Title: Blue and Yellow

Summary: It was the middle she loved the best.

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It was the middle she loved the best.

The start of things was embarrassing and awkward.

The end was sad and horrible and so fucking bittersweet that it almost chokes her.

But the middle.

They made their own history there. The middle had the first time he had actually asked her out. The middle had the second time they went out (and nearly got arrested for indecent exposure) and it had the time Mac got into a fight with some drop kick who had grabbed her ass in a bar they'd gone too. The middle had their first kiss.

Their first dance.

"You've got a Friend" by James Taylor.

It wasn't so much a dance, more like both of you standing incredibly close and kind of swaying to the music, in that very dark and seedy bar. You were both very drunk.

(But though in the morning you couldn't remember the bar, or how you both got to your apartment. You can remember standing so close to Mac that you thought your bodies might have molded together, you remember though he held you so close he held you like a delicate treasure and you can still hear faint tunes in your head.)

Winter spring summer or fall, all you gotta do is call.

The middle has when he moved in with you. The idea of sharing an apartment with a boy had your head spinning. It has the day he proposed to you (You remember James Taylor playing again that night). The middle has you almost shooting him in the lab one day, because you were pregnant and hormonal and Mac just wouldn't get that stupid boyish (silly) grin off his face. It had taken Aiden almost 10 minutes to convince you, that killing the father of your child was a bad idea.

The middle has the birth of your daughter. It has your 16 hour labor, which again had threats to induce bodily harm on him, because you hadn't even given birth and Mac was already grinning like an idiot. (Also there was the occasional threat about him never touching you again, because if he did, next time he could do this. Weeks later you would remember you had said 'next time' and that didn't really scare you, and you have to wonder when did this change in you take place. Because you always swore you wouldn't have kids.)

The Middle has you loving Mac more than you can ever remember loving anyone ever and him loving you back the exact same way.

The middle didn't have Mac being killed in the line of duty, or you becoming a widow or him leaving your daughter and son fatherless.

It didn't have you feeling like your heart had been dropped like a piece of glass and smashed into thousands of tiny pieces and more than that, it didn't have you missing your best friend so much you couldn't breathe.

It was the middle that she loved best.

Endings were overrated.

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