Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts II. Though I wish I do.
Summary: A self-conscious high school student named Namine always had a hard time in High School. Being a total outcast caused a lot of problems for her. But her life changes when she suddenly realizes she had feelings for a certain popular boy... but does he feel the same?
Genre: Basically Romance/General. AU.
Couples: Roxas x Namine, Kairi x Sora, and others.
You will find out as you continue to read :)
Author's note: Eh, First Story, So go easy on me?
I want to thank the people who gave this fanfic a chance.
And actually reading the story before jugding it.
If you don't like it, then don't read it. Simple as that.
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First Love
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Chapter 1
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She was glad. Glad that she was away from everyone else, although she knew she wasn't supposed to be far behind the school. But she thought it was the only place she needed to be. The only place she could feel comfortable in her own world. The only place she was safe...
Every time she would be in school, everyone would look at her. They would tease her about how weird she was, and other things that would hurt her feelings. No one respected her. She was the nerd in school.
The girl looked around, and seen no one. She sat alone under sakura blossoms. All she could feel were the soft breeze that brushed against her pale skin and light blonde hair. She had a relaxed smile on her face as pink sakura flowers showered down on her.
Everything here is beautiful... she thought. But then, she laughed softly to herself.
Besides myself, of course.
She started to sketch out the view around her, it was what she always done. She always sketched out whatever she thought was beautiful. When she finished she added every detail, never missing one thing that had meaning in the picture. At the end she added one more thing to her drawing.
She drew a girl sitting there, alone, peacefully.
No it wasn't her. It was a girl who had red hair. It was so beautiful... A girl with red hair, with cherry blossoms around her. Namine thought, Maybe the girl in the picture was what made it so beautiful.
Hehe, She really is more beautiful in real life, too. A small, yet sad smile formed on the girls face.
"Namine," She snapped in surprise.
"Kairi!" Namine stood up and turned to her friend, "How did you find me here?"
Kairi, she was the beautiful girl who Namine drew in her picture. Her best friend, the only person who accepted her for who she was. Although Kairi was popular around the school, she took Namine over everyone else. Kairi was too kind. Sometimes Namine would think that Kairi just had sympathy towards her. But, she knew her best friend wasn't like that.
"I looked all over for you! And this was the last place to look. I had doubts that you'd be here." Kairi pouted, but she suddenly let out a cute laugh. "But I found you here, didn't I?"
Her long red hair, and her cute round blue eyes. Which Namine had for herself. But with Kairi she looked so adorable. But, for Namine. She always kept her hair in pig tails. And she always hid her eyes behind her glasses.
"Come on, Nam, let's go back." Kairi held out a hand to her, but Namine just smiled back.
"It's ok, you can go ahead."
"What! I looked all over for you because I wanted to hang out with you."
"Thanks." Namine tried avoiding Kairi's puppy eyes, "But I just want to sit here and draw, until class starts."
Kairi sighed, "You spend too much time drawing. Nam... Maybe if you stopped that a little and tried to socialize, everything would feel a little more comfortable for yourself."
"But I love drawing."
"I know you do." Kairi simple replied. "But you know..."
Kairi started to drift off into thought. And for a few seconds she spurted out in surprise.
"That's it! You know what you need?"
Namine shook her head. Giving Kairi a puzzled look.
"You need a boy friend." Namine backed away a little when she seen the huge grin on her friends face.
"B-b-boyfriend! Are you kidding me? Boy's are just annoying, insensitive jerks!"
"Not all... Nam..." Kairi chuckled.
"There's no one out there that I would like. And no boy would like me..."
"Oh, your so picky. And negative."
"That isn't true!" Namine paused and took in a deep breath,
"Besides, Why would I need a boyfriend when you don't got one for yourself?"
"Hey! I'm looking, okay!" Kairi blushed for some reason.
"Kai, and you call me picky?"
Namine slightly jumped when the bell had rung.
"Darn, well okay... Fine. After next period, meet up with me at lunch, can you do that? That time me and you can scan through all the boys! So you can pick out a boyfriend!"
"Kairi!"
"Okay, love you Nam, see you at lunch!" Kairi ran off as fast as she could, before Namine could get a hold of her.
