Cry: For the First Time
Chapter1: It was late in September and I've seen you before…
Sorry coz I changed a lot of things. Hope you'll understand and please review… And I can't promise that all of my chapters will be these long…
Summary:
Syaoran looks like he is emotionless but he really is not. He always hides whenever he feels like crying because he doesn't want others to see his softer side. One afternoon at Tomoeda, a girl saw him crying. For the first time, he let someone see him crying. For the first time, he felt so comfortable. For the first time, she sympathize someone she didn't know. And for the first time, the girl revealed the softer side of him. She is none other than Sakura Kinomoto
Disclaimer:
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"Speech" 'thoughts' flashback dream sounds me
It is now September 27. A five year old boy with messy chocolate hair and amber eyes ran after his father died while saying "I want you to be a great leader of the Li clan". He tried to stop his tears from falling while he still sees some people staring at him and fortunately he succeeded. He went to a cherry blossom tree and let his tears flow continuously there.
"Why is he like that! He always thinks about the clan! Did he care for me? Did he even love me?" the boy cried while looking at the sky.
"What's wrong?" a girl with auburn hair and worried emerald eyes asked.
"Who are you?" he sobbed and looked at the girl.
"My name is ------ --------. Hajimemashite (Nice to meet you)!" she said with a big cute smile. Her cheerful emerald eyes then turned into a sympathizing one. "Why are you crying?"
"It's just that my dad seems like he never loved me. And he didn't even show a little concern before he died." he said while sobbing. What's wrong with him! He just said that to a stranger! Maybe he should leave? Nah! Why should he leave if he feels so comfortable with her?
"Oh I see… Maybe your father didn't show you how much he loves you but he still loves you…" she convinced while sitting beside him.
"Maybe… but I can never feel it anymore." he sadly said and stopped crying. "He… he died saying that I should be a good leader to our family." he said without stopping. 'What's wrong with me! Why does my mouth keep on blabbing in front of her? And shut up you big mouth!' he said to himself.
"I guess we are like the same, huh? My okaa-san also went to meet God. Onii-chan told me that our mother will continuously watch over us up at the sky…" she said while staring at the sky. A tear fell down her cheek but still her smile did not fade. It remained happy… happy for her love one.
He suddenly felt guilty for bringing up the topic and amazed that she can still remain happy somehow. So he decided to apologize and try to be like her, happy for someone. "Oh I'm sorry! My name is ------- --… Hajimemashite!" he cutely said after putting away his tears by using his hands. He then offered his handkerchief with the Li logo embedded.
"Syaoran! We're going to be late on our first day at school." a 17 year old gal with ruby eyes and long raven hair tied up in buns excitedly said.
"I'll follow." a guy at the age of 18 smiled while opening the Venetian blinds. The girl named Meiling, his cousin, then leaved. "Why do I always dream about that?" Syaoran asked, hoping that someone will answer.
--♥Meanwhile ♥--
The sun rose up and gently sent warm rays to an innocent gal. It tried its best to wake the girl up but failed. The gal's alarm clock helped the sun. And fortunately, the gal began to wake up. She reached for her alarm clock, pressed the snooze button and looked at the time. "HOE! I only have 10 minutes to fix myself!" a 17 year old gal with long auburn hair that reaches the middle of her back shouted. She arranged her hair and rushed downstairs.
"The kaijuu's please tell me if my spelling is wrong now awake!" her brother, Touya, teased.
"Sakura no kaijuu!" she said while stepping on her brother's foot. Unfortunately, Touya quickly removed his feet making Sakura's feet feel the hard floor and the power of her anger. He is really getting used to Sakura stepping on his foot. "Better change that habit." he smirked. But he should've not said that.
'You're right! I can just do another thing. Let's see... What can I do instead? Aha!' she thought while spotting a coffee near her brother. She then made the VERY hot coffee scatter on her poor brother's arm.
"OUCH!" Touya, her brother, screamed in pain.
