Okay this is it! The last chappy for Concrete Angel. Hope you guys like it and fi you don't kiss my butt! Lol just kidding!
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"You know.."Kakashi's whispered his attempt to express his thoughts into words so that the pink haired women who lay beside him could hear. She did and in reaction, made her open her green eyes as they we're once shut peacefully, broken from the comfortable silence that they had fallen into. Disturbed from her focus on the arrhythmic and healthy heartbeat that captivated her from where her head was comfortably resting against the strong chest beneath her. With the AnBu vest absent, the tight material which was beneath had become completely viable and easily felt by someone who was as close as she was now, and it was smooth against her face, even if his well tuned muscular abs were still as defined as ever. His body was beautifully warmed even if the room around them was slightly chilly, she was warm as well. With his arms wrapped around her upper body, giving her a sense of security, secure was just what she felt. Nothing else mattered right now, he had that effect on her every time. Call it a strange gift that he owned, to make all the things wrong in her life fade into the peaceful thumper of his heartbeat."My mother also passed away when I was very young." He continued. Sakura blinked, as she began to truly become aware as to what the man wished to talk about. But it was differently not the topic which she would have expected to be brought up, considering that Kakashi had a tendency to be notoriously mysterious and rather private with any such feelings or past memories which tied in with his life.
"...You never told me this before." She whispered softly and she shifted closer to his body in a desperate attempt to lighten the sadden words that came from his statement. Even if it had hide the emotion quite well behind the words that same off as okay with the fact, the undeniable saddened emotion had to be there if one was speaking of a death of a close one. Particularly the death of a close relative such as a mother. Sakura was the same way. To the outside world she was at peace with the passing of her mother, but the part in her heart that missed her mother deeply remained. And she knew that is would always. Something like that could never be truly come to terms with, could it?
"I never told anyone this before." He whispered. She believed it, Kakashi being the person he was. On the other hand, Sakura couldn't help but feel honored that he had chosen her to finally speak of his mother to after so many years of keeping it all within himself. "When she died, I thought that if I didn't talk about her, then her death wouldn't be true and I wouldn't be sad. I guess the basic point was carried with me up until now, kinda childish if I think about it." Sakura felt like she was looking into a mirror when he said that. She had felt the same way when her mother had died. The thoughts of a child that believed that if they just close their eyes and demand the person to be alive again they would be.
"Not at all Kakashi, I felt the same way." She whispered almost to herself but didn't go unnoticed by the silver hair man, who had been listening to her thoughts that had a tendency to be spoken out loud on more then one occasion. It had long since occurred to him that the words she spoke when she thought they were only for her ears, were truly the words of her heart. Unscripted, and raw. They were real.
"..My father..." She instantly heard the hesitation in her voice, like it pained him even to this day to speak of him.
"You don't have to-"
"I need to." He replied, cutting her off softly yet forcefully. Sakura's hand clutched at his tight material, not really getting anything to hold on to due to the fact that the current anbu uniform shirt clung to his body. She was silent, letting the man say what he needed to, for his sake.
"My father, was a Jounin in Konoha. Hatake Sakumo also known as The White Fang." Sakura listened intently to the words which Kakashi spoke. But the White Fang, that sounded familiar.
" He was supposedly a Legendary Sannin, but I never heard him talk about it, not even once. He was like that. Like me. Keeping everything to himself, not wanting to talk about his feelings to anyone, maybe not even himself. It had always been about the mission and concentration as to what was best for Konoha. Sure I knew that he loved me and my mother,up until the very last second of her life. And with that fact in my mind, I never needed him to tell me he loved me in words, because he showed me. I had great respect for my father, as did the rest of the village."
Kakashi's eyes drifted shut."...He died, during a mission."
Sakura could hear the hurt in his voice, and she wished that she could make him better. To somehow talk the pain away, but she knew that all she could do to help him now was to listen to his story. So she did.
