Title: Torn in Two

Author: Miyu Hitozawa of deathdragonz

Rating: M

Summary: Sirius likes Remus, but he's sure Remus doesn't feel the same way. However, Remus' alternate personality does. Unfortunately, Sirius didn't fall in love with this new Remus who keeps pressing himself on Sirius. Meanwhile, Remus is getting worried about the frequent gaps in his memory.

Warnings: Slash: boy on boy, and if it offends you, don't read it. There are explicit scenes in here, so be careful if it's not your cup of tea. There's cussing in here as well.

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Chapter 1: Xha Kyrux

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Remus is bloody strong. I have to start out by saying that. It's something everyone should know, but most don't. The man's a werewolf, for fuck's sake! To live your life with a monster stuck inside of you... you have to be strong. And so do I. I love that man, and no, not brotherly love, but 'I want to fuck him into the ground to prove my love' type of love. And as much as I had prepared myself for the problems that the wolf inside him would cause, I never prepared myself for the other personality inside him. I didn't know 'he' was even there at first, but I had my suspicions. I don't know when it happened, but Remus wasn't all there. I'm not sure he ever was, what with his head in the clouds of angst, but perhaps I've always attributed it to his wolf side. I first came to my conclusion (the conclusion that there might be something more than the wolf in that complicated mind of his) when I walked into the dorm one day to find Remus jacking off on his bed. Now, let me set this straight: Remus NEVER wanks. I should know; I've lived with him for almost seven years. And with my undying love, you tend to look for anything that might say they like you back (like what name he says when he's jacking off) (which I've never learned because he NEVER does it). Besides, when he looked up at me, he wasn't embarrassed, or flustered like the real Remus would be; he just looked at me with hard, calculating eyes in an amused expression. Those are not Remus' eyes. He didn't even mention it to me when I saw him next. Just the way he acted made my confirmed my suspicions. Remus would never leave something like that in the air without explaining himself. This new Remus is obviously a different person pretending to be Remus, thinking he can pull it off. He doesn't fool me. I know Remus, the real one, too well. So, I've come to the conclusion: Someone has stolen my wolf.

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Sirius stalked up the Gryffindor boy's stairs to their dorms in order to confront this Remus imposter. He burst into the dorm to find Remus reading a book on his bed. Sirius' anger diminished because, right now, Remus was acting exactly like the real Remus would.

Sirius sank on Remus' bed by his feet. Remus raised an eyebrow at him in question. Sirius sighed, "We have to talk."

Remus dog-eared his page and set his book down. "Go ahead, Sirius."

"It's kinda about how you've been acting strangely lately."

Remus' head dropped to his chest then rose back up to meet Sirius with those hard eyes.

"I'm assuming you're speaking of me."

Slightly taken aback by the sudden change, Sirius pressed forward. "Who are you, and what have you done with Remus?"

The Remus look-a-like smiled sweetly. "My name's Xha, spelt X-H-A, not S-H-A like is sounds. Actually, Xha Kyrux, to be precise. What I've done with Remus doesn't really matter. He's safe, if that's what you're worried about."

Sirius grabbed his collar and pushed him backwards to pin him on the bed. "What the fuck have you done with Remus, you bastard!" Sirius growled, teeth barred.

Xha looked unfazed, and gazed coolly up at him. "You look sexy when you're mad and pinning me down to a bed."

Sirius shook him. "I don't fucking care! Where's Remus, you asshole!" Truly, he did care, because even though this was a different person, they looked exactly like Remus, and having even a different Remus pinned below him was arousing. Damn his hormones.

Xha smirked at him and moved his had to the crotch of Sirius' pants. "Doesn't seem like you don't care." He caressed Sirius' rapidly growing erection through the cloth of his pants.

Sirius bit back a groan. It had been so long since someone had touched him. His unrequited love of Remus left him with a vow of abstinence until he had Remus (whenever (if ever) that be). He had been fooling around with girls before, but when he almost yelled out Remus' name during one of his orgasms, he stopped. Now it was only him and his hand.

And Xha's hand felt so good.

Sirius dropped his head to Xha's shoulder and growled, "You bastard," Sirius thrust roughly into the hand, trying to hold back, "Where the fuck is Remus?"

"You're in no position to ask. I've got you by the crotch of your pants."

Sirius growled again and tried to still his movements, but failed miserably and just thrust deeper into Xha's moving hand.

"When was the last time someone touched you? Months?" You're a horny almost-17-year-old, it can't always be your hand."

"Ah, fuck. Please - please - just -"

"Fuck you? Don't stop?"

"Tell me - where Remus is."

Xha laughed quietly, "Okay, fine. I'll tell you." He pulled Sirius closer so that his mouth was beside the black-haired boy's ear. "He's in here." He said, and tapped his head. He gave one last, long stroke and Sirius came.

Sirius fumbled for his wand, not looking at Xha, and when he found it, he did a quick cleaning and drying spell, and hen looked back up at Xha. "What do you mean he's in your head?" he asked in a small voice.

"You look hot when you cum."

Sirius' anger flared back up again. "You bastard! I just asked you a question! Answer me properly!"

Xha just shrugged his shoulders and rolled his eyes. "It's kind of obvious isn't it? I'm his alternate personality." He wigged his eyebrows, then his head dropped, and came up with soft, shimmering amber eyes.

Sirius knew it was Remus.

Remus blinked up at him, and Sirius realized Remus' hand was still on his crotch.

"Sirius? Oh my god! I'm so sorry!" Remus continued to apologize while fighting the blush that was spreading across his face.

He squirmed out from underneath Sirius and bolted for the door. He was gone in a flash, and left Sirius wondering what the fuck had happened.

Sirius sat down on the edge of the bed and ran his fingers through his hair. What was he supposed to do now? What was he supposed to say to Remus? And what was he going to do about Xha?

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Well, hum... what do you think? I think Sirius has a major problem. I also think I like Xha, he's kinda sadistic, isn't he? (I'm sorry it's so short! My stories are usually much longer, but this chapter seemed to only fit with this little. I promise that the other chapters (if you want them) will be longer.) Well, drop me a note to tell me if I should continue... Reviews are very welcome... flames are welcome as well because they're brain candy for Xha.