It was a new school year. She was a little bummed that Kairi wasn't in most of her classes, just a couple. But right now, she really wished that she was in her first class. She didn't want to walk to class alone.
Namine started walking off to find her first class with her head down, walking in a fast pace. She could hear people talking, people who passed by. All the voices she could hear echoed in her ears as if she was in a nightmare.
'Look at her... what a loser. She's the only one in this entire school that has four eyes.'
'Does she have any friends? What a loner!'
'Ugh, I feel so sorry for her kind. Those kinds of people are failures in life.'
She tried to cover her ears with her hands, and walked faster. Namine just had to get out of there and get to her class.
How cruel...
When she had gotten away from everyone, and into an area where it was almost empty, she stopped frozen in her tracks. She closed her eyes to prevent tears from forming.
Why do people have to be so cruel...?
Out of the blue, someone had accidentally bumped into her. Her glasses sliding off onto the ground as she slightly lost her balance, dropping the books she held in her arms.
"Oh, Sorry! Didn't see you there." a voice above her spoke.
"Here, let me help you..."
At least I'm invisible to someone, and not the center of attention freak. She tried to cheer herself up.
"No... it's fine..." Namine groped the floor for her glasses so she could be able to see again. But instead of getting a hold of her glasses, she got a hold of something soft. And ...It felt like... skin?
When she had realized that it was the hand of the person that was trying to help pick up her books, she quickly jumped back.
"S-sorry, I was looking for my-"
"This?" that person got a hold of her hand, and gently placed the glasses on the palm of her hand.
"Th-thanks...I have to go." Namine didn't hesitate. She grabbed all the books around her as fast as she could, and stormed off to class.
"Hey! Wait-..."
When she found her class, her face was completely flushed in embarrassment. As she sat down at her seat waiting for class to start, she tried to forget about what just happened.
Eeek! I held onto someone's hand, that I don't know! Now people will think I'm more of a freak... Namine shut her eyes closed. Now I feel more uncomfortable going out there. When I pass that person in the halls, they could be anywhere teasing me.
The starting bell rung, and snapped Namine out of her thoughts. Finally, her class started.
"Good morning class, I am Mr. Diz" the teacher started off the day with another boring introduction of himself. Like every year they did that. Namine started to drift off into her own world again. When she decided to look through her books for something to read, she noticed something missing.
"No, I lost my class schedule!" Namine accidentally thought aloud. "How am I going to get to my next classes!"
The whole class's attention turned to her. Then they started laughing.
'Ah haha, freak. Now she's talking to herself!' she heard people whispering behind her. She tried ignoring them, but she flinched when the teacher spoke.
"Excuse me? You're the first student to make it on my bad list."
Me? No! Namine cried in her head.
"You are Mr. Hikari, am I right? Mind explaining why you are late?"
Huh? Hikari?... Namine slowly opened her eyes and looked towards the door.
"Yes, I am. Sorry I was late... I had to..." Everyone's attention that was on Namine, suddenly changed onto the boy that stood at the door. They laughed, but not the same way they laughed at her. It was more of a friendly laugh. They were actually waving and saying hi to him.
Her eyes slowly widened when she realized who he was.
He had blonde hair, his bangs falling over his eyes, but the rest of his hair were spiked. He had sky blue eyes. And of course, he wore the school uniform, but the way it suited him made him more attractive than he already was. Namine agreed to herself that maybe he is sort of popular because of his looks. But she shouldn't care, because she barely knew him.
His last name is Hikari? Namine thought it was a weird coincidence for it to be her middle name as well. But, That wasn't the point.The point was he was one of them 'popular boys' at school. The fact she isn't social at all, she found it really shameful. She doesn't even know the last names of popular people in her school.
"Hikari Roxas. That's detention after school. Now please, take a seat." the teacher ordered.
It was annoying how some girls would say 'Oh! Roxas sit by me!'.
Namine noticed how he ignored them, before finding a seat. For a second, was it just her? or did he take a glance at her before taking a seat at the empty desk? She just looked away, back to the teacher.
"Okay, continuing on with class..." the class booed. "I know it's the first day and all... But today, I will be pairing you up in two's."
Namine tried to keep a straight face. Working with some one else? No! I rather work alone!
