Title: Mistakes

Author: Gilmoregirl7878

A/N: Wow....two years have passed. Way too long. I have no excuses really, I apologize to those who have been loyal to my stories and I just abandoned them. I'm trying, really.

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The next few weeks passed by like a blur. Rory rarely saw Finn, only a couple times in passing. It worked out well because they both were avoiding each other to avoid the pain it caused.

Seeing Finn reminded her of those words he had said to her outside the pub.

"That night was a mistake, I regret it. There will never be anything between the two of us. I don't love you that way."

She felt something break inside her that night. The man she loved had used her and thrown her away like she was nothing. And she was nothing to him.

Rory's days were filled with school and every moment out of class she was with Matt. He was waiting for her outside her classes and there to pick her up afterwards, coffee in hand. He was nice, sweet, caring, considerate....and well, perfect.

Rory walked out of her class craving a cup of coffee like an addict a fix and sure enough, there was Matt with one, waiting for her.

"Hello beautiful," he greeted her, kissing her lightly on the lips before handing the cup of coffee over.

"Mmm, you are so heavenly," Rory spoke to her cup of coffee, staring at it lovingly.

"I'm gonna pretend that you were speaking to me, not a inanimate object," he laughed.

"Pretend away!" Matt wrapped an arm around Rory they started to walk back to the dorms.

"What do you want to do tonight?" He asked her. Rory shrugged. "Do you want to go out?" Rory shrugged again.

"Can you speak or are we going to start miming to each other in a second?" He joked.

"I don't care. I kinda want to stay in and watch a movie," she answered.

"I was hoping we could go out. We've been staying in a lot lately, you've been quite the homebody, not that I don't mind laying next to you, every once in while I'd like to show off my girlfriend in public."

Rory stopped herself from flinching when he said 'girlfriend'. She never remembered ever quite agreeing to be his girlfriend, he just started calling her that one day and she couldn't find any reason to protest. It seemed like the logical step. They spent all their time together and he liked her a lot so why shouldn't he be her boyfriend.

But why did it bother her so much when he used those words?

"The guys are always going to the pub, we could meet up with them tonight. They have been bugging me to go out with them lately, too." Rory consented. Matt grinned and kissed her.

"It's a date."

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Rory went into the pub earlier than Matt and walked over to where she knew everyone would be and saw Logan, Colin, Stephanie, and of course Finn at their usual table.

"Rory!" Stephanie yelled happily, hugging her tightly as she sat down next to her.

"Hey guys!" She greeted, smiling at everyone while catching Finn's eyes for the first time in a long time. Finn eyes were always a shining, warm chocolate color. She couldn't count the times she got lost staring at them. The eyes she met this time were dark and hard, giving away no emotion, she quickly looked away.

"Geez, Gilmore we were starting to think you'd quit Yale and became a hermit," Colin joked.

"Not all of us can go out every night, Colin." Rory shot back.

"Well, if I had Rory's fine specimen of man, I wouldn't leave my dorm either," Stephanie said. Rory smiled uncomfortably.

"We've been staying in a lot lately. So, what's a girl got to do to get a drink around here?" Rory quickly changed the subject.

"Walk to the bar and order one," Logan teased. Rory pouted and walked off to the bar and ordered the strongest drink they had. She quickly downed it and ordered another before walking back to the table. 'Liquid courage' she thought inwardly.

"So Rory....let's hear it," Stephanie demanded, leaning in expectantly. Rory looked around confused.

"Um, what?"

"How is he? Matt. I bet he's amazing in bed, oh god and that accent? That accent would drive me crazy. He looks like he'd be good in bed," Stephanie asked excitedly.

"Steph! Stop," Rory pleaded, her face heating and she avoided everyone's looks. Before anything else could be said she felt a body slid in next to hers.

"Hello everyone." Matt greeted. He got less than enthusiastic greetings from the guys, but Stephanie's eager response made up for it.

"Hey," He said softly, lightly kissing Rory. Rory blushed again and mumbled in response. She couldn't help sneaking a look at Finn and saw him watching the scene before him with indifference and boredom. She couldn't help but be disappointed by his lack of a response and hated herself for it.

"What are we drinking?" Matt asked, picking up Rory drink and wincing when he took a sip. "Babe, got a strong enough drink?" He teased.

