21) He had never known until now.
He sighed again, watching his headmaster out of a reflection on one of his little instruments.
'Yes- he's fine, a little shaken up, but fine, I will send him over shortly.' He explained to the hysterical adults. Harry sighed again- he had sighed almost ten times in the last five minutes.
He looked away quickly as his headmaster came and stood directly in front of him, but Harry avoided his eyes at all cost. He couldn't risk that feeling again, it was too dangerous, who knows maybe next time he really would bite the headmaster.
'Harry? Will you look at me?' Harry looked up but fixed his eyes on Albus's shoulder. 'He wont see you know? You can look at me, we need to talk.'
'What about?' Harry asked as though he was completely fine, trying to slow his breathing, which was showing he was anything from calm.
'Harry- I cannot help you unless you talk to me, I felt we had reached a point where we could talk to each other?' Harry looked at him fully for the first time and it was all he could do from showing his surprise.
Gone were the bright green eyes that had become his trade mark, and they were replaced with deep green, so dark they looked black. He shook his head slightly and stood up, Harry watched his every move, wondering what he was doing.
'Harry, do you remember me telling you about pensive's? Well when your parents died your father had left one that contained things he wanted you to know. Up until today the cabinet containing that pensive has been locked. It was charmed to open when you were ready to understand what it contained. Do you want to look?' Harry couldn't hide his shock, but nodded anyway. The headmaster nodded slightly though Harry could see the worry in his eyes that Harry was far from ready.
He walked to the desk where the pensive was placed and looked into it curiously, without a word he jumped into the memories that could finally offer him some answers. He waited and smiled as Albus landed softly next to him, but didn't speak. He looked around and saw they were in a house, a house he had never been in before. He saw to his shock his parents and Remus and Sirius sat around the table.
'So your having a baby?' Sirius asked his eyes shining excitedly. James nodded his eyes glowing brightly.
'Where's Peter? He should know.' Remus asked softly.
'He had to do something- it was important so he said he'd be round later.' Lily replied, but Harry couldn't fail to miss the look that crossed between Remus and Lily.
When's it due?' Sirius asked quickly trying to work out the months.
'He's due in June.' Harry saw his dad's face fall and suddenly understood, he knew that there was a prophecy made. 'The seventh month.' It was barely more than a whisper but they all heard it.
'Prongs, if it is him, then he couldn't be in better hands, he'll have the two best parents, and two wonderful godfathers- if I do say so myself! Seriously though, we'll do everything we can to protect him and help him.' Remus told him giving his best friend a hug. Sirius nodded, just as the memory dissolved, this time he was in a hospital.
They were in what looked like a maternity ward, and Harry saw his dads excited face- he had just been born. The four marauders were there, and they all looked excited, except Harry saw Peter, he was more interested in what Harry could do. Harry could feel his hatred for the rat growing.
'He looks just like you.' Sirius said looking at the baby with what Harry could only describe as pure love. Remus wiped a tear away from his cheek.
'But he has mums gorgeous eyes. Lets hope that his hair will gradually turn out to be like his mums as well.' He muttered, Sirius and Lily laughed, whilst James pretended to look hurt. 'What do you think Peter?' Remus asked turning onto the slimy rat who had been trying to slink away. His eyes darted around, desperate not to look at them.
'Yes- lovely, I....I think that I'll go and....and get some fresh air.' He muttered before fleeing.
'He's become really weird lately.' Remus said turning to the others, but Sirius just laughed.
'Don't be stupid- he would never change, to bloody weak. No it would be one of us.' And he stared defiantly at Remus as though he thought it was him and he would admit it. But Remus shrugged and muttered what ever. Harry couldn't believe it, he would never have suspected those two. But you did- you thought it was Sirius, and it wasn't, you were wrong, so were they. He sighed and shook his head lightly, still not talking to his headmaster.
The next memory was of an order meeting. There were hundreds of witches and wizards present, Harry searched for his mum and dad and smiled as he saw them. Harry was asleep in a cot at the side of the room, his mum and dad were sat with the two marauders, but Peter was once again missing.
'Welcome to the meeting.' Albus called, Harry watched him with interest, he still had the twinkling eyes but he looked sad, as though he too thought that the war was not going either way. Harry didn't know how he knew that but he could feel all the despair coming from the members.
'Any good news Albus?' James called, his face etched with worry, Albus shook his head and sat.
'I'm sorry to say we still don't know which of the two boys it will be, but he will mark him soon of that I am sure. I do however still think that it will be Harry, and I am sorry.' Harry breathed in sharply, he hadn't known that the headmaster had thought it was him. 'The secret keeper charm has been finished, now you must leave and we must hope that we all come out of this war alive.' The room dissolved again and this time he was back at home.
