AN New story, hope you like it, I'm going to try and keep it as accurate as possible, if anyone has questions about the story feel free to ask.

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He knew there was something wrong, he had felt it in his body, in the way he couldn't eat as much as he wanted to, in how he was losing weight, in the constant cough that was plaguing him, making it hard for him to breathe.

But he ignored it, like most Winchesters do when faced with an ailment; it is ignored, until it can't be ignored any longer. And that was the point he was at now, he couldn't ignore the pain he felt in his stomach, he couldn't ignore that he couldn't breathe when he was laying down, he couldn't ignore the night sweats and fever. And the big reason he couldn't ignore it, was because the doctors had finally found it.

He had just been brought to the hospital with his dad and Dean, they were the ones that needed help, not him, he had a few minor cuts and bruises, nothing like his dad and brother. Hell he had shot his dad in the leg, and Dean, well dean wasn't doing so good, but like always he would pull through. But him, he was fine wasn't he? He just had a cold, a pesky cold.

That, however, was not the news the Doctor had, they had found something, something that would change the lives of the Winchester family, all because of one innocent chest x ray.

The young hunter looked up as he heard the doctor come into the room, "So can I go?" he asked knowing through the doctors body language that the answer was no.

"Mr. Winchester, we have to discuss your chest x ray" The doctor started as he pulled a chair up to Sam's bed. "There is a large mass in your chest, a mass of this size, and the location of it, indicates lymphoma disease, either Hodgkin's disease or Non- Hodgkin's disease."

Sam looked at the doctor, not understanding, too many thoughts going through his head, none of them coming together. "What?" he asked quietly, not sure if he wanted to know the answer.

The doctor noticed the hesitation and the fear that was written all over the young mans face, he had seen it many times, and no matter how strong a person tried to be, they couldn't help but fear what they couldn't fix. "You have cancer Mr. Winchester, we can't tell which one as of yet, but rest assured that both Hodgkin's and Non- Hodgkin's lymphoma are both curable cancers, with treatment"

"What kind of treatment?" Sam asked still trying to understand what was going on, wanting nothing more than for Dean to be there, to try and help him understand.

During the past 6 months that Sam had spent with Dean on the road he had once again developed a sort of dependence on his older brother and he was missing Deans presence in the hospital room.

"Well Mr. Winchester I am going to admit you to the hospital so we can start doing some tests to figure out what kind of cancer you have, and how far along it is, and once we have determined that then we can start to discuss treatment options, the most likely option is chemotherapy."

Sam shook his head, "I can't I'm sorry Doctor but I need to take care of Dean, he's the one who is hurt, I can't be admitted, this can wait." Sam said as he started to move off of his bed.

The doctor put a hand on Sam's chest, forcing the young hunter to stay where he was, "Sam," he said quietly, looking the young hunter in the eyes, "If you don't get this treated right away you will die, if the cancer doesn't kill you, then a heart attack will, and because your mass is so big, and it is putting a lot of strain on your heart, that heart attack could happen any day now."

Sam looked away from the doctor, fear consuming him, no illness had ever gotten into the family like this before, he didn't know what to do, "I...I…" he tried to finish as a sob escaped his lips, and tears fell from his eyes.

"I can help you Sam, you just have to let me" the doctor said quietly. His only response from the young man was a small nod. "Okay I'll go and put you in for a room on the oncology floor." He said as he turned to leave, watching the young man who tried to hide his tears. "A nurse will be in, in a few minuets to start an IV" he said as he walked out, closing the door behind him.

Sam took a deep breath in as he wiped the tears from his face, he had to be strong for Dean, he couldn't let him know yet, not with the state that he was in, it wouldn't be fair to him Sam concluded as he took a deep breath. As much as he wanted his brother's comfort he knew this was something he was going to face on his own until Dean was back to his old self.

He looked up at the nurse as she walked in with her IV tray; Sam tried to smile at her but knew it looked strained as the nurse started to prep the IV area.

'Here goes nothing' Sam though as he tried to prepare himself for what he was going to face. But nothing could have prepared him for the experience, and he was going to learn soon, that he couldn't do it alone.