"Wow, it's kinda sad when a guy can't handle a drink his date is having," Colin chipped in. Stephanie smacked him upside the head and glared.

"Don't worry about Colin, Matt. He has a permanent stick up his ass. It becomes endearing after a while." Stephanie apologized for him.

"So where have you two been lately?" Finn asked suddenly, making Rory tense and everyone at the table look around uneasily.

"We've been staying in and watching movies, I never really experienced watching a movie with someone making a comment every other word like Rory does," Matt answered, smiling and wrapping a arm around her.

"Well if it bothers you so much just tell me to shut up then!" Rory teased.

"I can't help it if my girlfriend looks cute mocking movies," Matt answered, smiling at her. He was unaware of the whole table freezing at his words.

"Aren't you two un-fucking-believingly cute," Finn said shortly before getting up and walking to the bar. Logan and Colin couldn't help hiding their smirks at his comment.

"Call me crazy, but I don't think he likes me," Matt joked.

"Ignore him, it's that time of month," Tristan said, sliding into Finn's recently vacated seat. "What's up man," He greeted Matt warmly. Tristan had been the only one to see Rory that past couple weeks and he had hung out with her and Matt a couple times. He liked Matt, it wasn't his fault Rory was in love with an idiotic Australian.

"Ah! Tristan, you're looking fine," Stephanie flirted and Tristan just smirked and winked back at her. "Now that you're here to protect poor Matt, if you'll excuse Rory and I we have a lot to talk about." Rory knew looked at Matt questioningly, making sure he would be able to hold his own with these guys. He smiled as Stephanie dragged her away.

"Okay, it's time to spill," Stephanie demanded.

"About what?" Rory asked.

"Everything! When did he ask you to be his girlfriend!"

"Well, he didn't really....ask. He just started calling me that one day." Stephanie sobered up a little and studied her friend a little more closely.

"And how's the sex?" She teased.

"Well...we haven't quite," Rory trailed off, blushing and looking away. It finally dawned on Stephanie. Rory was not crazy about her boyfriend. She was still hung up on Finn. Rory had never really told her about what had happened at the pub, but Logan, Tristan, and Colin gossiped like a bunch of school girls and plus you had to be blind to miss the fact Rory and Finn had been avoiding each other.

"So did you hear about Finn?" Stephanie asked slyly, watching as her suspicions were proven true as Rory's head shot up so fast she must have given herself whiplash.

"What about him?"

"Logan and Colin are really worried about him. He's been drinking a lot and screwing all kinds of girls." Stephanie watched as Rory noticeably flinched. She quickly shrugged it off and laughed.

"And how is that any different from usual?"

"It's different, Rory. He's always drunk, it's not just the usual Finn and his love for alcohol. He's self destructive. And it's pretty bad for Logan and Colin to worried."

Rory downed another drink. "Why should I care?"

Stephanie stared at her in shock. "Look, I'm not dumb, Rory. I know what been's going on, okay? And you need to remember that even before all this, he was your best friend," Stephanie scolded, getting up off her stool to leave.

Rory stared at her drink, sadly. She knew Stephanie was right. Her feelings for Finn should not override the fact that her best friend was hurting. A part of her wondered if he was acting like this because of her, but she quickly dismissed it. He had made his feelings extremely clear.

Rory got up to walk to the other side of the bar and realized that the alcohol had effected her a lot more than she first realized. Maybe it would make this conversation a little easier.

"Hey stranger," Rory said softly as she sat down next Finn at the bar.

"Hey," He responded, looking up from his drink.

There was short awkward silence as they both fought for something to say.

"What've you been up to the past couple weeks?" Rory asked, mentally slapping herself for a lack of anything better to say.

"Nothing much."

"That's not what I heard." This caught his attention and his eyes flashed dangerously.

"Oh really and what's that?"

"That you've been drinking a lot and been sleeping around with a lot of girls." Rory stated.

Finn smirked and looked her in the eyes for the first time. "Jealous?"

Rory sighed and looked at him sadly. "Finn what's going on with you? I'm worried."

"You don't need to worry about me. Why do you even care anyways?" He asked, staring at her.

"I don't think it was ever a question of whether or not I cared for you."

"Oh, but it was for me?"

"You made your feelings quite clear to me. And I made mine."

"And what do you call sleeping together?" Finn asked.