"Oops! Sorry!" she innocently said while celebrating in her mind. If you could only read ones mind, you can see hers with a little cute version of her doing Ginji's happy dance with the words 'mission: accomplished' and cherry blossoms acting like confetti.
She then headed to her room to get her things and especially to escape Touya, not that she's afraid or what. She came back in just a blink and saw Touya sneaking out. His uniform was already changed and his trying to go through the three inches opening of the door because if he would open it more Sakura would already here the noise.
'You're not getting away!' she said her mind with a smirk. She then silently hopped in the back of her brother's newly bought gray Nissan X-Trail while her brother starts the engine.
"Whew! After a more than 5 years of trying to escape, I succeeded! I never thought that I can escape her because kaijuu knows that I'll meet Yukito, her crush. My motto really works! Better tell Yukito about the motto 'try and try until you succeed'" he said while driving.
"Ha! You still need to try you, know" Sakura popped up from nowhere, the smirk still plastered in her very innocent face. "And how many times will I tell you! S-A-K-U-R-A N-O K-A-I-J-U-U!" she shouted.
"Oh! When did you sneaked in? I thought that a kaijuu like you can never fit in my car. I guess I really had a nice choice with this car." he teased to hide the fact that he is scared of what his little sister might do next.
"Grr!" she angrily hissed.
"Yukito-san!" he happily said. "Whew! Yukito comes to the rescue!" he thought.
Yukito then opened the door while Sakura acted like nothing happened. Yukito greeted the both of them and received a smile from Sakura. He noticed that Touya didn't mind him and is sweating real hard. "The weather is really cold… Why is he sweating like he is being toast? And why is he wearing a jacket if he is feeling hot? Is he sick or something? Nah! Just my imagination." he thought.
"I'll get you away this time!" she whispered.
"What did you say dear little sister?" Touya again teased. He knew that Sakura would never even hurt him if Yukito is there. Sakura then shot a you'll-see-what-you-are-looking-for-later glare that made Touya sweat more. "Am I going to live another day!" he asked himself.
--♥1st period♥--
"Class, we have 2 transfer students today. Do come in!" Tenshi-sensei said. A guy with messy chestnut hair and cold amber eyes and a gal with raven hair and hyper ruby pools then entered the class. "Please introduce yourselves." he said.
Syaoran then looked around the class. His amber eyes landed on a pair of confused emerald eyes. "My name is Syaoran Li. I came from Hong Kong." he said, still glaring at the girl. All the girls except Sakura's gang are beginning to drool a river and all the guys began to feel fear. They can see his muscles and cold aura, which the girls thought made him hard to get.
'He looks familiar. Did I see him before? And why does it seem like I heard his name before?' Sakura thought. She is now 'physically present, mentally absent'. She didn't even notice the GENTLE glares that Syaoran threw to her and the real glares that the girls threw while dreaming at the same time.
"My name is Meiling Li. If you notice our last name are the same. It's because we are related. I am his cousin and also fiancée." the girls then shot more than a googol dagger on her. "What! You have a problem with that!" she asked, ready for a fight.
The teacher tried to caught her attention but did not mind him at all. "And what are you staring at my soon-to-be-husband!" Meiling accused while shooting a glare at Sakura. She then headed to Sakura and said "Are you listening to me you b! He's already taken you know!" a boy then sang the line of the song "the day you said goodnight". "And don't you dare sing 'She's already taken' because he is not a she got that!" the boy gulped as a reply.
"Hoe?" Sakura innocently stared at Meiling. This time, she is not making it up. She really is innocent. She didn't even notice that she stared at Syaoran for that long. She was too occupied with the thought if she really knew him and she was also captivated by Syaoran's intense amber eyes.
"Meiling-san!" Syaoran said while giving him a stop-it look.
"But!" Meiling said.
"No buts!" Syaoran said. He is like Meiling's father when he said that. Sakura tried her best not to laugh but she failed. Usually Syaoran would frown at people laughing at him but this one is an exemption. He is surprised that he didn't glare or at least get mad at the one laughing at him. Again it was the first time he allowed that. He immediately faked that he's mad and frowned while Meiling added a million daggers in her glare at Sakura when Syaoran didn't do anything. She's so unfair! It's not poor Sakura's fault!