"It's nothing big, though. All you need to do is get with the partner I assign you with, and tell each other about yourselves. Introduce yourselves." The teacher rolled his eyes as more students complained, "I wasn't going to make you guys introduce yourselves in front of the whole class, But if you complain more... I might change my mind."
The students immediately got to their partners they were assigned too.
"Who's left? Oh, Namine and Roxas."
Oh, dear God.
Namine took in a deep breath and looked over at Roxas, who just continued to drift off into his own world. He looked a little out there, but for some ODD reason, Namine thought it was a little bit cute. 'Just a little'.
He didn't move, so she decided to go over and sit by him.
"Um... Hikari-kun, right? H-Hey, I'm your partner."
"The names Roxas." He corrected. she felt a small heat against her cheeks when he finally turned and looked at her.
"Oh. Hey...You're my partner?" He paused, making her feel a little insecure as he continued to look at her.
W-Why's he looking at me for? She could feel her cheeks burning up.
"I'm really sorry about earlier."
Namine became puzzled. "Huh?"
"When I bumped into you." She froze up and remembered the incident earlier. He was the one she bumped into earlier? So she touched his hand!? For sure Namine knew she was really blushing.
"You forgot this." She noticed he was taking something out of his pack. "I tried returning it to you, but you ran off. So I went to look for you so I could give it back."
He tried to look for me? Namine went into realization. Please don't tell me that's why he was late?... Oh God, I feel really guilty now!
She heard a laugh. But this time, it felt like it wasn't a laugh at her. She looked at the laughing boy.
"Why are you laughing?" she asked, only to make sure he wasn't laughing at her.
"Because..." Namine patiently waited for his answer,
"When I went looking for you, I started to give up. But when I read your class schedule that's when I realized you were in my class." Namine tried not to laugh, even though she did find it a little funny.
"Well, here you go."
He held out the notebook for her to take it. Shyly, She took it from him.
"Thanks." she tried to find the courage to apologize, since she knew she had to be the reason why he came to class late.
"H-hey, I-I'm..."
"Namine, Right?"
"Y-yeah." She answered.
"Don't you hang out with Kairi?"
She had a small feeling he was gonna bring up Kairi for some reason. When she actually tried to socialize with someone, Kairi would be brought into it.
"...Yeah. She's my best friend." Kairi was her only friend. True friend.
"Oh, really? Cool. Well you can start first, introduce yourself."
"Well..." She thought for a moment. "Nothing much. I'm not the type of person who's out there. And I don't think there's anything special about me to tell... But, I do love to draw..."
"Draw? Like kind of things?" he asked.
Namine wondered. Why doesn't socializing not feel so bad with this guy? Well, Namine did feel a little shy talking to him, but... He really was outgoing. Wasn't he embarrassed being seen talking with her? Wouldn't that ruin his social status?
He was... cool.
There's another reason why he was Mr. Popular. The people he hung out with. He use to always hang out with a guy name Hayner. People in school knew they were best of friends. But over time Namine haven't seen them talk for a while. She wondered why, but it was none of her business. And plus, nowadays he hung out with another cute boy. He was out there and always happy. Namine use to have a crush on his friend in the past. But never found the courage to tell him how she felt.
So as time passed by, she naturally just got over him.
His name was...
Sora.
They were known as best friends, But she knew they were also cousins.
"Oh, Um... I just draw anything I find interesting."
"What you find Interesting, huh?" he took another glance at her, and she hated when he did that. He gave one of those haughty grins, "Then, Why don't you draw a picture of me?"
He was teasing..
"Um...What...?" Her heart began pounding at her chest. And she felt her cheeks burn to a multiple texture of pink. What was she? The queen of blushing?
"Relax, I was only joking."
She sighed in relief when she heard him say that. Okay, he's a little conceited, though.
"But, I do want to see your drawing. Why don't you draw me something. Can you?" Namine could tell he was trying to be nice. Not like he really wanted her to draw him something? Right?
She tried avoiding eye contact with him. "Yeah, sure..."
A few minutes of silence filled the air. And it was killing Namine. What's there to say? She's not a socializer. She tried to think of something to say.
"Um... I don't have anything else to say about myself. You can go."
"I'm bored." he lazily said.
Namine gave a lemon face. "That doesn't really tell me much about yourself."
