Where is the Feeling?
McStizzie Spin-off/Sequel to "I Can Be" (not necessary to read "I Can Be" but to let you know, here Addex's relationship is already two mths in, and George never proposed, but Burke/Yang are engaged, so this would be AU. However, characters aside from Izzie&M ark won't be focused on much, only mentioned.)
Izzie overhears a conversation between Alex and Addison (set during Addex's last conversation in "I Can Be")
"Read Between the Lines"
She had been contemplating the situation for the past few days. He was always there for her, and he had looked past her looks to find a vulnerable woman, but one willing to fight the world. Therefore she decided to snap herself back and take a step forward. She had been in such a pissy state since her fiancee passed away and now was the time to remember and just move the hell on.
"I've tried
To free my soul...
And he would be the perfect guy to do that with.
To let go of all these haunting ghosts...
She kept putting off the conversation, but after waiting for George for twenty minutes in her car, she decided it was now or never. So she headed to the hospital with a mission. Make Alex the happiest damn man alive.
(And now your lips on mine)
For the first time still remains
She smiled at the prospect of finally having a real relationship with her fellow intern. She figured he would be in the lockers at this time, as it was too late to be working and she hadn't see him head out yet. She heard his voice from the resounding locker room and walked quicker.
"When I propose you better believe it'll be well thought out," Izzie heard Alex say a few steps before reaching the door of the lockers.
(I've been keeping sane)
For all my life
(It had to catch up to me)
Izzie smiled, wondering why the hell he was talking about proposals. She figured it was just a random conversation, but with who was the grand mystery. She stayed in the doorway so as to hear more of the conversation.
"Is that so Karev?" it was Addison. Why the hell was Alex talking to Dr. Montgomery? And about proposals too?
"Yeah, and my kids will know their father. Because I'll be there." Izzie knew Alex had a less than perfect relationship with his father, not that there was a relationship to begin with. But why the hell was he sharing with Addison of all people? Unless...
Ooh and now I want
'No.' Izzie told herself. She wasn't even going to think of that possibility.
There was a long silence and Izzie thought about entering the scene now. Just as she was about to step in their view Alex began to talk again.
"Did I scare you? Because that's what you get after scaring me," there was a teasing tone in Alex's voice that made her unsure again.
"Ha ha Karev. No you didn't scare me, you've actually brightened up my day a little." Since when had either of them stopped hating each other, and since when did Alex brighten Addison's days up? The evidence was becoming overwhelming for the young doctor.
To have your arms around me
After the damage done
"That's a given," she heard Alex again, "but why the question in the first place?"
What question?
"About wanting children?"
Oh. Oh...that's what Alex had meant about receiving a scare from Addison.
(I wanna feel your caress)
But you are not mine
"Yeah."
It hurts to see you havin your happily eva after
Izzie backed away from the door. She knew she wasn't jumping to conclusions. She started to remember all the times she caught Alex and Addison giving each other knowing glances. And how they spoke in soft voices. And how Alex avoided talk of Addison. Once he defended her all too suspiciously. But she had brushed it off. She, who was known for her intuitive nature, had ignored the obvious signs of a connection between Alex and Dr. Montgomery.
(It's because of me)
Izzie suddenly felt betrayed, and tears sprang to her eyes as she started to remember the last kiss she and Alex had shared. One she hadn't pulled away from quickly, and he went about the kiss carefully. She wasn't mad at him for the obvious reasons–she still had feelings for him, but her love for Denny had pushed that aside and instead she had told him that she wasn't ready yet. That they needed to be friends before anything else could possibly happen. She turned around and walked quickly in the direction of the exit to the hospital.
That you have gone off and found your peace
Her tears were on the edge–they hadn't fallen yet. But they did blur her vision. And in her haste of confusion she ran into what felt like a wall. It was a man however, but she was too lost in her thoughts to look up and see into whom she bumped into and simply offered a meek, "Sorry."
Long ago I coulda caressed your face
Once she got to the car she grabbed a tissue from the box (of which she had dozens since Denny passed away) and dabbed at her tears before they even thought about falling.
I coulda felt your skin next to mine
She drew a deep intake of breath as her phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Hey Izzie." It was George calling to apologize for not calling earlier. He had left with Callie. After he hung up she sighed in relief.
But tonight I tremble at the thought
She needed this drive to be left alone with her thoughts. It wasn't as though Alex had sworn to wait forever for her after all, at least not verbally. And she had no idea why the idea of Alex with Addison...
That you have found redemption in another..."
...or any other woman for that matter, unsettled her so much. She only expected herself to move on with him.
Italicized: "After the Damage" excerpt
©2005 Music4Wings
(Yea, it's my song so please stay off it–did that sound rude? Sorry, but seriously...)