"Okay laughing and glaring time are over!" Tenshi-sensei interrupted. Meiling then turned to their teacher and unknowingly shot a death glare at him. Tenshi-sensei got really scared and sweated. "Syaoran-san you can sit behind Kinomoto-san. Kinomoto-san raise your hand." he commanded. Meiling again shot another death glare but this time she definitely knows it. "That's no way to treat a sensei (teacher just in case you don't know)" Tenshi-sensei said after remembering that he is the teacher and Meiling is just a student. "You can sit beside Syaoran-san." he said. Syaoran and Meiling then headed to their seats.
"Warning! Troubles ahead" Sakura's mind said.
"Better be on your guard!" Meiling threatened with a smirk. Sakura then tried to give a help-me look to Tomoyo Daidouji, her best friend and seatmate. Tomoyo has dazzling amethyst pair of eyes and long braided gray hair. Tomoyo then gave her an it's-alright smile.
--♥ Lunch! ♥--
Sakura is now fixing her things to meet up with Tomoyo at the Cherry Blossom tree while trembling. "Oh! Why is these two Li-sans glaring at me all this hours! Is the whole family of Li angry at me? Oh! What did I do to deserve this? I'll just escape… Yeah! That's a good idea!" she thought.
"There's no use on glaring a googol daggers on her! Doing that is useless if you do it to someone useless…" Syaoran said but he didn't mean those words.
Sakura then popped in front of him. Her posture shows that she's was upset. She was ready to say that he is so mean to say that she is useless and that he is more useless but when the pair of amber eyes was seen by her teary emerald eyes, Sakura's teary emerald eyes turned into sympathizing ones. Syaoran was shocked to see it but immediately snapped out of the shock and leaved like nothing happened. Meiling of course followed her favorite cousin after shooting one of her best death glare at Sakura. Sakura was too confused to even notice the death glare.
After a minute, Sakura remembered Tomoyo and ran to her. Tomoyo is already done when she came. "I'm so sorry, Tomoyo-san!" Sakura apologized while panting.
"It's alright" Tomoyo said with a smile while packing her lunch.
"You're done already!" Sakura pouted which earned a gentle smile from her best friend. She then started to eat her lunch cheerfully even though she still worries about the pair of amber eyes.
After packing her lunch, Tomoyo turned to face Sakura. "So why are you late?" she curiously asked while turning her full attention on Sakura. She knows that Sakura is not as cheerful as she is right now.
Sakura then unknowingly stopped eating and clearly saw the pair of suffering amber eyes in her mind. "Before I came here, Syaoran said that I am useless…" she sadly told.
"Oh he better be ready!" Tomoyo threatened. "No one can insult my best friend!" she continued but Sakura stopped her. "Oh okay! I'll listen first…" she said. what a good friend!
"Well I was ready to say to him that Iwas offended by what he said but when I saw his eyes, I saw that it's like he is suffering a lot but keeps it. Maybe that's why he's cold. He can't even smile." Sakura softly continued.
"But not with you…" Tomoyo whispered. She then remembers the smile plastered on Syaoran when he saw Sakura softly laughing. She also knew that he tried to stop it but she knows that he still continued to smile secretly.
"Huh? What did you say, Tomoyo-san?" Sakura curiously asked. Then, the bell rang, signaling that lunch time is over. Tomoyo is really lucky that she doesn't need to lie to Sakura because Sakura's attention now is on eating. "HOE! I haven't eaten anything yet!" Sakura panicked while stuffing food in her mouth. Same old Sakura…
--♥Dismissal♥--
"Sakura!" Tomoyo called. Sakura waited for her and stopped following Syaoran. "So what's your plan? Why are you following Li-san?" Tomoyo whispered with star in her eyes.
