A/N: Updates may be slow because I will have to rewrite some things, so it won't get booted from this site. Again. The first time, it was titled, "When Just Existing Isn't Enough." I'm really sorry to the people who originally reviewed this story here, because it was deleted in mid June and I don't remember who all reviewed this.

This story will be a Kikyo and Sesshomaru story. It will contain a lot of angst, some graphic violence, abuse, and some out of character experiences. Sesshomaru will be darker than he is portrayed in the series. This story is posted on two different sites, under two different names. All unedited chapters will appear there.Posting it here is kind of like it's refined copy.

This chapter contains some gore, dark imagery,and mentions rape. There is a dialogue between Naraku and Kikyo from episode 70 of the anime.

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, if I did, I wouldn't be a twenty one year old college student working in the fast food industry, now would I?

Chapter 1: Semi-Charmed Life

Black clouds crossed the azure sky in a fervor and thunder echoed from the west, hinting to the approaching storm. The woman decided she needed to find shelter. Just because she couldn't die from the weather, didn't mean she found it comfortable to be soaked.

When she was alive, she had been a human, not a water imp.

She walked down the rocky dirt path leading to a nearby village alone. Not even her soul collectors, whom she had named Ryu and Sakura, out of loneliness, were with her. They were gone for the day. Since she had been resurrected they had been her only two companions. She was almost always alone.

There was once a time that the village children, her younger sister, or her first love, a temperamental half demon would join her. But those days were more than fifty years ago. Her sister had long since grown into an old woman, most of the village children were dead or very old, and Inuyasha, was well, Inuyasha was in love with her reincarnation.

After stalking her former love to a point far beyond obsession, she knew why the strange girl from the other side of the well held his heart. That girl, Kagome, they called her, was perfect for the brash, uncouth man that Inuyasha was becoming. She complimented him in ways Kikyo never dreamed she could ever do. Kikyo knew the girl loved Inuyasha, as well. This was the reason Kikyo hardly went searching for Inuyasha anymore. She didn't need to mess up his chance at happiness. That had been taken from him before and she'd be damned before she messed up the rare second chance he was given. A blind, deaf, and mute halfwit would catch onto the passion between those two. Only three people couldn't see what was happening with them. They, ironically enough, happened to be Inuyasha and Kagome, themselves, and Naraku.

Naraku, you want to talk about obsession, look at that creature. His obsession with Inuyasha, Kikyo, and Kagome, made Kikyo's Inuyasha fixation look like a passing interest. Thinking about the day she gave him the jewel shards she stole from Kagome, made her wish she could kick her own ass. Kikyo was fully relieved that Naraku was too dense to see that Inuyasha loved Kagome, and not her.

If Naraku ever realized that, he would do something hideous.

He already wanted the girl for himself as it was. Kikyo remembered Kagura had told her that Naraku wanted them both. His human heart, Onigumo, craved Kikyo, while Naraku wanted Kagome. Kikyo would rather be crushed into the dirt she was resurrected from than have Naraku touch her. Plus his fucked up obsession with the half demon boy made Kikyo think he had some kind of sexual fixation with him.

Kikyo nearly groaned as she heard the loud buzzing of insects. She rolled her jade eyes before looking into the forest. Huge bees stared back at her. "Those insects again."

She froze when she saw the dark half demon emerge from the woods. "Naraku." He was as beautiful as ever. His thick, long black hair was pulled back in a ponytail and he wore a midnight blue and purple outfit.

"I came here to see you in person." He walked toward her slowly.

"What do you want?" She prayed to anyone listening that he wouldn't touch her. She was terrified of him, but since the only thing that would give that away was her scent, he would never know. Kikyo didn't have a scent, for that she was grateful.

"I needed to test my new power."

She mentally rolled her eyes. "I've told you before. A half demon that harbors Onigumo's heart has absolutely no power to kill me."

"You speak the truth, Kikyo. Indeed, if I still had Onigumo's heart." He began to walk closer to her. "I wouldn't be able to lay a hand on you now, would I? Even though your body is made of mere artifice." He was reaching a hand toward her throat.

She had to fight with everything in her to not jerk back. Since doing so would show her fear, she held fast. She didn't want to lose one of the two advantages she had over him. "You wretch."

"I knew you weren't real and yet I was still unable to reach out and strike you." His right hand tightly gripped her throat. She began to tremble and grabbed his wrist with her hand, trying to pry him away. She felt the bile rise in her throat, but swallowed it. "You, a woman who is made of nothing, but clay and bones." He slung her away and began to laugh.

Gods she hated his laugh! She grabbed her bow and notched an arrow. She lowered her arrow and watched as his hand transformed into something that looked like a bear claw. He looked even more shocked than she did. He turned to walk away.

