My first songfic and first newsies fic. It's a slash, so if you don't like please don't read.

I looked away

Then I look back at you

You try to say

The things that you can't undo

"Don't just walk away from me." Racetrack hissed as he grabbed the other boy's arm. He understood why they couldn't be together, but he couldn't understand why they had to stop seeing each other.

Spot slowly turned towards his lover. He couldn't look him in the face, because he knew the second that he saw those eyes he wouldn't be able to hold back the tears that were already trying to fight their way out.

If I had my way

I'd never get over you

Today's the day

I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall

Make it through it all

"Race, I'm sorry." Spot took Race's hands in his own and noticed how they were shaking. "You know we can't do this. If anyone found out…"

"No one will!" Race track snapped back to the shorter boy. "We've hidden it this long. Please," Race choked on his own tears. "Don't leave me," he pleaded.

Spot let go of Race's hands. "I can't do this. I'm sorry." Spot kissed him softly before turning away.

And I don't want to fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it

'Cuz I'm in love with you

Race slid down the wall of the alleyway, not caring that anyone could walk by at any moment. The rain started sprinkling down on the boy. Cradling his head in his hands, he started crying. He had never been hurt as much as he was now, and he definitely never cried. He never had a reason to cry before. The rain steadily grew harder, just as if it was crying right along with the broken boy.

He cried until he had no more tears left. He hoisted himself off the ground and started walking, to where, he didn't know. After a few steps he stopped and leaned up against the wall. He couldn't describe all that he was feeling, but he knew that if he took one more step he would fall down from some type of inward pain, something that made his stomach do flips. As he sank down to his knees he started sobbing again and he started punching the wall. He punched the wall until his knuckles were bleeding, but it didn't stun the pain that he already felt.

You're the only one

I'd be with 'til the end

When I come undone

You bring me back again

Back under the stars

Back into your arms

He stood up again and rested his back on the wall. He saw a blur rush towards him and, before he could react, he felt soft lips close in on his own. He pulled the boy closer, all the while still kissing him.

Spot stopped kissing Race so that he could hold him in his arms. He hated himself for what he had done to the boy, who was now bawling on his shirt. Suddenly, Race pushed him away. He stood only a few inches from him, but he could sense the confusion that was playing with his heart.

"Why did you come back?" His faltering voice asked a question, but his eyes seemed to ask something totally different.

Wanna know who you are

Wanna know where to start

I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel

Wanna know what is real

I wanna know everything, everything

"I love you. Nothing can change that." And that was all Race needed to know before attacking Spot with scattered kisses.

I'm in love with you

'Cuz I'm in love with you