Title: Quiet

Author: Snooglez

Disclaimer: I don own anyone!

Rating: Um… PGish?

Pairing: A/M

AN: This is well… the second part is a songfic. This is a two part fic.

It just popped up out of the blue when I was listening to my Rachael Yamagata cd. I swear I've used up 4 pairs of batteries in two weeks from listening to it so much. She's so awesome…(blush). Anyway, I was listening to her song "Quiet". It's so sad and reminded me of heartache so I was like, I gotta do a song fic. This is my first one so be GENTLE. Heh. R&R please. I love reviews.

Oh and sorry for any typos, or misplaced phrases, if any. I sometimes do that if I'm revising to make it better or somethin'.

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Chapter 1: Clock Ticking

Summer threw the car in neutral in front of Alex's house. Sighing heavily she reached toward the ignition and turned the car off. The rain thundered against the roof of the car, but wasn't to compare with the deafening silence that followed right after she turned the key.

She needed to be strong for Marissa. After all a friend was supposed to be in great mental health when the other wasn't, right?

She turned those saddened doe eyes of hers toward her best friend, watching intently as the slightly older girl gently rocked herself back and forth in the passenger seat, striving to suppress her nerves from wearing thin. Little did Summer know that Marissa was breaking in front of her eyes.

She slid as far as she could to Marissa and took her hand in her own. Marissa stopped rocking, but her eyes emptily stared at the windshield, pupils never leaving the scene of the rain sloshing down the glass. She was lost in her thoughts, her mind never fully grasping what she knew in her heart of hearts she had to do. It was killing her, destroying her from the inside out, but in the midst of chaos, she refused to break down. She just couldn't. She had to get through this with as much sanity as she could keep intact.

Summer gave her hand a light squeeze, sort of a reminder that she'd always be there for her whenever she needed her. The gesture snapped Marissa out of her trance. Turned to glance over at Summer whose fixed features seemed in much resemblance of a child struggling to hold tears back after their favorite toy was snatched from their grasp. Summer felt intensely for her friend. It was as if she'd grown powers of empathy, feeling what Marissa was, but almost worse because she was in a nearly identical situation herself.

'Come on Summer, be strong for her. You gotta be strong. She needs you for this. She needs you to help her get through.'

Marissa's tears threatened to spill over as she spoke.

"I don't think I can do it Sum." Her voice was a mere tremble. A lone tear trickled down her cheek.

Summer stretched her arm out to wipe away the stray tear with the face of her thumb.

"I don't want to hear it Marissa Cooper." She voiced in a sing song. Her lips formed a weak smile, something that was meant to lift Marissa's spirits. However Marissa didn't think it could do such a thing when she knew the task ahead was to be accomplished, no matter how much it hurt, or pained her heart.

With great grief shared between them, Summer's tears soon spilled over seeing her friend in such a state.

"God Coop. You're such a big baby." She chuckled shortly, smiling through her tears. She leaned over and wrapped her arms around her to give her a hug, but in the small space of being in the car it was a semi hug more than anything. Before pulling back Summer delivered a tender kiss on her forehead.

"You can do it. I know you can." She reassured her, hands poised on each side of her head forcing her to stare into her big brown eyes. "I'm here for you, and you better know it."

Marissa nodded gravely. She smiled a smile that was induced to shy away Summer's growing concern for her, failing miserably.

"Okay." She sniffled.

"I'll be right here waiting out here for you."

Summer gave her one last chaste kiss on the forehead, and watched her step out of the car, into the pouring rain.

The second Marissa heard the car door click shut, it was if she'd been shut out off from all comforted warmth, and shoved her into the cold harsh reality she knew she had to face.

With every stride, the rain seemed to wash away every ounce of confidence she'd stored from Summer's small prep talk just a few seconds ago. With a heavy heart, she lifted a trembling hand, her wrist craning to perform three light knocks against the door. A glint of gold caught her eye looked up to her right to stare at the golden "A" just to the left of the door. She reached up to touch it, her fingertips stroking the smooth shiny surface. I'd be the last time she'd ever see it.

The door opened to reveal the all time familiar blonde. The girl who'd enveloped her with so much of her love a hundred, maybe even a thousand times over. Countless times she'd told her she loved her with everything she could summon, embracing her, kissing her. Countless times… those numbers would come to a screeching halt today, right now, this moment.

She couldn't even look her in the eye. She was such a coward. Afraid of her feelings... afraid of breaking down, afraid of giving in.

Alex, perplexed slightly at the sight of Marissa soaked to the skin from the rain, head hanging low and standing on her doorstep, almost immediately took it as some odd trick the brunette was playing on her.

Her head dipped down to catch her eyes. She wanted to see those doubtless brown eyes that could light a room if you let them. Marissa looked up at Alex. She was so close her breath was warming the chilled skin of her face.

Her eyes weren't shining like they used to, instead almost dead, cold to the world… depressing. Alex stepped even closer her arms reaching out to wrap around Marissa's tiny waist. Alex didn't care that she was sopping wet; she wanted to know what was the matter with her baby.

She couldn't bear it. Her heart was shredding with every passing second. She shuddered in Alex's arms, partly from the cold, partly from her emotions.

Alex was hugging her tightly now, stroking her water lagged hair, lips kissing her ear and neck. She wanted to soothe her girl from whatever was haunting her, burdening her.

"Hey, baby. It'll be okay alright? Whatever it is I promise I make it all better babe." She whispered into her neck before kissing it again.

It was at that split second everything Marissa struggled to hold in, and keep in, it just all came spilling out like a flood gate that had just held the Atlantic Ocean.

She broke down.

Her body was trembling, shuddering harshly against Alex's as the sobs racked her frail and fatigued body. She buried her head into Alex's shirt clad shoulder, the hot tears pouring onto the fabric. Her hands reached around Alex, grabbing fistfuls of her shirt, holding onto it for dear life.

Alex who was now completely oblivious to what was wrong with her, could only hold her even closer to her. She didn't know what was up, but it certainly wasn't good.

The two had stood on the door steps for a good fifteen minutes before Alex guided them inside. With worry worn clearly on her features she was growing even more concerned because Marissa's tear were still going full force.

Little did she know what she was in for…

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Wassup guys! Miss me? Yea I'm sorry I've been sitting on my ass for about a month, but school's a fukkin drag, and my ever famous writer's block that accompanies the "Promise Me This" fic will hopefully fade some day. But until them… enjoy this one… even though it's kinda sad. Sorry peoples… this one's not gonna end happy. I warned you.

This chap might be a little confusing but you'll understand fully in the next.

Oh, and thankies for all the lovely reviews from my last fic. You guys fukkin rock.

Mwahz!

Snooglez