There was quite a bit that i felt rather disappointed about for this fic so i decided that i was going to go back and revise it. I plan to add some new ideas in while also revising the old parts. I nearly doubled the word count of the chapter with the revision. Here's the first chapter of the revised version. The rest will be revised when i get a chance to work on them. Hope you all enjoy.
It had been this way since as far back as she could remember. The two of them had always been the closest of friends ever since the two of them were babies. Their families were always close so they spent a lot of time with each other.
The two of them had done just about everything with each other. They smiled, they shared tears when one or the other was feeling sad. The two of them were almost considered inseparable. They were the best of friends and they would always be, nothing more, nothing less. That was her problem though.
"Hello?!" the voice of her one of her closest friends broke into her thoughts as she saw a hand being waved in front of her face to see if she was even alive or not anymore. She had been sitting almost perfectly motionless for the past few minutes since she was so deep in her thoughts that she almost forgot where she was or why she was even there in the first place.
Snapping out of her thoughts, she sat straight up as her friend stared at her questioningly. Putting on her mask of happiness, the young woman brought her attention away from her thoughts and towards her friend. "Oh, sorry about that Cagalli," she said with a small laugh for embarrassment at being caught so out of it.
Cagalli just stared at her friend skeptically. It was clear that the young woman before her was lying based upon her past experiences with the girl. She had been so deep in her thoughts before she snapped out of it that she knew she was thinking about something that she didn't want anyone to know about. It wasn't anything new to Cagalli because she'd seen it happen so many times in the past few years.
As far as Cagalli and everyone else were concerned, Lacus Clyne was an enigma. She could think and no one would know what it was about. She would always just smile pleasantly at any inquiring about it and that person would usually forget that anything might've been wrong.
Even though Cagalli had known this woman before her for years, she had never once seen Lacus cry. Lacus went everywhere with a smile on her face. Even when her mother died Cagalli had never seen any tears. She instead went on smiling as if nothing had happened. But they always seemed hollow. Everyone could tell that she was hurting and her closest friends always felt powerless.
Unlike others though, Cagalli would sometimes be lucky enough to know what it was that would get Lacus so out of it like that. The two of them were really good friends but she wasn't the woman's best friend. That position was solely reserved for one person in specific.
Cagalli smirked and the pink haired woman before her who fidgeted uncomfortably in her seat. "Honestly Lacus, you need to be a little more honest about what you're feeling. He'll never know if you refuse to say anything," Cagalli said with a smirk as a light blush crossed Lacus's face at being caught in such a position.
"W-what are you talking about? I'm very honest about my feelings," Lacus insisted in the calm voice that almost made it seem like she truly was if the person hadn't known her long enough. "Maybe it's you who needs to be more honest with her feelings," she said turning the tables back on Cagalli while pointing at a certain someone behind her.
Cagalli curiously turned her head to the side to see what Lacus was pointing at only for her head to shoot back forward immediately. It was Athrun Zala that Lacus was pointing to. "Stop changing the subject! We are talking about you and Kira!" she yelled letting her normal anger get the best of her while trying to refuse to admit the truth.
"Kira? What does he have to do with this?" Lacus asked sweetly with a small smile on her face. Even though she had asked what he had to do with it, she already knew quite clearly just what it was that Cagalli was getting at.
She and Kira had been the best of friends for years, and it was almost exactly the same with Cagalli and Athrun. The four of them grew up together and had built up some very close bonds of friendship.
Cagalli groaned in frustration and ran a hand through her blonde hair. She felt an intense urge to smack the woman in front of her. She had no idea how this girl could be so dishonest about her feelings for her younger brother Kira.
It was always a much debated question whether Kira or Cagalli were the older of the twins. Cagalli was sure that she was the older one though the exact same thing could be said about Kira. It always brought up the most interesting of arguments in Lacus's opinion.
"Oh don't you dare give me that. I happen to know for a fact that you are madly in love with my younger brother," Cagalli pointed out which made Lacus blush the same color of her hair. However, that was only for a second though before Lacus regained her composure and returned to her normal color.
"I-I don't know what you mean," Lacus slightly stuttered. "I'm sure you and Athrun know all about those kind of feelings though," Lacus teased hoping to get the subject away from where Cagalli was going.
