Angela Chase was now 27, she had everything going for her, great job and a wonderful fiance. Since she left Three Rivers she had never looked back. The town held bad memories for her, namely Jordan Catalano. They had dated for three years until she had fallen pregnant and miscarried.

She couldn't cope with her own feelings as well as Jordan's so she ended their relationship, and moved to New York.

She met Matt at a party and they had since been inseparable, he reminded her of Jordan and it was her way of keeping the man she'd always loved with her, through Matt's mannerisms he was the closest thing she had to the man she had let go all those years ago..

Angela and Matt were sitting at the kitchen table sipping coffee and reading the morning newspapers. She glanced over at him and smiled to herself, he was safe, he didn't give her the insane feelings of butterflies and adoration that she had when she was with Jordan. She liked feeling in control and the security he provided.

"Babe, I've got to go to LA for a couple of weeks on business. I have to leave tomorrow morning, wanna come with me?" he looked at her expectantly.

"Oh I don't know Matt, I promised Rayanne and Rickie that we'd spend a few days together, it's been so long since we caught up. Go without me, what's two weeks away from each other when we have the rest of our lives together right?" She leant over to him and kissed him briefly on the lips.

Matt smiled at her and put his arms around her waist, pulling her close to him. "Miss Chase, I still can't believe you've agreed to be my wife..I feel like I've won the lottery or something"

Angela smiled and gently prized his arms way from her waist."I'm the lucky one Matt" she smiled. Inside she didn't feel lucky, she liked Matt and did genuinely care for him, but he'd always be second prize to her, the first prize was Jordan and always would be but she had fucked that one up good and proper.

Just then they were interrupted by a loud tapping at the door. Angela broke away from Matt's gaze and answered the door.
Rayanne was stood in her doorway, red faced and smiling from ear to ear.

"Angelica!" she cried as she flung her arms round Angela's neck, knocking her off balance slightly.

"Rayanne? What are you doing here? Weren't we supposed to meet up at the weekend?!" she asked surprised but pleased to see her.

"Change of plans Angela, have you checked your post yet? It's so EXCITING!" Angela shook her head, knowing that she wouldn't need to check what mail she had as Rayanne would no doubt tell her what it would be..

"There's like a 10 year reunion at Liberty High Ang, we've sooooo got to go!" She gushed.

Angela felt her insides turn over, a feeling of fear and anticipation swept over her. "I don't know Rayanne, I mean..It's back to Three Rivers, It's kind of not what I had in mind of doing this weekend y'know?"
Rayanne gave a huge sigh and tugged at Angelas arm. "Look, what happened happened, it was 8 years ago honey, people change and life moves on..You have to go, Rickies up for it and Tino and I definitely are..Say you'll come...Please?"

Angela looked at her friend doing her best acting to date, she laughed at Rayanne's eye fluttering and pleading expression.

"Rayanne Graff, you should be an actress" She smiled.

Rayanne spun around and bowed, looking up at Angela smiling. "Tino tells me that all the time, I told him I would have been an oscar nominated hollywood starlett by now, if it hadn't been for marrying him!"

Angela laughed and gently slapped Rayanne's shoulder " Yea, bad Tino for straightening you out and making an honest woman of you, shame on that man" she scolded jokingly.

Matt was stood at the sink washing up. "Hey Rayanne, grab yourself a coffee and take a seat, you make me nervous jumping around like that" he put away the plates and looked to Angela.

"I'm going to get the post baby, seriously you should go, what harm can seeing old friends do? A reunion will be fun, mine was a riot" He kissed her on the forehead and headed out to get the post.

Angela slumped into a chair and rubbed her eyes. She looked over at Rayanne who had decided to not only have a coffee but also make herself a bagel.

"Rayanne, what if he's there?" She said , worried.

Rayanne studied her face and shrugged "So what? I'm sure he's probably married by now, that or, in prison" she joked.

Angela nodded in agreement, she knew Jordan wouldn't be in prison, but a man that beautiful would definitely have been snagged by another woman. She felt her stomach knot at the thought of Jordan being married to another woman, a woman that wasn't her.

"You're right Rayanne, I'm being silly. Count me in..I'll go. It's about time I saw my parents again anyway" she said quietly.

Matt had come back in and he handed Angela three letters. "Sweetheart I gotta go to work, I'll see you tonight. You couldn't do me a favour and pack for me could you?"

Angela nodded and gave him a hug. "No problems, if I didn't pack you any underwear you'd forget anyway" she laughed.

Matt gave Angela a lingering kiss. "See you later baby" he smiled. "Love you"

Angela smiled shyly and whispered " Yea, see you later"

After Matt had left, Rayanne sat down next to her and just stared.

"Rayanne, what? what is it?" she asked, annoyed by the scrutinizing look Rayanne was giving her.

"You never said you loved him back" She said bluntly.

Angela shrugged and replied "Yea I did, you just never heard me"

Rayanne shook her head slowly and replied" NO, you didn't. You couldn't tell him you love him because you don't love him"

Angela kept her head bowed so as to not look into Rayanne's eyes. She began opening the invitation to the Reunion.

Glancing over the print she began to get butterflies.

Dear Angela,

As you know, It's been 10 years since you graduated from Liberty High and we would be honoured if the students from 1994 would once again, roam the coridoor's of our school for one night.

Drinks and food will be awaiting you , as well as old students from your classes.

The evening begins at 7.00pm , Saturday 21st July.

We would be grateful if you could attend.

Sincerely

Liberty High.

Angela re-read the invite over and over again. There was a loud thump on the kitchen table, making her jump. She looked up and saw Rayanne glaring at her.

"What Rayanne??? What do you want me to say?" she said exasperated.

Rayanne relaxed and looked her squarely in the eyes. " Why are you going to marry a man you're not in love with huh?"

Angela felt her bottom lip tremble and a lump rise in her throat. "Because he's safe Rayanne. he's a good man and he's safe"

Rayanne stood up and pulled Angela into a big hug. "If you marry Matt, you're making a bigger mistake than running away from Jordan all those years ago sweetie, if you're heart isn't in this you'll regret it" she whispered.

Angela was sobbing and pushed Rayanne away from her " Just drop it Rayanne. Please" She then turned and ran to the bathroom.

Later on that evening , Angela was packing Matt's suitcase for his business trip. As she folded his shirts, she thought back to the time when she packed Jordan's clothes for him. He had needed to go to LA for a show his band were playing. She remembered that day well, she had barely packed his suitcase when Jordan had stopped her by tickling her, she was laughing so hard, that they forgot all about packing and ended up wrapped in each others arms on his bed, she remembered his scent, touch and taste. She had remembered the feel of him inside her and the love they had for each other.

She was lost in her thoughts, drowned in memories of the past.

"ANGELA" shouted Matt. "GRAB ME A TOWEL WILL YA?". Angela snapped out of her thoughts and reached for a towel.

She hadn't stopped thinking about Jordan, ever. When Matt made love to her, she pretended he was Jordan. She could fantasise because she didn't think she'd ever be seeing him again.

Now the reality had hit her that he may well be at this reunion, she would be seeing him again after seven long years.

She felt the familiar butterflies once again rise in her and smiled sadly.