'James I know that he's your friend, but Remus is right- something's wrong. I can feel it. I think that he has changed sides, we have to leave.' Lily screamed at his dad, he hugged her tight.
'Lily, we'll be OK, Albus will protect us, and Harry. All we can hope is that Peter has remembered how much we loved him. I hope for Harry's sake that you are wrong Lily, I really do.' he sighed and patted her on the back just as Lily screamed. James spun round and there stood Voldemort.
Harry watched for the first time the scene that he had heard every time the dementors had come near him. Watched as his dad tried to hold him off, but for some instinct he ran to follow Lily, he watched her as tears streamed down her face, watched as she gave him something knowing that she couldn't run anywhere. Harry walked over and saw that she had given him a necklace. Baby Harry grabbed it tightly in his chubby fist and closed his eyes, somehow knowing what was about to happen. Albus walked into the room and stood silently beside Harry, they watched as Lily stood there, and guarded her son, and as he killed her.
Then he turned his wand onto Harry, and smiled, saying the two words that terrified every witch and wizard. Harry watched the green light with interest, watched as it hit Harry and rebounded and hit the castor. Then with a jerk Harry was thrown onto the floor and was back inside his headmasters office.
He stood up panting, tears streaming down his cheeks, but not understanding them, all he knew was that he had to find the locket because it held the answer to his powers. He looked fearfully up at Dumbledore who nodded slowly.
'Yes Harry, you have to find the locket, it is important.' Harry nodded thoughtfully, he knew that his aunt and uncle would have taken it, and therefore his best option was to ask her, sighing at the inevitable he stood up and left the office. he had four days until Christmas, and he had to find it before then.
He had no idea where he was going to go and look but first he had to write a letter, explaining to everybody where he had gone. The common room was almost empty, but he didn't answer any of the questions people began asking. He walked straight up to his empty dorm and sat on the bed, summoning a quill and parchment.
He decided that the words would write themselves and so began.
Dear Everybody at the house for Christmas,
It pains me greatly to have to write this but alas there are things that need to be said. It seems that I have to go away because I need to find something. I'm not sure what I am looking for really or how much it will help but I need to go. I will really try and be back in time to open the presents but in case I'm not please don't worry, I will be back when I have found what I am looking for. I know how stupid that sounds but my life was never simple was it?
Please enjoy yourselves, and remember that I am different from everybody else, we all knew that there would be times when I have to follow my own path. Well now my path has lead me in a different direction to yours. You are all meant to be together this year, I am not meant to be there. I hope that I see you all soon, I love you all.
Harry, xx
He sealed it with the Potter crest and called lightning,
'Please take this to #12, then would you like to join me in a little adventure?' he said quietly to his beautiful phoenix.
'I thought that you would never ask.' Came the reply. Harry nodded and watched as the phoenix disappeared in a burst of flames and began the task of deciding what he would take with him. he knew that his invisibility cloak would be a must, and decided against taking another set of robes, and just packed some food and essential items he couldn't live without. The most important being a small photo of him with his friends, the other of him and his parents and Sirius and Remus. Lightning had only been gone when he returned ten minutes later looking somewhat flustered.
'Well really- I deliver a letter and they try to attack me.' he said huffily. Harry burst out laughing, but stopped as soon as he saw his friends face.
'They wanted to come back and see me didn't they?' he asked, still trying to stop the laughter from escaping. Lightning nodded still looking affronted, but he smirked after a while knowing that it was funny.
'Are we ready then?' he asked quietly, Harry looked round the dorm for the last time, and nodded. He had a bad feeling about this trip, but knew that he had to go. 'I'll protect you, you know that right?' Lightning said as though reading his mind, and Harry smiled sadly.
'I hope that you can this time.' And he sighed before walking to the dorm door. They made their way quickly to the broom shed and Harry collected his Firebolt. He loved this broom because of all the memories it gave him, not to mention the fact that it had been Sirius very first present to him. He climbed on and felt it vibrating slightly with excitement, kicking off into the air all his worries left him. He turned to look back at the castle before leaving and smiled slightly as he saw them all stood in the doorway, Ginny nodded slightly and he nodded back, he had known that she would understand, he hoped that the others did as well. He waved slightly to them all and before he could change his mind he spun round and was gone.
Lightning sang into the air and then followed his master, not knowing where they were going, or why, but knowing that it was important, and knowing that before the journey was out he would have to save his masters life.
