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you."
"It's ok. But please don't kill yourself, I just don't know what I would do..." She hugged him as tight as she could. "I just love you so much and I..." They both stopped what they were doing and stared at one another.
"You....love me?" He asked, holding his breath for her answer. She sat, staring for a moment before she was able to speak.
"Yes, I do."
"What about Dean?" He asked, skeptically.
"He annoys me." She smiled, trying to brighten the mood.
"No one, except my mother has ever said that to me and even then it was just...weird." She continued smiling at him. "And I...think I love you too, Rory." He leaned in to kiss her, but the phone rang. He jumped back and laughed. "I'll get it."
"Hello?"
"Is this Luke Danes?"
"No, this is Jess Mariano, his nephew."
"Oh ok, could you tell him that his...um...well your uncle is going to be fine?"
"I could do that. Thank you very much." He hung up the phone and tried to hide his excitement. "My uncle is going to be fine." He beamed. Rory got up and hugged him for about the thirtieth time that night.
"I'm so happy for you, Jess." She kissed lightly on the lips, but then it turned into a more passionate kiss, leaving them both completely breathless when they pulled away. "I liked that."
"Me too." The both grinned at one another. "I think things are going to turn out ok."
Jess Mariano had had a horrible life until he met Rory Gilmore. He never knew that he could feel this way towards anyone, he didn't even know this feeling existed. He knew that he and Rory would have their rough paches througout their relationship, but he had a feeling that they would get through them. After that day, Jess never tried to hurt himself again, because he now felt like he had a reason to live.
The next day, Rory and Jess both broke up with Dean and Shane, even though Jess and Shane weren't really going out. In the days to follow, Rory and Jess found themselves. Jess was able to get through his friend's death and Rory was finally able to fill most of the hole that had settled in her heart when her father died. They were eachother's savior.
THE ENDA/N: Ok! So that was the end of this story of mine. Thank you all so much for reviewing! It meant so much to me, but if you could just review one more time on the last chapter, that would be absolutely wonderful! I hope that I have entertained you while you were reading this story!