Summary: R/M S/S. Ryan, Marissa, Seth and Summer go to a party. Marissa ends up getting drunk and she and Ryan leave early. But what happens when she and Ryan get in a car accident and Ryan ends up in a coma? What will Marissa do? Will she feel guilty? Will Ryan live?Finally Zach gets jealous of Seth/Summer and tries to somehow get Summer away from Seth to win her back. Will his evil scheme work? (I changed to TEEN rating. I might change it back to mature. But I'm not sure. Anywayyys..On with the fic………

-- Chapter 1 –

-- The Party –

Marissa sat in her room. Her hair was a mess, her room was completely dark. The only light that she could see was the light from the lightning brightening her room time after time. Her mascara ran down her face mixing in with the moisture of her tears. She had been crying all night. Everything that happened the night before…She couldn't take it. She new this was her fault…But what could she do now? She screwed up like always, now she had to pay. She leaned back so that her back was lying on the head board of her bed. She stared up at the ceiling; she closed her eyes letting more tears escape her eyes. She quickly wiped her face with her hands and stood up walking toward the window. She stared out at the rain, the lightning flashing, lighting her dark upsetting face up. She stared down, looking at the ground below her. She opened the door walking onto her balcony; she stared down at the pavement and green grass. She then looked up at the sky as the pouring ran dripped onto her face and the lightning flashed. She could remember every action of the night before…She could see everything in her mind…

--Memory—

Marissa sat in her living room watching TV as Caleb and Julie fought, like always. She switched through the channels, as she waited for Ryan to come pick her up. They were going to some party some kid at school was having. Seth and Summer were tagging along, too. She heard the doorbell ring and immediately lifted herself up off the sofa and walked toward the door, thrusting it open. A wide smile appeared on her face when she saw Ryan. "Hi." She said quietly. "Let me just go get my purse." She said turning and grabbing her purse from the couch. She quickly walked back toward the door. "Mom, I'm leaving!" She yelled and walked out the door before Julie could say a word.

Ryan smiled when he saw Marissa. "Hey." He replied. He nodded when she had she needed to get her purse and stood patiently in the doorway going inside hadn't crossed his mind once. He never went inside when he picked Marissa up…Julie hated him. That was that…When Marissa returned they both quickly left getting into the car. He looked toward her. She was beautiful she always was…

Marissa got into the car, shutting the door after her. She noticed Ryan had been looking at her and quickly turned her head to face him. "What?" She asked with a small smile.

Ryan shook his head. "I love you." He said a small smile on his face.

Marissa looked down for a minute smiling. She soon returned to his gaze. "Who wouldn't?" She said smiling, jokingly. She then quit the joking act and became more serious. "I love you too." She said leaning in and kissing him.

He laughed slightly at Marissa's comment. He smiled as they both leaned close. He kissed her softly on the lips. After a few seconds the two of them pulled apart. He smiled toward her. "We should probably get going." He answered turning and starting the car. He put the car in reverse as he pulled out of the driveway. He then switched to drive and speeded down the street toward the address of the party. "Okay, where do I go now?" He asked looking toward her for a second, then back to the road.

Marissa looked down at the small piece of notepaper that had the directions scribbled down on it. "Umm…Turn right…" She started. She bit her lip trying to read the street name, but she couldn't. That was the last time she ever accepted directions written by Summer. She finally made out the street name, it was South Main Street, and she looked up.

Ryan looked toward her a short moment before looking back at the road. "Turn right where?" He asked.

Marisa finally saw the street and was about to tell him to turn, but he had speeded passed the street. "Back there." She said pointing to the street they had just passed.

Ryan smiled. "Wow, I guess were kind of bad at this, huh?" He said pulling into someone's driveway and turning around. He quickly speeded toward South Main Street. "Here?" He asked stopping slowly.

Marissa smiled toward him. "Yeah, I guess we are." She answered. She stared out the window as the two of them turned around and speeded toward South Main Street. "Yup." She answered simply yet quietly. She then looked back down at the directions. This was going to be a long drive….

--An Hour Later--

Ryan and Marissa finally arrived at the party. To Marissa it seemed like it took about 5 years to get there from all the wrong turns they had taken. Marissa stepped out of the car, as did Ryan. They both walked to the open door and inside to hear music blasting and people dancing, talking, taking drugs, and drinking. Soon enough, Seth and Summer approached them.

