celtcath74: Yeah that's why I liked to do this, I like the insight of a character, really getting into their mind.

TheLegendaryManHimself: The SHEILD thing was mainly from that vision you see of the 'future' at the end of the show. Yeah I like how over time she's changing, which is want I wanted to show

Xmenfan: Yes she will soon, and I've commented a lot of times that the studies get a little freaked out at that telepathic stuff I just got tired of commenting on it.

Ruby631: Yeah that will be interesting to see for both of those.

slickboy444: Yeah she will meet her, and I really wanted her to have at least some family life that was better then she had.

Thanks to: The Uncanny R-Man, Red Witch, fire inu, Damn-my-name-was-taken

Well it's been awhile since I written I know but I've been getting use to life here and with all the damn studying and Danger Room sessions to improve my teamwork abilities it's been kind of full lately. Although Xavier did give me the option of home studying for a GED then going to Bayville high if he thinks I'm not up to it. Personally I'm not sure of going there still.

I mean do I really want to try and go somewhere that people only glare at me with hatred? I got enough of that just walking the damn street in this place. Although that Town X sounds nice but I'll get to that later.

I'm still trying to get a hold of my anger just so I don't wreck this place, and he thinks I can handle high school? From what I heard there's no way I can go there and keep my cool. Besides he still hasn't heard from the new principle on whether the students can go there or not, I mean first off there's a lot more students now and after all the stuff that happened like Apocalypse. Ever since after that everyone has been a little tenser then normal.

It doesn't help matters with groups like the FOH, and people like Kelly out there.

It's time like this that taking a vacation in that Town X sounds like a nice thing. Now let me get to that place. A few days back something weird (basically Xavier picking up a whole lot of mutant signatures that appeared then vanished) and they decided to give Rogue a shot at command.

I swear she was so nervous she was getting on my nerves, I just lucky that whatever Vince did worked. Although I heard they had some trouble they also made contact with his hidden town and this group called the Mutant Underground. The town itself is isolated and from what I hear is Xavier's dream of humans and mutants living in peace made real. I still can't believe that there's an entire town where humans and mutants can get alone. Almost makes you feel there's hope for the future.

Almost, I'm still not sure but then again I'm a cynic. Hey a lifetime of misery, betrayal and pain does that to you.

I heard they got their own little X-Men team called the Protectors, and that they made a few friends there and get this…there's a damn fan club or something there. I mean us as celebrities, with people adoring us and looking up to us and stuff. It's just too strange.

But we were invited back and that's nice to know. Also I heard a few other things. I heard Rogue finally got laid. I mean the way those two go at it I'm surprised they lasted this long, then again from over two years of never touching I guess she's entitled to enjoy it for all it's worth. I must admit though she didn't keep it quiet for long. Man I still can't believe they got busted so fast.

It was also all over the mansion in minutes. I was in the rec room playing some pool with Amara and Tabitha and Gale when Jubilee ran in with all the gossip news. Not only did Rogue and Vince go all the way, but Jean and Scott also got outed and it seemed Kitty and Piotr shared a room. Although they didn't have any sex it seems just sleep in the same bed with their clothes on.

I swear it's no wonder Logan went straight to the Danger Room, it was so trashed Forge had to lend a helping hand with Hank to fix it. It was out of commission for the next day.

Now a few things got into my head from this. First off is now that it seems the adults are letting Jean and Scott continue on but also Rogue and Vince, as long as they keep things safe. I now have to be careful of walking in on them. At first it was them making out or something, now I have to worry about walking in on them having sex. It doesn't help matters that the rooms are kind of sound proof now so if she's screaming her head off I might not hear it until I open the damn door.

Although I think hearing Rogue scream out in passion is the ONE thing Kurt never wants to hear. You know ever since then he's never teleported into our room once, sell except for that prank but once again I'll get to that later.

The other thing that got me thinking was about Simon and me. Is he the man that I would want to go all the way with? I mean he's my first boyfriend and can I see myself going that far with him? Okay so maybe I've had a few dreams that were a little on the rated R side…okay maybe NC-17 would be more accurate.

I mean I never felt like this about anyone. Although I have to admit for my first boyfriend I hit the jackpot (although no one will hear me say that) He's really cute, he's nice to me, listens to me without judging and he just accepts me. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve him.

But I am glad I have him in my life. He really knows how to get me to relax and to have fun. Plus I always get these strange feelings with him. I keep getting this funny feeling in my stomach and me knees get week a few times when he's close and especially when he kisses me. I swear that gets better all the time.

