Curingangelx3: This was supposed to be posted on Christmas, but I went skiing on that day! (I caught a cold there, and getting sick is no fun) Please read my fanfic to make me feel better! Oh and don't forget to go on TeaAnzufan's forum where I have posted a new fanfic.

Well it turns out that my best friend was the winner of this dedication! Good job Ellen! Since it's not Christmas...nor is it new years anymore, this is just a late- present for both. (Ellen, I already gave you a present! It's not fair for others! But since I made the promise to 160th reviewer, I guess…just this once)

Ok and now here is the 8th chapter of Not loving me!

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Not loving me

Chapter 8 Why?

Dedicated to: Healingspirit (Ellen) as a 2nd Christmas and New years present.

Comment to her: Ugh…we have school tomorrow! Nooo! This is just torture…

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you... No, this can't be, you are probably in the control of Xana, or maybe you were here just to warn me. But as I looked into your eyes, I saw it filled with anger, hate and it was real. In your eyes, its iris was familiar to me as if I saw it many times before. It was the same look when you were hurt inside. You kept it well hidden, but I found it.

In your hand, you held a sharp and penetrating sword, and I knew its victim was meant to be me. You pointed the weapon straight at me, as if you were to strike, and yelled, "This is your punishment, you bastard, for always pushing me away. I'll kill you before you even use your weapon."

I didn't understand what you were talking about. The only person that I would strike against was Xana, and never would I harm you again. "My goal here isn't to vanquish you; it is to destroy Xana once and for all. I am really here to rescue you."

"Enough of your lies! Why should I trust someone who has never cared for me? I cared for you all this time, yet you always seemed to push me away as if I was nothing. I was always in the shadows and you…you were with her!" As you told me this, your eyes started to swell once again. Please don't cry, you always shed so many tears whenever I'm around.

At that point I knew that the only thing I was good for was making you cry. Making you shed tears that had no worth at all. It was true, all that you said was true, I hardly noticed you these days and now I regret it. Here is my resignation, for I have no complaints but in deep woe, of what I had done. My resolution is to composedly ask of you to forgive me. Just hear me out, I plead!

"I'm sorry, I was blinded by something but that is no excuse. Can you please forgive me? I really do care for you." I asked a simple yet complex question. I saw you startle and hesitate so I walked closer to you. I was so close that I was able to feel you breathing. "Please?" I tried asking more sweetly, hoping that it would comfort you enough to answer me.

A minute past by, then five, as I waited for you answer. You were still silent and had your eyes fixed coldly at me. I didn't know what to do at that moment, so I just opened my arms and embraced you. You were warm in my arms, and I felt that you were safe with me. The pulsation of my heart began to beat faster as the one single hug made me hover in the metallic sky.

I finally came back to reality, and I heard you whisper in an icy tone, "I can't trust or forgive you, you liar!" Then something very sharp was plunged into me. I froze with shock, still not realizing how vulnerable I was, and I really wished that I was more self-preserved at that moment. I started to fall, still in a frozen state, just not believing what was happening.

I was nearly on the ground, when I whispered in a chocking voice, "Why…?"

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Curingangelx3: Whew, I finally got that done.

Ulrich: It's so short though. Omg, what the heck happened to me?

Curingangelx3: As you can see, even Ulrich does not know about my next chapter.

Ulrich: Just tell me already!

Curingangelx3: Nope, you'll just have to find out…I mean I left you guys hanging again, with Yumi piercing her sword through Ulrich!!! Well you guys will all have to find out. Till then you can review for me. Oh yes, for my next dedication, I will give it to a special number, and whoever the person is that number reviewer, I will dedicate. I have the number written down, so good luck!!

Ulrich: Curingangelx3 will update faster, if the number of the review is already been passed. (She has to wait for that number, or she can't dedicate next chapter!) Anyway review!