Cagalli blushed and even deeper red than Lacus had and didn't look like she was going to change that for a while. "I told you, this isn't about me and Athrun! You also couldn't be farther from the truth. He's more like a stray dog that I simply took pity on!" she screamed refusing to admit the truth.
Lacus found that she rather enjoyed teasing Cagalli about this. It was nice that she wasn't the one that was being teased. Cagalli always seemed to have a way of teasing a person about things that they didn't want to get into.
Lacus chuckled once more as she took a quick look at her watch. "Sorry to cut this conversation short but I need to get to class before I'm late," Lacus said before she got into a light sprint and headed in the direction of her class.
Cagalli shook her head as she calmed down because she knew that it was merely a diversion that Lacus was using so that she could stop talking about the subject. Yet at the same time she was glad to be able to get away from the subject Lacus brought up as well. 'She'll lose him if she doesn't do anything,' she thought with a sigh.
"Wow, she sure seemed to be in a hurry," Athrun's voice said from behind her catching her by surprise. She quickly turned around to see Athrun, much to her embarrassment because of the recent conversation, and Kira walking towards her. Athrun was looking at her and Kira was looking in the direction that Lacus had gone.
"Yeah, she said she had to go or she would be late for class," Cagalli replied as the two men took a seat on the bench next to her. "I wonder if she knows that class doesn't start for another ten minutes," Cagalli said with a laugh looking at her watch and hoping that the ten minutes would take a while to go through.
"I'm sure that she does. You probably scared her off with you're snooping though," Kira said leaning back on the bench. He was sure that Cagalli was probably poking her nose into matters that didn't concern her again. 'If that's the case then it's no wonder that Lacus took off. She sure likes her secrets,' he thought even though he was pretty sure that he knew each and every one of them.
"So you say but I bet that you're curious about what she thinks as well. Then again, you probably know everything about her anyways," Cagalli said with a slight grin. She just saw him turn towards her with a confused look on his face and she couldn't help but sigh at her dense brother. He was smartest in the school but too dense for his own good. She couldn't believe that he couldn't see what was so obvious.
The three of them just sat there in silence for a few minutes. The only noise that could be heard around them was student running around and the sound of Kira typing on his laptop trying to finish some homework that wasn't due for several days.
Taking a look at his watch, he closed his laptop and stood up. "I'd better get going as well," he said before he ran off in the same direction as Lacus since the two of them had the same classes. It had pretty much been that way since high school started.
Athrun and Cagalli stood up as well before heading in their own direction. "So tell me, what exactly was it that you did that made Lacus run like that?" Athrun asked curiously while throwing his backpack over his shoulder.
"Oh nothing much," Cagalli said with a grin that made Athrun feel a bit uncomfortable. "Just seeing how far I could push her before she finally decided to openly admit her feelings for Kira. I mean, it's totally obvious that she's head over heals in love with him," she said deciding to leave out the other discussion that they two of them had before she ran off.
"Even if it is obvious, it's best not to push things. Lacus isn't the type who will say what she is thinking very easily," Athrun said as the two entered their class. He knew this from experience since he's tried and given up hope of ever finding out what the pink haired girl was thinking.
"Yeah well I don't plan to give up. I don't mind if Kira and Lacus dated. I think it would be nice to have Lacus as a sister-in-law. The problem is that she isn't being honest enough. If she doesn't do something that she's going to lose Kira to someone else," Cagalli said hating the idea of how sad Lacus would be if something like that ended up happening.
"I'm sure that Kira will eventually see her feelings for him. We can only hope for the best," Athrun said since he too felt that the two of them could be very happy as a couple. He was sure that it would be just a matter of time though. He just hoped that the time would be soon.
Kira got to class with about a minute to spare before the bell rang. He was a bit out of breathe because he ran all the way to class in hopes of not being late but now he saw that it was pointless since he had plenty of time to spare.
Looking around the room, Kira noticed that Lacus wasn't there yet. "That's odd, she said she was heading here," he mumbled before taking his normal seat next to a window as the rest of the class ran into the room just before the bell rang.
Lacus calmly walked into the room unlike the others who ran for fear of being late. She walked up and took her normal seat in front of Kira before turning around and giving him a smile. "Hey Kira," she said with her sweet voice and beautiful smile that made most men melt at the sight of.