"Nothing much about me, I'm just a regular boy who goes to school." He said, leaning back against the chair. She looked at him expectantly. He sighed.
"Okay, fine. Uhh..." he took a few seconds to think. "I'm Sixteen years old, Close to seventeen. I guess you can say skateboarding is my hobby. I do it like everyday of my life. I love music and hanging out with my friends, And..."
He paused for a second, and to Namine, she slightly noticed him smiling softly to himself.
The way he explained himself was normal. But when he hit the last sentence he seemed happy about it.
"I don't have a girlfriend."
For some reason, Namine choked. Pretty odd, bringing that up too. Namine thought. She didn't ask him to give out his personal data.
Anyways... Why would someone like him, be happy about being single?
"How about you?"
His voice pulled her out of her thoughts.
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
Why does he need to ask THAT?
"A-are you s-serious?" she stuttered.
"Yep." he carelessly said.
"N-no, of course not!" she tried to keep her voice down. "I wouldn't stand being with one! Boy's are such insensitive jerks."
"Oh? Really. That was a little harsh." he chuckled.
"I'm an insensitive ...jerk." He slowly said. Saying it as if he was thinking.
She felt guilt fill into her. "Sorry. I didn't mean-" The bell rung loudly, interrupting Namine. Everyone stampede out of the classroom.
"Well, See ya later." Roxas stood up from his seat, hand motioning bye, and walked off. He didn't even look back at her. Namine watched until he disappeared from her site.
"Roxas..." She said to herself, remembering his name.
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"Hey, Kairi. Do you think I'm mean?"
Her red headed friend turned to look at her, and she grinned.
"Sometimes you can be." She kidded.
"No, seriously... am I?" Namine said sternly. She wasn't in the mood. She was so deep into thoughts.
"Why do you even ask that? Of course your not mean." She tried to be more serious.
"Well... I.. accidentally got someone ...detention. And I...
Straight up said to a boys face.. that boys are insensitive jerks."
"What?" kairi didn't really believe what she was saying.
"I didn't really mean it. I guess it just came out. I mean... not all boys are."
"Who was this person?"
"No... no one. Never mind. It's not a big deal" Namine faked a laugh. She walked a little further in front of Kairi so she wouldn't bother her about it.
They decided not to talk about it.
Namine couldn't stop thinking, why does she feel bad for something that wasn't a big deal. Not like she could care what she did to hurt other peoples feelings. The feelings of people who hurt her own.
He hadn't done anything to hurt my feelings... yet. Namine thought of him
She just couldn't get the boy's face out her mind for some reason. And she was starting to get annoyed. She needed her space to think alone.
When they got to the cafeteria and got their lunch, Kairi picked out a empty table for Namine, since she wasn't so comfortable sitting around others.
"Well anyways, remember what we were talking about this morning?"
"Not really..."
"We were supposed to find you a boyfriend!" Kairi cheerfully pepped.
Namine spat out the juice she was drinking. "No!"
"Why not?"
"It's not easy just picking a boy you like out of nowhere! Besides, I bet the boy wouldn't even like me."
"You don't know that. You just have to pick the right guy."
"Then why don't you choose a guy yourself."
Kairi's eyes lit up. Namine was afraid she took that the wrong way.
"I meant for yourself! Not for me!" She head locked Kairi, stopping her before she approached the nearest boy.
"Nam, Come on, you're no fun." Kairi sighed and pouted.
"Sorry you feel that way." Namine said sarcastically.
"Well, what do you think of him?" Her red headed friend pointed to a boy who had light-brown hair, "Tidus?"
Namine sighed. Kairi never gives up.
"He's ok."
"Err... then how about him? Demyx!" then she pointed to another boy, a dirty-blonde haired boy, who always had a travel guitar with him.
"Meh, He's ok."
"Hayner!?" again, she pointed to another boy, with blonde hair pulled back in gel.
"He's... ok..."
"Riku?" Namine looked towards the next boy Kairi pointed towards. He had long-silver hair. Fine toned, and handsome features.
"No, He's your Ex." Namine refuse.
"So what! Come on Nam, just answer! Please? I won't get mad."
She sighed, "Fine! He's okay..."
Kairi pouted, "Are you gonna just keep saying 'He's ok.'?"