"Five years before I was promoted to Jounin at age 12, he was on a top secret mission to sneak into enemy borders. I was told that he was to make a choice. A choice which a shinobi comes to know very well. The successfully completion of the mission, or the lives of his comrades." ' How horrible' Sakura thought to herself. But even from a younger age, Sakura was taught that the mission always came first. But she never believed it. In fact Kakashi himself had taught her to doubt what the academy had told her on that matter. That although shinobi who didn't follow orders are scum, those who do not take care of their team mates are lower then scum. She always had a sense of pride to have a teacher who spoke so freely and yet gave excellent advice as to what way of the ninja you should choose.
"Of course, if he followed the Village's orders, he couldn't go back on the mission...But he abandoned the mission to save the lives of his comrades. But as a result the fire country suffered heavy loss of lives and the village blamed him."
"It was the right thing to do."She whispered softly to herself, before she realized that she had spoken the statement out loud, yet again enough for Kakashi to hear.
"Mmm."He replied " Even in the end, the very comrades he had saved blamed him." Kakashi continued."From that mission, it was said that his mind and body became weak..He was disgraced... He took his own..."Kakashi's voice broke, during the sentence. 'He took his own..What?' Sakura thought sadly to herself.
"...He committed suicide." Sakura gasped. Kakashi's father had committed suicide? But that was the signal most disgraceful action a ninja can take upon themselves. Wait a second, it must have been hell for Kakashi to grew up like that.
"Kakashi, I... " Tears formed in her eyes, as her embrace around the mans chest tightly considerably."... I so sorry." She whispered."I didn't know."
"It's not your fault. He my have been disgraced from the village, but I still loved him. Even more when he choose the life of his comrades,his friends, his family. I remember never being more proud of him, even if I was sad to watch the strong man I admired melt away into nothing." Kakashi replied.
"Thank you for trusting me with this, Kakashi." Sakura whispered. Kakashi leaned down a kissed the top of her head, is a simple jester which had he taken as his own to show his affection.
"I trust you with all of my secrets. I guess I just love you too much for you to not know something about myself, Present or past. Even if it is an alien concept." Sakura smiled.
"I love you too." Kakashi's eyes curved up into a smile.
"You hungry?" He asked. Sakura shifted away to look up into his mix matched eyes.
"Yeah. I can't eat Hospital food." She blushed softly, but Kakashi didn't mind.
"Me either. So how about I go down stairs and get us something from the cafe?" Kakashi smiled at the suggestion.
"That would be great, Thank you." Sakura removed her hands from the hold she had on him when the silver haired man moved to get off the bed they had both lay in.
Soon after Kakashi had left, a nurse entered Sakura's room. The nurse wasn't the one that had been healing Sakura's injuries before, she was a different one. The blonde hair was a dead giveaway as if strongly differed from the regular nurse who had onyx hair similar to that of Sasuke's. Sitting up in the bed, Sakura watched the lady walk across the floor towards the bed where she lay.
"You must me Sakura." The woman replied. Sakura blinked, how did she know her name?
"Who are you?"She asked.
"Oh, I'm nurse Mayu. Your regular nurse is busy at the moment and has left your check up to me, for the time being."She whispered. Sakura watched the women check the heart monitor next to the bed, all the while taking notes. Something felt strange about this women. She was almost sad in a way. But why? Did the other patient she had pass away or was it a personal matter. Either way, curiosity got the better of her.
"Pardon me, but you look sort of sad. I couldn't help but notice."Sakura almost blushed at her boldness, as the women's gaze shifted towards Sakura's. Brown eyes struck with Green as the two gazes keep each other. Soon the women gave up and finally looked away.
"I'm very sorry... for your loss." Nurse Mayu whispered. Sakura was taken aback by her response, slightly confused as to just what she meant. Sakura didn't...
"Oh my God."Sakura whispered, which sent Nurse Mayu into silent soft tears. Reaching out to grasp a death grip on the white collar of the nurses uniform without even meaning to, Sakura pulled the women closer."What are you talking about!"Sakura felt tears stinging her eyes already.
