Blood Lust
Secrets and Lies

Blood, I'm dreaming of blood, currently all my fantasies revolve around it. I've now begun to lie to my sister and the man…boy I love. And my worse secret of all isn't that I'm the Queen of the Vampire but it's who I've taken in my arms, my bed, and his blood. I should feel shame because he isn't my beloved but the thing is, I'm not. God, I hate myself right now…

Note: I do not own Power Rangers; I'm just borrowing them.
Timeline: One year after "Mystic Fate", which means the PR gang are about 21.
Pairing: Vida/Chip (eventually)
Rating: M higher (Minor language, violence, adult situations)

Weeks are passing and unfortunately I'm still dead…undead…whatever. I'm slowly coming to full strength and power thanks to my new Blood Bitch, Xander. Fortunately no one knows that I'm drinking from him except for Daggeron and also another good note Madison and Chip to do suspect me yet. I hate lying to my sister and to the man I love. Yes I said it, I love him. I do but unfortunately I'm having complicated feelings for Xander…I love him but in a different way. He makes me feel alive and he trusts me to hold his life in my hands. To have trust like that with someone is one of the strongest feelings you could have with someone. I never thought he of all people would lay his life in my hands and do it at my beck and call but that goes to show your friends are the ones who would die for you.

I'm at my table in the Porium rockin' out to "Sunday Bloody Sunday" but it's the Daughtry cover, which is chilling because he sounds so close to Bono…hmmm I can tell everyone in here with my eyes closed, which is just me, Xan, Maddy and Phinas. Chip has been out of town for a family thing and Toby is out on a lunch date with Niki that will last all day. Speaking of lunch…my thirst begins to nag me and since only one cup makes its stop I realized I've never completely quenched the thirst and I've never needed to. I look to Xander and catch his eye and upon concentrating I send out one thought, one emotion to him that he picks up loud and clear. He smiles and nods towards the door, he moves slowly as he nods to the door, to bear his neck to me…what a tease. I smirk and he calls to Maddy and Phineas.

"Me and Vee are gonna get some lunch, I trust the store will be once piece when I return?" he asks, Maddy rolls her eyes and nods, waving us out with a dismissive gesture. With that we go, we cross the street to the park, which is the biggest cut through for businesses along the street. We ducked until the shade and as Xander pressed his hand to the tree trunk the underbrush became thicker, and soon unless you ran into the bush you wouldn't be able to find us.

He pulls me to him into a hug; over the weeks he learned that I loved listening to the steady beat of his heart and most mornings that would be how I woke and how I went to sleep. In his arms, listening to his heart beat until the sun came up and completely knocked me on my ass. Though I would only wake up hours later and be rested as I ever was. As I reach up on my tiptoes, inches towards his neck, I feel his heart pound. He's anxious as always but he wants it, I still find it slightly disturbing, that he has openly offered me his body and blood after the first bite. But I find comfort that he hasn't turned me away and he holds me. Even if I'm cold as death and I fall lifeless in his arms I know when I wake up he'll be beside me.

I tenderly bite into his neck and he stiffens but lets out a soft, shuddering moan. He leans into me and I drink slowly, his hands skim my skin of my bare arms and then he wraps his arms around my waist, he's so warm…Since we have a while before we have to get back to work I take my time, I only take a few sips and my fangs retract as soon and the taste of blood leaves my mouth. He leans down with glazed eyes and kisses me; he moves one hand to the back of my neck to press me closer. I kiss him back and begin to lower him to the soft grass. I hate this…but I want it so badly. I never realized how much an attraction I had to Xander until he kissed me. I love Chip, I do and I can say that because I feel it in my nearly unbeating heart but my body is betraying me when I'm left alone with Xander. He knows how much I want to be with Chip but thanks to Daggeron he knows I'll kill Chip if I ever fed from him. Even if he doesn't show it Xander adores Chip like a brother, and doesn't want me to hurt him though he knows it's barely under my control.

I lose track of time as we roll around in the grass, half wrestling, half making out. Which is usual for us, kisses are exchanged between pins and choke holds. Our laughter quiets as people pass and his watch beeps, signaling our lunch break is over. We get up and straighten our clothes. As we head back he suddenly takes my hand and turns me to him. I'm actually surprised when he takes my chin in his hands and smiles at me.

"Come over tonight Vee, I have something planned for you," he says, I'm intrigued.

"Should I be afraid?" I ask, he smirks and gives me a kiss on the forehead, then lets me go completely and walks away.

"HEY!" I shout and trot to catch up with him.

"You're the Queen of the Vampires, you have nothing to fear…except an uprising or some weird shit like that. I have a question…why isn't LeeLee the Queen? She was next in line," he points out, that is a good freakin' question. I forgot that LeeLee was going to be the Queen…

"Tell you what, tell Sis I got sick and I'm heading home to sleep it off and I'll go talk to Niki then Daggeron incase she doesn't know what the hell happened," Xander smirks as we stop to say our parting words. "Tell Maddy I ate some bad…fish or something!"