"A mistake," Rory said quickly. Finn smirked and pulled her off her stool and lead her to a secluded corner, pushing her up against the wall. Rory wanted to push him away, but the alcohol and the close proximity to Finn was making her body hum and she couldn't think straight.

"A mistake?" Finn chuckled, bringing his face close to hers. He didn't know why he was doing this. He just knew that he couldn't help himself. "Funny, that wasn't one of the things you said when I made you scream that night."

Rory winced and looked away from him. It finally dawned on her and she looked at Finn before pushing him away firmly. "You're drunk," she stated. "You wouldn't say these things if you weren't." She said more to herself to him.

"Yes, I loved you Finn. Maybe a part of me still does, I don't know. But I gave you a chance, you're the one who told me that you didn't like me that way, so I moved on! You can't do this, you can't mess with me like this, either you think of me as a friend or you don't, there is no in between! So I'm trying to be a friend, you're not the Finn who's my best friend and I don't know why you're acting like this and it worries me." Rory paused, looking at him as he avoided her eyes and stared out blankly at the pub.

"I'm going back to my boyfriend, Finn. When you're ready to talk, I'm here. I'm always here for you, okay?" Rory promised, looking at him for a moment before walking over to Matt.

Finn watched her go, before going back to his spot at the bar and resuming drinking. Shortly after a redhead wearing next to nothing was whispering in his ear and running her hand down his thigh.

This is where he belonged, he thought to himself. This was him. Rory didn't know what she was talking about, he was fine.

Except he knew he wasn't and that thought seemed to get more and more obvious as he stared at the girl in front of him. He felt nothing towards her as opposed to the millions of emotions Rory made him feel. Barely realizing he was doing it, he pushed the redhead away, she glared at him and walked haughtily away.

Thoughts of that night he spent with Rory came flashing back. He had never experienced anything like that and he had been with his fair share of women. He realized he would never think of Rory in a friendly way again. He was tired of the redheads and the alcohol. He missed Rory and he missed the way he felt when she was around.

Maybe it was the alcohol, but he struggled to find a reason against dating Rory, none came to mind. What was he running from?

Finn got up quickly and walked outside. He needed fresh air.

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Rory walked back to the table and leaned down next to Matt.

"Wanna get out of here?" She asked, smiling at him. He nodded and they said goodnight to everyone.

"You okay, Ace?" Logan asked, worried. Rory just flashed a smile at him over her shoulder. A smile that was so obviously fake to everyone.

Rory took one last glance at the bar and saw a redhead practically on top of Finn, she turned away from him and leaned into Matt.

Shortly after they were at her dorm room.

"Are you sure you're okay? You seem a little....off tonight?" Matt asked.

Rory smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck. "I had a few things on my mind, tonight. I was wondering if you wanted to stay the night?" She asked, leading them towards her bedroom.

"Are you sure?" He asked like the perfect boyfriend he was. Rory nodded and kissed him again, shutting her bedroom door behind them.

Rory kissed him as his hands wandered along her body. Rory couldn't seem to silence the million thoughts running through her head. She kissed him deeply, trying to feel that dizziness, that lightheadedness she felt when ever Finn so much as touched her.

But as Matt laid her down on the bed, that feeling never came.

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That night Rory laid in Matt's arms. He was asleep, but she couldn't get her eyes to close. This night should have been the most romantic night she'd had, but it had failed miserably.

When she stared at him as he kissed her and took off her clothes, she felt nothing. When she closed her eyes, memories of the night she spent with Finn flashed before her lids. Finally, she just closed her eyes and Matt's touches became Finn's and she found herself biting her lip to stop herself from moaning Finn's name.

She jumped at the sound of someone pounding on her door. She groaned and slipped out of Matt's grasp and slipped on his t shirt, the closest thing she grabbed. She crept silently out of her bedroom and went to open her door, not even bothering to check to see who it was.

Finn was leaning against her doorway and froze when he saw Rory open the door wearing nothing but a man's t-shirt.

"What are you doing here?"

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A/N: HEHE. Cliffhangers are so much fun. Wow, my first chapter in two years. I can't believe it. I want to apologize for the delay one more time. I'm a horrible person. I hope you can forgive. For those who read my other stories I WILL be updating those also. I plan to update and finish them all even if it kills me!!

Thank you all and please let me know what you think!