"You didn't know?"Mayu whispered. By this time Sakura was terrified as to what exactly was going on."...About the baby?"...Silence
What.
Sakura felt time stand still around her. Only her eyes were widen with fear and that her heart beat so rapidly inside of her chest that it hurt, could be felt. Her arms fell limp at the sides of the bed as the numb feeling returned full force. Sakura didn't even hear that the nurse had ran from the room, all she could see was black. The darkness was back, she had been free of it for a while but it had returned to engulf her mind into a shell of nothingness.
Suddenly, she gasped.
"God..."She choked. Inhaling a huge breath of air as she left out a blood curling scream that almost shook the room. Her eyes clenched shut and her shaking hands tightened into a fist at her sides, as the scream exited her lungs as if it would never stop.
But it did as her break down choked into a heart wrenching cry of pain. Desperately wanting to scream again she tried but failed as that lump in her throat brought it down into a sob.
"No."She cried, hot tears soaking her face and dripping down to the white sheet around her waist."No, no, no, no,no."She frantically shook her head as if doing so would snap her back into reality and out of this nightmare. Gripping huge hand fulls of her pink hair she curled herself into a ball as her whole body trembled madly.
Kakashi made his way down the hallway of the east hospital wing, occasionally passing a random nurse or doctor. Each time receiving a glance. Knowing that they are probably familiar with the relationship between himself and Sakura due to the fact that she herself worked here numerous times under Tsunade-Sama's teachings. And had most defiantly become well known among fellow nurses and Doctors, as she never had difficulty fitting in.
But each time he got the glance, Kakashi would just smile back and reply...
"We're getting married, you're invited to the wedding if you want to come."
Making him way down the final stretch to Sakura's room, he was suddenly passed by a speeding nurse who ran past him in a hurry. Momentarily stopping to watch the nurse run down the hall where he was headed, he wondered why it was she was running. Perhaps a patient was...
She entered Sakura's room.
Kakashi frowned, as his heartbeat quickened at a sudden. His feet immediately began to move forward, which was morphed into a quick jog that allowed him to get to the room in a better time. Stopping in the door eyes widened at what he saw, letting the two packets of sandwiches fall to the fall on his feet.
Three nurses stood around the bed at the far wall, mumbling words which he couldn't make out over the beat of his heart. Upon entering, the nurses briskly turned around to face him, but as a result gave him a clear view of the empty bed which was no longer occupied by the pink haired girl who had been laying there when he had left.
"Mr. Hatake." But he was already gone, out of the room in a brisk full out run down the hallway where he came.
His legs pumping him fast down the hall as nurses and visitors leapt to the side to avoid being trampled.
"Kakashi?" A very authoritative voice caught his attention and he halted his run for a second to face Tsunde who had come to stand in the center of the hallway, effectively blocking his way.
"Sakura's gone."He spoke quickly, not wanting to waste time explaining his motivates, when other things were on his mind.
"Gone?" Tsunde's ears perked up." What do you mean? Where did she go?"
"I know exactly where she went." Kakashi replied. Tsunde frowned.
"Hai, I do too." She hissed.
Tokiya set the steaming hot cup of freshly brewed tea down on the dining room table, next to the pot which was filled with the liquid as well. Sitting down cross legged on the futon which had been set in company with the table, he properly and neatly folded up each long sleeve of his Kimono as to prevent the material giving split on or get in the way of the relaxing tea of his day. Reaching for the cup of tea in desire for the warm liquid to calm his spiritually, his actions were halted when he heard the front door open. Snapping his ninja senses into effect he set the cup down once more, and focused his narrowed eyes to the front hallway hidden behind the tall wall.
"Who's there?" He asked through the silence. But there was no reply. He frowned."I am aware that you have entered my home, now come out." He ordered.