"That's rich considering you don't eat!" he shouts as he walks away first.

"Bite me!" I shout back and his laughter rings in my ears.

"You do enough of that for the both of us!" he always has to have the last word! Stupid cute jerk!

I head out to Niki and Leelee's condo and hope that she's home or at least LeeLee, which is something I though I would never think. Using my Vampiric speed I get there within 5 minutes considering how its 20 minutes at a normal pace. As I knock on the door LeeLee answers, looking sleepy and annoyed.

"What do you want?" she asks but doesn't seem too surprised I'm knocking at her door.

"I need to talk to your Mom is she around?" LeeLee rolls her eyes and nods, then turns and screams into the room for her mother. I could kill LeeLee right now, that wasn't good for my poor ears.

"What is it LeeLee?" Niki asks as she approaches, she seems so happy now that she's human and no longer a bat creature.

"Vida wants to talk to which is weird so I'm sticking around," LeeLee informs us both.

"Nosey!" I snap and Niki smiles at me with a knowing grin.

"Should I bow before Royalty?" she asks, I shake my head and LeeLee looks confused.

"Mom? What's going on?"

"Vida is the new Queen of the Vampires. I assume you came to ask why it's you and not my Daughter?" I nod and she smiles, she is a very pretty human. "Its because I am no longer a Vampire. If I hadn't been changed to human LeeLee would have inherited the throne but because I lost it she did as well. LeeLee's reign was controlled by blood ties, I became human the tie was broken and no one in our family is no longer eligible to become Queen. But I can tell from the light flush in your cheeks I see you've feed recently. Chip I'm sure."

"Nope. I've dreamed of killing him so I will not feed from him incase it comes true. Xander is my blood bitch, I like that better than sheep," LeeLee snorts back some laughter and Niki's eyes twinkle with laughter too.

"Dear, I'm sure you've realized that real Vampires do not need that much blood and I'm sure you've never taken more than a cup to a cup and a half. The dreams are new to me because I only had one and it told me I would give birth to a daughter and I've long since forgotten that in the dream I knew she wouldn't become the Queen." She muses, now I smile slightly.

"That's because you've had more important things to do…try to kill me and my friends every other minute, now, date my boss. I'm sure your life is so hectic…so you're telling me that I will not kill Chip even if I feed from him?" I ask, she nods and if I could sigh right now I would. I could hug her I'm so relieved and she can see that in my face.

"That's the funny thing about the dead dreaming, they seem prophetic but can you count on your brain telling you proper information when technically speaking you're a walking corpse? Your heart rarely beats, you hardly ever breathe, you only thirst, the only real functioning organ is your brain. Think about it this way, when humans do not dream they are crazy…you are the Queen of the Vampires, you have certain aspects that no other Vampire would. You will never need to have more than two cup to be completely sated, you can walk in the sun and even produce a child from your body. Also one thing I can see you have that I didn't is God's love. You're wearing the cross, something I couldn't do, not once. Don't distance yourself from the man you love because you dream of his death. I swear to you as being the one in power before you that you will not kill him. I must go though, Toby is waiting. Good luck Vida," Niki tells me, her words bring comfort and I also do not want to believe that she knows I will not kill Chip. She cannot know that but she is right I can't push him away. I give LeeLee a small smile before heading out of their condo and I slowly walk to Xander's. He won't be there for another hour or so but it will give me time to think, to sleep. He gave me a key way back when he knew he could trust me when we were 12 and I've had it ever since.

His place is a single apartment it's small but neat until you hit the bedroom. He lives alone but thankfully he's always had the income from his parents to live on his own. They moved back to New Zealand when he was 16 and he's been living alone since. For holidays and celebrations he comes to our home or Chip's. I let myself in and head straight for his bed; its unmade as always and his clothes are piled high in the corner. Flopping down I know that I have things I need to decide and I must decide tonight but sleep calls to me as the sun still hangs in the sky and I let myself shut down and sleep. I'll have plenty of time when I wake.

When I do wake Xander is laying next to me, watching me. I scream like a 2 year old and nearly bolt off the bed. I hate it when people do that to me, Xander laughs. I climb back up and he looks at me and pulls me close. He nuzzles my neck and presses a warm kiss to my skin. I shiver in delight and he kisses up my neck, to my lips. We share a soft tender kiss the he breaks the kiss and gets off the bed. He smiles and gently tugs me from the bed and I follow. He takes me to the kitchen and tells me to close my eyes, which I do but I hear everything he's doing. But I begin to listen to the traffic outside so I don't ruin his surprise.

