Far away . . .

Swirling winds blew . . . . .

Sounds were deafened . . . . . . . .

Night approached . . . . . . .

No amount of tiredness could get me to sleep tonight as my mind whirled with thoughts of the dreams not long ago. They disturbed me because I found myself asking questions about them. In truth there were no answers to the phenomenon of my dreams. Lately however they have begun to grow darker and darker as if a shadow were taking over. I soon felt the approach of an emptiness and a darkness shrouding me from all things light. Heavy as my thoughts were tiredness finally took over.

Gasp Waking with a start I placed my hand on my chest as if out of breath. Was it a premonition to something yet unannounced or, was there a hidden message waiting to be revealed. All I could do was hope that today would not end badly for me.

That morning I did what most people do and that is gather clean clothes and go take a shower, dress up and then go to work and get tired all over again, come home and go to bed and then go through the whole routine all over again. With all this in mind you would think that I had a rather normal life. Unfortunately that wasn't to be because my father is a Third degree High Priest of Wicca. My mom on the other hand is Catholic so in a way both don't get along very well.

There is another reason they don't get along and that is while I'm a Scorpio and my dad is of the same sign my mom is the opposite because she is a Leo. If anyone knew about star signs then they would know that it is a very bad pairing of people. Nonetheless both are married for more then twenty years but now live separately in different houses.

While all of this seems rather not so bad there were however the occasional fights that I often found myself embroiled in. Were it not for my dreams and my art, I don't think that I would have survived as long as I have. The fact that these strangely dressed wraith apparitions appeared often in my dreams didn't help. I even dreamed of places I had never been to but assume these places are past lives. It was as if someone was trying to remind me of something before I forgot what was important.

Day by day with nothing but these thoughts of past lives is enough to make some people confused to the brink of insanity but, as for me, I can't go insane because I already did in another time frame long ago in another life. I even saw the last moments before I died and believe me it is not something I would want anyone to remember nor see because now I have seen death . . . my own. Even though it was a long time ago you almost have to wonder but again I will remind you that it was a very long time ago. Who I was is just a memory that's all but there are some lifetimes that I would like to return to someday.

It is in these lonely days that I wonder where have I gone wrong? What did I do to ever deserve what I have now but there is one solemn answer for it all. Destiny and the ever changing winds of time that are hardly noticed as we grow and die and reborn again. Our spirits learn from the past and yet there feels to me many more things to come upon with unsteady steps as we traverse on an unknown path. We think that by choosing one path it is the right one but even destiny can surprise you.

One minute you could be writing a story and the next find yourself lost and alone in the middle of a bloody battlefield with dead bodies everywhere. What do you do then? Where will you go knowing full well that you have no experience with weapons or even how to handle them? What do you do when you realize that you may end up dead because you made a stupid mistake as not staying where you were or vice versa?

After having a nice lavish shower I got dressed and went to the kitchen to eat something. The kitchen was a real downer to look at since you could plainly see the mold growing on the back door black and disgusting. Even the curtains were ugly and light brown with grayish mold growing on them. The sink was clean but what would you expect from a house that now had only two people living there. My father took it upon himself to move out when my mom needed him the most he had to be a . . .. Insert nasty comment here ! Sighing I made something to eat. Cereal . . . goody . .!

My mind couldn't help but wander. Would it be so simple to travel abroad to another world far from this one? I couldn't help but think that yes, I can go there but in reality that is not possible as of yet. No one that I know of had ever thought of finding the key way to go from one world to another. Wouldn't it be so awesome to go to another world and glimpse a life so different from this one. In the end though it is only a dream that will only be just that . . . . a dream.

I have often dreamed and hoped but all I can do now is to move on and hope that as I continue life will get better. In that one hope maybe I can change the future or my own driven mind that thinks it's so possible to travel to another world. One day I will try every method possible but for now I just keep walking and wandering from day to day wondering of what was, what is, and what will someday come to pass.

Washing my cereal bowl and spoon I dried them and put them away. It was then that I remembered that I had the day off of work. With a slight smile I went to my room upstairs which by the way was rather small. I shouldn't complain because not everyone has their own room. Agh! Why must I be such an idiot or maybe that is because I really am stupid. Okay, I know that I'm not stupid but there were times that I wanted to just run away from life. Kids in my own class didn't like me no matter what. It wasn't until one girl said that she wouldn't want to be my friend anymore because, I didn't wear makeup like other girls which made me realized how far away from true life I was. I know how cruel that comment was and it has stuck with me for the longest time. They say time heals but for me it doesn't and though it tickles my brain there will come a time when it will all wash away with the rain.

One tear slid from my eye as the past hurt more than anything. I wish to go to another world so that I could find some semblance of peace from those that were harsh. You would think that life would be fair but isn't as I am to attest too. We all have our hardships in life so why can't I move on already . . . . . . .

Maybe a movie will cheer me up. I decided on the movie Lord of the Rings because in a way it presents a charisma that pulls you in and holds you making one realization that there is more to life then the one you're currently living. It's a story of magic and of evil but also about a world on the brink; struggling to survive on what remains of what little time they have left before the final deafening wave comes crashing down to wipe out all civilization. Although I have watched it before nothing can compare to my hopeful heart that today would be the day when I would be whisked away into this enchanted world.

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Sorry this took so long. I had to get in the right mood for this in order to fill out the rest of this chapter to perfection. I read this chapter almost five times and I still haven't found anymore mistakes. Well, if anyone finds any mistakes please tell me in a review.