"I just want to know the real reason. I want to make sure if what I saw earlier is right. But I doubt that I can hear any conversation about his past. If I'm right, he'll try his best to avoid that topic… I know that he's keeping something. Kitto (I just know it)!" Sakura explained with her eyes still on Syaoran.
"I thought that your father is going to pick you up? I thought you, your brother and your father are going to celebrate because your father did a very good job. You're really lucky to have a perfect father! I mean he does his job well and does his job as a father well, too!" Tomoyo commented. Syaoran heard the part about Sakura's father because Tomoyo is like screaming for all the people in the world to hear how lucky Sakura is. Syaoran remembered his father and went to his shedding place gloomily.
Sakura saw Syaoran's reaction and said "Tomoyo-san, please tell otou-san that I'll go home before 8." she said while following Syaoran. Then, her otou-san came with a limousine. "Otou-san! I'll go home after half an hour. Thanks!" she said while leaving her otou-san confused on why she is on a hurry.
--♥after 3 minutes of looking for Syaoran♥--
"No luck" Sakura sighed. She then heard a voice. It was as if it is crying. She tried to listen to it and traced where it came from by sensing an aura. She thought that it would be hard since she thought he doesn't have magic and all but it easy to track. 'Maybe he's just really trained that's why he got a strong aura… and mourning too.' she thought.
She went to the other side of the Cherry Blossom tree where she met the 4 year old boy. She saw someone sitting, not caring what's happening to the surroundings. It was now September 27, he looks like the 4 year old boy, he is staring at the now turning to dark gray sky and now she is… showing sympathy to someone she didn't know. It is like déjà vu! But this time they're older.
"Why are you crying?" Sakura softly asked the guy while staring at the dark gray sky and the stars one by one lighting it. She hasn't recognized the guy yet because she was thinking about the possibilities where she can find Syaoran. She waited for him to reply but when she finally find out that the guy is not going to reply, she tried to leave him and give him some time alone. The guy stopped her and she turned to see his face.
"You!" They both exclaimed.
"What are you doing here?" Syaoran coldly asked her. Sakura didn't reply to him and just sat beside him. Syaoran, suddenly being interested in what she is looking at, turned to see the wonderful sight.
They both looked at the sky and said "You know? You make me remember of someone…" at the same time. They then faced each other with wide eyes. "Who is it?" they hurriedly asked at the same time, again. Sakura suddenly burst into laughter. Syaoran raised his eyebrow but after a second he joined in. But soon the laughter died and was replaced by a dead silence.
"Can I ask you something?" Sakura seriously asked, breaking the silence. Syaoran himself didn't notice that he changed his attitude to someone he doesn't know. Syaoran nodded and lend his ears to whatever Sakura will ask. For the first time, he was interested. "When I was four year old, I saw someone crying under this cherry blossom. He is like you. You have the same messy chocolate hair and amber eyes which show that you hid your feelings deep inside. Is he you?" she asked.
Syaoran was shocked that he'll meet that girl again but was able to give a nod. "It is like déjà vu…" he commented. "The date, the sunset and the sympathizing part under this cherry blossom tree…" he explained.
"How did you remember the date? I mean it is so 14 years ago. And besides am I sympathizing you now?" Sakura curiously asked.
"It just seems to stay in my mind and your presence is kind of making me feel that it's alright. The thing about my father is still haunting me you know." he said. He changed the topic by saying "Hora (look) aren't they beautiful?".
"They are like small diamonds scattered in the sky." she commented. The wind then blew bringing some petals of Cherry Blossoms and Peonies to them both. Sakura felt sleepy and placed her head on Syaoran's shoulder. Again! For the first time, he let somebody to rest on his shoulders. Sakura and Syaoran then slightly blushed. Sakura wanted to walk away because she was embarrassed but she also want to stay with him. She chose the second one.
After some seconds, they heard someone. "kawaii, kawaii. kawaii! KAWAII!" someone squealed. 'Oops! I got to make a run! I already tried to lessen my voice still they heard.' she thought. You actually tried to stop it huh?
