A/N: It seems like I haven't updated in forever! Sorry for a very long break! It had to be a very long break because College is killer sometimes…that and work! XD Well I'm glad most of you will know this is the end of A Love Through Time
Finally Syaoran's going to become a man! LOLZ
Without further stall, here we go!
Chapter 29: What To Do
Suzuka fidgeted with her hands the whole way home. The way Syaoran was looking and sighing was getting her edgy…what would they tell Sakura? Especially now that he was going to be with her…right?
But his wife is alive…that'd null their marriage…but then again this was China…a place any man could take a lot of women's to wife…. but she didn't want to share! Suzuka doubted Sakura would share as well…
She glanced back at Syaoran but he looked as he did when they first got in the car. With a sigh she lightly grasped Syaoran's arm, " Do you still love her?"
Syaoran didn't answer. Although he didn't, Suzuka knew it was because he couldn't answer…
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2 Weeks Later
Suzuka stared out the window…He had once again went to his wife…for two weeks since she woke up he had been spending nights there to staying by Sakura's side. She sighed and closed the blind. Tonight he probably was over there as well. Stretching, she stood to go get some sleep. Suddenly the door unlocked and flung open.
"Okaeri…" Suzuka greeted when Syaoran walked into the room.
"Tadaima" Syaoran muttered and took off his shoes.
"Did you go to her again?" Suzuka asked clearly smelling the scent of Sakura on his jacket.
"Aa" Syaoran said absently.
"Syaoran…do you like me?"
"I do" Syaoran replied without a thought.
"Then…will you stop seeing her?" Suzuka asked.
Syaoran hesitated for the slightest second. He let out a sigh and stood to go to the bedroom.
"Answer me!" Suzuka cried out striking him across the face.
Syaoran merely snapped his tired gaze back to her and opened his mouth slightly.
"I won't," He said clearly to her before turning to the bedroom.
"I…I hate you!" Suzuka declared and grabbed his keys and her purse barging out of the house in anger…how dare he not love her enough! How dare he!
Suzuka started crying as she drove to an endless place. No…she had it wrong…how dare she…how could she go behind Sakura's back and take the one who was waiting only for her? How could she take advantage of Syaoran and demand they get engaged…had she always feared Sakura would awaken one day? Had she feared this day when he would say he loved Sakura and not her?
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How she ended up in front of the Yi residence, she had no clue…but she truly had wanted Syaoran…and if she had to confront Sakura with her feelings…then so be it!
Suzuka smiled at the maid as she showed her up to Sakura's quarters.
Yes, she'd have to do this…
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I groaned as I tried to stand on the floor. Not standing for that long a time had my legs paralyzed for a while. I had practiced everyday hoping I could walk soon like I used to so I wouldn't burden Syaoran. I smiled in thought of Syaoran. Today he had looked truly exhausted but still made the effort to see her before she demanded he go home to sleep.
With a sigh, I rubbed my legs to relieve the numbness…
"Sakura…."
"Yes" I said looking up to the maid that just entered.
"You have a visitor"
"Eh?" I asked and craned my neck to see who was behind her. "Suzuka?"
"Sakura," She greeted softly. Her eyes were downcast as she walked into the room.
"Come in" I said despite how quiet she seemed. I watched as she sat next to me in silence. Something already told me there was something wrong.
"So…How are you?" I asked with a smile.
"Stop it!" Suzuka suddenly yelled out. Covering her head with her hands she closed her eyes.
I watched her intently as she finally looked up at me. I was a bit shocked at the emotion on her face. Although there was anguish in her eyes, there was also clearly hate.
"I'm engaged to Syaoran." She stated.
I stared at her incredulously.
"Is this a joke?" I asked her with a small attempt to laugh it off.
"It's no joke!" Suzuka shouted. "If you didn't wake up, we would be getting married!"
Those words hurt me. I felt as if she never wanted me to get up, as if I should've died!
"I stated that a bit bluntly…" Suzuka tried to correct when the full weight of her words finally impacted her.
"GET OUT!" was the only word I could utter.
"I think…" Suzuka started again and I swung with all my might at her face. The sound of the slap and the sting of my hands made me feel very good at the moment!
"Get out!" I stated more calmly now. I couldn't even look at her… I couldn't believe Syaoran would do this to me…
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Later
I heard a slight knock on my door and looked up to see the person I loved and hated the most in the world. Pushing the tears back I set my feet on the ground and with all my leftover strength, attempted to walk by myself.
"Be careful!" Syaoran said reaching for me as I fell forward. Holding the table, I managed to steady myself on him and the table.
We stood that way for a while… until I spoke…
"Why didn't you tell me?" I whispered.
