Episode 20.
CHAPTER 1
Angela V/O - Things are never as straightforward as we'd like them to be. I nearly died of happiness when I thought it was Jordan who had written me that letter, now all of that happiness has turned to shit because I now know those words were Brians and not his.
The one person in the world I wanted to tell me these things hadn't, instead they came from my geeky, annoying neighbour Krakow...
Looking into Brians eyes Angela saw the pain and embarrassment Brian was feeling at that precise moment when Jordan appeared..
Jordan -"Hey Brain"
Brian- "Um hi..I mean , hey..."
Jordan looked puzzled as to how close Angela and Brian were standing to each other, he took Angelas sleeve with urgency and tried to pull her away from the threat that could ruin his happiness with Angela.
Jordan-" Hey Angela, c'mon, lets go.
Angela-"Um what? oh..yea..sure ok"
Angela turned away from Brian and walked towards Jordans car. She kept her head bowed, not knowing what to think or feel.She took one last look at Brian as Jordan opened his car door for her. She slid into the passenger seat and reached over to unlock Jordans side.
As she lifted the lock she caught Jordans piercing blue eyes looking at her , questioning almost what was going through her head. She smiled at Jordan and tucked her hair behind her ear.
Jordan V/O - She really doesn't know like how innocent she is. She's like, beautiful. Not in a model way no, but pure. I can't fuck this up. I wont fuck this up.
I gotta tell her about the letter, I gotta somehow show her in my own words just how much she means to me. Fuck, where do I take her, how do I tell her? Why can't I be like him? Why can't I just give her what she wants, a real fucking conversation. Fuck..
Jordan- " So, your mum said it's like ok. For you to go out with me tonight. She's cool, she gave me milk and talked with me. I think she likes me"
Angela-" smiling at Jordan "How do you do it"
Jordan- confused" Do what"
Angela-"Like make all women fall for you, you like charm them or something" Laughs Jordan- "The only person that I care about charming is you Angela. Just you"
Angela thought back to the letter, she looked at the confidence Jordan oozed and resented it a little that it all seemed like easy for him somehow. How he could breeze through things and that stuff was meaningless to him.
Angela-" So I was talking to Brian earlier on"
Jordan- clears his throat and barely answers.."yea"
Angela- "yea, it was um..interesting to say the least"
Jordan-"Oh..look Angela..I like , can't pretend any-more ok. Don't interrupt me, just listen will you. This is kinda hard for me you know..I didn't write you that letter. Brain did not me. I like, don't do things like that. I want to but I can't , I'm not good with words.It's not like I don't feel those things cos I do. I just cant fucking write em down like he does. You were so happy Angela,and you like wouldn't let me explain. I didn't want to pretend but I didn't want you to leave me again.
I didn't realise before..That I like, needed you. Not needed you, fuck , I mean..shit..I'm like in love with you or something"
Angela couldn't believe Jordan had said so much. He never talked this much except when it came to his music and band. He was actually having a real conversation with her.
She listened with patience and in awe. Jordan said the three words she thought she'd never hear escape his lips.
Angela-"Jordan, I um..I'm glad you owned up before I could tell you I knew that you didn't write it. Yes those words Brian wrote were beautiful and I so wanted them to be from you.
But what you have just said has come from you, not him. It's all you. It didn't need to be perfect, It just had to be you and it was. Thank you.
She kisses him quickly and then proceeded to look at the floor of the car, shyness taking over.
Jordan-" lets go to the loft, I wanna show you something"
Angela-" what is it"
Jordan- "If i told you it wouldn't be a surprise now would it?"
They both smile and Jordan starts his engine. They head for the loft...