JULIE'S POV

Throughout the movie I couldn't help but sneak glances at Connie and Averman. They looked so happy as they cuddled together and stealing kisses whenever they thought no one was looking.

I couldn't help but be a little jealous. If only Dean and I could have something like that. Wait what am I saying? There is no Dean and me. There's Dean and the cheerleaders and there's Dean and just about every other girl in this school but there has never, never been a 'Dean and Julie'.

So why was he sitting next to me getting as close as he could without actually sitting on me?

Get a grip Julie, its probably because it is really overcrowded in here. Yeah that's what it is.

I concentrated on slowing my breathing down to a normal pace and willed my heart to stop thumping so loudly. This was hell sitting here being so close to Dean Portman that I had to literally pinch myself in order to stop myself from leaning over and kissing him.

I'm pathetic aren't I? I know he's all wrong for me and I know he'd only just end up breaking my heart but it didn't stop me from wanting it so badly.

In order to take my mind off of things I tried to tune into the movie. Just my luck that it would be Star Wars Episode 1. Normally I can handle watching this stuff but since I'd already seen it like 50 times with Charlie my mind started to wander and three guess where it wandered to.

For those of you who can't figure it out I'll make it painstakingly obvious – of course my thoughts wandered back to Dean Portman.

My heart nearly leapt out of my throat when he moved even closer and laid his head on my shoulder casually saying he was tired.

What kind of game was he playing at this time?

From the corner of my eye I saw Fulton look at his friend and shake his head.

Connie was eyeing me silently asking what was up. I raised my eyebrows at her in an attempt to say "I have no idea". Everyone else was still watching the movie.

After another hour or so of trying to keep my shit together I heard a strange noise. Obviously I wasn't the only one who noticed it because Charlie had pressed pause and was asking.

"What is that?"

We were all looking around the room and I realised that it was coming from Portman. He had fallen fast asleep on my shoulder and was now snoring his head off.

The Ducks tried to keep their laughter to minimum volume but it was very difficult. Even I had to laugh. It was a funny sight.

"Julie try waking him up" Charlie suggested.

"No way dude, he's freaking insane if he's woken up" Fulton piped up.

"I agree I don't want to die just yet" Averman agreed.

"At least you've got Connie to protect you Aves!" Russ grinned.

"Shut up Russ!" Connie replied half laughing.

"Make me Moreau" Russ taunted back good-naturedly.

"Will all of you shut up, I'm trying to sleep and I'm comfortable!" Portman grumbled from the depths of my shoulder.

"I think the man has spoken" Charlie laughed.

"Oooh the Bash Brother and the Catlady" Goldberg teased.

I shot him a look that basically said "Shut up or die" and Goldberg quickly obliged.

Thank god.

"So do we have to set a rule with these two now – no kissing on the ice" Ken said cheekily.

I swear I was about to kill the little bash brother there and then.

"WE ARE NOT TOGETHER DAMN IT!" I screamed getting up from my spot on the floor and storming out of the room. I knew it was overkill but I was so damn angry. How dare they think something was going on when it wasn't.

In the process Portman's head had slid to the floor.

"What the hell Jules?" I heard him ask after me.

Great so he probably thought I was mad at him now. Truth was I wasn't mad at him anymore. I guess I'd gotten over myself and realised that he could kiss – or sleep with – anyone he wanted since we weren't together in any way, shape or form.

"Julie wait!" I heard Connie running down the hallway behind me.

"I'm sorry Cons, I know I went a bit overboard" I replied feeling like a fool.

"No they just need to learn when to shut up" Connie said loud enough for the boys to hear.

"Come on lets go talk in our dorm room without any prying ears around" Connie had spotted the top of Charlie and Fulton's heads trying to peek around the door frame.

I looked back at the dorm room and saw the heads rapidly retreating. They are so nosy it's not funny.

"Yeah lets go" I agreed needing to have a one on one chat with my best friend.

"So what was the deal with you and Portman in there a minute ago?" Connie pounced on me the second our door was shut.

"I don't know, one minute I'm trying to watch the movie and the next he's telling me he's tired and drops his head on my shoulder" I explained not understanding myself what had happened.

Connie thought about this for a moment, pondering her answer.

"I think he likes you" she finally said.

"Yeah right, Portman doesn't like girls like me Cons, he likes the cheerleader type. Plus he knows damn well he's got no chance of getting into my pants. Well not straight away anyway" I replied feeling myself blush. I hadn't realised I was giving too much information away.

"JULIE GAFFNEY!" Connie scolded with a huge smile on her face.

"What?" I replied coyly.

"You…. Nevermind. I'm sure every girl has had the fantasy about the hot hockey player" Connie laughed.

"Yeah and yours is about a certain red-headed hockey player named oh gee I dunno, Averman!" I teased her back.

"Oh no you caught me" Connie grinned.

I missed having these girly chats with her. Not that I was resentful of her relationship with Averman. I was extremely happy for her that she'd moved on from Guy with someone who will treat her with the respect she deserves.

Guy did treat her with respect whilst they were together but when they broke up however, that was a different story.

And if my best friend in the entire world was happy then I was happy for her.

I just hoped I could be as happy as her one day.