What's this all about?

This… is the Seven Deadly Sins; one of each which one Titan has to battle with. Each sin is told from the Titan is question's point of view – and here, the first sin, we present to you… Envy: Raven.

This fic has a somewhat strange format; Narroch06 and I wrote this together, discussing it and everything else, but it's not exactly co-written. That is, our styles aren't merged. We each took certain sins and Titans and wrote them individually, so that the styles didn't become too melded and make the thought process of the characters confusing. Our seven hapless Titans are: Robin, Raven, Cyborg, Beast Boy, Starfire, Terra and Speedy. Please note also that the order in which the sins will be posted will not be the order in which they take place. For example, Raven's is set in Season Four, but Terra's is obviously set in Season Two.

We aren't going to say who wrote who right now, nor are we going to tell you which Titan was allocated which sin. You'll know both of these on the updates; however, I (RobinRocks) wrote Raven. One of Narroch06's pieces will be next, and so on…

Before we start… where did we get the idea? I was sent a questionnaire by email from one of my friends, which decided what your greatest sin was after you answered the questions. A link to this questionnaire can be found on my (brand new updated!) profile, so that you can find out what your biggest sin is. It's very entertaining. It's on a British website called the record… mine is Greed (love of money and material possessions. I do not deny it…) and Narroch06's is Gluttony (love of eating allsorts of yummy junk…). Check out yours – it's really funny…

And now… onto the fic!

Seven

Envy – Raven

It's a question I ask myself every day.

Every morning I wake up. Every night as I drift off to sleep. Every moment in between.

Why me?

Well, of course I know why; because of him.

Because he is my father; because I am his daughter.

Because I am so much more than what I appear to be; more than the creepy goth chick of the team.

More than a Teen Titan.

More than Raven.

("I'm not just a person. I'm a portal…")

I have a curse, and it is more of a curse than Terra ever complained to have.

I am destined to do terrible things; I was born to destroy the world.

And there isn't a thing I can do about it.

I sit on my windowsill, watching the clock in my hands. In five minutes, the day will be over.

I am not relieved anymore; because today, it began.

My birthday; I never wanted it to come. It did, inevitably; and inevitably, it began.

Slade came for me with a message, and Robin, in stepping in to protect me, perhaps learned more than he should have.

But still, he is ignorant. My friends, all four of them, are blissfully unaware of what is going to happen.

They have no idea about what is just beyond the horizon.

They have no idea that I will be the death of them.

And I envy them their ignorance.

They blissfully threw a birthday party for me, thinking it was just another day. How I wish for their optimism.

Ever since I can remember, I have known of my destiny. I have always known what I was created for. I have always known that I must keep my emotions in check, for feelings of joy, pain, sadness… they are all exploitable by my father's influence.

And so, when I sit on the couch, alone and silent, reading… I observe my friends, the barest glimmer of emotion within me.

And those emotions are mingled sadness and jealousy.

Sadness because I know that one day, because of me, they will simply be no more.

And jealousy because they are able to express themselves in a way that I cannot.

I will watch Robin, Cyborg and Beast Boy all participating in a three-way Super Ninja Fury tournament – whooping and cheering whenever they score or win a round.

And although I really have no desire to join them, I still feel envious, because I can't.

Sometimes I go to the mall with Starfire; and feel jealous when I watch her flitting from rack to rack in a store, squealing and giggling in pleasure at all of the things she sees.

And I feel envious of the delight she finds in such simple things.

I look at all of them and sometimes I envy them so much I truly despise them.

Robin's coolness and confidence.

Cyborg's cheerful attitude.

Beast Boy's happy-go-lucky, jokey nature.

And Starfire's unbridled joy.

All of them able to express their feelings; sadness, happiness, and everything in between.

And all of them without the Earth's death warrant written on the palms of their hands in the shape of a glowing, jagged red "S".

Robin. Starfire. Cyborg. Beast Boy.

Blissfully ignorant; and not responsible for what is to happen.

I wish I was any one of them.

Jealousy is a sin.

And being what I am, sin is something I could do without.

But I can't help it.

I watch the second hand hit "12" and then tick past.

My birthday is over.

But this…

This has only just begun.

I drop the clock and it bounces on the floor and rolls away across my room.

Why me? Why not someone else? Why could I not have been born someone else?

I look down at my palms – each adorned with those Marks of Scath, glowing crimson like blood – and the tears well and silently begin to pour in steady little streams down my face.

All I feel is envy.

Because never once in my entire life have I ever wanted more to be someone – anyone – else.

TT

Hope you like this little idea of ours. Well, we have six sins left, and six Titans. Who – and what – will be next?

Gluttony? Pride? Lust? Greed? Wrath? Sloth?

Heh heh, you gotta come back to find out. That's all from me for a while – Narroch06 will be here to hassle you next time!

Review or may all seven sins overcome you!

RobinRocks xXx