Okay: who else is pissed at JD's "Friends"? I can't believe them! Turk, Elliot, and Carla didn't even bother to comfort or help JD. and TURK? oh Turk! You are SO on my shit list! grr... and Dr. Cox?? where the F. is his "tough love" speech for poor, suffering, miserable, pathetic JD?!? I mean seriously! He's so stressed he actually snapped at the Janitor! What hell is with you people?!?! ...And so, because of this, I'm writing a JD moping session i think he should have... would this be considered JDA?
PS: Dr Cox has magical hair...
-Prologue: Coming to Terms-
It's hard to believe… that my best friend- the man I have seen as my brother for 9 years of my life- would betray me, and then lie about it for so long.
Him and Stacy: it wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't lied about it for so long. Almost 7 years now he's lied to me… don't get me wrong, I was pretty sure about it, it's just that… well, I don't know… I think I had convinced myself Turk was some kind of hero… I guess…
I convinced my self Turk wouldn't do that to me- wouldn't hurt me like that- not this brother. But… it was all frighteningly similar to my junior year in high school, where my wonderful older brother slept with my girlfriend… twice. But… I wasn't angry… not at Dan at least… I was angry… at myself… for not being angry with them… for forgiving them…
I took her to prom the next year.
She left with my brother.
But I still wasn't made at them… and now… I'm not mad at Turk… and I'm not mad at Stacy either… mostly because that'd pointless since she's dead (and my mom taught me to never speak ill of the dead… then again, she also taught me to share…). But… I'm angry at myself… again…
So… this hasn't exactly been my best year, has it? First my girlfriend gets prego before we even have 'relations', then after I actually started to look forward to It, It-
… I'm pathetic…
Should I already have gotten over It? Should I have moved on already? How does this stuff work? …On the outside… well, people think I'm okay… that I'm dealing with this… that I'll get through it. But on the inside- well, I just hope they're right…
…I… didn't love Kim. So… that didn't really hurt much… and I hadn't gotten to know… It, so I… didn't necessarily "miss" It… and I'm not depressed about It… I'm just… disappointed I guess…
But… it was stressful… and obviously, I don't deal well with stress (I still pass out when I poo…). And well… with my new "Independent Streak", I can't go to my friends for help… that'd be wrong… to put more stress on them, just because I'm in trouble… then again… I always thought that was what friends were for… to help you… then… maybe I don't have friends.
My hero worship… Turk. Turk has always been kind of a hero, or a role model… I always wished… I could be as… cool, and…self-confidant as him. …at least, I DID… but now? I don't know…
With this knowledge-the fact that someone I trusted with my life, and my secrets, and everything I hold inside myself- has betrayed me… it makes me reconsider things…
If I could be so wrong about Turk… one of my all time hero's…
Could I be wrong about others…?
So, what do ya think? ...hmm... i want to put another part up, but i'm not sure... maybe i should leave it like this?... well, for now, i'll leave it at 'complete', and if i get enough reviews asking me to continue, i will...
until then: thank you for reading, and i don't own scrubs or the characters :P