Summer ran toward Marissa quickly. "Coop! You finally made it! God, what took you guys so long?" She asked taking a sip of the beer that was in her hand.

Marissa smiled and sideways glanced at Ryan who had been doing the same to her. "We kind of got lost...a couple of times." She said giggling a little.

Seth smiled toward both of them and gave a slight wave. "Hey guys." He said.

Summer nodded. "C'mon Coop." She said taking a hold of Marissa's arm with her free hand. "Let's go hang out." She said as she began walking through the crowds of people.

Marissa nodded. "Sure." She said, she looked toward Ryan giving him a quick kiss. "We'll hang out later? Or...Make out later." She said smiling, adding in a small chuckle.

Ryan smiled and kissed her back. "See you." He said smiling. He watched as Summer dragged Marissa off into the crowd of people. He wanted to yell out to her to be careful. But, he didn't feel the need to…Not anymore. Marissa had changed this year, with the drinking. She was different now…Better.

Seth turned looking confused. "Wait…Summer! But…When are WE gonna hang out?" He yelled over the blaring music and other talking people.

Summer smiled as she looked back at Seth. "Later, Cohen!" She called back while walking. She smiled and blew him a kiss. Soon enough she and Marissa disappeared into the huge crowd of drunken dancing people.

Ryan turned to Seth, "So, things between you and Summer seem to be going good." He stated as he grabbed a beer. He took a sip as he listened to Seth's answer.

Seth looked toward Ryan and nodded proudly. "Yeah, things have gotten better…Summer seems to be excepting the whole 'graphic novel' a lot better then she was. I mean, okay, maybe there was that whole episode in the car where she complained about me and Zach being partners but…She's over it now and she's completely happy, I mean look at her!" He said motioning to Summer who wasn't to far from where they were standing.

Summer's mouth hung open when a guy grabbed her beer from her hand and took a sip. "Oh my god! Couldn't you see that was mine, EW!" She shrieked as she began beating on his chest roughly.

Seth bit his lip. "Summer!" He said handing his water over to Ryan. "Here, hold this." He said in a quieter voice. He then turned his attention back to Summer. "Summer! Okay…Stop beating on the nice water polo player, okay?" He said running over to them.

Ryan smiled laughing a little as he took a sip of his beer.

Marissa had been wandering around by herself. Summer had been complaining about Seth and Zach working together on the comic book and she really wasn't in the mood to hear about that. She grabbed bottled water from the fridge, she figured it would be best not to drink tonight…I mean, she couldn't disappoint Ryan…Not tonight. She sighed walking toward the exit of the kitchen, but someone had gotten in her way…

Jess stood in the door frame to get into the kitchen, blocking Marissa's way out. She snorted when she had seen Marissa holding bottled water. "You do know this is a party right?" She asked with a smile on her face.

"Uh…Yeah…I just…Umm…" Marissa tried to answer. She didn't exactly want to look like a loser, the only one not drinking…

Jess rolled her eyes and laughed slightly. "Here." She simply handing the beer she had just gotten over to Marissa. "Live a little. It's a party." She said walking passed her and toward the fridge grabbing a beer for herself. "So, Marissa…Right? The one with the way out of hand party a couple weeks ago?" She asked questioningly.

Marissa smiled and accepted Jess' offer. She didn't want to look dumb. I mean, one little drink wouldn't hurt her. She took a sip…It was weird; she hadn't had a beer in so long. She never knew it could taste so…Good. She looked toward Jess and nodded. "Yeah, that's me…And you're the one who passed out in my pool, right?" She answered.

Jess smiled as she hopped up on the counter. "Yeah, good memory." She answered dryly. "So, you wanna hang?" She asked.

Marissa bit her lip nervously. "Well, uh, I kind of have…" She started, but was then cut off…

Jess smiled and hopped off the counter. "Great, let's go." She instantly decided. She grabbed Marissa by the arm. She noticed Marissa was kind of forcing her arm away. She rolled her eyes and looked back at her. "C'mon Cooper. It's like I said before, live a little. It's not like I'm going to kill you." She said laughing as she led Marissa off.