Great…he turns me into a damn gushing girly girl…if Kitty finds out I'll never hear the end of it. Luckily I only say this in my journal and if anyone still wants to live they won't take a look at this and if they don't want to die slowly and horribly then if they do they better keep their mouths shut. (And if anyone IS reading this you better remember THAT!)

Then of course I had the biggest laugh of my life. You see the one time Kurt has teleported into our room for a prank that was pulled on him by Rogue and Vince. He finally got something to get even with her and boy, that boy is devious. I mean I know Bobby likes to pull pranks but Kurt is the master, what he did to Rogue makes me not want to cross the fuzzy blue elf.

First he recruited Amanda and Blink. When Amanda busted into our room I thought she and Kurt had some kind of fight. It's not uncommon although those two rarely argue and it's not normally something serious. But she said she was pregnant THAT got my attention.

Both me and Rogue couldn't believe it. I mean I felt sorry for the girl she was only seventeen and was knocked up? I was thinking of how the others would react and her parents. Then Blink came in said they had another problem I wasn't sure what was going on then. Then when she said she got pregnant by Kurt too I was completely shocked. I mean I just couldn't see it.

Rogue was near panic or something at that point I could see her eyes widen so much I though they would bulge out of her head or something. Then when Kurt came in and the whole three-way thing came into play AND he wanted to shack up with BOTH girls I knew my jaw had dropped. Now since coming here I've seen some strange things but THAT took the cake. I mean I swear Rogue was an inch from fainting and if she was pale before she sure as hell was now. Then Blink sniggered and the others laughed.

It had all been a damn joke…and one hell of a good one too. I swear I NEVER laughed so much in my life! Seeing Rogue all freaked out like that was just priceless. I mean how can ANYONE top that?

Rogue of course had been in a sour mood (yeah I know, what else is knew, but she was more so now then usual) and the three teleporters had of course hidden from her all day. I heard Kurt and Amanda went out for the day and visited her parents (I'm glad Kurt is on their good side again). Blink stayed with Ororo for safety reasons.

That's another thing. I mean Ororo actually decided to fully adopt Blink so she'll be her foster mother and not just her guardian. I feel happy for her I really do…it's just…I wish I had someone like that in my life…someone who would be a parent to me…I never had that and I know who my father is.

When we were still a family he was never really there for us and then he sent me away, used me…God I sound like a damn broken record but then again HOW are you supposed to get over something like that? I don't think you can.

Great now I'm depressed again…

There have been so many times I wished my mom was still alive. I wanted to know her since I never got the chance too…I don't ever know what she looked like, Magneto never kept any pictures that I saw. I'm not sure what to make of that.

It would also have been nice to have at least ONE parent in my life…but that's not my life. There are times I just want to be held but that's never going to happen. I can't let everyone see that. That I have a moment of weakness now and then…I mean…I do have a reputation to keep. Plus I've been alone for so long it's hard for me to try and open up. I'm just so used to being alone and on my own.

I've never known what it was like to have someone to care for you and love you like that, like how some of these kids still have parents that care for them…well…I think Xavier is close and of course Logan is like the overprotective father/uncle figure. Ororo is nice as a mother figure and of course Hank is the kind smart and wise uncle.

Plus I guess all the other kids here are like 'brothers and sisters' to each other. Well expect for the couples of course, but I really can see the connection everyone has around here now.

Well my new sister Lorna FINALLY convinced me to see her mother. I mean I could use a break and I heard the construction crew is coming in a day or so to expand the mansion so I would like to get out of the way while they start. Plus I need to try and get to know my little sister…God it still feels so strange to say that…I'm the big sister…although with Pietro and I are twins I'm sure I'm the older one since he still acts like a child most of the time.

So maybe this won't be so new for me, at least Lorna seems to be more mature then Pietro is…or ever might be to be honest.

Plus I'm SURE Rogue will like having the damn room to herself…I just hope that if she has her boyfriend spend the night with her while I'm gone they stay the hell OFF my bed. If I find one damn wrinkle on my bed I'm BURNING the damn thing. There's no WAY I'm sleeping on the same bed she and him got 'frisky' on. And when I do leave for Lorna's I'm telling her that to her face.

Now that I think about it with Vince in here that would mean Piotr will be all alone…or in theory. I mean Kitty REALLY likes him that much everyone knows but I have to wonder if she wouldn't mind upgrading their relationship?

Piotr seems to be too shy to start something but I'm sure Kitty would be to start things off. But that's not my problem and I don't care either way.

Anyways that's it for now, I have to see what I need to take with me and go meet Lorna at the airport tomorrow too. I still can't believe she talked me into this…I just hope her mom likes me. I know this will be a little strange for the both of us but maybe I can get some answers to a few questions about my Magneto while I'm there.