Disclaimer: I do not own Suikoden in any way…also just to make sure this is going to have spoilers for suikoden 5…I couldn't tell you why it wouldn't but now you can't get mad at me

A/N: this is gonna be my first Suikoden fan fict I am planning it to be a long one. I will try to update new chapters as quickly as I can but it might take a while because it's the end of the year and all, you know what its like.

Just a few things to note this takes place as if you got the bad/good ending whichever one where Lyon dies. The prince's name is Freyjadour (Frey for short) and the HQ or the castle is Ceras Lake is just Ceras castle…simple no. All right I think were ready to go.

"Prince I-I'm s-sorry," Lyon barely said before passing away.

"No, Lyon you can't leave me….Lyon…Lyon!" screamed the prince tears dripping down his face. "Please no…anything but this, why….why her, she was the only one I had left." The prince buried his head into her chest and cried. "Why damn it why."

The Prince sat up quickly he was in his bed at Ceras Castle. He lied back down and tried to fluff his pillow a bit, it was wet. He had been crying in his sleep again. But then again who would blame him he kept seeing that same moment over and over. Having the same nightmare over and over…the nightmare of Lyon's final moments with him

It had been about 8 days now since the incident was over. He didn't really expect to get over it by now; then again he never expected to get over it but having the same nightmare every night. He couldn't stand it. Through out the entire war he always liked to sleep for it brought him somewhere happy. Somewhere away from the sadness and violence that was his life. But now sleeping was the worst part of his life.

He didn't want to lie there any more and think about it so he got up to look out his window. It was a beautiful day out and yet this made the prince sadder. The lake was sparking with blue water, and the grass and trees on the shore made it look even better. All the beautiful scenery he was taking in just reminded him of Lyon's beautiful face. He could feel the tears starting to come again. He fought them back but he couldn't and they just came pouring out once again.

He couldn't go on like this he just couldn't keep living this life of his. First his parents die, then a war were many lives were lost that he couldn't help but feel responsible for, and now he lost Lyon too he just couldn't take it any more.

He opened the large windows and jumped up onto the windowsill. He looked down surely this would be enough to kill him he thought. He would mostly likely hit another part of the castle and if he didn't he would drown himself if reached the lake.

"Well this is goodbye," the prince said with tears still streaming down his face. He was about to jump when a sudden picture of his parents popped into his head. This caused him to hesitate. He thought what would others say, what about the news of a prince committing suicide. What about his friends that he had left.

"They should understand," he told himself as he prepared himself to jump, then the door suddenly opened and Miakis walked in.

"Prince breakfast is ready please come eat some please," she said walking through the door but as soon as she actually entered the room and saw the prince she screamed, "What are you doing!"

Frey didn't say anything he just bent his knees and was about to leave his sad life. As he began to jump Miakis grabbed his arm and yanked him back with a loud crash they both fell on the floor.

"What do you think your doing prince!"

"Please understand Miakis, let me go!"

"No I can't…..I won't!" They began wresting on the floor the prince trying to break free of Miakis.

"Come to your senses prince!"

"I am, this is the best way to end the sadness!"

They continued to wrestle on the floor until Miakis knowing that there was no other way punched Frey hard in the chest. This knocked the wind out of him as he lied on the ground gasping for breath Miakis jumped on top of him and grabbed his arms and attempt to pin him down. He still fought this time instead of punching him Miakis slapped him across the face extremely hard.

Frey just froze. It wasn't the slap that stopped him it was the tears from Miakis falling onto his face. Even though prince wasn't trying to fight any more Miakis still pinned him down just for extra precaution.

"Prince please…please you can't to that," Miakis said with her voice dropping low almost into a whisper. The tears kept coming from Miakis; they were dripping all the way down her to chin. Some still falling right onto Frey's face. She just couldn't stop them, she just couldn't imagine what would have happened if she came a few seconds later.

"Prince talk to me please," pleased Miakis, but the prince just turned his head away. "Prince please let me help you. I know you think there is no other way but there is you have to trust me."

Frey said nothing. What was there to say? He couldn't even look at her it was just too sad. He kept his face turned away starting to feel tears coming down his face. He tried to fight them back for whatever dignity he had left. Dignity? He thought I just tried to kill myself I don't have any dignity.

"Frey!" screamed Miakis at this Frey turned his head and to face Miakis

"What do you want me to say!" he screamed back with tears strolling down his face.

"Just talk to me explain to me why--," Miakis was caught off by the Frey shouting back at her

"WHY, WHY, why do you think I did it," Frey couldn't control himself any more. "Because my life is hell and you know it, tell me Miakis where are my parents."

"th…th.."

"There dead….there dead. Alright now tell me where Sialeeds is!"

"she…is…"

"Dead oh my God her too, oh and after she betrayed me, well don't worry I still have Lyon tell me Miakis where is she!"

Miakis could stand it anymore and slapped the prince in the face again.

"I miss them all too, maybe not as much as you because you were closer with them all but don't talk like I don't care! In fact since I care about them so much I decided to save the person they all loved the most from killing himself!"

Frey once again turned his head away. Tears still coming from his face.

This time pleading Miakis said, "Look prince please just listen to me. You can get through this I know its tough but you can make it through."

Frey turned his head back to face her again and was just able to choke out a few words between all his tears. "How...how can I."

"By looking into the future." Answered Miakis while trying to wipe away her tears "look to the future, I'm not saying forget the past but keep moving forward. Move on and think about the happier parts of life."

"I can't it's do hard the pain in my heart jus-just makes me hurt so much how can I ever get over this everyone I loved is dead, everyone that's ever cared about me is gone."

Shaking her head Miakis answered, "No not everyone who cares about you is gone, think about everyone in this castle prince I mean there all here for you. Also you can't forget about the princess."

Hearing this Frey's eyes opened wide, he completely forgot about her. If he continued what he was doing early what would have Lyn done.

"Also prince I care about you…I don't know what I would do if you were gone."

Miakis then laid her head down and Frey's chest and she began crying again. Frey finally realized what he was about to do. He couldn't believe that he was about to end his life. He then realized that this was not just hard on him but on Miakis too. She saved him, he wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her. He put his arms around her trying to comfort her in some way.

"Thank you Miakis, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be here right now."

Miakis looked up at Frey and then put her head back in his chest and embraced him tightly. He was finally back to himself well not his normal self, but he wasn't suicidal anymore, which was a major improvement.

Of course they were still lying on the ground just embracing each other and since Miakis was in such a rush to grab the prince off the windowsill she left the door open. And who should have walked by but Kyle.

Kyle seeing them and noticing that only Frey was looking at him got a huge smile on his face and gave a big thumbs up to the prince and then slowly closed the door trying to give them privacy. Frey could only shake his head.

Miakis just realizing she was embracing the prince on the floor quickly stood up.

"Umm…well now that that's over for about some breakfast, prince."

"Sure, I think I need some right now."

They both stood up and began walking out the door.

"Oh and Miakis?"

"Yes prince?"

"Please don't tell anyone this yet, there will be a time but not so soon."

"Of course your majesty. Whatever is your command I shall obey."

Frey was glad to see Miakis back to her normal self and it was strange because it seemed as though those past few minutes didn't even happen. Frey looking around at the other people in his castle just doing their daily routine.

They continued to walk down the stairs to where they would eat their Breakfast. He walked down these stairs a lot but something was different. He just didn't know what yet. As he looked behind him he saw Miakis following him like a good bodyguard should.

Miakis noticed he was looking at her and just a little giggle and a wink. This caused Frey to smile no matter what mood he was in Miakis always managed to put him in a good one. Frey decided to try and follow Miakis' advice and look towards the future.