Marissa smiled nervously. "Okay…" She answered quietly yet uneasily. She followed Jess out, a little worried…Not to sure of things…

--A Couple Hours Later—

Marissa was completely smashed. She and Jess had been hanging out the whole night, she sort of forgot about Ryan, Summer, and Seth. Jess kept offering Marissa drinks and she accepted some and rejected a couple but Jess kept insisting on her taking a few more, so she did.

Ryan was nervous he hadn't seen Marissa all night, or Summer. He and Seth had been hanging out. He looked toward Seth. "Do you see Marissa or Summer any where?" He suddenly asked, interrupting Seth's rambling about Summer and the comic book.

Seth was about to go on about the graphic novel until Ryan cut him off. His mouth closed and he took a look around. Ryan was right…Summer and Marissa had disappeared. "Your right. C'mon…We gotta find them. I really hope Summer isn't trying to beat up any water polo players again…On that note, maybe we should stick together." He said with a nervous smile.

Ryan laughed a little and shook his head as the two of them began walking in search of there ladies.

Ryan saw Summer a couple minutes after searching through the large house. She had been in the kitchen with a few friends from school, apparently. He walked toward her. "Summer…Have you seen Marissa?" He asked concerned when he didn't see Marissa with her.

Summer shook her head. "No…I've been trying to find her…But I haven't seen her anywhere. But I'll help you look." She answered. She was on the verge of being drunk. She had a small buzz…You could defiantly tell by the way she was walking.

Seth saw this and ran to her side; He put his arm around her back and gently took a hold of one of her arms, helping her walk. When he had seen her look up at him he looked down and gave her a slight smirk.

Summer was a little shocked when she felt Seth's hand slide around her back. She looked up toward him and smiled graciously.

Ryan had been pushing passed a bunch of people. He needed to find Marissa. "Marissa?" He called out over the crowd of people. He decided to maybe check upstairs. He turned toward Summer and Seth. "You guys check around down here…I'll check upstairs, okay?" He asked when he got a nod from Seth he turned quickly and started rapidly up the stairs to find Marissa.

Seth had tried to walk quickly while holding Summer. It was kind of difficult sense Summer was walking so slow. He checked every single room downstairs. No Marissa. He sighed and took Summer outside to get some air. The two of them sat down on the door step. He looked toward her. "You okay?" He asked.

Summer nodded slowly as she took a seat next to Seth. She cupped her head with one of her hands, her head slightly hurt and her vision was just a little blurry.

Seth sighed and reached into his pocket. "I knew these would come in handy." He said as he pulled out a bottle of Advil handing it toward her.

Summer smiled and accepted it thankfully. "Thanks Cohen." She answered softly. "Did you bring the Advil just in case I got drunk..?" She asked looking up toward him as she twisted the cap off.

"Well," Seth started. "I kind of brought it just in case I got drunk. Or…Marissa did, you know how she is with the drinking. I really didn't expect you to get drunk." He said with a small laugh as he handed her his water that he had gotten a little while ago.

Summer smiled and shook the bottle letting two pills appear in the palm of her hand she accepted the water. She put the pills into her mouth and took a sip of the water letting them wash the pills down her throat. "I hope Coop's okay…" She said as she put the bottled water down and looked down at the cement.

Marissa had been hanging out upstairs with Jess' and a few other guys she chugged the last of the beer that was left in her cup down swiftly. She could hear someone calling her name…But, the room had started spinning…She felt like she was on the verge of passing out. She laughed as it felt like she was on a ride. She fell down onto the bed closing her eyes, trying to get things still again.

One of the guys that had been in the room looked over toward Jess' she had been making out with a guy named Jake in the corner. He looked toward Marissa and sat down next to her. "Hey, you okay?" He asked trying act as if he cared. All he wanted was to get laid.

Marissa looked over at the guy, squinting, trying to get her vision straight. She recognized the guy in front of her as a water polo player named Mike. She nodded slowly. "I think so, I just…I think I need to go. Or lay down." She said falling back on the bed.

Mike smiled, this made everything much easier. He climbed on top of Marissa as she fell backward. He smiled as he held her hands down to the bed and began placing small kisses down her neck, he soon moved to her chest pulling her black shirt open and kissing downward.