"Open your eyes Vee," he says in a singsong voice and on the table is an array that would include everything on a clear liquid diet you'd get in the hospital. But it smells so good, I haven't even tried to drink any liquids since I had a thirst for blood and since I've had blood its all I wanted. But then I realized something on the table was hot chocolate and I realized how much I missed it. I immediately pounced towards the table and grabbed the hot chocolate, I drank it down in one gulp it burns but since I immediately healed I concentrated on the taste of chocolate instead of scorching pain. Xander is watching me, beaming; I set down the still warm cup and jump into his arms.

"How'd you know that I wouldn't get sick?" I knew I couldn't eat solid foods since I tried it once when I first began to die and regretted it which is why it never bothered me that I hadn't been eating for months it had hurt that bad.

"Well…" he begins as he readjusts me in his arms and carries me back to the bedroom. "I talked to Niki, Daggeron and consulted the Xenotome, and I also found out that you could get pregnant still even if you're…well…dead but it's rare. Daggeron told me how you broke down when you learned you couldn't have any children…well when you didn't think you could." He informs me as I lays me down and settles down on top of me. He stares down into my eyes and then says one more thing. "I didn't know you wanted to have a kid."

"To be honest, I didn't think I did until I realized that I never would…but I see you have something planned, now tell me what it is," he cannot resist when we make direct eye contact and his answer is direct and honest.

"I want to tell you I love you. I'm completely head over heels in love with you and I cannot figure when it happened. After you bit me the first time the feelings came and stayed, they didn't leave and I didn't force them away. I don't know if this is your undead charm or not but I never thought I would love you,"

"HEY!" I snap but dissolve into laughter, I reach up and touch his face with my cool hands and he shivers with the contact.

"You know what I mean Vee, but we have a problem. You're in love with Chip. From the moment I met you I knew that. You two have something that we could never have and I know this."

"Damn…you are completely right. I think Xander the Great is going to live up to his title eventually. See, you know my problem already. I love Chip, I've never loved anyone the way I love him. I loved him before I knew what love meant, ever since we met…when we were seven. But what you don't get is that I do love you…but not like that. I do have feelings and we've acted on them…you're not just my blood bitch-" he laughs at this and I slap his ass, he yips and laughs again. "but my friend, someone who I do love, but not like Chip…"

"Chip is someone you can settle down with, to have and to hold that old saying. With us, its more physical, I mean we do feel the love but we tend to like the physical aspect more. Could you see us living together and having a functional relationship where we solve problems with talking and have long heart to hearts during the afterglow? Could you love me like that?" he asks, I lean up and kiss him, hugging him tight.

"I want to…" I admit and he smiles, God I love his smile…if the next words out of his mouth are 'Hi' or 'my name is' I'll smack him again.

"You shouldn't want to, you should automatically, like second nature…like how you love Chip. When he returns in the morning you need to tell him the truth Vee, he's not going to be happy about it. You've been lying to not only him but your sister and we've been fooling around behind his back."

"I know! I'm so afraid…what he if he hates me, what if he doesn't want anything to do with me?! I can't lose him, not after all these years..." he goes to open his mouth to say something but we both know there's nothing he can say that will ease my fear of losing Chip. Maddy will be mad but she'll understand why I've done this and besides, we're blood, she'll get over it. "Can you just hold me ok?"

"Of course, all you have to do is ask," he tells me and he lays his weight on top of me and holds me close, his warm skin heats my body and the gentle rhyme of his heart entices me to drink. He stiffens as my teeth break the skin of his shoulder, then shudders with the first sip, I take my time and slowly drink, concentrating on pleasure, even though he is aroused he doesn't act, he simply obeys my request and holds me. I release his shoulder and my fangs retract. He snuggles down on top of me and sighs.

"Good night Xander," I whisper and feel the sun begin to rise.

"Good morning Vee," he corrects and laughs, burying his face in my chest as he begins to fall asleep.

"Shut up you pervvvvvvvvvv…" as the sun rises, I black out, falling into my death like slumber, taking comfort that no matter what happens Xander will be there for me.

The sunlight lights the room when I open my eyes, and I am alone. I hear the shower running and people are moving around outside. With a groan I roll over and look to see I'm alone. The shower sounds so good, I climb from the bed and head into the bathroom where Xander's humming in the shower. Shoving him over I climb in, seeking the warmth of his body, of the water. I sigh in relief of warmth and he pulls me against him, his chest is firm on my back and as usual he is happy to see me.

"Morning…" he murmurs in my ear, and grinds his cock against my lower back.

"Morning, you seem frisky this morning," I observe, he laughs and his hands skim down the front my body, slowly. I moan and arch into his touch. As much as I want to confess to Chip, I crave Xander's touch, since I'm too weak in my waking state I easily give in and moan as Xander's hands find their place between my legs. His experienced fingers find my clit and begin to rub. This draws a gasp from my lips, he chuckles deeply in ear and nibbles on my earlobe.

