Underneath her gloves

I'm hiding behind a smile, No one can see my tears, no one knows of my fears, no one knows I have a dark past, no one see my scars, they're hidden beneath my gloves. R&R

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She held her knife tightly, in such a grip it left marks in her skin, she shook in anticipation, she shook in determination and she shook in fear. Her gloves were left discarded on the floor, she knelt beside them in the darkness, her hair stuck to her skin as sweat covered her body like a sheet, and tears were threatening to fall as her lips trembled.

She flinched as she ran the knife across her skin, leaving a trail of blood behind it, her eyes widened as it slowly slid from her wrist onto her floor, red raw scars overlapped each other on each wrist, but her gloves were always left on. And on her face there was always a smile, no one saw what she was doing now, no one saw the lust to see her own blood gleaming in her eyes, even though she was terrified, and tears poured from the pain her knife caused.

Her hand shook as her ran the knife over again, she moaned with a mixture of pain and satisfaction, it was sick to look at, and it was hell to feel, but in her own way this was how she let it all out, she didn't take it out on games, or punch bags, or suppress it in meditation, for Starfire, this was the only way.

She switched hands and ran the knife over her other wrist, she bit her lip as she opened an old scar, she shut her eyes in determination not to cry out as she cut into an artery, she let out a shudder as heard the sound of skin breaking and blood vessels quietly bursting.

She stayed where was watching the blood slowly drip from her wrists…then as she watched it drip into her floor, she then heard it, foot steps, hers was the bedroom on this floor, the only reason anyone would come up here was to see her. She scrambled to her feet.

"Starfire?" A voice called hearing her shuffling as she looked for her gloves in a frenzy. Starfire stopped, it was Robin, he couldn't find her like this, and she found her gloves and pulled them over the cuts and the still oozing blood. Only then she opened the door.

"Friend Robin! What brings you to my resting quarters?" She asked breathing a little heavily.

"Are you ok? You seem a little…anxious." Robin said one side of his mask rising slightly in suspicion.

Starfire's gaze flickered to her gloves, luckily Robin's didn't follow. "There is nothing the matter with me Robin, I am…just feeling worn out my today's activities is all."

"Right…I was wondering, do you wanna come up on the roof with me? You know watch the, well the sundown." He stuttered slightly a small smile adorning his features.

Starfire's eyes widened, blood had started to seep from her glove, she moved her hands to rest behind her back, she would usually jump at the chance to watch the sun set, especially with Robin.

"I am sorry Robin, but I am feeling too worn out from today, we could maybe watch the sun up or tomorrows sun down yes?" Starfire lied rocking back and forth on her feet.

"Err…yeah sure." Robin replied looking a little crestfallen, and Starfire felt her heartstrings pull. "Tomorrow sounds…good. Make sure you rest yeah?"

"Of course." Starfire reassured him nodding vigorously.

Robin nodded, as he walked away Starfire let out a breath and moved away from the door and let it slide, she then hit the panel to lock it, a drop of blood dripped onto her wall and her eyes widened once more, she hurried into the small bathroom joined onto hers, she pulled on the roll of tissue paper and watched it roll out she tugged off her gloved and pressed it to her wrists.

Another close call, again no one found out, she was safe…for now.

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Next chapter will be MUCH longer. This is just the intro.

I AM NOT SUICIDAL I just want to make that clear, I don't promote cutting. This I'm writing to let out my depressing thoughts, I might be including poetry in this story, it won't be updated as much as my other story, but I'll make sure these ones are really long, if I can.

Luvz ya

Valda

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