Marissa looked toward him. "What are you doing?" She yelled, but it wasn't too loud. She struggled trying to get Mike off of her. "Stop!" She yelled as she tried to get him off of her, but she couldn't. Tears streamed down her face as she tried to break free of his grasp. The spinning of the room made everything harder sense she felt like she was going to pass out. "Let go of me!" She said. Her vision became blurry again like she was going to pass out, she couldn't pass out. Not now, she needed to get help…Get this guy off of her. "Help me!" She tried yelling, her voice cracking at the end.

Ryan looked through every room upstairs…Except one. He placed his ear to the door and heard soft cries of what he made out was Marissa calling for help he tried opening the door but it had been locked. He stepped back, kicking it open. He saw a guy on top of Marissa, kissing her. He approached the guy and grabbed him by the back of the neck pulling him off of her and hitting him to the floor. He turned his attention back to Marissa "Are you okay?" He asked concerned grabbing her hand and helping her off the bed.

Marissa nodded slowly and giggled. "Ryan! I'm happy you're here!" She said hugging him.

Ryan could tell by the smell of her breath that she had been drinking and she was obviously drunk. "C'mon, let's get you out of here." He sad taking a hold of her hand and leading her to the door soon enough he felt a hard pain in his back, he let out a sharp wince as he kept himself from falling to the ground. He turned around and saw that it had been that guy that had been trying to rape Marissa; he had thrown a small statue at him. He looked toward Marissa. "You get out of here and try to find Summer and Seth. "Okay? NO drinking." He said in a sharp tone. He turned his attention back to Mike walking toward him and throwing a few blows to his face.

Marissa nodded and made her way toward the door she opened it slowly and stepped out. Which way…Oh she had to go right. That's it. She began stumbling toward the staircase. She had to find Seth and Summer, right. She walked down the stairs slowly and began making her way through the crowds of people in front of her.

Mike's face began to get a little banged up from Ryan's forceful punches, finally he grabbed his fist twisting it and kicking him in the knee.

Ryan cried out as Mike twisted his wrist, he soon dropped to the ground from the blow to his knee. He grabbed the statue that Mike had thrown at him and knocked Mike over the head with it. He watched as Mike fell unconscious. He sighed getting up slowly. He looked toward Jess and Jake who had still been making out in the corner as if nothing happened. He shook his head and walked out of the room, slowly. He began down the stairs in search of Marissa, Seth, and Summer.

Marissa had been pushing passed the crowds of drunken teens at the party, in search of her friends. But she couldn't find them. She began laughing as the room began to spin again. She figured it was time to sit down. She saw the couch nearby and took a seat grabbing a hold of her head. "Stop spinning." She said between laughs.

Ryan had pushed passed a bunch of people, searching every inch of the house and dance floor for Marissa. Finally after about 7 minutes of looking he spotted Marissa on the couch. He rushed toward her kneeling down. He lifted her head up. "Hey, you okay?" He asked.

Marissa nodded. "I'm great!" She said as she began laughing. "I know, let's go dance!" She said jumping to her feet. She almost lost her balance but Ryan caught her.

Ryan bit his lip and as she rose he did as well. He gently took a hold of Marissa's shoulders so she could keep balance. "Uh, actually…Why don't we just go, okay?" He asked he was really hoping this would be easy…

Marissa shook her head violently. "No way, we just got here! We came here to have fun and that's what I'm gonna do!" She said with a bright cheery smile. She pushed passed him starting for the dance floor.

Ryan sighed closing his eyes, he soon opened them and saw Marissa had been gone; he turned and saw her charging for the dance floor he quickly took a hold of her arm before she could. "Yeah, I wanna have fun to…But, we can have fun back at the pool house, okay?" He asked. "I just wanna take care of you and not let anything bad happen to you." It was true; he did want to take care of her. All he wanted was for her to be safe and he knew if she stayed here she wouldn't be.

Marissa smiled. "Aww, that's very sweet." She said pinching his cheek as she giggled.

Ryan smiled awkwardly as she took a hold of his cheek. He laughed slightly. "Okay, Marissa," He started as he removed her hand from his cheek. "Let's go, okay?" He asked, hopefully.