"Like that Vee? Want more?" he asks, his accent getting thicker with his arousal.

"Yes…" I admit, my voice shaking, a mix of self-loathing and need.

"Tell me what you want Vida," he says, moving his hand from my clit to the insides of my thighs, the sensation tickles my skin.

"You…I want you…inside me, please, I need to feel alive again…" I tell him, I hated feeling dead all the time and I know for a fact one of the most life-confirming things is having sex, making love, and right now, I needed to have Xander. I needed to have him inside me.

"All you have to do is ask…" he tells me and gently turns me around and we kiss, he wraps his arms around me and picks me up, he presses my back against the wall, as he holds my thighs open I feel him begin to penetrate, slowly sliding inside me. Oh God…he's huge, and long, perfect for his height and size. His eyes are clenched shut, concentrating.

"Xander! Get inside me…please…now!" I beg and he gives up trying to be slow and nice like he wants, obeying my command he thrusts up and slams all the way inside me. I gasp and a moan escapes my lips, and he moves me into a position so as he thrusts he hits my clit, and I feel so alive. I cannot believe that I could feel like this again. My heart is actually beating, I'm breathing, and I'm alive! "Oh…God…Xander!" that's about all I could manage to say.

"I know Vee…" he hisses, he wraps his hand around the back of my neck and pulls me up and kisses me hard. Squirming around I break the kiss as I feel my orgasm coming for me like a freight train. I lean down and bit into his neck and as I begin to come, and as I drink, I'm thrown into orgasm and stop drinking and moan into his skin. He thrusts twice more, hard and fast and he comes inside me. His cry echoes in my ears and as my orgasm fades, my vitals slow down to what they were, which was pretty much nothing. Xander is panting and still holding my body up, his eyes lock with mine and we kiss once more. Then I realize that we're not alone and jerk my head away to see Chip staring at use through the glass shower door.

"Oh shit…" I whisper and in the blink of an eye Chip leave; I push Xander away and scramble out of the shower. Finding Xander's shirt and my pants from yesterday and chase after him. Luckily I catch up with him outside the building, I reach for his arm and he pulls it away from me, which hurts me more than a slap would have. "Chip!" I try to reach for him again and this time he whirls on his heel and looks at me. I've never seen him this angry before.

"How could you do that Vee?" his voice cracks and his eyes instantly water. "Is that why you've been pushing me away? Because you're sleeping with Xander? Do you think I'd not notice that suddenly you've been pushing me away? You're my best friend, and I wanted you to be more! I finally had the courage to tell you that for the past 14 years I've been in love with you!" his voice cracks again and anger and betrayal illuminate his face.

"Chip…I, This is so hard to explain…I…you won't believe me…but Chip I was going to tell you today that I love you…" I tell him and he lets out a harsh laugh.

"And fucking Xander is how you do that? Nice, just great," he begins to walk away when Xander burst out the door and reaches for him.

"Chip, wait! You don't understand!" he attempts to grab Chip like I had but gets a punch in the jaw for his troubles.

"I'm not stupid! What's not to understand?! You're fucking the only woman I've ever loved! You took her from me before I even had a chance to tell her how I felt! You knew I loved Vida! How could you do this to me Xander! I though you were my friend!" the pain in Chip's voice is almost too much to bear.

"Chip! I do love you! I don't want Xander!" Chip laughs and we're now getting weird looks as we follow Chip, Xander and I are soaked and so are our clothes and I'm starting to regret not grabbing my underwear…

"You have a great way to show it!" he snaps, I reach for his wrist and turn him to me, wow we traveled fast…we're steps from the Porium but Xander does live close enough…

"Listen to me! Chip, I do have feelings for Xander! But we both know I can't love him the way I love you! Chip; please…listen to me ok…" that's when a hand taps me on the shoulder. I whirl around to see two people I've not seen before and one who looks familiar. The girl who looks familiar is being held back by some weird dude and the one who tapped me is an even weirder looking dude. "WHAT?! Can you not see I'm in the middle of something! Who in the hell are you!?" I demand, I'm not in the mood for this.

"Are you Vida Rocca? The new Queen of the Vampires?"

"What's it to you? I'm busy!" I snap, and then I realize he's holding something in his hand and in a blur that's even too fast for me to track he smashes it against my skin and I'm on fire. "What the hell?" I ask, it doesn't hurt that much but Chip and Xander stop fighting and begin to panic. "This isn't going to kill me…" I tell the moron but then I see too late that he's holding a stake in his other hand.

"This will," he tells me and plunges the stake into my heart. There is screaming all around me and everything goes black as I finally die.