"What's wrong Naraku? Weren't you here to kill me?"

He stopped and looked over his shoulder at her. "Don't sound so self assured. It was not out of fear that I decided to spare you. Consider yourself lucky." He turned away. "I will not kill you." He began to walk away. "I will break you." He finished. "Blood," he said, sniffing the air. He spun so fast Kikyo nearly gasped.

"What?" She looked at him, confused.

He grabbed her arm, dragged her to a stream. She stared, unflinchingly, at the thick red fluid in it. Naraku released her and knelt down. Kikyo felt the urge to kick him in the ass and knock him face first into the stream, but resisted because that would involve touching him. Cupping his hands he brought the fluid to his mouth. "Ummmm." He moaned sensually, licking the blood from his lips. He stood back up, some of it dribbling down his chin. "Delicious."

Screams of unfathomable terror broke the silence of the uncomfortably hot and humid late autumn day. Lustful red eyes turned to Kikyo. "A human village upstream is being slaughtered."

Kikyo sneered at him in disgust when she saw the bulge under his robes. "You're a depraved monster."

He smirked at her. "Thank you, Kikyo. Until we meet again." Then he was gone.

Kikyo, unable to hold back the small amount of food that provided her with energy, vomited into the weeds along the stream. She wiped her mouth off with the back of her hand and wondered when she would be able to eat again. It wasn't like she had any money, maybe she could lie like that monk traveling with Inuyasha. She might need souls to exist, but she couldn't move without the energy given by food.

She began to dig through her small bag. She pulled out the red CD player with a Metallica CD in it to get to the bottle of water, and breath mints, all of which she had stolen from Kagome. That opportunity had come when the girl, the exterminator, and fox were bathing, and the two men were watching them instead of the camp. She hadn't stuck around to see the fall out, but she could only imagine what it was like. The thought made her smirk. She heard a howl of a demon coming from where the blood came from. She could see and smell the smoke as well. A demon was attacking that village and she would be the one to destroy it.

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Blood.

Blood was everywhere.

His bloodlust nearly insatiable as he tore into the vicious human bandits. The men who had killed Jaken and taken and raped Rin were the last ones he destroyed. They got to see their companions torn to shreds, before the demon lord killed them. The bandits had mocked him for only having three legs, but they were torn apart now. Fire consumed the village from where the stupid humans had shot flaming arrows at the massive dog demon. He reveled in the screams of his last victim. The scent of the young girl the man had raped early that day enraged the out of control demon further. There had been at least thirty of them in the now burning village, only two of them had the chance to harm Rin, but the rest were taught a lesson they would literally take to their graves. The demon's satisfaction was so great that he rolled in the blood, like many dog's would in mud.

He jumped to his three legs as he heard the gasp from the woman that had just walked into his rampage. The huge, bloody, dog bared his fangs at the woman.

Red eyes regarded the woman, who bore a striking resemblance to Inuyasha's bitch. This woman's eyes were the color of jade and exponentially colder, the hair was longer, and the face older, but the strangest thing about the woman was that she did not have a scent. She notched an arrow and pointed it at him. He realized she was a priestess. A very powerful one. The power radiated from her, clashing against his demonic aura.

Shifting back into his humanoid form, he smiled at her. She lowered the bow with her mouth gaping. He could see the fear in his eyes. His eyes still blood red and his facial markings were jagged. He was fully nude was covered from head to toe with blood. His hair was so saturated with the fluid that Kikyo couldn't even tell what color the man's hair was. He licked it from his lips as it trailed from his matted and soaked bangs to his mouth. Several arrows had penetrated his flesh, one in each of the large muscular thighs, another in the impressive bicep of his right and only arm, and another in his back.

The demon growled, warning Kikyo away. Kikyo took the hint and she turned, running as fast as she could.

This was one of the few times she had ever run from a demon.

The demon continued to smile. The thought that he was a dog demon and craved the hunt, had obviously never once crossed her mind. He licked the blood from his fangs and lips in satisfaction before gave chase. He looked forward to toying with the beauty before he killed her.

The thunder was closer and the sun was now hidden by thick, boiling black clouds. Kikyo stopped before she ran off the cliff. Her hair whipping in the strong gust. Her eyes widened as she looked for an escape. She looked down and frowned when she realized she couldn't jump. The fall would kill her again. It would either cause her body to shatter or break every bone in her body. Neither one was an option.

A snarl made Kikyo's body go ramrod stiff and she spun to face the demon. His eyes now glowing with something more than blood lust. One by one, he ripped the arrows from his flesh without flinching and threw them to the ground. He reminded Kikyo of a primal beast that lived for one thing as he slowly stalked her.

Kikyo said the only thing she could think of. Something she had learned from Inuyasha and never said before. "Oh shit."

A/N: So, how was it?