Marissa smiled. "Fine, fine. We can go. But you have to promise we'll have fun tonight." She said with a bright smile.

Ryan smiled back at her. "I promise." He said kissing her forehead. "C'mon, let's go." He said as he helped her toward the door. He opened the door walking out and seeing Summer and Seth out on the doorstep. "Hey, guys. I'm gonna bring Marissa back to the pool house, she's kind of drunk and I don't think Julie and Caleb would be too happy about it. I'll see you guy's later, okay?" He asked.

Summer and Seth immediately stood up when they heard Ryan's voice. Summer ran toward Marissa when she saw her and hugged her. "Coop, your okay! Thank god!" She sighed. "You could have gotten raped or something at a party like this!" She yelled toward her best friend. She was only raising her voice out of worry, not out of anger.

Ryan looked down. He figured it was best not to tell Summer and Seth that the rape part almost did happen. If he hadn't gotten there in time she would have. And he never could have forgiven himself. Shit, if anything ever happened to Marissa he didn't know if he could ever forgive himself.

Seth nodded. "Okay, dude. I'll see you back home" He stated. "And yeah, good idea. Julie would probably make up some bizarre excuse and blame you for getting Marissa drunk." He said. "Well, drive safe." He said. "Oh, and remember. Click it or ticket." He said nodding and pointing toward him.

Ryan nodded and smiled. "I will…" He said with a small eye roll. "See ya." He said leading Marissa to the car. He helped her get in and buckled her seatbelt. He then got in on his side and turned the car on. He pulled off starting down the street. Marissa had been rambling on. She was actually quite annoying when she was drunk.

Marissa had been rambling on about alcohol for the passed hour. She sighed. "I'm bored." She stated as she leaned in and turned the radio on, turning it up full blast she laughed and grabbed the steering wheel turning it to the right. "Time to go right!" She slurred as she turned the steering wheel to the right, or well, sort of did.

She completely caught Ryan off guard when she grabbed a hold of the steering wheel. "Marissa!" He yelled as he felt the car swing to the right. He hit the brakes causing them to come to a screeching halt. He sighed looking toward her. "Don't grab the wheel okay. Just sit down…and don't move. And everything will be fine." He said with a fake smile. He was trying to keep his cool, she was drunk and it wasn't her fault she was acting this way. He pressed the gas pedal once again and began driving.

Marissa crossed her arms irritated. "You promised that we would have fun." She muttered under her breath. She sighed.

The two of them had been driving for a little while know. Marissa had stayed perfectly still and barely said a word. Ryan was pretty happy about that. He didn't like when Marissa was drunk. It reminded him of his mother…But, Marissa being quiet and staying still…Didn't last long…

Marissa sighed and un-buckled her seatbelt she dug through her purse and pulled out a bottle of beer. She smiled and opened it; she began chugging it down quickly.

Ryan noticed this. "Marissa! No…" He started he looked toward her, still trying to pay attention to the road as well, he began reaching for the beer, trying to get it out of her grasp.

Marissa looked over madly "Stop!" She argued and pulled the beer farther out of his reach.

Ryan sighed. "Marissa." He said putting his full on attention on her, but still gripping onto the wheel. "Stop it! Give me the beer." He said. But she wasn't listening to him. Something Ryan hadn't noticed is that he began driving through a red light he turned his attention back to the road and noticed this…He saw a car coming and slammed his breaks on just missing it. He let out a sigh of relief then suddenly he heard a truck coming his way. Shit! He thought. He was ready to drive off, but he was to late the large truck smashed into the side of the range rover causing the range rover to flip several times.

--End Flashback—

Marissa finally snapped back to reality as she heard a loud crash of thunder. Just thinking about the events of that night made her upset. She began to cry once again. She sighed as she turned, walking back inside to her dark gloomy room. It was completely dark. She was now soaking wet…She walked toward her drawer and pulled out a bottle of pain killers. She had stolen them from Summer's yesterday. She dumped one into her hand and popped it into her mouth and downed it with vodka. She didn't understand why she even took only one…She could have overdosed again…This time she might have really died…Now that Ryan was in a coma and might never be waking up. She felt like she had nothing to live for…She felt like her world was gone and never coming back.

A/N: So how was it? Let me know if I should continue.