"Tell you what?" Syaoran asked innocently.
"That you wanted me to die?" I asked, "That you were engaged…before I breathed my last breath? That you don't need me?" Somewhere in between that speech, my voice broke and tears spilled.
"Sakura…"
"I'm asking you a question!" I yelled jerking my arm from his grasp.
"I'm sorry Sakura…I did something I shouldn't have…again…but darling-"
"What? Another of your lies you've yet to tell?" I spat angrily
"No… I truly love YOU Sakura…. it's true if you died I would've married her, I won't deny that…but it's also true that I love you and intend to be with you only."
"Then why didn't you tell her off? Why did I have to hear about this incident from her?" I asked with a frown.
"Perhaps she thought you'd do this…" Syaoran said with a sigh. "But I swear Sakura…my intentions are to break up with her!"
"Then do it…if you don't then there is no need for you to come back!" I said and turned away back to my bed. I didn't look back at him nor did he try to stop me. The next thing I heard was a reluctant shuffle of his steps heading to the door.
I collapsed on my bed physically and mentally tired…perhaps I could forgive him tomorrow…perhaps…
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Suzuka
Suzuka stared at the apartment she had left thinking she was going to be Syaoran's wife. A place she never shouldn't have dreamed to have, yet she longed and chased for that spot. In the end she returned here by herself and if her gut feeling was right, she'd be staying here…
'Baka Suzaka…it's because you tried to fit where you didn't belong!' Suzaka chided herself as she threw her luggage on the nearest sofa and collapsed on the other. She bit her lip as she looked at her ringless left hand. Syaoran had been very clear tonight of who he wanted…yet the pain was very much still there.
"I want to be by my wife's side Suzaka…together…we've been a mistake…something we both shouldn't have done. I take responsibility for what I did though…there's no way I can say sorry anymore to you then now…"
"So that's it?" Suzaka asked clenching her fist.
"Yes…I think you should leave…"
Suzaku stared at the ceiling as tears filled her eyes once more. With those last words she was shipped out of the house and here she was in her own apartment…most likely he'd be with her…
"Be happy then…" Suzaka said wiping her tears away. She slowly headed to her bedroom and decided she should be happy she didn't get him. After all, Syaoran would've never really loved her anyways…
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I watched him walk into the room and I stared straight as him. It hadn't even been a night yet since I sent him out of this very room…only hours ago actually.
"What do you want?" I asked wearily.
Syaoran merely advanced and sat in the seat next my bed as he stared at his hands.
"I did it…" he finally said after a long time.
"Did what?" I asked softly.
Suddenly he hugged me tightly and mumbled. " I told Suzaka to go…"
"Is that so…" I said softly against his shoulder. Softly I pushed him off and I looked at him straight in the eyes. It was times like this when I wondered why I every walked this far with such a fickle man…why I even love him…
"I love you Sakura…" Syaoran mumbled softly as he closed the distance between us and pressed his cold lips against mine. " I know I don't deserve you but still…I love you."
I didn't say anything as I stared at my own hands. I couldn't understand why I loved this man…nor could I understand why I wanted him so much, I'd overlook things I would never overlook if I didn't love him so.
"I…" I finally started but the words died on my lips as I observed him. His amber eyes looked painfully at me…he looked so broken compared to before I went into a coma…although it had been a couple of days since I awoke, I never really noticed his fatigue until now.
"You…you don't have to forgive me…" Syaoran finally said with a small smile. " All I've ever done is really hurt you and destroy you…I don't expect you to stand next to me…but I want you to…"
I merely nodded dumbly. I didn't know why I was willing to forgive him once more nor was I able to understand this dying love in my heart for him. Perhaps it's because I'm a woman…a woman that holds too much love for him.
I drew him slowly into my arms and kissed his cheek lightly. " I love you too…"
I felt his tight embrace wrap around me immediately and I was content to feel his need for me. Suddenly he pulled back and searched my eyes as I stared at him curiously.
"What is it?" I asked.
He didn't answer as he pulled my hand against his lips softly. " Nothing…" He finally said, " I just don't know how you can put up with me…"
I merely smiled and pushed his forehead a bit harshly. " I'm at my limit you idiot! If you ever so much as involve yourself with another women, I will personally see to your death!"
Syaoran merely smiled and pulled me closer against him. " Okay…"
I rested my head on his shoulder and felt myself wondering…is this the extent of love?
Perhaps I'll never know, but this love that transcended through time was definitely enough of an adventure for me!
A/N: Thus ends this story! I can now concentrate on FC and A Ghosts Love!!!
YAY! Do a last review at least and I'll see you all in one of the other two stories!