"Took you ten minutes to get here?" Kira asked with a little amusement in his voice as he looked at his watch. "You left to get to class ten minute ago and yet you get here with only a few seconds to spare. I think you're losing it Lacus," he said with a smirk because Lacus was almost always early for class.
Lacus wasn't too fazed by his teasing and she only smiled at him. She was about to speak but the teacher came into the room followed by a young redheaded woman. She turned to look at Kira and frowned when she saw that he was staring very intently at the redhead. She looked sad for a split second before it was replaced with a small smile hoping that it wasn't anything and she was just being paranoid.
The teacher, Mwu La Flaga walked to the front of the room and cleared his throat to get everyone's attention. He was a favorite for a lot of the students. He was almost always light hearted but he also had a serious side to him sometimes. Many didn't notice or didn't care and just carried on with talking to their friends. "Quiet!" he yelled and they shut up immediately to avoid being given detention. "Good," he said with a smirk.
"Class, we have a new student, her name is Fllay Allster," he said and there was a murmur around the classroom when people recognized the name. "We sure seemed to be a magnet for the children of big shots," Mwu said with a light hearted laugh.
Almost everyone knew the name of Allster since one of the leading corporations of the world was run by a millionaire George Allster. Many immediately knew that this meant that she had to be his daughter.
Lacus and Athrun also had well known parents. Kira was well acquainted with both of them since two of his best friends were related to them. However, his views on the two of them were very different.
Lacus was the daughter of Siegel Clyne. He was a man that was probably much more successful than George Allster and better known. Kira personally liked him better than the other two but that was probably because he knew him better since he was best friends with the man's only daughter.
Athrun's father was Patrick Zala. Kira personally preferred to keep his distance from the man because he was known to be ruthless when it came to business. Sometimes he couldn't help but wonder how Athrun was related to him. Athrun was completely different from him considering that he took after his dead mother.
Mwu looked around the room for any open seats. "Why don't you take a seat next to Lacus Miss Allster," he said going to his seat before remembering that she didn't know who Lacus was. "Uh… she's the one with the pink hair," he said scratching the back of his head while the rest of the class let off a few chuckles since this was quite common with such a goof for a teacher.
Lacus watched as Fllay looked directly at her. She couldn't suppress the shiver that went down her spine when the red head's eyes locked with hers with an intense glare. It was a look that made it seem like the woman already hated her. Lacus didn't know why since the two of them had never met before then.
Fllay silently walked across the classroom and took the seat that she was told to take without even bothering to look at anyone. 'Talk about a snobby attitude,' Lacus thought with a grimace before she put on her usual smile.
Turning around to look at Kira, Lacus frowned again when she saw that he was still staring at the woman sitting by her. It made her sad to see him looking at Fllay like that when he'd never even looked at her like that.
It seemed like they would never be anything more than friends and it appeared that it would always stay that way. It was something that she had come to expect while hanging around Kira. He never really saw her as nothing more than a friend, maybe even as a sister much to Lacus's despair.
Even long after the class was let out, Lacus was unable to get the stares that Kira had been giving Fllay out of her head. It seemed like any hope she had was slowly being taken away from her. It was pretty sad that the woman who always put up a bright smile felt nothing but sorrow behind it.
A true smile was something rare when it passed her lips. Most of the time, when it did come out, it was always because of Kira. That was what she loved about him. He was a person who could allow her to truly smile. He could bring anything out of her if he had tried since she usually couldn't keep things from him.
Lacus's mother died what she was in the eighth grade. For the first few weeks Lacus put up this strong front by not shedding a tear. However, on the inside it was completely different, she was a complete mess. She simply put up a smile that made everyone think that she was going to be fine. The truth was that she was not. On the inside she was screaming.
She couldn't help but remember the first day that she began to realize that there was something more to how she felt. It was one day after school. She had gone home alone that day only to find that Kira was already there when she got there. He apparently hadn't been fooled by her smiles then. He came there to talk to her about it and see if he could find out how she was truly feeling about it.
Flashback
Lacus was approaching her door when she noticed that Kira was there waiting for her. "Hello Kira," she said with a smile even though she had just seem him not too long ago. "What are you doing here?" she asked as she walked up to her door and unlocked it before the two of them walked inside.