He sighed again, watching his headmaster out of a reflection on one of his little instruments.
'Yes- he's fine, a little shaken up, but fine, I will send him over shortly.' He explained to the hysterical adults. Harry sighed again- he had sighed almost ten times in the last five minutes.
He looked away quickly as his headmaster came and stood directly in front of him, but Harry avoided his eyes at all cost. He couldn't risk that feeling again, it was too dangerous, who knows maybe next time he really would bite the headmaster.
'Harry? Will you look at me?' Harry looked up but fixed his eyes on Albus's shoulder. 'He wont see you know? You can look at me, we need to talk.'
'What about?' Harry asked as though he was completely fine, trying to slow his breathing, which was showing he was anything from calm.
'Harry- I cannot help you unless you talk to me, I felt we had reached a point where we could talk to each other?' Harry looked at him fully for the first time and it was all he could do from showing his surprise.
Gone were the bright green eyes that had become his trade mark, and they were replaced with deep green, so dark they looked black. He shook his head slightly and stood up, Harry watched his every move, wondering what he was doing.
'Harry, do you remember me telling you about pensive's? Well when your parents died your father had left one that contained things he wanted you to know. Up until today the cabinet containing that pensive has been locked. It was charmed to open when you were ready to understand what it contained. Do you want to look?' Harry couldn't hide his shock, but nodded anyway. The headmaster nodded slightly though Harry could see the worry in his eyes that Harry was far from ready.
He walked to the desk where the pensive was placed and looked into it curiously, without a word he jumped into the memories that could finally offer him some answers. He waited and smiled as Albus landed softly next to him, but didn't speak. He looked around and saw they were in a house, a house he had never been in before. He saw to his shock his parents and Remus and Sirius sat around the table.
'So your having a baby?' Sirius asked his eyes shining excitedly. James nodded his eyes glowing brightly.
'Where's Peter? He should know.' Remus asked softly.
'He had to do something- it was important so he said he'd be round later.' Lily replied, but Harry couldn't fail to miss the look that crossed between Remus and Lily.
When's it due?' Sirius asked quickly trying to work out the months.
'He's due in June.' Harry saw his dad's face fall and suddenly understood, he knew that there was a prophecy made. 'The seventh month.' It was barely more than a whisper but they all heard it.
'Prongs, if it is him, then he couldn't be in better hands, he'll have the two best parents, and two wonderful godfathers- if I do say so myself! Seriously though, we'll do everything we can to protect him and help him.' Remus told him giving his best friend a hug. Sirius nodded, just as the memory dissolved, this time he was in a hospital.
They were in what looked like a maternity ward, and Harry saw his dads excited face- he had just been born. The four marauders were there, and they all looked excited, except Harry saw Peter, he was more interested in what Harry could do. Harry could feel his hatred for the rat growing.
'He looks just like you.' Sirius said looking at the baby with what Harry could only describe as pure love. Remus wiped a tear away from his cheek.
'But he has mums gorgeous eyes. Lets hope that his hair will gradually turn out to be like his mums as well.' He muttered, Sirius and Lily laughed, whilst James pretended to look hurt. 'What do you think Peter?' Remus asked turning onto the slimy rat who had been trying to slink away. His eyes darted around, desperate not to look at them.
'Yes- lovely, I....I think that I'll go and....and get some fresh air.' He muttered before fleeing.
'He's become really weird lately.' Remus said turning to the others, but Sirius just laughed.
'Don't be stupid- he would never change, to bloody weak. No it would be one of us.' And he stared defiantly at Remus as though he thought it was him and he would admit it. But Remus shrugged and muttered what ever. Harry couldn't believe it, he would never have suspected those two. But you did- you thought it was Sirius, and it wasn't, you were wrong, so were they. He sighed and shook his head lightly, still not talking to his headmaster.
The next memory was of an order meeting. There were hundreds of witches and wizards present, Harry searched for his mum and dad and smiled as he saw them. Harry was asleep in a cot at the side of the room, his mum and dad were sat with the two marauders, but Peter was once again missing.
'Welcome to the meeting.' Albus called, Harry watched him with interest, he still had the twinkling eyes but he looked sad, as though he too thought that the war was not going either way. Harry didn't know how he knew that but he could feel all the despair coming from the members.
'Any good news Albus?' James called, his face etched with worry, Albus shook his head and sat.
'I'm sorry to say we still don't know which of the two boys it will be, but he will mark him soon of that I am sure. I do however still think that it will be Harry, and I am sorry.' Harry breathed in sharply, he hadn't known that the headmaster had thought it was him. 'The secret keeper charm has been finished, now you must leave and we must hope that we all come out of this war alive.' The room dissolved again and this time he was back at home.