Sakura knew that it could only be one person, Tomoyo, so she fell anime style. "Tomoyo-san! Come out of there!" Sakura commanded to her best friend. Tomoyo then walked out of the bushes with her camera. "Don't say you recorded us!" Sakura angrily said. But she really isn't angry. She never holds grudges especially to her best friend.
"Hehehe… I won't say. But that wouldn't change anything." Tomoyo said. "Why didn't I keep quiet? Well at least I have prepared this one…" she thought while running as fast as she could.
"Tomoyo-san! Give me the tape now!" Sakura said while chasing Tomoyo. Syaoran just stood there, not understanding anything that's happening. Sakura easily catch Tomoyo but Tomoyo didn't give up.
"Guards, stop Sakura from following me." Tomoyo commanded. She then went to her limousine while Sakura struggles. "Sorry, Sakura-san! I prepared this one." Tomoyo said while leaving poor Sakura. Syaoran then used his knowledge in martial arts to get Sakura from the body guards.
After knocking off the three well-trained body guards in just 30 seconds, Syaoran turned to face Sakura and gave her a confused look. "Tomoyo-san recorded us…" Sakura said in a defeat tone.
"WHAT!" he exclaimed. "Is she going to show it to someone?" he worriedly asked. "Oh no! Please don't tell me that she's going to show it to anyone even to one person… Please! Oh please!" he pleaded.
"I doubt it" she honestly answered.
--♥ 8:30pm♥--
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"I'm coming!" Sakura said to her cell phone, as if the person calling her can hear what she had said. She then came out from the bath room and headed to her room. She picked up her pink cell phone and cheerfully said "Moshi moshi! Sakura-san speaking."
"Sakura-san! This is Tomoyo-san. Can I meet you at the Penguin Park?" Tomoyo happily asked while watching the event earlier. "I'll give you a copy of the tape." she explained.
"I'll be there in 5 minutes." Sakura said. She is really eager on getting that tape and maybe she can convince Tomoyo by using her puppy dog eyes. Sakura get dressed in just a minute. She headed downstairs and saw her father. "Otou-san, can I go for a while? I'll be back before 9:30." she asked.
"Sure! Just be careful." Fujitaka answered. Sakura is lucky that her brother is not there because he might stop her from going out. He might say that it's cold and blah blah blah…
Sakura then leaved. She got to the Penguin Park in just 3 minutes. Because it is dark, she thought that the person at the swing is Tomoyo. She tiptoed and hid behind the person. "BOO!" she said with some actions.
The person stumbled onto the ground while Sakura laughed and offered a hand. The person then looked at her and said "Kinomoto-san?". The person then stood up. His/ her face is now clearer.
"Li-san? Gomen (sorry)! I thought you were Tomoyo…" she said.
"It's alright!" Syaoran said with a smile.
"Syaoran-san! Who's that?" Meiling asked. She then turned to see the person Syaoran was talking to. "KINOMOTO-SAN!" she exclaimed and then shot another death glare. Sakura didn't notice Meiling's death glare. She just shivered from the cold. Syaoran then placed his jacket on hers, making Meiling reach the limit of her temper and reach higher. But since Meiling is just jealous and she still is kind, she just watched there and maintained her glare on Sakura. She thought of a reason to separate Sakura and Syaoran for a while. "C'mon, Syaoran-san! We need to finish our assignments." she reasoned.
"I'm done already" he replied while raising an eyebrow. "You're the one who dragged me here a second ago and then you want to leave fast!" he questioned.
"Yeah! But I changed my mind…" she lied. "Duh! Isn't it obvious? I want you to leave Sakura! But I wish you wouldn't notice that." she thought.
"It's obvious, Meiling-san!" he said.
"Huh? Did you read my mind? Or is it just obvious like what I said?" she asked herself. "C'mon! We forgot to ask for Wei-san's permission so we should go home now. He might be worried about us." she lied.
