DID I LOVE HIM?
The pain she feels is unbearable.
'I thought he had the same feelings towards me. I thought he sees me more than a friend. But I was SO wrong. Fairy tales are just in books they don't happen in real life. But why do I believe them anyway? I'm such a fool. I believed in fairy tales cause I thought that he was the prince that I've been looking for…the knight in shining armor who will protect me…the light in the darkness that will guide me to true happiness…and the cure for all my wounds. But the reality is…it was all just my dream…that will never come true.' Hyuuga Hinata thought sadly, wiping away her tears with her long sleeves.
It's been a week ago after she saw Naruto proposing to Sakura.
'He has eyes only for Sakura. Why he just can't learn to love me the way I love him? Is it because I'm too weak, pathetic, and ugly? Of course…who would choose me over Sakura? She's beautiful, smart, and…worthy. But I can't blame Naruto about that…it was my entire fault…why I feel miserable right now.'
She was now again crying buckets of tears. She hated it that when she cries, she can't stop herself. She hated when she would hide at the back of her cousin, Neji, when ever she's put into trouble. She hated every moment she can't fight or even stand for herself.
'I'm a failure.' Hinata thought sadly. 'I want to change myself, I want to change the way I am. I don't want to be a burden anymore. I want to stand for myself.' She thought while looking at the calendar hanging on the wall in front of her. 'They'll meet the new Hinata at the start of the school year.' She wipes the last bits of tears from her eyes and got up from her bed to wash her face.
'I have a month to go before the classes will start.'