He heard footsteps. The first thing he saw was a pair of small bare feet that appeared from out of behind the wall. Next he saw a figure emerge, dressed in a knee high gown that hung loosely off the body. Then he saw the blank expression of none other than Sakura as she completely came into view.
Tokiya was slightly taken aback to see the visitor was someone who had would have never been expected to be there, but the feeling passed in moments and was quickly replaced by a smirk that appeared on his lips. She had come back.
"I knew it." He replied, as if he had always confident that she would never be able to truly stay away from this place."You could never-"
"I'm not here for the reason that you think I am." Sakura's voice was dark, and that blank expression on her face brought a small uncomfortable feeling to the room which the two shared. Tokiya snarled. She just interrupted him when he was speaking. She had never once did that before.
"Then why are you here?"Tokiya asked. Sakura didn't reply."You're stupider than I thought. Thinking that you could just walk back here and you would be forgiven for your sins and disobedience. You are a whore, and you will be-"
"I'm here for a reason."She interrupted."...I'm here to kill you."
Kakashi leapt through the buildings at a high speed, Tsunde racing right beside him.
Tokiya laughed,at her response.
"You're here to kill me, did you say?"
"Yes."She answered confidently without hesitation. Completely different then the Sakura who had been broken inside just hours ago.. Something had snapped inside of her, and she knew that this had to end. Everything had to end.
"Yes?" Tokiya questioned."You think you can?"
"Yes. And will."Sakura replied. Tokiya laughed deep from within his chest, as his hand slapped his knee. The sound of that hand slapping her face rang inside her head. Her father rose to his feet, at which time Sakura's blank expression was snapped from her features. In a rapid motion, invisible to the human eye, she whipped out the kunai that had been hidden inside her gown and held it out defiantly in front of her.
"STAY WHERE YOU ARE!"She shouted, glaring down the man who had stopped all movements.
"Are you afraid of me?"Tokiya smirked.
"BACK THE FUCK UP, YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT!"She screamed at the top of her lungs. Tokiya's eyes widened at her actions.
"Those are my words."
"They're mine now!"She hissed."Besides, they are much more suited to you!"She retorted.
"What did you-"
"Shut up father!"She cried demandingly."I'm the one talking now, understand!"Tokiya snarled. Where did this sudden courage come from? Hours ago she was a weak, scared little girl. But now she was a confident and strong-willed women. When did this happen? When did her fear of him diminish, and when did he loss control of her?
Sakura gave a curt snort of disgust as she looked upon the man who stood before her in confusion."You really fooled me, father. Congratulations, you made me think you loved me and that everything you did was because you missed mom. But she had nothing to do with this, did she? It was all you, and your sick twisted mind. YOU ABUSE YOU OWN FLESH AND BLOOD YOU SICK BASTARD, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!" She screamed. "Do you realize what you've done!"She shook with anger.
"..Everything I did was to help you." He shrugged it off. Sakura's face turned to pure horror.
"Help me! Are you fucked!"Sakura gave a fake heartless laugh. "Other fathers talk to their kids to help them, but I guess it's just easier to beat the shit out of them, uh? Putting me in the hospital with a broken rib cage, fractured arms, black eyes and nerve damage is the best way!"
"You deserved it, you brought this upon yourself, Sakura!" Tokiya shouted.
"I deserved to have every part of me shattered into nothingness! I deserved that just because I feel in love! Kakashi is the best thing that has ever happened to me, he should me just how shitty a father you really are! He opened my eyes to just what was really happening and that this doesn't go on in every other house in the world! You know I actually believed that! Like it was normal to have hot tea poured onto you when you dropped a dish! Or the time when you called me everything in the book just because I didn't get absolutely perfect on every test I took! Or when you kept telling me I'm weak and good for nothing when I couldn't keep up with Naruto or Sasuke in team seven back in the day! And you know what, I actually believed you! I've really been weak. Not to be able to see that everything that came from your mouth has always and will always be nothing but A FUCKING LIE! I blamed myself because ' daddy never loved me' ." Sakura choked on the tears that she cried from her red eyes, hot tears running down her cheeks and the sobs shook her body. Suddenly her eyes shot up and glared daggers into her fathers."I FUCKING HATE YOU! YOU KILLED MY BABY AND I FUCKING HATE YOU!" She screamed with everything she had.