"You are right there." he sadly admitted. Sakura didn't ask who Wei is anymore. She sure knows that Meiling would shot another death glare if she interrupts.
"Ja!" Sakura cheerfully said while waving. "Now where could Tomoyo be? She's supposed to be here a couple of minutes ago…" she said while looking around for any signs of her second cousin.
"I'm right here, Sakura-san. I recorded all that happened. Even though you already have a boyfriend, I know that Li-san is the perfect guy for you… Kitto (I just know it)!" Tomoyo whispered.
--♥Tomorrow morning♥--
"HOOEEE!" Sakura screamed. The birds outside her window didn't fly away or even planned to fly away because they were very used to that sound. Sakura stood up and arranged her hair. "I only have 2 minutes to prepare and go to school…" she panicked while going downstairs. "Touya? Why didn't you wake me up?" she asked while eating her breakfast.
"I just don't want to…" he simply answered. "Anyway, Yukito and I won't go to our job today. It's our day off." he said while slicing some of his pancakes. After hearing what her brother said, Sakura headed to her room and get her things.
"You want a ride?" Touya offered after hearing the loud noises that Sakura caused.
"It's alright. I can get there in just a minute…" she said while closing the door.
"You sure can!" Touya commented. Then he peeked outside only to see a guy in a limousine talking to Sakura. He got angry and went outside but saw nothing.
--♥Sakura♥--
"Thanks for giving me a ride, Li-san." Sakura said. The ride will make her earlier. She declined her brother's offer because she wants to avoid her teasing brother.
Meiling shot a death glare at her and jealously asked "Why did you invite that girl!".
"Meiling-san!" Syaoran said. "She has a name! And why wouldn't we? We know that she's late so she needs a lift to school…" he explained. But the truth is, it really isn't the reason. He just doesn't know…
Sakura nodded and went inside the car. The way there is really too silent for her comfort. "So… Umm…" she said. She tried to think of a question and finally it hit her. "Have you seen all the places here in Tomoeda?" she asked Meiling and Syaoran.
"Have you forgotten that we already visit Tomoeda 14 years ago?" Syaoran cutely pouted, faking that he was hurt. "Or you just want to put another subject so that Meiling won't glare at you?" he smirked.
"When did she know that we visited Tomoeda 14 years ago? And when did you pouted to a girl!" Meiling jealously demanded an answer. She was now really jealous of Sakura. First, he smiled at Sakura even though she's a stranger ch1. Second, she knew things that others do not know about him. Third, he pouted to her! That's really beyond her limitation! She really is now jealous of Sakura.
"Uh-oh! Great Li Syaoran! That's just great!" Sakura sarcastically said while hiding at Syaoran's back.
"I didn't mean to…" he apologized. "Meiling stop it! Can't you see that she's really scared!" he commanded. Wow! He changed a lot! Before, Syaoran is the one who cannot object but now she is the one who cannot.
"Sir and misses, we already arrived." the driver interrupted.
"Whew!" Sakura said while putting away her imaginary sweats. "You don't know how great you did…" she said to the driver. Sakura then looked at her watch but was interrupted. Syaoran pulled her to the class. Meiling of course followed angrily while glaring at Sakura.
"What the heck are you doing!" Sakura asked.
"We're going to be late!" he said while increasing their speed. They then arrived to class in just a couple of seconds. "Whew! We arrived in time…" he said while panting.
"What's going on?" Sakura asked Chiharu. But it was useless.
"Sorry! I really don't know! Since I arrived, I've been stopping Yamazaki to tell another lie." Chiharu said followed by a sigh. Sakura then sweat-dropped.
"Oof!" Syaoran expressed while he is being squeezed by the crowd. Sakura followed him and when they got to the center of the attention, they both feel some of anger but mostly embarrassment.
Please give me some suggestions! ONEGAI! I'll really appreciate it. Also.. Please don't be so cruel I'm just a beginner…
Just like the creature with pure wings
Standing up from all the difficult things
Soaring from the Bottom
Lies a Shattered Blossom…
ja ne! )