"I came to see if you were alright," he said to her with a worried look on his face. He wanted to find out the truth because he simply wasn't satisfied with that fake smile she insisted on putting on. He wasn't fooled for a second.
Lacus simply put on a smile as she led him towards the living room. Her father wasn't there so it was just the two of them alone at that moment. "Of course I am Kira Why do you ask?" she asked as the two of them took a seat on the comfortable couches and just relaxed after the stressful day of school.
"I don't believe for a second that you are," he said with a frown at the fake smile that he didn't want to see. He only wanted to see a real one on her face. For a second after he said that he thought he saw a small fault in her mask. "It's ok to feel pain Lacus. You just lost your mother and yet you don't weep for her. Why Lacus?" he asked turning his solemn face towards her connecting his violet eyes to her beautiful blue ones.
Lacus turned away from him since she felt like she couldn't look him in the eye right then. "I'll be fine Kira. You don't have to worry about me," she said in a calm voice which betrayed her true feelings. She then suddenly felt him grab her lightly by the chin and forced her to look at him in the eyes.
What Kira saw was not that of the normally cheerful woman that he had always known. Her eyes were glazed over with a watery look to them as if she was about to cry yet was trying her best to hold them back.
"It's alright. I swear that I'm fine," Lacus said pulling her face from him hold. She then immediately went about wiping away the tears she didn't want to show him. "Please don't worry about me," she said in a slightly raspy voice.
Kira acted before he could stop himself. He immediately grabbed a hold of Lacus and held her in a tight hug. "But I do worry Lacus. You're my best friend. It's very hard for me to have to see you in so much pain. Don't say you're not because I know that you are," he said before the tears that she had obviously been trying so hard to hold in broke loose like the breaking of a dam.
She had tried so hard to hold back the tears that were now falling from her eyes. It was just so difficult when Kira was being the way that he was. She didn't want to appear weak in front of him. Yet she figured that right now she was weak. She wanted so desperately to not feel this way.
Kira continued to hold Lacus even as her tears soaked his shirt. "You've held it in so long," he said giving her a small kiss on the forehead to try and comfort her. He hated seeing her tears but at the same time it was better than seeing her suffering under the weight of her own sorrow.
"Why?! Why did she have to die?!" Lacus screamed through her tears. Her and her mother had been as close as a mother and daughter could be. She tried to be strong for her mother's sake but she found that it was simply impossible.
Her mother had always been rather sickly even if a person couldn't see that just by looking for her. She had some sort of disease that doctors simply couldn't find a cure for. So in the end it finally got to her and she died.
Kira simply didn't have an answer for why such a wonderful woman had to be taken from them. Kira himself had always been close to the entire family. He thought of her as a second mother so her passing hit him hard as well. He found that along with Lacus's tears a few of his own were also falling down his face.
Lacus just continued to cry from a while before her exhaustion finally started to catch up for a while. The tears slowly stopped and Lacus found herself growing tired before she finally fell asleep right next to Kira.
A groan escaped Lacus's mouth as she slowly opened her eyes. She looked around the room and then at the man next to her. She then jumped up realizing that she had fallen asleep on Kira's shoulder.
Kira himself had apparently fallen asleep as well at some point. She looked towards the clock and saw that it was nearly nine at night. Her father didn't appear to be home which had become usual the past few weeks since he buried himself in work to forget about the death of his beloved wife.
Lacus stared at Kira as he rested peaceful. She simply didn't have the heart to wake him up when he looked so peaceful. 'I hope that his parent's aren't worried,' she thought with a frown as she quickly called them and explained things.
Lacus hung up the phone and was glad that he'd already explained things to them. She then found herself staring at him again. She didn't know why but she suddenly found herself admiring how handsome he looked right then. She blushed at the thought and tried to shake away those strange feelings that she had been having.
Lacus sat back down next to Kira and found herself falling back into the position that she had been in before she'd woken up. Through her trouble heart she found some semblance of peace while he was with her. She felt so much comfort just being in this position and soon found herself drifting off to sleep once again.
End Flashback
Something about that day drastically changed Lacus's view of her whole relationship with Kira. She slowly started to realize just what it was that she felt that day. Each and every day that feeling continue to grow within her until it became too much for her to deny. The day that she started wishing for more out of it, the day that she fell in love with her best friend, Kira Yamato.