'James I know that he's your friend, but Remus is right- something's wrong. I can feel it. I think that he has changed sides, we have to leave.' Lily screamed at his dad, he hugged her tight.
'Lily, we'll be OK, Albus will protect us, and Harry. All we can hope is that Peter has remembered how much we loved him. I hope for Harry's sake that you are wrong Lily, I really do.' he sighed and patted her on the back just as Lily screamed. James spun round and there stood Voldemort.
Harry watched for the first time the scene that he had heard every time the dementors had come near him. Watched as his dad tried to hold him off, but for some instinct he ran to follow Lily, he watched her as tears streamed down her face, watched as she gave him something knowing that she couldn't run anywhere. Harry walked over and saw that she had given him a necklace. Baby Harry grabbed it tightly in his chubby fist and closed his eyes, somehow knowing what was about to happen. Albus walked into the room and stood silently beside Harry, they watched as Lily stood there, and guarded her son, and as he killed her.
Then he turned his wand onto Harry, and smiled, saying the two words that terrified every witch and wizard. Harry watched the green light with interest, watched as it hit Harry and rebounded and hit the castor. Then with a jerk Harry was thrown onto the floor and was back inside his headmasters office.
He stood up panting, tears streaming down his cheeks, but not understanding them, all he knew was that he had to find the locket because it held the answer to his powers. He looked fearfully up at Dumbledore who nodded slowly.
'Yes Harry, you have to find the locket, it is important.' Harry nodded thoughtfully, he knew that his aunt and uncle would have taken it, and therefore his best option was to ask her, sighing at the inevitable he stood up and left the office. he had four days until Christmas, and he had to find it before then.
He had no idea where he was going to go and look but first he had to write a letter, explaining to everybody where he had gone. The common room was almost empty, but he didn't answer any of the questions people began asking. He walked straight up to his empty dorm and sat on the bed, summoning a quill and parchment.
He decided that the words would write themselves and so began.
Dear Everybody at the house for Christmas,
It pains me greatly to have to write this but alas there are things that need to be said. It seems that I have to go away because I need to find something. I'm not sure what I am looking for really or how much it will help but I need to go. I will really try and be back in time to open the presents but in case I'm not please don't worry, I will be back when I have found what I am looking for. I know how stupid that sounds but my life was never simple was it?
Please enjoy yourselves, and remember that I am different from everybody else, we all knew that there would be times when I have to follow my own path. Well now my path has lead me in a different direction to yours. You are all meant to be together this year, I am not meant to be there. I hope that I see you all soon, I love you all.
Harry, xx
He sealed it with the Potter crest and called lightning,
'Please take this to #12, then would you like to join me in a little adventure?' he said quietly to his beautiful phoenix.
'I thought that you would never ask.' Came the reply. Harry nodded and watched as the phoenix disappeared in a burst of flames and began the task of deciding what he would take with him. he knew that his invisibility cloak would be a must, and decided against taking another set of robes, and just packed some food and essential items he couldn't live without. The most important being a small photo of him with his friends, the other of him and his parents and Sirius and Remus. Lightning had only been gone when he returned ten minutes later looking somewhat flustered.
'Well really- I deliver a letter and they try to attack me.' he said huffily. Harry burst out laughing, but stopped as soon as he saw his friends face.
'They wanted to come back and see me didn't they?' he asked, still trying to stop the laughter from escaping. Lightning nodded still looking affronted, but he smirked after a while knowing that it was funny.
'Are we ready then?' he asked quietly, Harry looked round the dorm for the last time, and nodded. He had a bad feeling about this trip, but knew that he had to go. 'I'll protect you, you know that right?' Lightning said as though reading his mind, and Harry smiled sadly.
'I hope that you can this time.' And he sighed before walking to the dorm door. They made their way quickly to the broom shed and Harry collected his Firebolt. He loved this broom because of all the memories it gave him, not to mention the fact that it had been Sirius very first present to him. He climbed on and felt it vibrating slightly with excitement, kicking off into the air all his worries left him. He turned to look back at the castle before leaving and smiled slightly as he saw them all stood in the doorway, Ginny nodded slightly and he nodded back, he had known that she would understand, he hoped that the others did as well. He waved slightly to them all and before he could change his mind he spun round and was gone.
Lightning sang into the air and then followed his master, not knowing where they were going, or why, but knowing that it was important, and knowing that before the journey was out he would have to save his masters life.