When The Lights Went Out -- A YNM fanfiction
by Thyphy

CH. 1 - Heat

Hisoka's POV

-"I'm going to see Tsuzuki today"

As I wake up every day, the very first thing that comes to my mind is "I'm going to see Tsuzuki today". It may not sound very coherent, even for me, who calls him baka every day. But I noticed that "Baka" - with the intonation - is only for him and I won't ever call anyone the "baka" I'm used to call Tsuzuki. I don't know if it's a good thing. The only thing I've always had sure is that Tsuzuki is a very special kind. And special himself. And kind. Oh whatever...

Even if I wake up from a nightmare, I can't stop hearing in the inner 'It's ok. Tsuzuki will be with me soon'.
Am I that weak? Do I really have to see him every day, so I'll be satisfied? What is it I feel? So warm... yet so odd? Every time I think about Tsuzuki I end up with the same conclusion and on time at work. I guess it would be better if I just woke up and left the house without thinking about anything... but I can't do this, so, I'm keeping my head busy with thoughts while my hands are kept busy dressing my body.

Knock knock

I can't believe it.

"Hisoka!"

Baka. What are you doing here?
Damn. I'm not even full dressed...
I guess I can put a shirt later.

It's awesome how my body shudders in the way to the door when you're the one to step on the threshold. You're always so happy that I can feel your warmth climbing my legs and the heat warming the walls. You're so powerful.

I just have to try telling you someday how comfortable you make me feel when your happiness hits my body to the full and makes me dizzy.

"Yes, Tsuzu-"

It's all I can say before opening the door. You're so impatient when there's a door on your way.

"Hisoka!!"

What? Hugging me just like the shinigami girls?

"Let go! I'd rather feel your happiness at some distance!"

Big fat lie

"So mean, Hisoka! I just came to tell you we won't have to work today."
"Eh? Why?"
"Uh... Watari said JuuOhCho didn't pay the light bills, so the light was cut."
"Oh."

How come Tatsumi let this happen?

"We should spend our time doing something great, Hisoka!"
"Tsuzuki, just come in and wait 'quietly' until I come back wearing more clothes, ok?"
"Ok."

This 'ok' of Tsuzuki worries me...

"Ne, Hisoka..."

You always do that. You always make me face you when I want to go away...

"Where are your clothes?"

And you use such dumb excuses. How can you do that? Teach me.

"I've just woken up"
"Ah-"
"No, you did not wake me up."

I can feel your concern. It's something peculiar to feel. Especially for me who never felt it towards my being before.

Because I can't look at your concerned face, I can't help blushing and walking until I reach my room.

"Wait for me"

I know I don't have to say such words. I know you'll be waiting. Exactly as I would. Ever. I reckon it's something I've told you already, but sometimes you do things to yourself as expecting no-one would care. You're so wrong.

And I'm afraid I can't live without you anymore.

"Uh... So, Hisoka, what do you want to do today?"

I can hear your voice from here, from behind the thick walls.

I don't feel like speaking loud, thus I'll just have to finish buttoning this shirt and leave my room silently as I got here.

"I did not have my breakfast yet."

It's all I can say. I have no plans for today, except for reading books. But I guess being with you is somehow more pleasant than that.
As your eyes get full of the excitement and expectancy towards the food (the kind of thing that I'll never manage to let happen to me), I can feel that warmth again, wanting me to just run away with it and try to be happy forever. Together.

"Let's go to Ningenkai and eat sweets!!"

What can I do?

"Sure"

--To be Continued--