Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha and co.

I hope you enjoy this epilogue. And if you are someone who gets teary-eyed easily, then I suggest you go grab a box of tissues! Oh yes, and remember to watch out for the sequel, you'll never know when I might post it up.

Unfaithful

Sw33t-Sorrows

Epilogue: Goodbye

As I look back on my life, I know that I have not lived it to its fullest. After all, who knew I would spend the rest of my life in a hospital? After I returned to England from Tokyo, I discovered I had cancer in my brain. It was a very special type of cancer where it attacked my brain's function to control my body. I have already lost my ability to walk, speak and my vision is becoming blurrier everyday.

So as I sit in this hospital, I reminisce on all the sweet memories I have shared with my beloved. My one and only. I'm afraid I have never forgotten about Inuyasha. For one thing, he still hasn't returned my heart, and I don't think I ever want it back. As I have mentioned, I will always love him.

Kikyo sent me a letter in the mail saying Inuyasha did find another woman. Her name is Mayuko. I am so glad Inuyasha learned to stand up again, I also heard they were expecting a child in the summer.

I look out the window and watch as the snow falls. I smiled at the scene. The world was covered in a beautiful blanket of white; it looked perfectly untouched, like my love for Inuyasha. Kikyo also told me that he still thinks about me. And that is enough for me. The fact that he hasn't forgotten me is more than enough for me to die happy.

My fingers are beginning to go numb, but as my handwriting gets messier, I must finish writing this. It is only now that I realize I am crying. Oh, I haven't cried in three years. Ever since I discovered I had cancer, I realized that I wanted to see Inuyasha again. I wanted him to embrace me and whisper sweet nothings into my ear. I wanted him to be here to tell me that everything was going to be okay.

I wanted him to tell me he would always be there.

And as I realize that I am all alone in his horrible room that will forever haunt my dreams, I cry harder. My head hurts as I struggle to continue. Inuyasha, when you get this, I hope you understand that I have never meant to hurt you. I hope you understand that I have always wanted what is best for you.

I didn't want to hold you back from where you might have belonged.

And now I see, your place is with Mayuko. However, even after the time you cheated on me, even after our divorce and the discovery about my cancer, I know that I am actually kind of happy. I know that my departure from you was not in vein. I know that I have not failed in my duty to make you happy. After all, if I had not left, you wouldn't have been happily married once more, and you wouldn't be starting a family. If I had stayed, you would probably be miserable, and I would hate myself for it.

I used to see the pain living in your eyes, and I knew how hard you tried to keep paying for my medication. Ironic isn't it? The fact that you have worked so hard to keep me alive, only to have me die anyway.

Did I let you down, sweetheart? Did I hold you back, darling? Were we living a lie, love? Were we just hurting ourselves, beloved? Did I ever make you cry, beautiful? Because I'm sorry if I did. I never meant to hurt you, really. I have never criticized how much you meant to me, because you were and are my world. You would never ask me why my heart was so disguised, because I guess you never suspected it. Did you know I was going to die?

Oh, Inuyasha…I don't want to die. I want to live.

My hands are hurting so much. Am I losing the ability to operate my arms too? This is too much, please, darling…save me from my misery. Oh, what have I done to myself? I brought this upon myself. Inuyasha, I have made so many mistakes in my life…but I know marrying you was not a mistake. You have shaped me into the person that I am today, and I thank you for it. I thank you for loving me for all those years. I thank you for caring, I thank you for everything you have ever done to keep me happy. I only wish I could have done more for you.

After all, you deserve the chance at the kind of love that I'm not sure I'm worthy of.

And as I lay here dying, Inuyasha, I think of you. And wherever you are, are you thinking of me, as well? I would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry. And I realize that there's nothing left to try…even though it's going to hurt us both…I can't go on. I wish you a happy life with Mayuko. And I hope you will never forget me. Because I know I'll never forget you…

I lay down the letter and realize how much she has sacrificed for me. I am not Kagome…I am Inuyasha. Using my own memory and the letter she wrote me to write this story. After the letter, I realized that Mayuko was a pathetic excuse for a replacement. Although Mayuko is a nice girl and a great wife, I found that Kagome was the only one who could make my world shine.

If Kagome could hear me right now, I would tell her that I will love her until the end of time. I would tell her that every breath of mine I would hold her by my side. I would tell her that only she could stop the rain tonight, and only she could change my world from dark to bright. If I were there when she died, I would tell her to keep the faith of mine, and I would tell her to never let it go. But she's gone. And to know that I'll never be able to hold her with hands again, is something that I cannot explain in words. I'd like to think of Kagome as one of the few people in the world who can life the corners of the universe.

Because I know she's lifted mine.

There's no other way
Than to say…goodbye…

Author's Note: Wow, the end was kind of stupid…but I figured if I was going to work on a sequel, I was going to have to leave something to work from. Okay, here are some things to expect in the sequel (if you guys want one that is):

- Lots of Angst

- Kagome will still be dead (some of my friends wanted me to bring Kagome back to life, but…no)

- And it will be a lot longer

Well, that is all for now! Thank you to all my readers, and maybe I'll get more reviews later? Ah well, it's not about the reviews. It's about the stories! Anyway, thank you and I hope you enjoyed "Unfaithful"!

Sw33t-Sorrows.