A//N: This story contains spoilers from later on in the series if you do not want to know information past volume 14 please do not read this story. Thank you.
It was raining. Fai could hear it from where he lay on his bed, head against his pillow, hands behind his head, listening. It wasn't loud or hard, in a way the sound made Fai tired, made him want to fall asleep…
Fai D. Flourite in fact wanted to do just that, fall asleep. He wanted to forget everything that had happened recently…but he could not. His hand drifted to where his left eye should be…but instead, as usual nowadays, he only found an eye patch…
Everything had been going so well until then…until the seal on Syaoran had broken and he had his eye gouged out…the pain then had been enormous…but he had felt worse yet not too long later…the blood from Kamui and Kurogane…
Fai's head turned when he heard the door open, "Kurogane…" the magician's voice sounded a bit surprised although really Fai wasn't at all surprised, he knew Kurogane would show up sooner or later…
"You haven't drank today." Fai was plenty aware of this and turned his head back to the ceiling, still able to hear the pitter pat of rain on the roof.
"I know." Fai closed his eye, placing both his hands behind his head once more, unlike in pervious worlds, since a little before they had arrived in the world of Infinity Fai did not smile very often. It had actually become a rare sight, and unfortunately, this was not one of those sights.
"So…" Kurogane paused for a moment, "Come drink." Fai frowned now, he could smell blood, Kurogane's blood, dripping slowly to the floor from his freshly cut wrist. Fai wanted to complain…he hadn't asked for this! He hadn't asked for Kamui to turn him into a vampire! He didn't want to drink Kurogane's blood everyday to live. He had asked to die…he had wanted to die.
But Kurogane had refused him his wish…
"Come on, do you want it to drip wastefully to the floor?" Fai sighed, sitting up and shaking his head no. No he didn't want to waste Kurogane's blood.
In earlier worlds Fai would have joked about something like that, making fun of it, and calling Kurogane a silly name, like Kuro-tan, or Kuro-rin…no more…he could no longer call Kurogane that, he had taken it far too far, long before he had noticed it. He had done something he never should have. He had grown close to his companions, not just Kurogane, but Syaoran, Sakura, and even Mokona. But he had grown fonder of Kurogane more than anyone else…
He should have never done that. He was so stupid!
The mage slowly rose to his feet, walking slowly, but gracefully across the floor, at least that had not changed, even with only half his eyesight he was still very graceful, like water almost. "Don't move." he told Kurogane a soft voice.
"I'm not going to." Fai of course knew this, Kurogane never moved. They had said the exact same words to each other when Fai had first woken up after being changed…
Stopping about a foot from the ninja he reached out his hand, taking Kurogane's wrist and slowly bringing it up to his lips, keeping eye contact all the while he did this…once he felt Kurogane's wrist touch his lips he let his eye close and sucked on the wound, drawing more blood from his companions body into his mouth.
To him it was bittersweet. The taste of blood to a vampire is of course like water to a dehydrated human…it's like the kiss of life and nothing in this or any other world could possibly taste better. On the other hand it was still bitter tasting, he did not want to take blood from Kurogane or anyone else. He hadn't wanted this at all, he had wanted to die, let his magic die with him, he had not been strong enough to fight with Kurogane at the time and now they both paid for it.
It was strange though, so many rumors about vampires, they couldn't walk in the sun, hated crosses, all these things were untrue, he did not even need to take blood from Kurogane's neck, it could be from anywhere, and he did not have the fangs needed to pierce Kurogane's neck in the first place…
Another thing, it had to be Kurogane, it couldn't be anyone else for Fai, Fai had to take his blood, Kurogane had willing paid the price of becoming Fai's "E." Fai's one and only prey as a vampire…
"Enough." Fai said pulling away from Kurogane's wrist, "No more." his chest heaved once as he ran the back of his hand over his mouth, he didn't want to taste anymore of the blood in his mouth right now…
Kurogane looked at his wrist as Fai went to go back to his bed, "That's barely half of what you took last time you drank."
This was true. Fai had been distracted then, people had been watching, and he had been trying to figure out who they were. "It's enough." Fai assured the man as he lay down on the bed again, leaning his head against the headboard looking out the window as it still continued to rain. It was slowing down now, soon it would surely stop.
The blond rested his hands lightly on his stomach, "Really, I'm fine."
"Liar," Kurogane's voice growled out at Fai. "If you need more blood come take it, or I'll personally kill you myself." he left the room, leaving Fai to himself once again.
Why was life so cruel? Fai couldn't help but wonder. Nothing in life turned out to be in the least bit okay. His childhood had been so awful…Ashura then had turned out to be sour as well, even though things had been going very well for a while…then he had temporarily fixed that problem…and even that solution was coming apart. Soon Ashura would surely come after him here, after he'd lost his eye and become a vampire.
After everything else that had happened he would be separated from both of the Syaorans and would never have the chance to help them, he would be separated from his princess Sakura. Most of all he would be separated from Kurogane, not only did he need Kurogane to survive currently he was very fond of him…
The rain became louder again and the pitter patter of the droplets on the roof made Fai's mind clear as sleep began to take him, this…all of this…it was so tiring…
A//N: I originally planned for this to be a oneshot. But now I'm not sure if I should just leave it here or continue it, if you would please review this chapter and tell me your opinion that would be wonderful. Thank you for reading.