"Pretty much, yeah."
Kairi looked like she wanted to explode.
"Well, you can't say that HE'S 'just okay' Right?" Kairi turned, and this time pointed to the boy's standing by the food line.
"So-Sora?!" Namine's face steamed up red. She knew deep down... she didn't think he was just okay. He was cute, sweet, funny, and adorable...!
"No. I already knew you use to like him. But sorry, he's off of the list. I meant the guy next to him!"
"H-hey! Why is Sora off the list?" Namine asked, but returned to look when Kairi never stopped pointing towards Sora's direction. When she realized who she was pointing at, she suddenly choked.
"...Hikari-kun? No WAY!"
"Hmm? Roxas...? How do you know him?" Kairi asked.
"He's just... in my class. That's all."
"You don't usually notice who's in your class. Neither do you know the last names of people." her friend suspiciously said, "So why do you know him?"
Namine glared at her friend. "I'm not that dense to notice. I just usually don't care who's in my class."
"So... that means now you do care?"
"I do not!" Namine argued. Kairi just laughed at her friend, she could notice how red Namine was turning. She turned to look at Roxas.
"Meh, So you gave Roxas a 'No way!'." Kairi then looked back to her friend. "He's not just okay. And definitely isn't ugly. To me, he's cute. How can you say 'No way!'?"
Kairi was trying to make a point.
"Well, you think he's cute. You go for it." Namine looked the other way, an annoyed look on her face.
"Hmm, Jealous?"
"What? NO." Namine protested. "Why would you say that?"
"You like him." Teasing, in a cute way Kairi tilted her head, and smiled. She thought it was cute how Namine was getting all worked up over this conversation.
"No! I don't even know him..." Namine gave up arguing against her friend. She moved her food out of the way, and banged her head onto the desk.
"Heh... Namine, you shouldn't do that. You might break your glasses." Her friend didn't respond.
She patted Namine's back in comfort. "It's ok, it's a natural feeling."
At first, Kairi was just teasing her, but she noticed that she might have been pushing it.
"He's... the one..." Namine mumbled into the table. Her friend barely heard her.
"What did you say?" Kairi asked.
"He's the one..." Sitting up straight and facing her friend, Namine repeated.
"What do you mean 'He's the one.'? The one what?"
"He's... he's the one that got detention after school, because of me. And the one I told to.. that boys were..."
"Insensitive jerks?" Kairi finished.
"...Yeah."
"Then why don't you go say sorry. Maybe after that, you guys can become friends and get to know each other." Another glare was shot at Kairi.
"No. I mean, Fine. I'll just go and say sorry, so I don't have to feel so guilty about it."
Kairi stared at Namine, waiting impatiently.
"What?"
"Now."
"Now?" Namine stupidly asked.
"...No! Maybe when no ones around."
"But, I think you should do it now. Later on you might not get the chance. Besides, He's probably going to be surrounding by people no matter where he goes anyways."
Kairi did have a point. Where else could she find him? When and where is he ever "alone"? She had no choice. Now. Or never.
Namine took a deep breath and stood up from her seat. She looked to the direction where Roxas was. Why bother being nervous and scared? It's just apologizing to someone. Then she remembered. It was because she had to pass so many people just to get to him.
She shrugged the thought off.
"I'll go to Roxas now," she whispered loud enough for Kairi to hear. "I have nothing to lose anyways, right?"
Kairi gave her a smile, and nodded. Giving her a thumbs up as good luck. While Namine nervously stood to walk towards Roxas, she stopped in mid tracks when she heard Kairi say one more thing.
"Don't forget to get his number, too."
A fork was suddenly flown at Kairi's head.
Chapter hint: There is a reason behind why Hayner and Roxas don't hang out with each other anymore.
Author's note: I was never good with comedy. I usually feel comfortable writing romance. But sometimes I try. I'm such a Failure XD. Namine doesn't like Roxas... yet. I really don't like that, when people make couples go straight into fluff. No, I don't roll like that. I like building relationships first. And yeah. But let me warn you... I do go into extreme fluff later on in my stories. So beware...? Kidding. Ahem, Well anyways, That's just the end of the first chapter. And I hope you guys like it. I suck at starting out stories. But I promise it will get better! So...
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