Tokiya's eyes widened at what he heard.
"Baby?"He cocked his head.
"That's right,"She sobbed."My unborn child, your grandchild and you killed it!" He knees began weak as the tears took over.
"...Was it Kakashi's?"Tokiya whispered.
"Does it matter now? But yes, I'm not a whore as you said father." She cried.
"Than it was for the best."
"...What did you just say?"
"Kakashi's child would never belong in this-"
"Shut up."Sakura hissed.
"It was an abomination!" Tokiya made his way towards her, knowing that this was her time of weakness.
"Shut up!"She cried.
"It's better off dead!"
"SHUT UP!" She screamed.
Kakashi leapt from the tall building to perch on Tokiya's apartment doorstep, with Tsunde right beside him. Without a second to spare, he thrusted his shoulder into the closed door, successfully opening it with little effort. Barely missing the wall behind it, Kakashi pushed the door aside to enter the building.
"SAKURA!" He called out into the darkness, frantically searching what he could see but not seeing anyone.
"Kakashi." Tsunde's whisper caught his attention, and his widened mix matched eyes shirted to the Hokage that stood beside him. She directed his gaze towards what she was currently looking at. Kakashi inhaled a sharp breath as the sight caught him off guard. There, lying in the middle of the dining room, was Tokiya. The kunai stuck in the side of his head was all the proof they needed to realize that he was dead. His blood dripped down his wrinkled face, over his open blank eyes, and dripped to make a puddle on the floor by his head.
"Sakura?" He whispered. Lifting his gaze off the body before him, he tried a little louder.."Sakura?"
"I killed him." Came a small whisper from the far corner, immediately jarring his gaze to the sound. Finally spotting Sakura curled up against the wall, her knees clenched tight into her chest, enough to hide anything that could be seen with the absence of undergarments.
"Sakura!" Kakashi breathed a exhale of deep relief and quickly ran over to where she was. Stopping before her, and taking a kneeling position in front of her, he was hesitant to touch her. She was shaking, but the room wasn't cold. And her eyes, they were unfocused at the dead body which lay straight in her view.
"Sakura, are you alright?"He whispered, his face frowning with worry. She was suppose to be in the hospital, her wounds are healed yet.
"I killed him."She kept repeating."He killed my baby and I killed him."Over and over she spoke the sentence, mumbling as deeply that it was difficult for Kakashi to understand.
"Sakura, what are you saying, I can't-"
"He killed my baby."This time she spoke clear, but fresh tears were rolling down her already reddened face. Her voice choking as sobs began to take over."He killed my baby and I killed him."
Kakashi's face fell instantly after hearing her words. His mind froze, as did his heart and any breathing, any thoughts died leaving everything but the single word 'Baby' visible to his brain.
"..W-what?" He stuttered, some of his own tears forming behind his eyes.
Sakura's sobs shook her body even more as she practically fell into Kakashi's rather numb arms. And not expecting this, he fell backwards, bring her with him. He felt her latch on to his thin material he wore as well as his limps which began to turn red as a result of her strength. Her loud cries of agony were muffled into his chest.
Kakashi clenched his eyes shut at the pain he felt, inside his heart. Holding the women in his arms with every ounce of life within him. It finally took the death of a baby to end this nightmare. But was it worth it in the end? Does it really have to take the death of a life close to you for someone to finally say enough is enough? Should it really take that much?
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This story has come to a bittersweet ending, leaving you people, the beautiful readers of my fan fiction CONCRETE ANGEL, to think about the final line. I would like to know what each and every one of you think about this story and I am open to any suggestions as to just what kind of KakaSaku fics you guys would like to see!
Love you all! That's it, I'm outta here!